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Familiar
Letters,

Written By
Mrs. Sarah Osborn,
and
Miss Susanna Anthony,
Late of Newport,
Rhode-Island
.

Published According to Act of Congress.

Newport, (R.I.) Printed at the Office of
The Newport Mercury.
18071807.

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The following Letters are not arranged
under the form of a regular Correspondence;
for they were not written in that order.
Many intervening letters are lost.—Many
of these, were without date, and the dates of
others were so obliterated, as to be unintelligible.
—It therefore appeared inexpedient, to
date any of them; they were, however, written,
between the years 17401740, and 17791779.

They were written in the confidence of
friendship, without a suspicion of their ever
appearing in public.—Many more might
have been added, had not the price been
stated so low, in the Proposals.

They expect not the attention of the
Learned, nor the notice of the Gay.—If
they obtain the approbation of the Pious;
and, in any degree, promote the Redeemer’s
Interest; the end of their publication will
be answered.

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Familiar Letters.

Letter I.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S A.S.A.

My very dear and lovely friend,

As I cannot pay you a personal visit,
I must beg your acceptance of a
short one from my pen, just to tell you, my
heart is with you, and also to call upon you,
to praise God, with, and for me. God hath
graciously appeared for me this day, in his
house, and at his table; notwithstanding all
my unbelieving fears! Oh, my friend, trust,
love, and live upon, this good, and faithful
God; and pray for me, that I may constantly
do so too. I long to know how you do, in
this trying time. I hope your precious foul,
is swallowed up in the God of ordinances;
while, for wise and holy ends, you are at
present detained from God’s house! The
Lord preserve you from any murmurings, and
enable you patiently to submit to his blessed
will, at all times. If you are able, let me
hear from you, by a line or two, which will
be very grateful to,

Your sincere friend,

S. Osborn.

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Letter II.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear friend,

Yours, I last night received, which was
like cold water to a thirsty soul! It did refresh
my soul, to think, that I, unworthy I,
was in your thoughts, and on your heart,
when you was taken near your God! I trust
it has raised my love to my Redeemer, that
he was pleased to manifest himself to you.

Oh, my friend, surely I love and honor my
glorious Saviour, for any displays of his power
and grace, though they be not directly
made to me; yet if Jesus be glorified in his
saints, I rejoice, and thereby am made a partaker
of their joys! Oh, let my infinitely
glorious God be magnified and exalted, and
I am delighted, yea even ravished! It is
well, infinitely well, though I was denied the
happy privilege of meeting God in his house,
and at his table.—My spirits sunk within me,
while, in thought, I viewed the table spread,
the guests invited, and a happy few permitted
to lean on the breast of Jesus, while at supper,
and hear him saying unto them, “Eat, O
friends, drink, yea drink abundantly, O beloved;”
but I, shut out, not suffered to taste
the children’s bread! My soul melted into A3r 5
heaviness! I had prayed, waited, and hoped,
there to meet my God; and the denial was,
and still is, affecting and afflicting, but I forbear!
God is just and holy, I am sinful, and
unworthy! Yet I rejoice for you, and more,
that the divine perfections are gloriously displayed!
But, O my dear, were you thus
highly-favoured, by the King of kings! the
eternal Jehovah! Did this pure, this holy
Being, permit you to draw near to him, and
even take you near him! Oh, why? Lord,
what is man, that thou art mindful of him!
Verily the contemplation, and enjoyment of
God, is the highest dignity of human caprci­ ty! Oh, here, my thoughts are lost, in
wonder, love, and adoration! What, man,
fallen, guilty man, to be thus highly-favoured!
To be raised to know, and enjoy, this
infinite, self-sufficient God—a Being, who is
indeed his own infinite delight and happiness,
the portion, rest, and delight, of finite
creatures! O infinite grace, and love! And
did He, who is the high and lofty one, who
inhabiteth eternity, condescend to manifest
himself to you! Shall not this, fix your
heart forever, in admiration, love and gratitude,
to God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit,
who all engaged in this work for you!
O, my dear friend, be grateful, be thankful,
be humble, be holy, and joyful. And though A3v 6
you may not stay on the mount, to build tabernacles,
yet take Jesus down with you! Oh, now
take care, you do not lose sight of him, whom
you lately saw by faith, and saw him infinitely
lovely, and desirable; for so, I am sure, he
appeared to you if you saw him at all; either
what he is in himself, or what he is to
you.

Oh, my friend, I am jealous over you, I
trust with a godly jealousy, lest you let
Satan, the world, or your own heart, cause
him to withdraw! God is infinitely good
and gracious, but he is Lord of lords,
and a glorious Sovereign! He will not
always bear with the affronts and indignities,
which we offer him. Though he bear
much, and long, yet, abused love and mercies,
will let us see, it is an evil and bitter
thing, to depart from the living God! But
why do I thus write? Can my friend forget,
or slight, that loving-kindness which is better
than life: Can she slight a Saviour’s love
and grace? Can she ever revolt any more!
Can she be so unthankful, as practically to
say, his frowns are as good as his smiles?
Can she ever forget her late fears, and hear
the Prince of Peace speak pardon; or, Can
she forget her own solemn vows, and penitent
reflections! Will she forswear herself and retract, A4r 7
surely no! But I must have done, I
am quite spent, yet am,

Yours, affectionate,

S. Anthony.

Letter III.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S,

I have been once, and again, refreshed
by your dear letter; and desire that we may,
by assisting grace, endeavour to keep up this
way of conversing together; the Lord make
it effectual, for the quickening and reviving
our souls.

I have of late, been under distressing
fears, that I shall, one day, be left so to myself,
as to fall foully, if not finally, into sin,
to the great dishonor of my profession, and
wounding of my own soul! I thought, I had
reason to fear it, from my slothfulness, in secret
duties where I believe, generally, apostacy
begins. But behold, while I said, my
“foot slippeth”, the mercy of my God held
me up! And instead of leaving me to revolt
more and more, he hath returned, in his
quickening, sanctifying, and comforting influences,
and constrains me to adore him, as
a faithful God, who, I now believe, will never A4v 8
leave nor forsake me. Now I can set up my
ebenezer again, for hitherto the Lord hath
helped me. I am of your opinion, that it is
a stratagem of Satan, which keeps us pondering
so much on the vileness of our own hearts,
as to hinder us from delighting, and rejoicing,
in our glorious Mediator! Few, I believe,
have been more overcome in this way, than I.
But through the goodness of my God, I am
more at liberty! And it is thus my dear, are
we beset with snares on every side? Are the
righteous scarcely saved? and are we, among
the happy few, who have entered the strait
gate, and are walking the narrow way, to life
eternal! What obligations are we under, to
love, praise, admire, and adore! Oh, let us
not leave all this, to do in eternity; but let
us now in time, begin that blest employment,
which in eternity shall never end!

When I began to write, my heart was filled
as with new wine, and wanted vent; but
my pain, obliges me to break off abruptly.—
Let us be looking forward, to the great Captain
of our salvation; who will, I trust, bring
us at last, to the enjoyment of himself, which
the utmost we can desire.

Yours, in the bonds of friendship,

S. Osborn.

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Letter IV.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S.

Through the hurry and confusion of my
mind yesterday, I did not seem to take proper
notice of that which so nearly concerned, and
touched your heart so tenderly; yet it has
ever since, lain near my heart.

And does it appear to you my dear, that Providence
is now as it were, calling you to resign
your most dear enjoyments; to give up your
beloved Isaac, your beloved retirement? Does
reason tell you, that your way is so hedged up,
it is impossible for you to enjoy it under such
circumstances as Providence is about to place
you in? Now endeavour to exercise an Abraham’s
faith, and hope, against hope! You
will surely find the Ram, caught in the thicket:
God will provide himself an acceptable
sacrifice. Your covenant God, who hath so
often caused light to spring out of darkness
to you, will not leave you destitute now, of
the enjoyment of himself. No, no. He will
find out ways and means, to bring you nigh
to himself, and will refresh your precious soul!
Remember, with God, all things are possible!
Renewedly cast all your care on him, who A5v 10
careth for you; yea cast this, with all your
heavy burdens on him, he will surely sustain
you. Look on your dear and lovely Saviour,
whom you have received with all his benefits;
your glorious King, who continually
sways his royal sceptre, and orders all things
for his own glory, and your good. Look on
your dear indulgent Father, through him,
and think, whether he will deny you any
thing you ask, in the name of Christ, when
consistent with his glory, surely he will not,
therefore leave all with him, by venturesome
believing, and all shall be well. He will never
leave nor forsake you. And I believe,
you may depend upon it, that when God cannot
find out ways to bring you near to him
here, he will soon take you to himself, and
satisfy your longing soul with full fruition.—
Time fails, accept this with dear love, from

Yours, in the strongest bonds,

S. O.

Letter V.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear, and constant friend,

When the bridegroom is absent, shall
not the children of the bride-chamber fast,
as well as pray? A passage in your prayer, A6r 11
on Friday, viz. that we were now called to
this, struck me; and has continued with me.
I once could practice this, without going from
home; but it is otherwise with me now, for
want of room.

It has been suggested to my mind, to
propose one thing to you; but the fear of
straitening you, hath prevented me! I will,
however, just mention it. I know you will
be as forward as I, if your circumstances
will admit; it is this, To set apart one whole
day, for solemn fasting and prayer, and let the
whole society join; I wish you to consider of
it until Wednesday evening, that if you approve,
and Providence permit, it may be on
Friday next, and thus begin the New-Year.
I do not desire to crowd upon you, but do
not let Satan cast difficulties in your way, as
he does in mine; for who knoweth, but our
God will be with us, and yet cause us to glorify
him, and thus avenge us of our adversaries!
Oh, may we seek the Lord, who hideth
himself from the house of Jacob! And if we
gain no more, than an encouragement to
hold on seeking him, we shall surely find our
account in it; for he will come, and will not
tarry. Oh, it is a time of great discouragement;
and who can tell, whether we are
come to the darkest time of the night? I fear A6v 12
not, nor do we know how long the night will
last! I know the day will come; but faith
and patience will be necessary, to wait for
the dawn!

Yours, in the firmest bonds,

S.A.

Observation. Blessed be thou of the Lord,
and blessed be thine advice! This was
before the beginning of our solemn Fast, 1762-01-01January
1, 1762.
S.O.

Letter VI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear friend,

In the midst of a multiplicity of business
and company, I take my pen to write you a
hasty line. I heard, by a line from Miss M.
that you had been called to give up your dear
little Susan;A grand child of Mr. Osborne’s, who was named for
Miss S.A.
and while I tenderly felt for
you, and sympathized with you, I fixed upon
it, that the Lord had need of it. I concluded
it did, and would call up your attention; and
perhaps the Lord had more important, honorable
service, for an old disciple, in this time
of peculiar trial, when all his faithful servants B1r 13
were required to repair, or strengthen the
hands of the repairers, of the house of our
God!They were repairing the Meeting-House, after the war.
While the dear babe lived, I viewed
it as growing up in the church of God, and
much more than supplying our places: But
when dead, I thought, perhaps this young
plant, would have drawn too much sap from
that spreading, yet aged oak, and so eclipse
her beauty, mar her importance, and weaken
at least, her shady influence. Here I had
pleasure in viewing this Providence, as an
expression of the high value and importance
in which the dear Redeemer held the services
and rewards of his dear child. May the all-
sufficient Jehovah be present, and encircle
you in his everlasting arms of mercy!

I am, with most sensible affection,
Your constant friend,

S.A.

Letter VII.

From the same, to Mrs. O. written in Boston.

My dear friend,

I wrote you some time ago, in answer to B B1v 14
yours; if you have received it, I trust you
will bless God for, and with me.

I am often conversing with you in my mind,
about home, our everlasting home I mean, that
dear world above, where Jesus, our Emmanuel
dwells, and where I hope we shall be ere long.
Come, Lord Jesus, O, come quickly! Amidst
all the satisfaction and pleasures which I find
here, I wish and long, for the blessed vision,
and fruition of my God! Oh, what can earth
afford my thirsty soul, equal to this? Verily
nothing! I would contemn all its imaginary
delights: It is God, the infinite, self-sufficient,
all-sufficient God alone, can make me
happy! I will have no other good, as my
chosen portion! I trust I have made my
choice, a choice never to be re-called! Methinks
I have no home, but in God; and here
I will take up my residence, my safe repose
forever! Say my friend, may I not? Methinks
I hear your sweet elevated reply, while
faith renews its acting, and love is ravished
with the divine perfections, “These are the
very sentiments of my soul!”
Surely there
is nothing worth our living for, but the glorifying
and enjoying of God. O then, what
transport and delight, will heaven afford.—
There, the happy souls are put beyond all
possibility of dishonouring God! Yea they B2r 15
are actually put into the highest capacity of
glorifying him! What pure, what sacred,
sincere, and undissembled praises, will they
sing, among the innumerable multitude;
while they ascribe glory and honor to God,
and to the Lamb! There, the thirsty soul
shall be satisfied in the full enjoyment of him,
who is in his own infinite delight. But what
can a mortal, finite worm say of this, only
that it is the enjoyment of infinite good!—
Here I lose all conception, and believe and
admire, what I cannot fathom! It is infinite,
and cannot be fully reached by a finite mind;
yet blessed be God, we, even we, in this distant
land; may contemplate and adore those
transporting glories! Oh, do not our hearts
burn within us with gratitude and love, while
we view by faith the divine perfections; and
believe this God, to be our reconciled friend
and Father, our covenant God; and everlasting
portion! O, what unspeakable pleasure
and delight, flow from the thought, of the near
union which subsists between Christ and believers!
And are we thus united to the
blessed God? Let us walk worthy our divine
privilege, behave as members of his body.
—What light and life, what peace of conscience,
joy in the Holy Ghost, increase of
grace, perseverance to the end with eternal
glory, result from this union! And shall B2v 16
we not improve these glorious advantages to
glorify God, and exalt the dear Redeemer, in
the eyes of the world? Oh how did he dignify
our nature when he took it on himself,
and how doth he ennoble and advance it,
when he raises us to the dignity of sons and
daughters of God! Are we, degenerate fallen
creatures, poor despicable worms, united
to the great Jehovah, to the pure and holy
God; and dare we affront him with our sins!
Will he bear with such ingratitude? Will he
put up with such indignities? I am ready
to wonder, that I have not been made a monument
of abused mercy long ago! Where
are those grateful returns, which mighty love,
inflamed by infinite benignity, once vowed
to make? I rejoice in every bond which
binds my soul to God, and yet break through
all to forsake him! The devout language of
my soul often is, “Thy favour is better than
life;”
O let me please Thee, and all is well.
Look Thou upon me with approbation, and
I possess all the happiness my craving soul
can wish! And yet much of my practice,
contradicts this language! I cry to God in
a devout pang and tell him, it is heaven to
be near, and like him, that I long for greater
conformity to him, that this is all the heaven
I hope for; and yet so sluggish are my pursuits,
that I seem to deny my own assertions! B3r 17
And yet my friend, I hope for divine acceptance!
I trust the just Judge is my friend,
the pure and holy Redeemer my Advocate,
the blessed Spirit of all grace my Sanctifier!
But how can I thus hope? Because according
to the word of God, I trust I am interested in
the righteousnessrighteousness of Jesus Christ, and that
which I do, I allow not. I trust from my inmost
soul, I hate this inconsistency; and it is
through the dear Mediator alone, that I have
confidence toward God. Here, here, is the
life of all my hope and joy! Oh, my divine
refuge, how amiable dost thou now appear!
How miserable were I without thee! How happy
am I in thee, thou, who knowest thine own
infinite perfections, can tell! I can but see
through a glass darkly, but I hope ere long to
know more, and love more! Till then, my
friend, let us by faith, take a view of Emmanuel’s
land, survey that blest abode; but let us
most admire and contemplate those perfections
of his nature, which shall have a transforming
influence on our souls, for blessed be God, conformity
and nearness are inseparable! To be
near him, and not like him, would yield no
pleasure; and to be like him, and not near to
him, would be torment inexpressible! But I
may not add, may Jesus delight your precious
soul. Pray for me, who am, I trust, yours, in B3v 18
the bonds of an everlasting relation; members
of one body, Jesus the head.

S.A.

Letter VIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Madam,

I should rejoice to see you, but am so ill,
that I am not able. I am going out of town,
to stay till Saturday. I have been quite ill
these two days, not able to sit up. May God
prosper and bless you in your journey. O,
that we may ere long meet again in safety
and comfort here, or in a better world, where
neither sin nor sickness shall ever interrupt,
the devout aspiration of all our brighter powers!
O happy hour! O sweet release! How
welcome would it be, to my thirsty soul, to
see the God I love! The God in whom my
life is hid! Yea my all, both for time, and
for eternity, and yours too! But I must
conclude, begging you to pray for me, as I
shall for you.

May God preserve you!
Your faithful,

S.A.

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Letter IX.

From the same, to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

I have but a moment, yet because I
would not seem to forget you, I will employ
it in writing. But what shall I say? My
soul is burdened with this clog of earth! Sin
and Satan disturb my rest. Oh, for the
dawn of that everlasting Sabbath, when all
my soul shall rest in God, its eternal centre!
It is this, bears me through this wilderness
of briers and thorns; the hope of rest, sweetens
the cup; it is then, my friend, I shall
learn war no more! Then I shall rest forever,
under the great Captain of my Salvation;
my God, and my Christ, the endless delight
of my soul! There, no gloomy fears or
horrid suggestion shall ever interrupt my rest!
’Till then, I shall never be happy! Yet, I
know, my God is infinitely wise in all these
things, and therefore I will glory and triumph
in him! Let him order all things for me, as
he seeth best; for He is my wisdom as well
as righteousness. I have put over all my
concerns into his hands, and now I long to
rest satisfied with all his dispensations! Oh,
let not any of his ways be grievous, to a soul
that is interested in his everlasting Covenant-
love, who hath such a Redeemer as Jesus! B4v 20
Is Christ my rest and portion, then can I say
I am distressed and poor? No! let me rather
make out after him, and receive his love!
—But I may not add.

Yours,

S.A.

Letter X.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

Dear S.

Since our conversation last week, I
seem to see more than ever, wherein I am
wanting to myself; and it is, in not improving
the fullness, sufficiency, and perfection
of righteousness, there is in the Lord Jesus!
—It is indeed for want of this, that I so often
faint, and sit down discouraged, ready with
Jonah to sink, and wish to die, when corruptions
press hard upon me; and though with
Sampson, when his hair was cut, I begin to
shake myself a little; yet finding no strength
of my own, I forget where help is to be
found; and so suffer these Philistians to put
out both the eyes of my faith, and make their
own sport of me! Whereas, could I but
learn and practice, the art of living on Christ
by faith, I might snap their bands asunder
as burnt tow, and triumph in the midst of B5r 21
them! They could not bind me, no, not
with strong cords! O pray for me, that I
may do so. May the Lord go on to strengthen
you. I rejoice in his goodness to you,
that he doth not suffer you to be overwhelmed
by those, who seek your ruin! Oh, blessed
be God, he is stronger than the strong
man armed, and will not suffer you to be
tempted, above what you are able, and will
with the temptation, make a way for your
escape! The Lord be with you.

Your real friend,

S.O.

Letter XI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear, dear Madam,

Do not be discouraged; it is but the
trial of your faith and patience. I thought
you knew, it was through much tribulation,
many and various trials, that our graces must
be brightened and kept alive, until perfected
in eternal life! O consider, you have but
the very lot, which infinite wisdom and eternal
counsel hath assigned you. Had less difficulty,
and fewer trials been best for you, you
should have had them. I am persuaded, we B5v 22
need nothing but grace, to make every condition,
and circumstance in life, comfortable
and happy. I truly sympathize with you.
I pray God to appear for you.

Yours, most affectionately,

S.A.

Letter XII.

From the same, to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

I long to see you, but Providence seems
to forbid, and I desire to submit! O, that
in the end it may be found, that I have indeed
been refining, and that the fruit of all
has been the taking away of sin. I was taken
last evening very sick, I fainted, and lay near
an hour, but just able to let my friends know
that I was alive; and I am so weak to-day,
that I can keep off my bed but a few minutes
at a time. Nature seems almost worn out, and
had I not experienced such scenes before,
from which I should have been relieved, I should
think nature would soon sink under it; but
as it is, I am rather led to think, it is sent
for a trial, and not to release me from this
prison of clay; but however, I desire to kiss B6r 23
the rod, and embrace the God that doth chastise!
Oh, my dear, when my God comes,
as it were himself, with the rod, I am so
taken up with his admirable perfections, that
I lose sight of the rod, in his presence! He
hath scattered the clouds which seemed to
make the rod lay heavy, and while he will
show me his covenant-love and faithfulness,
all is well! And alas, it is owing to the
weakness of my faith, that I do not always
esteem it so. Yet I must say, it is through
Christ strengthening me, that I can bear, or
do any thing!

Your unworthy friend,

S.A.

P.S. I hoped your hands would have
grown better, by the means you were using,
yet I see no signs of it; but I forbear.

Letter XIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear friend,

This letter will inform you, that you
made a mistake the other day, when you B6v 24
thought my hands were grown worse;Mrs. Osborn had then a bad humour in her hands, which
prevented her writing.
no,
it was my heart, or you would doubtless
have had a few lines, by some means before
now. However, since God in his Providence
is depriving us of opportunities to converse
by word of mouth, I desire we may do it by
writing, and converse in this way, as often
as your weakness, and my opportunities will
admit. I find that your growing weaker,
while I am thus confined, is grievous to me,
lest I should be deprived of being with you to
the last! But I desire to submit to the will of
a Sovereign God!—Oh, may you constantly
enjoy his smiles now, even now, when your
outward man is decaying day by day! May
your inward man be renewed more and more.
May you be conformed to the image of the
blessed God; and, as a Sampson indeed, glorify
God more at your death, than ever yet
you have done in all your life! Oh, my dear,
I find a selfish principle in me, which pleads
hard for your life; nevertheless, I cannot be
so cruel to you, as to wish your stay.—But I
know not what work I shall make, if I live,
and am called to resign you! I dread my
stubborn heart, I fear it will resist, I fear it
will murmur!—Oh, my dear, pray for me, C1r 25
while you have breath, that I may not be left
behind you, in this howling wilderness, unsanctified
and unresigned! Oh, pray that if
God does take you from me, a double portion
of his Spirit may rest upon me; that I may
now fly to the fountain, and take up my rest
and comfort there! Very pleasant hast thou
been to me; and would to God I were ripe
enough to go with thee! But O, pray that
we may have a joyful meeting at Christ’s
right hand!

Ah, my dear, methinks I cannot help
rejoicing with you in the prospect, that God
is about to answer the ardent petitions, and
breathings of your soul after him, and to fill
you with himself!

Oh, my dear S. do not forget me, nor deprive
me of the privilege which I have often
requested, and now beg as on my knees, I
mean the perusal of your dear manuscripts;
which have so often refreshed me, and warmed
my heart. My dear, do not deny me,
but be willing I should reap advantage by
you, while you are sweetly sleeping in Jesus!
Consider how much I stand in need of every
help; and as you have never denied me in
life, be not cruel to me at last! Be entreated,
by all the bonds of friendship, to grant my C C1v 26
request! Leave it with God, who has glorified
himself in you, and made you such a
monument of his grace, to take care of his
own honor in every thing relating to you.

Farewell, my dear! the Lord support
and comfort you! The Lord give you a
victorious faith, a flaming love, a becoming
patience and zeal for his glory. The Lord
shine in upon your precious soul, and fill you
as full of himself, as in this mortal state you
can contain, till you shall be complete in
glory. This is the sincere desire, of

Your faithful friend,

S.O.

Letter XIV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Gladly would I have been with you this
evening, but finding myself so unable, I dare
not presume. Alas! I am soon tired in, though
not of religion. This is my greatest, yea
I may say, all my affliction. But, blessed be
God, I hope in his own time, I shall get where
I shall never tire more! O, when shall it
be, that neither faintness, nor sickness, shall
check my faith and love!

C2r 27

God was pleased yesterday, to refresh me
in sermon, and at his table; but as I said
before, I soon grow weary; pray for me! O
pray for me, that now I cannot wrestle with
God as formerly, and as it were, pull the
blessing down, He would shed it down abundantly,
on my soul! O, I long to get near
my God, and bathe my thirsty soul in his fulness!
but I must cease!

S.A.

Letter XV.

From the same, to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

Into your breast, I have often poured out
the joys and sorrows of my soul; and as
often have found compassion, tenderness, and
sympathy there; and now, though I cannot
see your face, yet let me reach your pity and
prayers, by a few lines.

I have esteemed it the highest joy and felicity
of my soul to meet God in his Sanctuary!
—There, my dark understanding hath been
enlightened; there, my stubborn will hath
been bowed; there, my cold affections, have
been warmed; there, my too-wavering faith
hath been established and strengthened! Yea, C2v 28
there, I trust, my repentance, sincerity, and
obedience, have been excited, quickened,
cleared and encreased! How often hath the
word, prepared for me and applied to me,
been more convincing, and establishing to me,
than a voice from Heaven could have been!
From my first embracing those precious privileges
I now enjoy, a sovereign God, hath
seemed to delight, to own and bless them to
unworthy me; so that I am drawn by mere
necessity, to desire them, delight, and rejoice
in them.

These, my friend, have been the grand motives,
which have caused me to study soul-
prosperity more than bodily health. Could I
be permitted to visit God’s sanctuary, and no
one complain of me,Miss Anthony’s health was so low, that her friends
thought it imprudent for her to go out.
I think I could bear
my indisposition of body with alacrity. But
my friends, and my physician, seem more
and more against my going out to meeting;
so that I seem to be shut out of God’s house,
and am even melted down under the trial!
I know my friends do it out of kindness to
my health; but do, my dear, use your influence
with them, to gratify me! It is not a
fond conceit of my own opinion, but if I
know my own deceitful heart, it is only because C3r 29
I love the sanctuary of God, and do
esteem one day spent in his Courts, better
than a thousand elsewhere! O pray for me,
that while I am permitted to walk on earth,
it may be to walk up to the house of God!
And if I am deprived of this privilege, pray
that I may have abundant measures of the
presence of that God, who is not confined to
house, ordinances, or means!

May this God refresh your soul with large
communications of light and life from himself!
May you always repose your soul on
the breast of Jesus, and at last be filled with
the complete enjoyment of him! There,
and there only, is true happiness, without
the least alloy.—I need not tell you, in this,
is all my hope and joy!

But I must conclude,
Your unworthy,

S.A.

Letter XVI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear friend,

I long to know how you do! The weather
has prevented, or I should have seen you C3v 30
before now, therefore beg you will not have
hard thoughts of me. I know if I cannot help
you, yet I bear you continually on my heart,
beseeching the Father of Mercies, to refresh
and revive you with his abundant consolations!
O, may he make you glad, with the
light of his countenance! I cannot but hope,
that ere now, God hath scattered the clouds,
and as it were, unveiled his divine beauty
and loveliness to your view! I hope you
are now admiring, and adoring, free, rich
sovereign grace! Methinks I hear you saying,
he was angry, but his anger is turned
away; and while the blessed Spirit is testifying
and shewing the blessed fruits of the
frown, you cry, Lord it is enough! If thy
glory is advanced, all is well! I hope you
are full of consolation; and these lines will
find you, either at the feet of your Jesus, or
leaning on his bosom!

O, my friend, do you not wonder at
the grace of God, that you, or I, after
such ingratitude, should ever be permitted
to get near him again; that he does not
hold us at a distance, equal with our sin!—
You may wonder for me, who am less
than nothing, and constantly departing from
God! Surely you must adore his grace, as
it respects me, if no other! O, the breath C4r 31
I draw, to write these lines, is forfeited!—
Verily God is gracious, because he will be
gracious!

Adieu!

S.A.

Letter XVII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

Dear S.

By ever letter I receive from you, I
think, something more of my own heart is
discovered to me. In your last, you have
shewed me how much more, the hateful principle
of self-love reigns in me, than love to
God! This I did not discern, when I wrote
my last. You are right, my dear, the glory
of God, the exalting of Jesus, ought to be
the object of our pursuit, rather than our own
ease. The Lord humble me for the narrowness
of my heart!

Well, blessed be God, I have had a discovery
of the fulness, sufficiency, willingness,
truth and faithfulness of the great Redeemer,
the week past, in conversing with one who
is in great distress, for her soul; one who
thinks her day is past, her sins too great to
be forgiven! And verily I believe there is
not any thing that will stir up the zeal and C4v 32
courage of a poor, faint-hearted Christian,
like meeting with those who distrust the Saviour:
For, if we are not quite senseless, it
constrains us to speak for him, whom we trust,
hath broken through such opposition, and
caused his grace to triumph over, and subdue,
such rebels! O, if he hath conquered me,
surely nothing can be too hard for him! I
would gladly add, but time will not permit.
Let us press forward dear friend, we shall
find God’s grace sufficient, to perfect that
which he hath begun in us! Then we will
adore and praise forever, without any of these
breaks and pauses. The Lord be with you.
Pray hard, for your affectionate,

S.O.

Letter XVIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Notwithstanding my purpose of writing
to you, yet, my backward heart would have
deferred it, did I not hope it might, by the
blessing of God, be a mean of reviving our
souls. I wish we may reap a double crop, viz.
in writing and receiving. O, may we again C5r 33
take sweet counsel together, and walk in
the light of God’s countenance!

O my friend, I long for the freedom and
familiarity we once enjoyed, when we were
brought near to our God, and to each other!
How did we then share, each others joys
and sorrows! Jesus, was known to us, by
the lovely name, Emmanuel! Was he not
with us? and did not our hearts burn within
us, while we conversed with, and of him!—
How sweet was it to hear, and tell, in what
manner the blessed God, had revealed himself
to us, either in his providences, or ordinances!
Surely his ways were pleasant, and all
his paths peace! Come then my friend, let
us join heart and hand, in pursuing religion,
as the only object worthy our esteem! Methinks,
while I am writing to so dear a friend,
I am only conversing with my own soul; and
may use the utmost freedom. Is there any
variableness or change in our God? Is there
not enough in him, to satisfy our utmost
desires? Why then do we live at such a distance
from him! Alas, I seem to be always
resolving, but never fixedly performing!
I seem serious, and earnest to will, but
too indifferent to do! The corruptions of
my heart never were more powerful, than of
late.

C5v 34

I think of Hezekiah, whom God recovered
from great sickness, but his heart was lifted
up; and he did not render to God, according
to the benefits done to him.

I am surrounded with dangers, but the
worst is my own heart! I am ready to wonder
at the patience of God towards me:—
O, it is “because he is God, and not man;
therefore I am not consumed”
! I cannot
but see and abhor the wretched depravity of
my whole soul, and bewail my unlikeness
to God; yet I would so look at it, as to excite
more ardent desires, after the enjoyment
of him! I have been inclined, of late, to
look on God as a just Judge, rather than a
compassionate Father, in and through Christ;
this, Satan would have improved, to work in
me a servile fear; and prompt to duty, not
from love and delight in God, but from a
slavish spirit. But glory to God, when Satan
strove to drive me from God, the blessed
Spirit, I trust, led me nearer to him; for,
while I beheld him as a just and terrible
Judge, I saw every refuge fail, Christ only
must be my surety! then did he appear truly
precious to my soul! Thus Satan was baffled,
for me, O unbounded grace!

When I hear profane wretches speak lightly
of Christ, it is then, with renewed vigour, faith C6r 35
and love, I embrace him, as the only portion of
my soul. Here, have I said to my soul, “take
up thy rest forever, even in thy God!”
O,
it is sweet-resting our souls, and all their
concerns, on a faithful covenant God, and
Father, through our dear Redeemer.

O my friend, I have renewed my choice;
and now, methinks, I am as happy, as I can
be here. I have enough; I ask no more!
Nothing, but what flows from union, and
communion, with the blessed God! O, this
is enough, were I stripped of all the delights
of the Universe! I am happy now; but O,
what does yet remain!—Rivers of pleasure,

yet unfathomed by us: even the open vision,
and full fruition of our God; for which I
long!

Your constant,

S.A.

Letter XIX.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My very dear, dear S.

I rejoice exceedingly, to find, that God
is so evidently appearing for you, and is,
crushing Satan under your feet! The Lord C6v 36
go on to refresh your precious soul, by giving
you yet more extensive views of the excellency,
and all-sufficiency of the dear Redeemer,
and the glorious way of salvation by him!
Ah, my dear, this shall find us work for
eternity! There we shall admire, adore,
wonder, and gaze, on the divine perfections,
and shout forth the riches of redeeming love
and grace! But O, think you, that such
another monument of mercy will be set up,
in all the New-Jerusalem, as worthless me!
One so ungrateful, so vile, and unworthy!
Never was adorable, sovereignsovereign mercy, more
richly displayed, than in choosing rebel me,
to be one of the happy few! But O, my dear,
what great things am I writing? Is it of a
truth thus? Were we chosen from eternity,
given to the dear Mediator, redeemed by his
precious blood, called effectually in time, justified,
adopted, and in part sanctified! And
do we hope to be complete in glory, wholly
freed from the tyranny of sin and Satan, and
in the full enjoyment of our God! O, but
why these great things for us! Let us stand
and wonder! What manner of love is this,
that we should be called, the children of God!
Let us rejoice, and again I say, rejoice! The
Lord be with you.

Pray for me, and write to me as often as D1r 37
you can, for I am much refreshed by your
letters.

Yours in Christ,

S.O.

Letter XX.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written at Providence.

My dear Friend,

Shall I communicate to you, the good
things my eyes see, and my ears hear?—
Surely the one half was not told me nor had
I any idea of it before I came here! The
first tidings I met, was the hopeful conversion
of the son, of . The next, was a
Mr. ―, who had been a vile character: I
have seen and conversed with him, to my
great satisfaction; his exercises were solid,
rational, and scriptural, I trust he is born of
God, and think I can say, I glorified God in
him!

O, my dear, even my unbelieving, jealous,
suspicious temper, dare not question this,
work of God! O, if you were here, I doubt
not you would say, “this is the Lord’s doings, D D1v 38
and it is marvellous in our eyes!”
I have
heard Mr. S. twice to-day, and think him
an excellent preacher. I have seen as yet,
nothing which appeared disorderly; but all
solemn, reverential, serious and rational.—
I have seen Deacon ―, whose heart seems
much revived with the prospect, that soon,
a nation shall be born in a day! We hear
that the work is general, and that some Jews
have been brought in, at New-York. O
when shall Rhode-Island come up in remembrance
before God!

You will be anxious to know, how it
is with me? My passions have been
much moved this day, more than I have
seen any other persons, though I have seen
those, who, I believe, had much more real
religion.—The most I have been able to
realize, since I have been here is the case
of a humbled sinner, broken off, from every
refuge, and bowed at the foot of divine sovereignty.
—Also the preciousness, of a dear,
glorious, Almighty Redeemer, to such a soul
—But I cannot add.

I am yours, in the strongest bonds,

S.A.

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Letter XXI.

From Mrs.Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written under extreme
Weakness.

My very dear Mrs. O.

It would be no small comfort to me, to
enjoy your company, with that uninterrupted
freedom, I once did. Yet I beg to submit
to that divine hand, which hath, and doth,
mix all my cup, for me! My dear, although
I am not able to hold my head from the pillow
while I write, yet my regard for you is
such, I could not omit it. Although my God
is correcting me, I hope, yea I believe, he
will not reject me! O, may it appear, that I
perform, as well as resolve, “Though he slay
me, yet will I trust in him!”
I have long
thought he saw, an afflicted state best for me;
but never really thought he meant to take
me away, till within these few days, in which
my disorders have risen to extremity. So
great has been my pain, and distress, that it
seemed all new work I had to do, as though
I had never taken a step in the valley before!
I was in such extreme pain yesterday, that
had it lasted a little longer, I must, without
uncommon support, have lost my senses!

But that dear, that gracious God, who sent
it, knew what I could bear, and would lay D2v 40
no more upon me, than what he would support
me under. The becoming temper of a
child, was set before me in these words, “patient
in tribulation!”
The words were as
constantly with me almost, as my breath;
and I could not help admiring the mercy of
God, that I was not always held up, in such
extremity of pain! I have been trying a
new medicine to-day: I am willing, while
my life continues, to use means; for I trust
my desires, after the full enjoyment of God,
shall never influence me to neglect my duty
to my body, though I do not expect any real
help; but, that after I have a while, suffered
the divine will, I shall be admitted to the full
enjoyment of himself!

O, my dear, how can I say this, without
transport! Will God in very deed, and is
he about to bring me, to behold his face in
glory! What, so worthless and despicable a
worm, as I am! I, who have long thought
myself infinitely unworthy the society and
enjoyment of the saints, though in their imperfect
state here below! Shall I be admitted
into the society of Angels, and the spirits
of just men made perfect? And above all,
into the presence of the infinitely pure Jehovah!
But shall such a defiled soul as mine,
enter the world, where God hath declared, D3r 41
that nothing unholy, shall enter!—O, what
a hopeless, miserable case were mine, did I
not believe in the fulness and sufficiency of
the blessed Saviour, even for me. He is
made of God, wisdom, righteousness, sanctification,
and complete redemption, to all who
believe!

Now is Christ, precious to me. O, where
were my hopes or joy, was it not for this
dear Saviour! But why, have I reason to
hope, he is mine? Not for any merit in me,
no! grace is free, and sovereign, or it had
never regarded me! How glorious is the
inheritance, which is purchased! What immortal
springs of consolation flow there!—
Rivers of pleasure! How transported must
a soul be, to find itself released, from this
clog of clay; all the darkness, stubbornness,
coldness, and reluctancy, changed into light,
joy, refined fervour, and activity! But ah,
I am now ready to say, can this be near to
me? Surely I was mistaken; I must not
yet expect the prize! So short a race—so
unripe a soul—must not expect so soon, to
be gathered in! But now, I leave it with
God, who knoweth my desires.

I am yours,

S.A.

D3v 42

Letter XXII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S.

Let me now call on you, to magnify the
Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together;
for I was brought low, and he helped
me! I was commanded often in a day, to
stand still and see the salvation of God, and
now I see it! The day is broke, and the
shadows are fleeing away.

“The Lord is my shepherd, and I shall not
want.”
Thanks be to God, who brought me
to rest in himself, and to rely on his word,
before he opened a door for my deliverance.
O, he deals kindly with me, to make me believe
for my mercies, before I have them.
Thanks to you, my dear friend, for your
compassion in my distress. Thanks to my dear
pastor and spouse, for their affectionate, tender
concern for me; may God in infinite
mercy reward them. May they never want
a friend, to comfort and refresh them in times
of trouble.

May precious Christ, esteem every act of
kindness, done to his poor worthless creature,
as done unto himself; yea, and he will; a D4r 43
cup of water shall not be lost. I have met
with a remarkable providence, which has
greatly relieved me. O, God can make me
thankful.

Yours,

S.O.

Letter XXIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Yours, short as it was, did refresh me.
O, may we hold on in this way. I wish the
God of life and love, may take you near to
himself, and fill your soul, from his communicable
fulness, with light, life, and love; until
you are satisfied with favour, and full with
the blessing of the Lord.

O that my soul was as wide as his mercies
are to me! and boundless as his benefits!
filled, yea, over-filled, with gratitude, love
and praise! Yet this would be too small an
offering to so bountiful a benefactor! I cannot
tell how good God is, to unworthy me.
—Methinks the tongue of an Angel would
faulter here! O, why then doth this burden
of clay restrain the grateful emotion which
rises in my soul, and groans for vent!

D4v 44

O my dear, why did the most high God
love me! and love me against my own stubborn
rebellious will? Why, O why, doth
he now stand by me, when Satan is ready
to swallow me up; defeat all his rage, and
change every fear of my soul into triumph!
I have had a smart conflict, but Christ, hath
fought my battle for me; my dear, dear
Redeemer, hath appeared for me! Say, shall
I not magnify his name? O, that I could!
How little have I ever said of him! What
low thoughts do I entertain of him! Help
me, help me, O my friend; He is your
Redeemer too!—How glorious doth he appear,
in wisdom, love, and power, yea in
every perfection! Worthy, infinitely worthy,
our highest trust and confidence, and
well deserving our best obedience! I never
trusted him in vain!—O, what has my Saviour
done for me! But O, what is He in
himself! With wonder I view the wisdom
and goodness of God, manifested towards
vile me! O, what condescension, what sovereignty
is displayed herein! I believe Satan
was never more vigilant, (at least it
seems so to me) to procure my ruin, than
now; and never, did God appear to me,
more engaged for my salvation and peace,
yea joy and triumph. O what shall I render
to this God! How shall I manifest my D5r 45
gratitude to my Saviour! O that I could
join the hallelujahs above, and ascribe, glory
and honour to God, and to the Lamb!

P.S. You will excuse this broken letter.
I was so swallowed up with the love of God,
when I wrote the former part of it, that it
was impossible to confine my thoughts to the
scribbles of my pen. You see what stammering
work I make, when I strive to express
infinite goodness, with a mortal hand.
Blessed be God, ere long, the tongue of the
stammerer shall speak plainly!

Yours,

S.A.

Letter XXIV.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My Dear One,

My heart has been yearning towards
you, ever since I saw you; and I have been
longing, for another interview. I hope, my
dear, I shall see you to-day. O, may the
everlasting, faithful Jehovah, support and
comfort you! Yea, and he will do it—
He will not leave you comfortless, he will
come unto you! Neither men, nor devils, D5v 46
shall be able to separate you from the love
of God, which is in Christ Jesus! “Still
thou shalt go, and still return.”
Boundless
grace will triumph on earth, and be magnified
in you to all eternity; notwithstanding
all the rage of earth and Hell.

God will be gracious, because he will be
gracious. He hath been so, and he will be so.
He is a glorious Sovereign, and Satan cannot
prevent the exercise of his adorable, free,
boundless grace towards you, by all his malicious
accusations, or your real vileness! O
rouse up your faith, cling to Jehovah for
protection, and hear your glorious Lord, saying
to you, “because I live, ye shall live also!”
He will, in his own time, bring you off triumphant,
over all the powers of the infernal
pit!

O, how many victories hath he already
given you! and will he now give his glory
to another? No, he never will! Satan
shall know, that you have an Almighty
friend! But I must only say that I am,

Your sympathizing, affectionate,

S.O.

D6r 47

Letter XXV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Pray excuse my not writing before.—
Much of my time this week, hath been spent
with other friends.

Surely it is very pleasant to my soul, to
see, and converse with those, whom I
esteem the excellent of the earth; yet
even here, I cannot find complete satisfaction.
No, alas, there is so many interruptions,
so many breaks and pauses,
that however pleased I am with these enjoyments,
yet I cannot say in the midst of any,
or all of them, here is full satisfaction, here
I will rest; no! they rather serve only to
encrease my thirst, and raise my desire to an
insatiable height, after those uninterrupted
enjoyments above. There, we shall see our
God, as he is! There, we shall converse
without fear or restraint forever. Not all
the superior finite spirits, shall check or damp
the songs of the most inferior. Though some
have greater glory, yet such shall be the
sweet harmony of our Emmanuel’s land,
that all shall join, to ascribe glory to God,
and the Lamb!

D6v 48

Here below, I often find the face of a superior
Christian, check my familiar converse,
and strike me into silence! But there, even
the tongue of the dumb, shall be loosed!—
There, not even the open vision of God, nor
the company of thousands, and ten thousands
of superior saints and Angels, shall
hinder, but rather embolden our song of
praise!

Well, let us wait and hope till the blessed
change shall come! Methinks the pleasures
of this lower world are as really weaning, as
its troubles; and for myself, I think I can
say, I am more weary of the joys and vanities,
than of the sorrows and afflictions of it: I
have been made unspeakably more desirous
of a release from mortality, by the most desireable
enjoyments I have met with, than by
any trials I have endured. Spiritual enjoyments
would lead me to thirst for full fruition,
but temporal pleasures, only tended to
steal away the heart from God, so that both
would make me long for immortality!

I would bless God, for any revivals afforded
you; O, that our God would yet delight
to dwell in us! I pray God may sanctify
his rod to you, in your frequent bodily
weakness; and even when sensible joys are
abated, would strengthen your faith, and E1r 49
grant you all the blessings of the new, and
everlasting covenant!

Yours,

S.A.

Letter XXVI.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

Dear S.

Daily encumbrances, necessary visits,
bodily indisposition, and a backward heart,
join to prevent my writing so seasonably,
and full, as I should be glad to; however, I
now in haste will try to write a little.

And first I would tell you, that the late
shock I have met with, has hitherto been
blessed, for quickening me to greater diligence
in making my calling and election
sure. O, I have cause with you to cry out,
all God’s ways are truth, and faithfulness!—
O, how much wisdom and goodness, hath he
manifested, in his dispensations towards rebellious
me! How often hath he recovered
my wandering soul, and brought me nearer
to himself; when I have been in my own
apprehension, on the very brink of ruin!

E E1v 50

Sometimes he will visit me with affliction;
he will take away the husband of my youth,
and thereby cause me to fly to the Widow’s
God, and rejoice in him, as the best of husbands!
At another time, he will take away
a tender father, and enable me to acquiesce
in his dispensation, and rejoice in him, as my
father’s God, as my God; and a father of
the fatherless! Then he will remove an
only brother, and thereby cause me more
fully to know, what it is to be resigned to
his will, and to adore his sovereignty!

Again, lest my heart should be joined to
idols, he will have an only son! and show
me at the same time, that he is better to me,
than ten sons! Ah, than ten thousand sons,
or all earthly enjoyments! Then, when
my heart gets entangled with the world, full
of plots and contrivances how I shall get this,
or that; pay one and another, &c. God will
utterly dash all my schemes; hedge up my
way with thorns; cross all my endeavours;
and bring me to the greatest extremity, that
I may know assuredly, the work of my deliverance
must be all his own. And when
he hath subdued my stubborn will, brought
me to leave all with him, to work in his own
way; then he appears on the mount of difficulty,
preserves his own honour, causes his E2r 51
name and ways to be well spoken of, instead
of evil, as I had feared, delivers me from all
my fears, and makes me to rejoice in him.
He inclines the hearts of all my friends, to
minister to my comfort; smiles upon my
endeavours, and makes me as cheerful and
happy, as I can be in this life! But if my
poor foolish heart abuses these mercies, grows
cold and indifferent, and need be, I shall be
in heaviness through manifold temptations.
Corruption shall break out, Satan shall be
let loose, and God will make his arrows
sharp, as though I were his enemy! Thus
it has been of late. Justly is he stiled, a
wonder-working God!

It is sweet, my friend, thus to trace him
in his foot-steps here; for surely he appears
lovely and faithful. But O, what will it be,
when we shall have a more full discovery in
glory! When we shall see him, as he is!
Oh, eternity shall then assist our praises!

You ask, if I ever find such substantial joy,
as when my whole soul is devotedly fixed
on God?—I answer, no! I have no idea
of any happiness, compared to this! This
is the utmost of my desires, to be made holy,
as God is holy! To have his image, instamped
on my soul, makes me happy here; E2v 52
but oh, what shall I be, when I awake in his
likeness! O, even from the thoughts of
this, flow rivers of pleasure!—But shall such
polluted worms as we, be brought to this?
the enjoyment of a holy God! Let us stand,
and wonder—stand and adore our glorious
Mediator, who hath purchased all these blessings
for us, at the expense of his own most
precious blood!—Here, I am lost in admiration!

Yours, in the sweetest bonds,

S.O.

Letter XXVII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written in the
country.

My dear Madam,

I just sit down to write you a hasty line,
though perhaps I may see you, before this
reaches you. I lodged near the water last
night, to be ready this morning; but the
wind being contrary, and likely to hold so,
I returned to , which may perhaps prevent
my being at the place, when the wind
and tide suits; however, let the will of the
Lord be done, and I submit. Indeed, my
dear friend, I have seen so much of the kind, E3r 53
tender indulgence, of my heavenly Father,
in this visit; that I hope I am, in some measure,
willing he should have the entire disposal
of it. I was brought to Mr. E―’s,
at a time when his whole heart seems engaged
in his Master’s work; he is in labours
more abundant.

Again, I was carried to Mr. F―’s, when
it was with him, a time of great darkness,
and sore perplexity!—Pressed beyond measure!
Lord, what is duty? Here perhaps
my soul hath felt the most tender, godly sympathy,
I ever knew; a frame not wanting
peculiar sweetness,—O pray, that God, who
only can cause light, would give him to see,
and be reconciled to the divine will; which
evidently appears to be, his continuance here.

Religion is hopefully reviving here, especially
under Mr. E―’s labours.

Yours, in the strongest bonds,

S.A.

Letter XXVIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My very dear Friend,

We much rejoiced, on Friday evening, E3v 54
to receive the account from you, of God’s
gracious dealings with you, in carrying you
in safety, to your journey’s end. The Lord
be praised, who gave his Angels charge concerning
you; yea, was himself your protection!
I trust your life and health, shall be
still precious in his sight.

I rejoice every day that a kind providence
hath carried you into the country; among
those dear friends too! I need not tell you,
how dear your presence is to me, yet I cheerfully
deny myself for a season, hoping to
enjoy you again, in God’s time. I had rather
think of your recruiting in Stonington,
than decaying in Newport.

On our solemn day,A Fast kept by the Female Society. you had an affection
ate remembrance, as often we united. I
trust God was with us, of a truth. I think
our dear Mrs. P. was never more enlarged,
than on that day; she was indeed a wrestling
Jacob! O my dear, the time is hastening
on, when, I trust, full fruition of our God,
cessation from sin and sorrow, the enjoyment
of each other, with all the Saints and Angels,
shall complete our happiness, to all eternity E4r 55
O blessed be God for Jesus Christ, and for
hopes of glory through him!

Yours, affectionately,

S.O.

Letter XXIX.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written in Boston.

My very dear, dear Friend,

I have received two letters from you,
which were very refreshing to me. It is with
great pleasure and delight, that I read the
lines of my own dear, bosom Christian friend;
one whom God hath made precious beyond
expression to my soul, and to whom I can
write, without restraint or fear. I will then,
in compliance with your request, acquaint
you with my spiritual affairs.

You knew some of my fears, though no
one could fully know all the distressing
thoughts I had, respecting this journey. But
now I will tell you, I know that Jehovah is
a praying-hearing God! Praise him, O ye
his saints!

I have a chamber to myself, with a retired
closet, in which are a number of good books, E4v 56
this Mrs. D. devoted to me; and told me, as
soon as I arrived there, that I might be retired
whenever I pleased. I said in my soul,
“this is the Lord’s doing, may it ever be marvellous
in my eyes!”
I seem to be at home,
and am seldom interrupted.

O my dear, who that knows Jehovah’s
name, would not put their trust in him!—He
hath dispersed all my fears, and crowned me
with loving-kindness, and tender mercies!
I dare not say, I have no sense of his mercies;
yet I must say, it is amazing, that a reasonable
soul can know, that it receives so much,
from a Being, to whom it has forfeited every
mercy, and from whom it deserves nothing
but wrath, even to the uttermost, and yet feel
so little divine love and gratitude!

O my dull, stupid, barren soul! Can I be
born of God? That dear God, who is love;
—that God, who daily manifests himself to
me to be love, and yet I love him no more!
Say my friend, can it be? Shall I dare
claim so near a relation, and act so contrary!
Dare I claim union to a holy God, who am
so unholy! And yet, through free, sovereign
grace, I trust I may, and do! O blessed be
God, for Jesus Christ; he is my hope, my
everlasting refuge! This is my friend; and E5r 57
I can be at home, in Boston, with this consolation,
as well as in Newport.—I trust I am
not come here, without my covenant God
and Father, my dear Redeemer and friend!
What more then have I to wish!

I have long since endeavoured, so to treasure
up my happiness in God, as that I might
be happy only in him, and always in him!
And now, my soul saith, it is enough! I
enjoy many comforts, but here, is my only
real, fixed portion, delight and joy, and here
I would rest forever!

Your unworthy, affectionate,

S.A.

Letter XXX.

From the same, to Mrs. O. written in Stonington.

My very dear Mrs. O.

I am longing to hear from you, and the
rest of my Newport friends. I arrived here
comfortably, and am in agreeable circumstances.
Verily God is good to the evil and
unthankful. O my dear, covenant love and
faithfulness follows me, wherever I go, or
rest! I enjoy every comfort of life; but E5v 58
God knows these, without his presence; cannot
make me happy. I have tokens of his
his presence, I trust; but my old companion,
a wicked heart, attends me still.

The first Sabbath, I was admitted to the
privilege of God’s house, and sat at the dear
Redeemer’s table; had a good Sabbath.

Since I wrote the above, I have received
the packet from Newport. I rejoice to hear
from you all. I thank you for your expressions
of affection!—O, whence is it, that such
a nothing worm, such a dead dog as I am,
should have such regard shewed me, both
here, and there, who deserve to be hissed out
out of the world, for my baseness, and vile
ingratitude.

I do indeed, my dear, appear to be the
vilest wretch, in the creation! You, and all
who know me, my own conscience, God,
and Angels, can witness against me. What
hath God done for me, and how low have
been, and still are, my returns!—I am this
moment melted down, and confounded; inexpressibly
abased and ashamed, under a just,
though inadequate view, of my amazing
wretchedness and vileness, before a holy,
gracious, infinitely amiable God! But I
cannot promise you, or myself, that another E6r 59
moment, perhaps the next, I may not imagine
myself worthy of a thousand times more
love, esteem and regard, than ever a blind
world hath paid to my merit; and be dissatisfied,
because God himself does not set aside
his own infinitely wise determinations, to
gratify my humour! All things have gone
well with me here, so I do not complain, but
God knows what a fruitless, barren heath, I
am!

O my friend, what other way, could such
a one as I, ever be saved in, but the gospel
way of salvation, by Christ? That sure
foundation, laid in Zion! Without money,
and without price! Without strength, without
beauty, or any recommending qualification!
Free pardon, full atonement, wisdom,
righteousness, sanctification, and redemption;
and by this power and authority, “I
will,”
and “you shall!”

I am sure there is no possibility of salvation,
for me, in any other way, and blessed be God
I can say, I desire none but this! Blessed
be God, for Jesus Christ! Blessed be God,
for the covenant of his grace, well-ordered
in all things, and sure; here is all my salvation,
and all my desire. The Anchor-
ground is sure; let faith but fasten here, E6v 60
and we shall ride out all the storm, and get
safe into port at last, even the haven of ever-
lasting rest! There, our blindness, stupidity
and ingratitude, shall be no more! Our
inbred lusts, those hellish legions, shall no
more terrify or pollute our souls; but the
transforming vision, and fruition of God,
through the one Mediator, Christ Jesus, shall
forever complete our happiness and joy!—
O my dear friend, shall we not be animated
hereby, to gird up our loins, pursue our
work, and wait for the salvation of God!

O my dear, my bosom-friend, I feel my
love to you to be without dissimulation, there-
fore wish you the same strength and consolation,
with my own soul. O, may our highest
ambition be, to join hand in hand, to promote
the cause and interest of our infinitely
worthy RedeeemerRedeemer. May your ten talents,
and my one, as I trust they have been, still
be improved for God! What, but the glory
of God, the honor of the Redeemer, our own
and others conformity to, and enjoyment of
him, can become us, as dedicated creatures,
bound by every possible obligation, to be the
Lord’s! What is he not in himself, that is
not truly lovely? And what has he not done
for us, that could be worthy of a God, in a F1r 61
way of mercy, for such fallen, depraved creatures!

O for such a steady, unshaken faith, in that
God, who hath condescended to give such
declarations of his boundless grace, in Christ
Jesus
, that the exceeding riches of it, might
be displayed, and eternally magnified, to
the praise of his great name.—O, that we
may evidence to the world, that we believe,
what we profess.—That God is such a Being,
as he hath revealed himself to be.—
That he is a good Master, and we have not
been deceived! But I must close.

Yours,

S.A.

Letter XXXI.

From Miss S.A. to a Minister,—written in
the younger part of her Life.

Rev. Sir,

Perhaps you may think it strange, that
I should address you by my pen, when I may
have such uninterrupted opportunities, for
conversation. But I am so unhappy, as not
to be able always, on every subject, to use F F1v 62
that freedom with my superiors, which the
case requires; especially when we do not
both see alike. But now Sir, I beg you to
allow me an intire freedom, while I lay aside
all objections, against writing to one, so
much above me. I know your good sense,
learning and judgment, may see a thousand
faults; but I rely on your candour, and will
not fear any severe remarks. The conversation
I had with you, respecting the duty I
owe to my body, has put me upon writing.

It is one of the most pressing concerns of
my life, to know what regard is to be paid
to my health? I know self-preservation is
a great duty; and should I lavish away my
strength, and destroy my life; God might
retort on me, “Who hath required this, at
thy hand?”
I know, he is not a God who
delighteth in robbery, for sacrifice; and I
may not dispense with one precept, more
fully to comply with another. Here, I often
stumble.—I would, by all means, be tender
of my life and health, as a talent that God
hath intrusted me with, and for which I am
accountable to him; and should I abuse it,
(although in his service) it would be most
displeasing in his sight! Yet I find my wicked
heart so much inclined, secretly and insensibly
to take advantage of the persuasions F2r 63
of my friends, to spare myself; joined with
the natural love, which all have to the body,
especially when under pain and disorders;
till I fear few, and short engagements are
most agreeable. Should this grow into habitual,
self-indulgence; a sin which is wove
into our natures, what should I do, but destroy
the very life of my soul!

I should lose the light of God’s countenance,
communion with him, and access to
him; peace of conscience, increase of grace,
and expose myself to injure the declarative
glory of God, which is concerned in Christians
living near to him! I should show,
that I loved life and health, better than Christ,
and so was not worthy of him! Yea I should
merit that curse, which is pronounced on him.
who “doeth the work of the Lord negligently!”
I know, that when I sought the Lord,
with my whole soul, I did sensibly derive
strength from him! Oh, I tremble at the
thought of giving further advantage, to my
slothful, backward heart; it is like throwing
up the reins! God did never countenance
my sloth; no, his method hath been, to make
me follow hard after him!

Oh, Sir, I am distressed, I must act contrary
to what appears to be my duty, as well as F2v 64
that which is my greatest privilege, if I abate,
or do not rather increase my vigilance,
in the ways of religion. Yet when I hear
those, who are eminent in grace, and whose
ardent desire is, that God may be loved and
served more, and better; when these argue
against me, I am covered with ignorance and
darkness, and am afraid to trust my own wicked
heart. Oh, that God would direct me.

I esteem it not only my duty, but my most
happy privilege, to contemplate and enjoy a
Being, who is his own infinite delight! This
is all that makes life desirable, or preferable
to death! When God is pleased to make
any discoveries of these things to me; my
soul even breaks, with intense and ardent
longing, for the open vision, and full fruition
of God; and I know not how, to bear this
distance! But, in the mean time, strive
after, and pursue, the highest degree of holiness,
attainable in this life! Nor can I see,
how it is possible, for a soul, in the lively enjoyment
of divine views, to indulge a slothful,
indolent temper of mind! If I am not
totally ignorant, of all that belongs to the
spirit and life, of a Christian, I think it impossible,
in the exercise of faith and love;
and under a deep and solemn impression of
divine, infinite, eternal realities; the vast F3r 65
importance of soul-concerns, &c. so far, to
let love of ease, and bodily comfort prevail;
as not to pursue those things with restless ardour!
Should I act in this manner, I must
give up all my pretensions to any thing
above, or beyond nature.

I wish my dear Christian friends may never
know, by experience, what an exercise
it is to the soul, when it hath gained some
life and warmth in duty, and would gladly
have these things fixed and abiding on their
minds; then to be obliged, through weakness
of body, to relax, and give over the
eager pursuit. O, how distressing!—And
must I then make myself most unhappy, and
wretched? Deprive myself of all I count
worthy my being, only to rest a poor, frail
body, that perhaps will last but a very short
time after all? Oh, shall I not debase my
nature, and render my being as unworthy
as I am capable of doing!

I know you do not desire, that I should
intirely refrain from religious exercises, internal
nor external; but I cannot be reconciled,
even to a partial remissness, it may
soon become total!

I beg, Sir, you would pray for me, that I F3v 66
be directed, in the way of duty.—And believe
that I am,

With great respect,
Your sincere Friend,

S.A.

Letter XXXII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

I want a line from you, yet I cannot
forbear writing to you. Satan would fain of
late, have taken away all my glory and confidence.
He seemed to fight, neither with
great nor small, but with the King of Israel
only! His darts were directed, against the
great Redeemer. Surely my confidence in
Christ Jesus, excites the rage of Satan. I
find on every occasion, he is set on destroying
this; he knows my strongest defence is
here!

Could Satan once undermine this confidence,
and make me question my security
through Christ, he thinks he should then have
gained the day; then have gotten possession of
the strongest sort, and would expect the rest
soon to surrender! Thus I must fall a prey F4r 67
to his fury, this I am satisfied he is aiming
at; here I find his wrath levelled.—When a
sense of the worth of an immortal soul, and
of the holiness and justice of God, prevails
in my mind, then, Satan would persuade me,
that there is not sufficient security in Christ,
to venture so precious a soul upon; that it
will not do, to venture the wrath of an infinite
Being, on an unseen Mediator; with
a thousand other suggestions of the same nature.
——But, blessed be God, it is to little
purpose.

Blessed be God, who hath not left me ignorant
of the devices of Satan; and though
he may strive to bruise Christ’s heel, by disturbing
one of the meanest of his members,
yet, I know, my all-sufficient Redeemer, will
break his head.—The darts are thrown at
Christ and therefore I put it upon him, to
fight his own battles; resolving I will not
quit my hold; for, even by this conflict,
Jesus appears more worthy of my strongest
confidence, yea infinitely precious to my
soul! I find it best, to reject these suggestions
with abhorrence, and renew my flight
to Christ; resolving, come life, come death,
I will not quit my Saviour; since neither
earth, nor hell, has been able to discover any
way of salvation worthy my trust. Nor have F4v 68
any, or all the subtilest wits, been able to
confute all the gospel plan of salvation. It is
so just,—so reasonable,—so worthy of God,
and so safe for man, —that, if I perish, I
would perish relying hereupon. Here I resolve
to rest secure, on the terms, which the
glorious God, hath propounded in the gospel.
Here is sufficient foundation, for my trust.

I can but perish: and if I do, no blame to
Satan, it is my own voluntary choice; I
venture my ruin, and will persist in the stead-
fast belief, of complete salvation, through
faith in Christ Jesus.—Had I a thousand
souls, I would venture them all here; and
in this chosen Redeemer, would I triumph,
and glory forever! O my dear, what should
we have done? had it not been for this God-
man Mediator! Well, let Satan rage; I
trust it shall but wake up my faith and love,
and strengthen my confidence. Blessed be
this glorious Saviour, who is now saving me,
and bruising my enemy with the very dart
he flung at me! O, infinite wisdom! O,
eternal goodness! This is my Redeemer,
mighty to save! O how safe, how secure
are those, who have a faithful God and Saviour,
engaged for them! And is this our
happy lot, my friend?—Then let us walk
worthy of God, unto all well-pleasing. Can F5r 69
we bear to sin, against so good a God!—Our
covenant God and Father, with whom we
hope, ere long, to dwell; who hath caused
all his goodness, to pass before us! May we
not write, on all the different dispensations
of his Providence towards us, mercy and
truth, goodness and faithfulness? Surely we
may look back, and view his tender care of
us. How often hath he calmed our fears,
pardoned our sins, and restored comforts to
our souls. When we have looked for the
scourges of an angry God, we have had the
smiles of a tender father!

Can we forget, such love as this? Can
we be so vile? But, ah! these base, these
wretched souls of ours, need infinite forbearance,
or they had long ago been past all recovery!
But, such is our God, and such
are we! He knows our frailty, and is ready
to pardon; yea he delighteth in showing
mercy, through his dear Son; our only hope,
our only refuge, our only way of access, to
the Father! O, let us make great use, of
our Redeemer, in our Christian course.—
This is most pleasing to God; it does honour
to all the divine attributes, wisdom, goodness,
justice, truth, and holiness; yea, we
cannot honour God more, than in making
constant application to Christ, and owning F5v 70
him, as our only Lord and Saviour.—But I
must have done.

Yours,

S.A.

Letter XXXIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear Friend,

I rejoice to hear of your safe arrival, and
comfortable circumstances. O may God
abundantly refresh you, in body and in soul!
—May my three dear friends, return laden,
with the fruits of Canaan; and give us, who
are yet in the wilderness, some sweet, animating
proofs, of the good things with which
Emmanuel’s land abounds!Mrs. Osborn, and two more of Miss A’s Friends, were
at Long-Island, on a visit, where there was a great revival
of Religion.
O, to know
that God yet dwells with man on earth, by
the communications of his spirit and grace,
with his word, how reviving!

Never was I more in the dark, respecting
the designs and purposes of God, concerning
us! When I look back, upon that unwearied
importunity, which I trust, God has excited,
and that encouragement I thought he
did give; I am ready to conclude, with good F6r 71
Mr. Elliot, that “these dark times, are the
womb of a bright morning!”
But when I
consider present Providences, and appearances,
I am ready to say, Surely all these
things are against us. My hasty wishes have
been long catching at this, or that, mean or
appearance, to be the cloud big with a heavenly
shower; but instead of light, there is
darkness! Yet, just are all thy ways, O
thou, King of Saints!—You know, my
friend, the Providences, which have appeared
filled with great events, both of a terrible,
and comfortable aspect, have passed over,
without being unfolded to us! Yet I will
speak for our God, although we have not had
what we desired and hoped; neither have
we yet, had that, which we feared, and deserved!
How surprizingly hath God over-
ruled, in threatening dangers; and said to
the tempestuous billows, be still!

Mr. Buell’s letter to the Deacon, with a
passage out of Mr. S’s, have been like cold
water, to a thirsty soul; and the most animating
to my hopes, of any thing I have seen
of late. Hath God excited the seed of Jacob
to seek his face, for us?—And shall it be
in vain? Will not God show, that he is a
God hearing prayer? Will he deny himself,
to correct us? Surely not!

F6v 72

I was brought into anxiety for you, on
hearing of the violence of the storm; but
have been relieved, by casting my care on
God! That I have a throne of grace to go
to, is my comfort; and I begin to think,
that I must thankfully, and submissively accept
of these refreshing seasons, as my delightful
repast through this wilderness; while
conflicts within, and disappointments respecting
Zion, are without, and abide me! O
my dear, hope deferred, hath made my heart
sick, sick unto death!

O, if we may escape with our lives, and
the honour of our Lord be unsullied by us,
amidst all the dangers and sore temptations
of this state,—surely the great Captain of our
salvation, shall forever be admired and adored,
and we shall shout forth sovereign grace,
in the highest strains! As to present dark
appearances, this must be our resolution,—
We will wait on the Lord, who hideth his
face from the house of Jacob, and hope in
him too! I hope to see you come home,
strong in faith, giving glory to God.—May
I be ashamed of all my unworthy, desponding
thoughts, of my ever-blessed, ever-faithful,
gracious God—Ashamed I am; but O
for a better temper of soul, that the murmurer,
may learn doctrine; and she who erred G1r 73
in spirit, may come to understand. There
is a secret hope among some of us, that the
Reverend Mr. Buell, will come with you.—
O may our all-glorious Jesus ever delight
to honour him, in his work; and may he
yet, have some fruits among us, that shall
abound to the glory of God!

My dear, cannot you engage some dear,
praying souls, to meet us, at some appointed
season, to besiege the throne of grace, for
poor Rhode-Island!

Yours, &c.

S.A.

Letter XXXIV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Friend,

Your kind letter, warm with love and
zeal, had I no regard to religion, my reason
and judgment must approve of; much more,
when religion puts in, so high a claim!

I have nothing to say against your arguments,
nor dare I determine against them in
my practice; yet I think I never felt such
sensible backwardness, to any exercise of a
religious nature in my life, as I do to writing G G1v 74
of letters. Whatever turn of mind I once
had for it, which might render it a duty then,
seems now absent. I am now, much more
inclined to get disengaged from all the world
—and want more to feel, and know, the
substantial realities of vital religion. O, if
the most kind, and gracious God, would take
me near to himself, lead me into a greater
knowledge of his covenant, and the blessings
thoreofthereof, it is all I want!

I find a disaffection for creature converse,
I long to know more of the hidden life of a
Christian.—My soul is reaching after more
solid—pure, and self-abasing, discoveries of
God; and the truths of the gospel. My
main business; yea all my work seems to lie,
between God and my own soul; to know
more of both, is of the utmost importance!
—And while this work presseth on me, I can
by no means pursue another. Let me, O,
let me, forget and neglect, all but God, and
the truths of the gospel! Here, my friend,
let me fix; and then, if Providence calls,
I hope I shall obey. I once thought, I should
not write any more; but I rather think, if
God assist and influence, I shall.

I thank you for your letter, it deserves my
grateful acknowledgements. Pray for me; G2r 75
O pray that my soul may feel the powerful
influences of the Holy Spirit, bringing me
into an entire conformity to God—a more
spiritual, holy disposition of soul, refined
from all dross and corruption!

Yours,

S.A.

Letter XXXV.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A. who was then
in Boston.

My dear S.

On Friday last, I received your first letter,
I was sincerely glad of it; but have not
time now, to enlarge in answering it. I can
only say, I rejoice in all the goodness of God
to you, and wish you, always to put your trust
and confidence in him, for whom I can witness,
that he is always faithful to his promises;
and infinitely worthy our highest
praise, and adoration!

O, bless God for me; for verily I think
he never made more frequent, and glorious
discoveries, of his amiable perfections, than
of late.—Nor did I ever rejoice, more steadily,
in the glorious, God-man Mediator; who
is all, and in all!

G2v 76

O my dear, let us renew our flight to him,
clasp him in the arms of our faith, and dedicate
our all unto him! And O, how safe,
is what we commit unto him!—Safe indeed:
For he hath infinite power; and will surely
keep, what is deposited in his hands, both in
life, and death!

In the belief of this, I determine to set out
on the morrow, to visit my mother; there, I
expect to meet the Rev. Mr. F—, who
will conduct me to his house.

Providence hath seemed to favour my going,
by many concurring circumstances.—
Yet I have been seriously concerned to know,
if I am in the path of duty;—especially as I
have heard, that it is very sickly there. Had
I known this before I fixed my plan, I should
have deferred my journey for the present;
—for it is my opinion, that we ought neither
to run from, nor into sickness, unless we are
especially called, in Providence.

I know, however, that what God hath in
infinite wisdom designed for me, shall be accomplished.
Be it sickness or death, it will
certainly seize me. If death is determined
for me now; I trust, through the merits of
the dear Mediator, I shall be admitted into
the open vision, and full fruition of my God! G3r 77
—For blessed be our Emmanuel, it is his will,
that all those, whom the Father hath given
him, may be with him, to behold his glory

Then, farewell sin, and sorrow.—Farewell,
vain and deluding world.—Farewell,
forever!

But if God designs to hold me longer in
life, it is as easy for him to preserve me there.
as here; therefore with him I leave it, for he
doth all things well! Blessed be his name,
vile and despicable as I am, yet through the
riches of sovereign grace, I am his own; let
him do, as seemeth him good!

Yours,

S.O.

Letter XXXVI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Yours I received, and what shall I say?
These are the sad complaints which we shall
ever make, while we live in this wretched
world, and have this more wretched heart
to deal with.—Ten thousand interruptions G3v 78
await us, in the way of duty. This shall
never be the place of our rest:—It is the
fixed law of God, that Christ alone shall be
the rest of his people. Let us then fly from
all things here below, to him who is the centre
of our souls.—Let us for help, against
our own vile hearts, fly to him, where help
is only to be found. We can never make
our hearts better—We may labour and strive
all our days, and weary out our souls, but
shall not gain any thing, unless Jesus appears
for us; and then, we shall be victorious.

I know your complaints, I feel your burdens,
and would help you, if I could; but,
alas, if I were to try, you might well reply,
Physician heal thyself! I am daily groaning
under the burden of a hard heart—stubborn
will—a depraved and ungrateful soul—a subtle,
malicious foe, who is seeking to destroy
me;—yet, blessed be God, I trust, more and
mightier are they who are with me, than those
that are against me. O let us glory, in our
Almighty Redeemer! Have we not listed
under Jesus? Is not he the Captain of our
Salvation? Then let him command, and
let us obey.

We are not called, to man the army; nor G4r 79
to furnish ourselves for the warfare; but only
to make use of the armour, which Jesus provides
for us. O my friend, what should we
do, without this all-glorious Redeemer.—
Methinks I should Lie down in eternal despair,
and everlasting horror, were it not for him!
O, how sweet is this dear Saviour, to my
weary, burdened soul! O, shall we droop
and faint, who have such an Almighty prop!
Let those faint and be discouraged, who have
no better strength than their own; but let
us, magnify our Redeemer, by a constant—
resolute—confidence and dependance on him.

We can never make too great use of him,
in our Christian course; yea, we are undone,
except we lean on him;—for we are by no
means a match, for those mighty legions of
enemies, who are seeking our destruction.

Yours, in the strongest bonds,

S.A.

Letter XXXVII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S.

What is the peculiar cause of that dejection, G4v 80
which appeared in you yesterday? Is
it the trials and temptations which your dear,
aged parent, is passing through, which affects
you? The Lord support you, and make you
an instrument in his hand, to support and
comfort her. God is not a man, that he
should lie; though Satan, and our unbelief
dare call his word in question. O that our God
would appear for our help; put Satan to
flight, and cause us to put our trust in him!
O my dear, resolutely go on, casting your
dear mother, on the faithfulness of that God,
who hath said; “He will never leave, nor
forsake those, who trust in him.”
Hath he
not been the guide of her youth, and the staff
of her age?—Her tried friend, in all circumstances
in life?—Enabled her to give
evidence of the reality of her Religion;—so
that you have had no reason to doubt of her
interest in Christ.—Has she not been kept,
by the mighty power of God, all her days?
—She shall still be kept; Christ will not
deliver her into the hands of Satan now; no,
he is able to keep what she hath committed
into his hands, and to present her faultless,
clothed with his righteousness, and redeemed
by his precious blood. The Lord be with
you my dear, strengthen you in body and
in soul, till he take you to behold his glory;— G5r 81
where sin and sorrow shall cease forever, and
God himself shall wipe all tears from your
eyes!

Your sympathizing,

S.O.

Letter XXXVIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Madam,

I hope before this time, the joy of the
Lord is your strength—and that you are now
speaking highly, and honorably of him, knowing
in whom you have believed—that he is
the faithful, covenant-keeping God—infinite
in patience and forbearance—boundless in
his grace—forgiving iniquity, transgression
and sin! I hope you are triumphing, in the
complete atonement, made by Christ Jesus;
and exulting in that glorious righteousness,
which he hath wrought out, and brought in!

Surely here, is all our salvation; and here,
hath been all our refuge, hope, and confidence,
in our highest consolations, and deepest
abasement. O my dear, what but this
hope, hath preserved you or me, from sinking;
when wave after wave, and billow on billow, G5v 82
hath gone over our heads! What but this,
hath preserved and supported, all the generation
of God’s children, that have gone before
us? and this, shall preserve those who follow
after; and we, vile as we are, shall witness
to the truth and faithfulness of Jehovah.—
Take courage, my dear friend, God will
not lose, what he hath wrought for, and in
us;—the prey, shall not be taken from our
Almighty Redeemer:—fear not—the Lion
of the tribe of Judah, shall prevail, and be
victorious! What enemies have you and I
to encounter, but such as have been conquered
for us, by the great Captain of our salvation.
Alas for me, it is my ignorance of,
and unlikeness to the Conqueror, that is my
misery and bane! I blush and am ashamed,
while I write of the perfections of God.—his
boundless grace—the completeness and immutability
of his covenant—my hope in
God—and the ground of hope; and yet,
that I should be so little affected with, or influenced
by it!

I seem to be like a person in a lethargy,
sometimes a little aroused,—open my eyes,—
behold a glorious structure,—all-complete!—
all-perfect,—surrounded with an infinite variety.
—A world of wonders open to my view,
—all important; but my weak sight is soon G6r 83
confounded, and my ideas confused, through
the power of the decease! O, this painful
indolence and stupefaction! I feel myself
most wretched, yet cannot shake off this
sloth! Alas, I find, that neither time—nor
place—nor circumstances, will do it.—Nothing,
but the healing hand of my Almighty
physician, will cure the disease of sin!

I find, though absent, yet we travel along
together; sometimes up, and sometimes
down.—Well, there is nothing better for us,
than submission to our all-wise Conductor.

Yours, affectionately,

S.A.

Letter XXXIX.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. when her only
Child lay on his death-bed, out of the town.

My dear Friend,

I am deeply affected with your affliction,
and tenderly sympathize with you in your
sorrow. Methinks I could be willing to put
my shoulder to yours, and bear part of the
burthen, yea the whole of it, rather than you
should be crushed under it! But what shall G6v 84
I say? Has your God and Father put this
cup into your hand? Then drink it, my
dear, with submission, love, and fear;—forget
the cup, while you behold the hand which
gives it to you. It is not from my hand;
no, nor from the nearest friend on earth; if
so, you might fear some poison with the gall.
—O that I could tell you, or rather that
God would show you, from whose hand it is.
Is it not from the hand of your God and Father
—your Redeemer—Saviour—head, and
husband—and hath he not said, “you are as
the apple of his eye”
—and will he hurt that?
No! Surely, he will not! O, arise, and
by faith cast your child upon Christ—tell him
he is your only son, and you want a pardon
for him;—and will not he, who is an inexhaustible
fountain,—a boundless ocean of infinite
fullness, be as ready to pity the soul of
your son, as he was to pity the bodies of those
who came to him for healing, in the days of
his flesh? Verily the promises are to believers,
and their children.

But, however, God may deal with you, as
to giving comfortable evidence of his being
born again. Study and seek, a resigned will.
O do not fall out, with your Father! Kiss
the hand, though it have a rod in it—it is H1r 85
the hand of your God still.Mrs. Osborn’s exercises, under this trial, were truly sublime,
an account of which, is given in her life, published by
Doctor Hopkins
.
O my dear,
you and I may, yea must love him, because
he is a Sovereign God! Set your King on
his holy hill, Zion—and not only suffer, but
entreat him to be sovereign still. And now,
my dear, once and again I commit you and
yours, both living and dying, into the hands
of the Father of Mercies, the God and Father
of our Lord Jesus Christ! Bury not living
mercies with dead sorrows, but still adore
your God in adversity! If your child yet
lives, tell him from me, not to delay one moment
longer, but fly to the blessed Jesus!—
Tell him I have prayed, and by God’s leave
that I will still pray for him; and I beg he
would pray for himself.—And now farewell,
my friend; bless the Lord, for he is good.—
I long to see you, but must say, “Father,
thy will be done!”

Yours,

S.A.

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Letter XL.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

By reflecting on Mr. ―’s sermon, I
think I am better able to answer your question,
that when you asked it, viz. “What
good I got by that sermon?”

I cannot thank the minister, nor the sermon,
for any good obtained thereby, and
therefore I will ascribe the more to God.—
Perhaps if the truth had been preached, I
might have been ready to give that praise to
the preacher, which was due only to God;
but I am now free from this snare, for I cannot
think it had any direct tendency, to honor
God, or do good to men.

I cannot see how the divine perfections
are glorified; how the wisdom of God is displayed
in lowering the Law, in order to
bring in the gospel, and yet the conditions,
“Do, and live,” remain in full force! If
salvation came by the law, then Christ is dead
in vain; and what becomes of the justice,
truth, and faithfulness, of God!—How are
they glorified by this scheme of salvation, by
the deeds of the law?

H2r 87

Blessed be God, I am renewedly established
in the firm belief of salvation, only
through faith in Christ Jesus.—A faith which
unites to, resteth on, and receiveth Christ,
as a whole Saviour. A faith which purifies
the heart, works by love, and influenceth the
whole man, to a life of universal obedience.
—Surely this must be most worthy of God,
and most safe, for wretched, miserable man―
who is without strength, or will, to help
himself!

O, glory to God, for Jesus Christ! In him
I will glory forever!—Though the cross of
Christ be to the Jews a stumbling-block, and
to the Greeks, foolishness; yet, to all those
who are saved, it was, is, and ever shall be,
the power of God, and the wisdom of God!

The scheme of this salvation by the law, is
hurtful to man, as it tends to draw him from
Christ, the only hope of sinners.—Settle the
Formalist, on his lees—and bring all, to rest
short, of a saving change of heart. If a bare
professing of Christ, is coming to him; how
is the gate strait, and the path narrow?—
Forgive me, my dear, that I have filled my
letter with such cavils.—I hope, I shall never
have the like occasion. It is disagreeable;
yet I could not forbear.

H2v 88

I abhor a contradictory, censorious temper,
I trust you know;—and I think I could bear
any thing easier, than to have my dear, my
ever-glorious Redeemer, set low, and degraded!
—Well; he is still more precious to me,
and I renew my flight to him.—If others can
do without him, I cannot. O, glory to this
dearest, God-man Mediator,—this sovereign
God, who can bring light out of darkness—
can establish my faith in Christ, by such a
sermon, and cause me renewedly to renounce
all hope in any other name.

Verily, I see such a display of the divine
character and perfections, in the way of salvation
by Jesus Christ; I am assured, it
must be of God! O, the depth of the riches,
both of the wisdom, and knowledge, of God!
O, the infinite goodness, and love, of Jehovah!
—Let us, my dear, show our love
and gratitude to God, by making great use
of this Saviour; and let us do it with a view,
to the glory of God, and not merely, for our
own ease!

We should certainly find more comfort
and pleasure, by looking more to Christ; but
we should seek the glory of God, even in this,
rather than our own enjoyment.

H3r 89

Let us set the crown on the head of King
Jesus
, saying, “reign glorious Emmanuel!—
Reign Almighty Redeemer, display thy glory”

—and cause those, who see neither form nor
comeliness in thee, to cry out, “Thou art
all fair, there is no spot in thee, the chief
among ten thousands, yea altogether lovely!”

—And those, who have such saint views of
thee, as I have, let them be even swallowed
up, in the open vision, and full fruition of
thy glory!

O, let me see thy face; let me taste thy
love, O my God, my everlasting all!—
When, O, when shall I be with thee, where
thou art, to behold thy glory!—To be
changed into thy Image!—There it shall be
the glory of our glory, to glorify and exalt
thee! Till then, my soul can never be completely
at rest.—O, wast me, near thy feat;
let me dwell but where I long to, and I shall
be what thou wouldst have me be, and what
I wish to be! This I dare promise, yes, because
God hath promised it. There, O there,
my exalted Redeemer, shall reign gloriously,
and none of the blessed inhabitants disdain
his regal sceptre! There no discord will
have place, for the redeemed of the Lord
shall all sing redeeming love, to all eternity!
—O, methinks, I long to join their acclamations, H3v 90
and extol Jesus the Saviour, before
men and Angels!

God hath now, I trust, been showing me
my utter inability, to do any thing, acceptable
to him, of myself; and the necessity I am
under, of constantly looking to Christ, for
righteousness and strength!

Now is Christ precious; and I now long
to yield a universal and perfect obedience to
all his commands;—for true faith doth not
hinder, but promote obedience.

O let me now show this, by a more holy
life, and conversation.

Your real friend,

S.A.

Letter XLI.

From Mrs. O. to a particular friend.

My dearly beloved Friend,

Beautiful, through that comeliness,
which God hath put on you, in Christ Jesus.
—I rejoice, and glorify God on your behalf,
for the great things he hath done in you, and
for you. Surely God hath done great things H4r 91
for you; although you are not brought to
triumph, but are yet labouring under some
discouragements. God will perfect his own
work, and make you more than conqueror,
through his grace.—He will build you up,
and you shall have joy, in his own time.

March on, my dear, with courage; you
have a glorious Captain, under whose banner
you have now listed.—You may depend
upon his protection.—Christ Jesus will never
fail you, all the days of your life. Be strong,
and of good courage; Christ will cover your
head, in the field of battle;—he will not
leave you there, nor give you into the hand
of your enemies; no, he never will deliver
you up to their will. As he hath begun to
save you; he will go on, till he hath put the
hosts of hell to flight. He will strengthen
your faith, and manifest himself to you, and
at last take you, to behold his glory!

So prayeth your affectionate,

S.O.

Letter XLII.

From Miss S.A. to the same person.

My dear Friend,

Be not troubled, or discouraged, though H4v 92
you did not feel that sensible sweetness and
joy, which you desired.

Perhaps, you made too great dependence,
on sensible joy and manifestations; or might
limit the Almighty, to that particular time;
and God saw best to show himself a Sovereign,
and yet give you the best things—the most
solid, durable, purifying, establishing good!

When I first joined the church, I did not
find that sensible ravishment in the ordinance,
which I had hoped for;—yet I was built up
by it, and afterwards found great sensible
comfort and communion, in my attendance
thereon.

Blessed be God, often when I have had least
sensible joy, I have found real virtue and
strength, derived from Christ, through this
medium. O, let our God take his own way
—he will guide us by his counsel, and at last
receive us to glory! “He will give grace,
and glory; and no good thing, will he withhold,
from those that walk uprightly.”

Those who seek and serve him, in all the ways
of his appointment, and whose desire and
dependence is on him alone, shall surely
find his grace sufficient for them.

I bless God, for the gracious assistance afforded H5r 93
you. May you be strengthened, and
refreshed, more and more! O, may to God
of all grace, and love in Jesus Christ, be glorified
in, and by us! May we, who have
put on Christ, not only by an outward profession,
but by an inward and spiritual union;
walk worthy our high and holy vocation.—
May we adorn the doctrine of God our Saviour,
and show the world, that there is something
more, in true Religion, than a bare
name.

Yes, there is a living, vital principle, productive
of good works. Let us keep our eye
fixed on Christ, not looking for that from ourselves,
which can only be derived from him,
who is the head of all divine influence; and
thus may we grow up, in him, unto perfection!

Yours,

S.A.

Letter XLIII.

From Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. Hopkins,
while he was preaching at Newport, on probation,
and difficulties began to arise.

Reverend and kind Sir,

I was very sensibly struck yesterday, at H5v 94
hearing you speak of a speedy remove from
us! And the impressions are abiding; nor
can I free myself from some degree of anxiety,
on the occasion.—Perhaps I have laid claim
to more, than God has given me. I had rested
till of late, comfortably satisfied, that the
great Head of the Church, would graciously
provide for us; who, and when, I left with
him to determine. But now I began to think,
I might follow and fix.

I have often wondered, that my faith, in
such an important point, had not been more
tried and shaken. But perhaps this is the
time! however, I am not reconciled to your
speedy departure; nor am I wholly dismayed
at the present embarrassment of affairs. It
often is the case, that when a wise, and good
God, designs great, and special mercies, great
difficulties lay in the way; and thereby his
wisdom, power, and grace, is more conspicuous,
in removing them.

Perhaps we have not prayed enough yet,
for so great a mercy, as the re-establishment
of the gospel among us. Wait, dear Sir, awhile
longer, and God is helping us, we will
pray more frequently, more earnestly; the
difficulties shall, by divine grace, urge us on.
And if we obtain you of God, in a way of H6r 95
faith and prayer, I am persuaded it will be
better, both for you, and us! For myself, I
scarce ever received any signal mercy, but
which was sweetened, by the trials that went
before it.

I know, Providence wants neither time,
nor opportunity, to bring about its purposes;
but I find it best for me, to let it have both;
by a patient waiting, for the event. By divine
assistance, we will make this a principal subject
of our addresses, at the throne of grace, this
afternoon;That afternoon was devoted to prayer, by the Female
Society
.
urged by the most noble motives,
the glory of our enthroned Redeemer, who is
Head of his Church! You will join us, dear
Sir, and be a helper of our faith and prayer,
as well as of our joy.

May every possible blessing, from the inexhaustible
fountain of the Redeemer’s fulness,
attend you; and may your longer stay among
us, and prayers for us, render you the richest
blessing we ever enjoyed; and unspeakably
encrease your joy here, and crown of rejoicing
hereafter!—Thus prayeth,

Your unworthy friend,

S.A.

H6v 96

Letter XLIV.

From Mrs. O. to the Rev. Mr. Hopkins, when
he was preaching on Probation, in Newport.

My worthy, esteemed, and I had almost said Dear Pastor,

And O, that it might be the divine will,
to permit me, to speak it out! It is God
alone, I know, that can bring it to pass!—
To him alone, then, I must go. It is he only
that can take away the discouraging disposition,
of any who say, “We be not able:”
“Those against us, are stronger than we.”
“They are men of great stature, even as giants;
and we in our own fight, are as grasshoppers,
and so we are in their sight!”

It is God alone, who can inspire his people
at this day, with the excellent spirit of a
Caleb and a Joshua, and enable them to say,
relying on him by faith, “Let us settle at once
and possess, for we are well able to overcome,
and maintain; we being on the Lord’s side,
and he on ours!”
O that God, for Christ’s
sake, would thus help us! Help us, however
few in number, however low in circumstances,
yet to determine by his grace, to exchange
interests with him, at once resolve to support
his gospel, his truths, his Ministers, let what
will become of us; let Christ see to that.

I1r 97

O for such a temper of soul! How soon
would the walls of the city fall, as the walls
of Jericho, and we go in and possess; go in
and out, and find pasture!

It is true, my dear Sir, I cannot assuredly
know, what is in the womb of divine Providence,
nor what better things God designs
for you, while I am saying however, all these
things are against us! I have nothing left
to comfort me, in this situation, (if you are
constrained to turn away from us) but abounding
grace to the chief of sinners; and
God’s ability to glorify himself, and bring the
greatest good, out of the greatest evil. But
my heart rather trembles for fear of him, and
I am afraid of his judgments; as we do appear
to be ripening apace, for judgments.

Oh, Sir, if you do depart, shake not off the
dust of your feet, for a testimony against usus;
but still, if permitted, lift up a cry for us!
May the Lord God Almighty bless you,
strengthen, establish and settle you, in his
own way and work, until he take you into
his bosom of eternal rest!

But stop, my pen! Hush my fears! Carry
me no further now, in taking a farewell: for
except God interpose and resign me, I shall I I1v 98
not be able to bear it! O, that I may have
no will but God’s! And who can tell, but
it may yet be his will, to give me Mr. H.
for my minister! Perhaps the great head of
the church hath chosen him, and will yet
make bare his arm, for his settlement, support
and success, in poor Newport! With
God all things are possible; in the mount of
the Lord it shall be seen!

Who are men, to oppose infinite wisdom,
Almighty power, mercy, love, and faithfulness!
All hearts are in his hands; Devils
are at his controul; and whatsoever he hath
fore-ordained, shall come to pass. The
Lord reigns, and not a sparrow falls, without
his permission. Why should we fear? We
that are in Christ, are of more worth than
many sparrows: What can we do then, but
commit the cause to the great head of the
church, and say, “the will of the Lord be
done!”
If he does not interpose, in uniting
the hearts of this people; it may be for wise
and holy ends. Let us hear him saying,
“What I do, thou knowest not now, but thou
shalt know hereafter!”

My dear Sir, you have this to comfort you,
that you have taken every method, consistent
with truth and a good consequence, to engage I2r 99
and unite this people. I rejoice that you
have this testimony, in your own conscience,
and in ours also. No one, I believe, charges
you with any misconduct. If you go, you
leave a witness for God, and yourself, in our
hearts. And oh, may God have all the glory!
May God go on to draw forth your precious
soul, in gratitude and thankful praise, the
sweet employment of heaven! By whatever
means your joy and praise is excited, I will,
God helping me, praise and rejoice with you,
for herein God is glorified; he hath expressly
said, “Whoso offereth praise, glorifieth
me!”
Oh, that I were more, in this delightful
exercise, which seemed to swallow up
your soul, when you wrote your last to me!
Oh, how do the redeemed above exult!—
Well, let us still, dear Sir, amidst all our sorrows,
bear a part with them; since our Redeemer
lives, and hath told us, that, therefore,
we shall live also!

If God is glorified, and we are accepted
in the beloved; let us go on to praise him
here below, till we ascend to join the eternal
hallelujahs above, and cast down our crowns,
at the Redeemer’s feet, forever and ever.
Amen, hallelujah! Hold out, faith and patience,
a little longer; a few more struggles,
with sin, Satan, and the world, and all shall I2v 100
be well, to all eternity! How sweet, in this
view, is this word “Eternity”! When we shall
be holy, as God is holy; pure, as God is
pure; we shall love, and praise eternally!

But why, hath such a wretch as I, this
hope? Because triumphant grace hath abounded,
to the chief of sinners! It is the
wretched, the miserable, helpless, and vile,
Christ came to save; and such an one, am I!
I have fled to him, for refuge; and therefore
shall not be confounded, or put to shame.
Time fails, I can only return you a thousand
thanks, for all your friendship, and favours to,

Your sincere Friend,

S.O.

Letter XLV.

From Miss S.A. to a young friend,.

My dear friend,

I am tenderly concerned for you, and
have longed for an opportunity to converse
with you; but as I have not any prospect of
a good one, I have taken this method.

And in the first place, fix this on your I3r 101
mind; that it comes from one, who most sincerely
loves you; and is dictated by a heart
full of sensibility and concern, for your best
good; and in some measure, impressed with
a sense of the vast importance, of your eternal
salvation.

I tenderly feel for you, under your outward
trials. I know they have been great, and
very afflicting! But were I assured, that you
had given yourself up to God, had taken him
for your portion, and placed all your happiness
in him; though I should feel a tender
sympathy, yet I should have no cause for
anxiety; because I am assured, that all
things shall work for good, to those who love
him.

But worldly sorrow, worketh death! Let
me then intreat you, not to indulge a repining
spirit at the Providence of God, or any
angry resentment at the instruments of your
sorrow. But view the hand of God in it,
and receive the instruction he offers you.—
Let not your trials, overwhelm you with care
and anxiety; for the world, and all things
in it, are passing away, and will soon be gone
from you, or you from them. O, do not let
the cares, or the flatteries of this vain world
influence you to neglect the means of grace! I3v 102
Indeed, my dear, I have had very painful feeling
of late, on observing your great neglect
of, and inattention to, the worship of God,
in public. I have not said any thing to you,
respecting your religious sentiments, while
you attended at different places of worship;
because, I hoped, you would examine and fix.
But now, I cannot be silent! It is, indeed,
time for you to know, what you are!

Christianity is something real, and important;
and every rational mind, ought to feel
it so.

Enquire into its doctrines; embrace and
fix on those, which appear most agreeable to
scripture, and solemnly attend on all its institutions.
Your great inattention to the house
and ordinances of God, gives me inexpressible
concern. I hope none of your friends, will
hinder, or discourage you. But I know you
are not likely, to have encouragement, from
the family, where you live; who so wickedly
neglect the house of God themselves.—Remember
your dear mother, who, though she
could not hear a word, yet would go, to set
an example to her children. Do, my dear,
let me intreat you, to give yourself time;—
examine what religion is, and of what importance,
to you;—reflect on your own conduct, I4r 103
and see how you treat it! The great author
of christianity hath said, “He that is not
with me, is against me!”

Yours, affectionately,

S.A.

Letter XLVI.

From Miss S.A. to a friend just recovered
from the small-pox, but who died suddenly,
immediately after.

My dear Friend,

You have been much in my mind and
heart, since I first heard of your having that
distemper. My only refuge has been the
throne of grace,—there I have carried you;
and have begged recovering mercy, for you.
And now, my dear friend, what shall I next
do, after a thankful acknowledgement of the
divine goodness, in exciting and answering
of prayer; but congratulate you, on your
recovery, and press upon you, the great obligations
you are under, to your divine benefactor
and healer?—Hath he brought you to
the gates of the grave, and from thence bid
you return?—Hath he redeemed your life I4v 104
from death, and shall it not now, be most solemnly
devoted to his service and glory?—
Will not my friend now give up herself to
God, and to his people; and by a more close
union to, and more constant associating with
them, show on whose side, she is?—Will not
this strengthen her, against the world, and
its temptations?

It hath been with much concern, that I
have viewed you for some time past, absenting
yourself from your Christian friends;
especially at a time when temptations abound,
and the strongest and best, need every assistance
and help, to keep them from being insnared.
Christian society has been found, a very
powerful help. Inspiration hath told us, that
“Two are better than one.”

O my dear, though God hat so wonderfully
spared your life, and recovered you
from that dreadful distemper; yet death may
be at the door, in some other way!—We are
both in the decline of life. We have but a
little while to live. What is all this world,
but a vain bubble! What relief could it
afford you, in your late danger and distress?
Surely none!—O then, let the late experience
you have had, cure you of all your
worldly schemes and pursuits. Now, O now, I5r 105
my dear friend, be entreated, to make the
Lord your portion; lay up all your good, in
him! Let communion with him, and his
people, be your delightful enjoyment!

Thus far I wrote, but was obliged to stop,
to attend on other duties; and the same evening,
a sudden death, closed the eyes, and
finished the probation state, of my friend—
She is now beyond the reach of my pen, and
needs not my advice! She knows more
than I do, and feels more of the reality of
eternal things!—One is taken, and another
left! May I be ready, when Jehovah calls!

Letter XLVII.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend.

My dear Friend,

I omitted writing yesterday, because I
had so much to say, and had so little time;
and I find the same reason to-day; yet I cannot
forbear, just intreating you, not to let
any thing you have said to me, give you the
least concern. I receive it most kindly. I
think I know, all about such exercises. Satan,
and bodily disorders, have a great hand
in them.—They are a part of that warfare, I5v 106
which God assigns his people; out of which,
they shall come off more than conquerors,
through the great and glorious Captain of
Salvation! These are some of the tribulations,
through which those, who would wash
their garments in the blood of the dear Lamb,
must pass; as a purifying furnace to purge
away, as well as imbitter sin. Hope in God,
my dear, whose Almighty arm is able to support
and deliver.

Believe me to be, your most cordial, unreserved,
devoted friend,

S.A.

Letter XLVIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear Friend,

I would gladly write you some suitable
answer to your letter, but know not how to
do it. I seem, in some sense, to be like the
enquiring, wandering, daughters of Jerusalem,
when the Spouse was seeking her Beloved,
INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Cant. v. 9.—“What is thy beloved,
more than another beloved, O thou fairest
among women, that thou dost so charge us?”
I6r 107
—Alas, I have lost those transforming views
of his glorious perfections, which so animate
and inflame your soul; and the language of
my practice is, there is no form nor comeliness
in him, wherefore I should desire him.
Yet I believe, “He is the altogether lovely
one; the chiefest among ten thousands!”

—But O, I cannot get near to him; and
this cannot, I plainly see, is my stubborn
will! O, if that were but bowed to the sceptre
of King Jesus, I should soon find better
times.

I have been for some time past, rambling
out among means and creatures, in a wilderness.
And I am sure, I shall not find rest,
till I return, and stay myself upon God. But
I cannot find the way back again! Yet,
methinks, I hear Christ speaking to me, in
his word, “I am the way, the truth, and
the life.”
—O, if I could but clasp my Saviour,
in the arms of a strong, and lively faith, I
should do well; though a thousand things
were against me. But without him, I can
do nothing.

I know I have too often tried your patience,
with my fruitless complaints; yet if
I write at all, I must write as I feel. “Out
of the abundance of the heart, the mouth I6v 108
speaketh.”
—The Lord be with you, and
make you exceeding glad, with the light of
his countenance.—If God gives you a heart
to pray, pray hard for

Your Friend,

S.O.

Letter XLVIX.

From Miss S.A. to a friend at a distance,
when Miss S.A. was in the country, in
time of the war.

My dear, very dear Friend,

Shall I ever see you again?—O how
long, how painful the separation! Were it
not for the expence of travelling, and my
cowardly spirit, I should doubtless have attempted
a journey to see you, and the rest of
my friends, this spring; but these are a bar
in my way.

God, in his providence, hath dealt very
kindly with me; I am able pretty comfortably
to go five or six miles on the Sabbath, to
meeting.—The family are very kind to me,
and I want for nothing of a worldly nature.
I have not any trials but what would be removed, K1r 109
if my heart was properly impressed
with the infinite importance of divine and eternal
things.—O my leanness, my leanness!

I rejoice my dear, that you are seated under
such a wise, pious, and zealous minister;
and in the midst of such a number of Christian
friends!

O that, at such a time as this, the friends of
God would distinguish themselves; in stemming
the torrent of universal corruption, and
in the most disinterested attachment to the
cause of Christ! I hope things with you,
appear in a more encouraging light. It is
very dark here, so far as I can learn; and
indeed our public affairs wear a more gloomy
aspect in my view, on account of the dreadful
degeneracy, so very apparent!—However,
it is a consolation to know, that Jehovah, will
be perfectly justified by all the upright; and
shall be glorified by all those things which
take place, in consequence of these provocations.

Jehovah reigns!—May the divine goodness
ever attend you.

Yours, in the strongest bonds,

S.A.

K K1v 110

Letter L.

From Miss S.A. to the same person; after
a short interview, with each other.

My dear friend,

It seems but like a dream, that I have
seen you! The time was so short, and attended
with so many interruptions, which
were unavoidable; by which that near, and
intimate, familiar unbosoming, which I had
been longing for, was prevented. O that I
might learn wisdom, though taught it by
briers and thorns.

I have passed through a trying scene, since
I saw you; have been again separated from
my dearest connexions, and most valuable,
important, spiritual privileges.Miss A. was obliged to leave Newport, a second time.I must refer
you to Mr. H. for my story. I would
have returned to Newport; but divine providence
has ordered otherwise. I know it is
most just; God hath taken nothing from me,
but what I have abused, in a most dreadful
manner!

Our dear, worthy pastor, I think, has shone
with a tenfold lustre, in his ministrations and K2r 111
conduct, since his return to Newport.—Mr. Hopkins returned, immediately after the British
evacuated the town.
The
greatness of his soul, exercised in such disinterested
benevolence and zeal for God, hath
filled me with wonder and admiration; and
it gives me pleasure to learn, that he is like
to exercise it still at Newport, though I am
shut out! This is a dark providence, and
yet, that I should be so provided for here,
and should be treated so kindly, calls for a
grateful acknowledgment.

May the dear, divine Redeemer, be your
sure protection, and his infinite fulness, your
abundant, delightful repast. To him I commit
you, my truly dear friend, and am,

Yours, affectionately,

S.A.

Letter LI.

From Miss S.A. to a friend at a distance,
when Miss A. was keeping School, in the
country.

My dear, very dear Friend,

I have received two letters from you K2v 112
which were most welcome to me; but I have
not time now to say much, having many letters
to write, which must go by this opportunity.

I conclude you have had my history, from
our dear Pastor; so I shall not go back.—
When I parted last, I had feelings not easily
expressed; but I reflected, and said, “it is
the Lord,”
and was quieted. The next day
I heard the Rev. Mr. B. preach, from these
words, “Call no man father.—”INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Matth. xxili.O, it was
like apples of gold! a word in season!

I had many objections against going to Mr.
G―’s
, to stay; however, there and there
only. Providence seemed to lead, and I was
to follow.—He, who governs the universe,
had something else in view. While I
was here, the Col. mentioned my staying, to
instruct his little children this winter; I
agreed, and am most kindly entertained by
this family, and the employment hitherto has
not been disagreeable. God appears to have
ordered my lot, in much mercy!—I find I
am not able to attend so closely to the exercises
of my mind as formerly, and therefore
esteem it a great favour to be employed in
any service, that infinite wisdom sees best; if K3r 113
I may not be found idle, and so be cast out
of God’s vineyard! O, may I be faithful,
and the dear little ones be profited. I never
thought myself calculated for this service;
but since God has called me to it, I know he
can assist and bless, the weakest instruments.
To him I feel disposed to look.

I have had a letter from Newport, which
informs of the death of Mr. Osborn. Dear
Mrs. O. seems to be left alone; but I trust,
she is fast ripening for a better society.

O my dear, I have a thousand things to
say, which I cannot say without my pen. I
have my trials, the greatest of which, is a barren
heart, under all the manuring of divine
providence.

I am closing a year, which has been filled
up with the most astonishing forbearance, and
salvations. Methinks there never was a
more righteous sentence than that woaldwould be,
“Cut it down, why cumbereth it the
ground!”

Jehovah hath seemed to be trying it out
with me; to see if I will be reclaimed, and
brought to fruitfulness, by the most wonderful
care, condescension and goodness, exercised
toward the most vile and ill-deserving! K3v 114
But if sovereign mercy doth not triumph still,
I must soon sink under the weight!—O that
the next year, may be a year of some suitable
returns. A year, when the dear separated
connexion may be gathered together; and
unite, in bringing forth that fruit, which
shall be to the praise and glory, of our God,
and Redeemer.

With tenderest salutations to dear friends
with you, I am,

Yours, affectionately,

S.A.

Letter LII.

From Mrs.Miss S.A. to a friend.

Worthy friend,

The sweetness of friendship, consisteth
very much, in sincere, mutual love, and sympathy.
Such I trust is ours.—I would prove
it thus on my part, nor will I doubt it on
yours.—While I sympathize with you in the
various trials in the Christian life, I will give
you some of the exercises of my own soul;
that, if possible, I may help to remove your
present fears, and dark forebodings.

K4r 115

Your case, is not so singular, as you imagine:
—All those who have inlisted under Jesus
Christ
, must appear in arms, and fight. We
may as well wish to be excluded, from all interest
in him, as to be exempted from these
sore combats! It is the fixed engagement,
we are under, to our Lord;—to fight, against
sin and Satan, as long as they oppose, which
will be as long as we remain in this militant
state. This life is called, a vale of tears!—
Sins and sorrows encompass our path, through
this wilderness! Well, since it is thus, let
us not be over-anxious after rest here, but
expect and prepare for daily conflicts!—O,
let our utmost desire be, to glorify our God
and Saviour, and sweetly rest in that. It is
certain, if we sincerely love God, we shall
willingly forego our comfort, for his glory.
—O, how divine the pleasure, how unspeakable
the satisfaction; of beholding ourselves,
as instruments of glorifying God! In this
view, I sometimes behold with great delight,
the most amazing trials of my life. At some
seasons, I seem to be called, to combat with
hell itself!—I am beset, with a legion of Devils,
at once!—All combined to root my
soul, from its foundation.

And “if the foundation be destroyed,
what can the righteous do?”
What indeed, K4v 116
can they do! I do not mean doubts about
our own interest in Christ, the sincerity of our
faith, love, &c. for these may be false, and yet
there may be hope;—but if the foundation,
of them, were destroyed, viz. the Being
of God; the security of salvation, by
Christ; or the reality of all religion: if this
could be destroyed, what could the righteous
do!!—Satan hath long been striving to destroy
my belief of these truths. My soul hath
been greatly amazed, with such conflicts as
are inexpressible! But glory to God, eternal
praises to him, who hath proved his Being:
the all-sufficiency of Christ; and the reality
of religion; by giving me strength, and such
assistance, even causing me to triumph in
victory!

Yours,

S.A.

Letter LIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear Friend,

I send you the copy of my letter to Mrs.
. Do not show it to any body, except
to . I feel tender, and would not expose
her any farther than the honor of God K5r 117
calls for. I have not had any word in reply,
but she is much more pleasant than before.
—The Lord over-rule it for good! My conscience
is greatly relieved. May the beautiful
golden rule, be ever mine. I could not
talk; my heart was too full! O, I am a
dreadful coward. Reproving, is of all works,
one of the hardest!

Divine Providence hath forbid my journey
to Stonington, and I am quite satisfied: God
doth all things well. Pray for me. Who
knows but our next meeting will be in heaven?
O, when shall I get there! This
world is a tiresome place! Methinks my
name, is weary of the world. May I with
patience wait, till Christ shall let me behold
his glory!—The Lord be with you, my dear
friend. I am, a thousand times,

Yours,

S.O.

Letter LIV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

Other concerns, have hitherto prevented
my writing; but I dare not omit it any longer,
though I have but a moment of time.

K5v 118

O, when shall eternity begin! I have been
conversing with death, in all its ghastly horrors!
and yet it cannot frighten away my
most ardent desires for a release from the
body.—Still I view the victories and triumphs
of my Redeemer; and by faith, see him who
is invisible! By faith, I behold him gone to
heaven to secure, and prepare a mansion for
me! He, having overcome death, and triumphed
over the grave; hath engaged to
bring at last, perfectly justified, through his
merits, all those who believe in him.—There
I shall behold theu ncloudedthe unclouded face of God, and
drink full draughts of the rivers of pleasure!
O my friend, my soul even breaks with
longing, after this God! This chosen, this
only happiness of my soul. All my other
wishes, are swallowed up in this!

O that, while I am kept in this distant
land, I might be favoured with more sweet
and frequent fortaste’s, more pledges, and
earnests of his love! O, for one divine ray
of light, in this dark soul. O, for one beam
of the sun of righteousness, this would make
a glorious day!—O, that your Redeemer,
and mine, would take us nearer to himself!
O, tell him I long to lean on his breast!—
Tell him, I even faint, for some renewed manifestations
of his perfections to my soul!— K6r 119
O, how much dearer would they be to me
than life, and all the delights on earth!

I am yours in sincerity,

S.A.

Letter LV.

From Miss S.A. to a friend, who was under
some spiritual difficulties.

My dear friend,

I am always glad to hear from you; but
why are you cast down? Is not your Redeemer,
the same Almighty, omnipotent,
faithful and gracious God, as ever? Is not
his covenant-faithfulness as immutable, as
when you rejoiced in it as all your salvation,
and all your desire?—O, keep your hold of
it; for he, will never leave nor forsake, any
of his people!

How was it with the disciples? Jesus
constrained them to get into a ship, and pass
over unto the other side,INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Matth. xiv. 22. without him. And
what was the consequence?—Why, the evening
came on, and they were in the midst K6v 120
of the sea, with a contrary wind, toiling in
rowing; and they knew not Jesus, when he
was coming to them, on this boisterous sea;
but supposed him to be a frightful ghost, and
cried out!—It is said he would have passed
by them, but they were not asleep, for they
all saw him; and supposing him to be a spirit,
Cried out.INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Mark vi. 49. Then, then, did he hear
their cry, and manifested himself unto them:
“Be of good cheer; it is I, be not afraid.”
—And he entered into the ship, and the wind
ceased, and they were filled with joy and
wonder!

O, how often is this the case, with his poor
disciples, when he causes them to pass on the
sea of temptation, without his sensible presence!
It is well for them, if they are not
asleep.—Toiling and rowing, are best for
them to keep them awake, and great fears to
make them cry out in earnest!—Jesus will
then appear for them, and comfort their
souls; bring them to land, and at last to their
desired haven of everlasting rest!

In heaven, there will be no evening,—no
contrary winds,—no toiling or rowing, on
tempestuous seas—no distressing fears nor
absence from Jesus forever! There, the L1r 121
weary are at rest, and the wicked cease
from troubling! There all our hopes and
wishes meet; and Jesus, will be forever
known by the name, Emmanuel!—O, that
will be Emmanuel’s land, where holy souls
will forever reside; and all will unite in
ascribing, glory and honor, thanksgiving and
praise, to the enthroned Redeemer!

O, for the joyful day! But until then,
we must keep close to our leader, the Captain
of our Salvation;—obey the word of command;
—fight like valiant soldiers, fired with
a noble zeal and ardour, for the honor of our
God! We may fight, and be courageous,
since the battle is the Lord’s; and he hath
assured us, that through him, we shall come
off, more than conquerors!

O my dear, you are listed under Christ, and
you must, you will fight. Sometimes the host
of hell are sent to fight, with neither great
nor small, but with the King of Israel only.
—They point their arrows against the perfections
of God; his word, &c. O then call
on him to see to his own cause, and he will
not leave you to fall, in his battles.—But I
must have done.

Yours,

S.A.

L L1v 122

Letter LVI.

From Miss S.A. to a Friend.

My dear kind friend,

I feel that I am under a thousand obligations
to you, which I take pleasurepleasure in acknowledging;
yet were it not so, my affection for
you would not suffer me to be silent. I
have, with some degree of sensibility, felt
the anxiety of my friend, and rejoiced in
the accomplishment of her wishes. And
now the year is closing, I am attending her in
the reflections she is making, on the divine
mercy and goodness in the past, and her enquiries
and purposes for the ensuing year.—
“What shall I render to the Lord?—I will
pay my vows, &c.”
—And while I rejoice
with my friend in all her agreeable prospects,
I observe her in all her fears and despondences.
I know your circumstances, amidst
all their agreeables, are attended with many
snares and temptations. It is probable, you
will be entering on the new year when you
receive this, I will then wish you may enjoy
the most powerful, and the most pleasing views
of the divine, all-glorious Redeemer, in his
infinite importance, authority and worth;
and hear him saying, “If any man will be
my disciple, he must forsake father and mother; L2r 123
he must deny himself, take up his cross,
and follow me.”
—May you, my friend, with
the firmness of a David, resolve, (if to be religious,
is to be vile) to be more vile still!
I wish, my friend, all that divine wisdom,
which is necessary to recommend religion,
to the consciences of all, without giving up
one title of its precepts, or purity. My
friend will forgive my freedom. She knows
I love her, therefore I thus write.

Yours, affectionately,

S.A.

Letter LVII.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend.

My dear Friend,

I have just received yours.—Am sorry
to hear of your illness; but, let God serve
himself of us, in the way he pleases. For
this, we were made;—for this, we are preserved;
—for this, we were redeemed;—
and, what are we fit for, but this?—We
sometimes wish, and long, to serve the Lord;
but, in very deed, it is He only, that serveth
himself of us. And what can we wish, or L2v 124
desire, beyond this? Being interested in
his special favour, through Jesus Christ, what
more can we desire, than to be used by him,
to promote his own wise purposes.

We are his, by every possible bond, and
obligation.—O, to me, it is a delightful
thought.—Would to God, that he would glorify
himself, by every faculty of my soul, and
by every member of my body; with every
thought and imagination of my heart and
every circumstance of my life! This is my
Heaven, to be for him, and for none other!
—O, that he would take possession of my
whole soul! O, when shall I arrive to the
stature, of a perfect man, in Christ Jesus!—
And when shall I see, the universal spread
of his kingdom! I have been longing for
this, till my very soul, breaks with desire!
O my friend, do tell me something, of your
exercises, respecting Zion; I long to know.
—I want every Saint to arise, and plead the
cause of Zion, with her great and glorious
head! O, to see God glorified, and sinners
purified; to feel, and see, the goings, and
glory of God, in his ordinances, and providences,
infinitely out-weighs all other prospects,
my soul can have any idea of!—O,
for more of God, for more of God; in myself,
and others!

L3r 125

I drag about a dead weight, which taints
all I do; while all about me, partake of the
infection.—O, woe is me, that I am polluted,
and dwell in the midst of pollution!—
O, when will my Redeemer come, and destroy
these his enemies! When will he
come, and purify to himself, a peculiar people!

I must take his people in, with myself;
I have no interest, separate from the cause of
Zion. I view myself as a member of that
body, of which Christ my Lord is head;—
and if one member suffers, all the members
suffer with it; and if one member be honored,
all the members rejoice; and to perfect
the body, they all need the same things that
I need, though not perhaps to the same degree;
as I am so far behind, in conformity to
my great head. But blessed be God, he
hath promised to perfect, that which is wanting.

I greatly rejoice in, and with you. O my
dear, love much, and praise much!—Strive
to help my too-cold affections, that the Redeemer
may have the glory which is his
due! But O, what can depraved, finite mortals
render, for infinite benignity?

We can but lisp, his praises now; but O,
Heaven will raise, and purify our song. But L3v 126
I may not add.—Pray for me, pray for Zion,
and may God Almighty bless you, with the
best of blessings.

Yours, affectionately,

S.A.

Letter LVIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

I find little disposition to write, yet I
dare not give way to sloth; since it hath pleased
God, to bless to us, this mode of conversing.

I am indeed surrounded with divine goodness.
God hath been pleased to favour me
of late, with some nearer access to himself,
than usual. O, how sweet is the thought, of
being in covenant with God! With this
glorious Redeemer,—under whose dear protection,
we are always safe; and may be
happy, if we are not wanting to ourselves.—
It is in this Saviour, that I would boast and
glory! I know I am, in myself, weak,
worthless and vile, helpless, and without defence;
but in Christ Jesus, I trust I am
strong, and completely blessed.—O, the unsearchable L4r 127
riches, of our purchased redemption!
Here I may have joy, and rejoice;
under the deepest, and most afflicting sense,
of my sinful, wretched, and undone state, by
nature!—All my miseries, do but serve to
make my dear Redeemer appear more, infinitely
more precious! Here, methinks, I
could dwell forever. O, the fulness of Jesus
Christ
! What is he, in himself! And what
hath he done, for me? But these are questions
which none, but his own infinite self,
can answer! No finite being can give a full
answer!—O then, let us seek a deeper, experimental
knowledge of him; for although
we can never express, or conceive his fulness,
yet we may obtain some transforming views
of his perfections?

And now my friend, what more can I say?
Nothing, but what I trust you know, better
than I can tell you—that he is altogether
lovely; the chiefest amongst ten thousands!
This is my beloved, and this I trust is my
friend!—But my thoughts are too full, for
time or pen to express! Therefore I must
conclude.

Yours, in Christ Jesus,

S.A.

L4v 128

Letter LVIX.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend in
Newport, when Miss A. was in the countrycountry.

My very dear Friend,

I wrote you a long letter, and gave it to
the bearer on Thursday. Yesterday, and today,
I have received yours. I thank you,
my kind friend, for these repeated instances
of your love.

I am affected with the circumstances of
my dear Mrs. B―. How kind is Providence
to her, in carrying you there, at this
time, to be with her. Will she not hope in
divine mercy? O my dear, Mrs. B―,Miss A. now addresses the person mentioned in the last
paragraph.

Is not sovereign grace, to be magnified?—
Is not mercy, to be built up forever?—But
where are fitter subjects for it, than you and
I? Cannot you commit yourself into the
hands of Christ? “Among the Gods, there
is none like him.”
Nor are there any words,
like his.

Does he not choose to display his power
and grace, in the most wretched, and most
desperate cases?—The mighty Redeemer, L5r 129
is more than equal, to all your necessities,
fears, and distresses.—My waiting eyes, are
to him; who alone can speak peace, and
consolation to your soul, while I feel the tenderest
emotions of friendship and sympathy.

I have been out to meeting, all day. The
text in the morning was, “All is vanity,
and vexation of spirit.”
—This afternoon,
“Behold his face, in righteousness;” sweet
and precious truths. I thought this was the
Heaven I wanted, this was what my soul desired,
to behold his face, in righteousness!—
Among the many thoughts which I had, one
was, of seeing my dear Mrs. B― there,
triumphing in sovereign grace!

I feel a desire to see Newport, this fall;
but must leave it with infinite wisdom.

Yours, sincerely,

S.A.

Letter LX.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend in
the country; written in Newport, when it
was a garrison by the British.

My dear Friend,

I have had peculiar satisfaction, in that L5v 130
kind, and gracious Providence, which carried
you out. I have rejoiced that your way,
(so far as we could judge) was made so prosperous;
while clouds and darkness, increase
on us!

On the --11-077th November, I was called to part
with my dear sister T―. Her pain and
distress, increased fast upon her, after you left
us. O, it was an affecting scene—to see the
universal, extreme pain, in which she lay,
without a murmuring word,—yea, with a
cheerfulness, becoming the Christian character,
to her last moments;—waiting for, and
expecting, her dissolution! On Thursday,
about ten o’clock, she expired! After I had
attended on her through this finishing scene,
and all was done for her that could be done,
it appeared duty, to turn to my dear Mrs. O.
who was sick; destitute; and in affliction;
not knowing, but God would call me to attend
her, through the like scene! But I found
her better, though very weak.―At this time,
and a little before, I had been brought to
greater straits than ever.―More than two
weeks, we were destitute of wood, only a
little, which our dear Mrs. M. sent us; and
the weather, was extremely cold.The town was very destitute of Wood, and other necessary
articles of life, at this time.
But O, L6r 131
my dear, I had an infinite God; it was
enough!—I saw myself to be in the very
circumstances, infinite wisdom, perfect rectitude,
boundless goodness, and never-failing
faithfulness, had chosen for me.—I gloried
in it—and though these circumstances, were
not in themselves desirable; yet, considered
as the wise choice, of an all-glorious—all-perfect
Being, I preferred them, as inexpressibly
more eligible, than any that I, or any of my
dearest, earthly friends, could choose for me!
—And at this time, through sovereign grace,
I trust I was enabled to perform my former
resolution, that when earth should sever all
from me, I would boast, and glory in my choice
of God!
Indeed, as far as we have any
true love, to the glorious Jehovah; a view
of his government, will reconcile us, to any
possible situation!

Our dear Mrs. O. seems to be in very
different circumstances, from any she ever
saw before.—Refuge, and helpers fail;—
and she does not seem to possess that confidence,
and joy, which was usual in difficulties.
—Yet I know God will appear, he will not
forsake; his faithfulness, will not fail!

We have seen darker times, I think, since
you left us, than ever before, and our prospects L6v 132
more gloomy.—Yet Jehovah is the
same;—as able to deliver, as ever! If we
are his, (and I trust we are) it is his cause,
his interest, his charge, to care for us; direct,
support, deliver us, or sanctify all evils
to us. Verily there is no help for us, but
in God;—and surely that is enough!

O, it is good, if the will of God be so, that
we should be in circumstances, which constrain
us to look to him alone; shut up from
all helpers, but the Lord!

Hitherto, especially of late, I have felt
myself in the hands of Jehovah, following
where he leads. I did not want to stay;
fain would I have gone away,When the British took possession of Newport, Miss A.
wished to go off the Island; but found it not practicable.
he held me.—
I rebelled, and was almost shipwrecked in
the storm; all my support at times was, that
the mighty Redeemer was able to conquer
me; I was in his hands, and he knew what
to do, with his froward children.—And now,
here I am, constrained to say; he hath done
all things well!

Here I am, let me but follow, where Christ
leads;—and go where, and when, he commands;
—abide where he chooses, and let ten thousand
deaths await me; all is well!

M1r 133

O my dear friend, I fear nothing, but the
least deviation, from the most wise, and holy
law, and will, of Jehovah!—I think, if he
should point out the way, for me to go to my
dear connexions, I should gladly embrace it;
yet if he say, stay here”; can I object, after
all that I have seen of Jehovah, in this place?
—Surely God hath not left himself without
witness, that “he is good to the evil, and
unthankful,”
every day; every moment, is
this scripture fulfilled before my eyes, and
upon me! I am polluted, and dwell among
a polluted people; a people of unclean lips!Miss A. has reference to the profanity of the troops,
which dwelt in the town, at that time; and much of which
her situation obliged her to be in the hearing of.

—Yet Jehovah works here; were it not for
this, I am sure these circumstances, and this
place would have been a very Hell; but here
I have enjoyed a very Heaven, if heaven
consists in manifestations of Jehovah’s character.

O my dear, to some people, my letter
would seem to be full of contradictions. The
distress and miseries of this place are great;
—the prospects, I may say big, with every
evil.—I think I would not stay here another
day, for all the riches on earth!—Yet, if
my Redeemer hold me here, I hope to gain M M1v 134
spiritual riches;—a heavenly treasure; to
see more of God still; here I am, let the
Lord do with me, as seemeth him good!

I have just been to see Mrs. O.; find her
not quite so dejected, as she was yesterday;
though every thing in Providence appears
dark, respecting her! Well, let faith wait
on; and trust in, the mighty God of Jacob;
yea, glory in his government.

Since I wrote the above, Mrs. O. has received
a letter, and present, from Mrs. ―.
This coming from such an unexpected quarter,
and at this time, has greatly affected our
Friend.—She cries, surely the finger of God,
is in it!”
—Now, say my friend, is not Jehovah,
worthy to be trusted?

Another date, in the same letter:—

And now, my dear, we must still trust in
God; it looks as if the very dregs of the cup
are for us; the probability now is, that the
small-pox will spread, and what distress will
this occasion!Very few of the inhabitants of Newport, ever had the
small-pox; as it never went through the town.—Had it
spread, at that time of general calamity, it would have been
distressing indeed!

I think we are called to weeping and M2r 135
mourning, but not to despair. No, the Lord
yet lives;—Jehovah reigns;—let us rejoice,
though it be with trembling! I have many
difficulties, both personal and relative, to encounter,
but God orders them all. I am constrained
to look to him.—Perhaps I shall not
be able to add to my letter. Let my friends
know all. Pray for us, bless God; give
much love. “I have waited for thy salvation,
O Lord; and it shall come!”

Another date:

I must begin again, as my letter does not
go yet. Where are all my dear friends, (I
think of them by name) who have been praying
for me, in this time of captivity?—Let
them not cease, I am extremely needy;—my
circumstances trying;—but, through their
prayers; the grace of the Lord Jesus, can
cause me to glory, in tribulation? O, the
wonderful grace of God, revealed in the gospel!
What more can I want!—I find, “the
word of the Lord endures forever!”
—It is a
tried word! God is a present help, in trouble;
he is near at hand.—O the infinite
perfection of his government! What consummate
happiness; what complete blessedness;
to be under his dominion!—But I M2v 136
must stop; one day will reveal it.—O, for
an eternity, to celebrate his praises!!

Yours,

S.A.

Letter LXI.

From Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. Hopkins.

Rev. and very dear Sir,

As I know I am bound to believe things,
which I cannot comprehend; so I am bound
to believe, when you express yourself gratified
by my writing; but how a person of your
discerning can be so, is beyond my conception.
Yet while I cannot have the least
doubt of your sincerity, I will write; and
rejoice that I may do it with an entire freedom.

There is not any thing which gives me a
more pleasing sensation, and raises my soul
more to God, than your supports and enjoyments.
And, by my acquaintance with you,
I trust there is a new scene of eternal enjoyment
opened; and I hope, in a more perfect,
uninterrupted manner, to partake of your
joy and triumph, through our all-conquering
Emmanuel forever!

Oh, how big is the present state, even every
circumstance of it, with eternal pleasures M3r 137
to the friends of Christ, in his highest, and
most glorious exaltation, as Head over all
things!—What an infinite weight of boundless
joys, must they have, in the thought, that
Dominion is with him!—Oh, if I did but
believe that he is, what he really is, this
truth would break all my captive chains;
an be an unfailing source of joy and tranquillity,
even amidst all the evils, which encompass
both my friends and myself.—I am,
dear Sir, tenderly concerned for your health
at present, and cannot but urge to the use of
the best means; and “let the Lord do that,
which seems good, in his sight.”

I thank you, Sir, for your last, kind, valuable
favour; and am ready to wonder, that
amidst all your many, and important labours,
you should condescend to hold a correspondence
with one so unworthy.—I know you
have, vastly too high . an opinion of me; but
so it must be, or I should not have an abiding
in the society of the people of God! May
the Lord encrease the number of your dear
Christian friends; and may they all, be equal
to your benevolent conception of them.

I am, dear Sir,
Yours, under the most sacred obligations,

S.A.

M3v 138

Letter LXII.

From Mrs.Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. H.

Very dear Sir,

I thank you, for your last, kind letter;
but cannot attempt to make any returns in
this. I have been so very unwell, dark, and
dejected, that I have had little heart for any
thing!

Ever since last Sabbath, I have been fighting
in the dark, except a few moments on
Monday evening; one of the shortest, sweetest
seasons, I ever had! I could not account
for it in any other way, than that my worthy
friend was praying for me. I felt in a small
degree, that I was; and had also some view,
of the infinite, boundless compassion, of the
dear, divine Redeemer, towards his people.—
Those precious truths, you delivered some
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an impression on my mind at that time; now
broke out as a sun-beam—Bodily strength
was directly exhausted, and I could not pursue
the delightful exercise; yet somehow,
through much darkness and dejection, the
glorious character, of the divine, omnipotent M4r 139
Redeemer, has been a support and stay to
my mind, ever since!

Requesting an interest in your prayers still,
I am, under great obligations,
Your unworthy friend,

S.A.

Letter LXIII.

From Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. H.

Rev. and much-esteemed Sir,

I thank you for your very acceptable
letter, which has been too-long unnoticed;
owing chiefly to my discouragement with
myself.

As to the death of my dear parent, it was
indeed a close trial. Yet I think, under all
my tender feelings, I have had pleasure in
the righteousness, justice and wisdom, of that
sentence, “Dust thou art, and unto dust shalt
thou return!”
even though executed on me,
and all my dearest enjoyments. I have been
made to taste a peculiar sweetness, in going
to God, and as it were claiming a new property
in him, as the Father of the fatherless. M4v 140
But O, how little do I profit, under
all the divine cultivations! If I am a little
awaked for a moment, to see the importance
of living to God, and being all activity in his
service; how soon do I dose again. O, can
such stupidity, be the spot of God’s children!

I have had very sensible fears, that I should
turn out a vile apostate!—But then had only
two requests to make; namely, that God
might be glorified upon me, and that my enmity
might never rise against him! I know
it shall never be so, unless the honor of God
can be secured, and it be made to appear by
my wickedness, that it is a righteous thing in
God thus to dispose of me; and surely I can
see no difficulty here.

My mind at times, since this year commenced,
has been sensibly impressed with the
importance of being prepared to meet God;
in what way, and at what time soever, he
cometh!—I know that temptations and trials
abide me; but when, and what, is nothing,
if I may but approve myself to God.—O,
there is something so inexpressibly sweet and
desirable, in being a hearty, cordial, entire
friend to Christ, that it exceeds every attainment M5r 141
on earth!—All things shrink into nothing,
before this!

I am, Rev. Sir,
Yours,

S.A.

Letter LXIV.

From the same, to the same, written in New-
London
, in time of war.

Rev. and Dear Sir,

Your very acceptable letter came to
hand, last week.—I have met with a disappointment
in not seeing the ladies, and in not
proceeding on my journey; but I am not
anxious, the Lord reigns, hath the disposal
of all my affairs, and hath done all things
well. O, what consummate wisdom, what
glorious sovereignty, and what tender care,
hath attended me, through every step of my
life.—What obligations am I under! How
reasonable that I should, with entire confidence,
and absolute submission, rest all with
him!

The protection lately granted, my dear
Newport friends, lays me under new bonds. M5v 142
I think I feel myself less my own, than ever!
—What shall I render to the Lord? I am
sure this additional favour, demands some
new, and special tribute; and great will be
my guilt, if I do not make some grateful returns!
And God hath, while graciously appearing
for my dear connexions, been visiting
me personally, with loving kindness and tender
mercy. He hath gone before, and prepared
an agreeable place for me, in a strange
land.

The Rev. and dear Mr. Woodbridge, represented
the necessity of my staying some
time with him, in his low estate! He is
much better, mends fast, is sensible of it himself.
His whole conduct is full of instruction.
—His prayers are most excellent, and refreshing;
in which he seems to rise to God, and
centre in him, with the most entire satisfaction.
I cannot give you an idea of the agreeable,
divine temper, which he exhibits.—O
Sir, I am under peculiar advantages, and am
ready to think, that I can never forget this
interview; especially with the worthy Mr.
W.
his soul seems all attention, to know the
mind of God, in his dispensations towards
him. For this, he earnestly requests the
prayers of his friends; and for this, I also
ask all your prayers, for him.—You must all M6r 143
help me, to fulfil that divine precept, to seek
the good of the people with whom I sojourn.

Letter LXV.

To the same—The conclusion of a Letter.

The cause of truth, appeared so infinitely
important, that when I was so exhausted,
that I could say no more, I could not cease
crying, come Lord Jesus; O come, in the
display and vindication of divine truth.—
But the views and exercises I had, on this
occasion, cannot be expressed. But alas, I
have been ready to think, for some weeks
past, that my praying-times were over, such
degrees of stupidity prevail; and when I gain
a little view of divine and eternal things
which engages me in that exercise my bodily
strength immediately fails, or some disorder
seizes me, that I am not able to continue!—
O, that I might cease to be mortal, when I
cease to pray; and my harp be tuned, for
immortal, incessant praise!

O that the wise, the kind Redeemer, would
admit me to the unwearied services of his
kingdom above!—Blessed be God, he hath
employment enough, for all his people; and
Heaven is not a state of inactivity! O then, M6v 144
why should I drag on, at so low a rate! But
the Lord reigns, and I must rejoice. O may
the everlasting God be your refuge; and his
fulness your abundant supply, for all the important
services, to which he hath called you.

Yours, under the highest obligations,

S.A.

Letter LVILXVI.

Part of another Letter, to the same.

Rev. and Dear Sir,

God knoweth, how often you have ministered
to my necessities, in your public discourses.
—Your sermon, last Thursday evening,
was peculiarly adapted to my case!—O
how swift are my feet to shed blood! Surely
I need the most enlarged, and exalted views
of the boundless, sovereign grace of God, and
the infinite worthiness, excellence, power,
and sufficiency of the glorious Redeemer, in
order to maintain a hope, that ever such a lost,
wretched creature as I am, can be redeemed
from all iniquity. And if I now know my
own heart, the greatest desire I have for my
own salvation is, that these may be magnified
in it; and that they shall be, beyond all
conception, is matter of eternal praise!

N1r 145

Letter LXVII.

From Miss S.A., to the same person.

Rev. and dear Sir,

I am very sensibly affected, with your
late indisposition.—I heard nothing of it till
last evening, when I was deprived the pleasure
and profit of your conversation; yet I
hope this providence shall not be in vain.—
O, my dear Sir, what pleasure do I enjoy, in
having such a glorious, kind, compassionate,
all-sufficient, and infinitely wise Redeemer,
into whose hands I can commit my dear, and
invaluable friend! To him, I think, I have
now, given up all my right, and the privileges
and enjoyments under his servant, all
my wishes and desires for them. I have
nothing left! If I take back, I shall be guilty
of the most horrid sacrilege! But this I
know I shall do, if sovereign grace do not
prevent.

Since last evening, I have seen it so infinitely
fit, safe and happy, to have this, my
dear friend and pastor, with every circumstance
of his, in the hands of Christ, and at
his wise disposal; that I with confidence
leave him there, knowing he will do more N N1v 146
for him, than I can ask or think! While
he will promote his own interest, in which
you are engaged.

All is well! It is enough that Jesus
lives and reigns! O, let him govern, let
him dispose; and O! let me never retreat,
or rebel! O! may Jesus fill your soul with
divine communications, and delightful consolation,
in a view of the Majesty, glory, beauty,
extent, and duration, of his kingdom!

I thank you Sir, for your sermons on Baptism:
I read them with inexpressible pleasure.
They have been the most instructing,
and satisfactory to me, of any thing I ever
met with, on the subject. I could not but
ardently wish, they might be made public.—
O, what obligations am I under, for what
God has done for me, through your labours,
to leave all future events with him!

I am, dear Sir, your unworthy,

S.A.

Letter LXVIII.

To the Same.

Rev. and dear Sir,

I thank you, a thousand times, for your N2r 147
last; but much regretted, that you should
entertain any opinion of me, which should
prevent your pressing all that instruction on
me, which you would on the most ignorant
creature in the world.—I am ready to think,
I never was more untractable, under any providence,
than I have been under my late bereavement.

Surely the wise, the righteous, and holy
God, had designs in it, even towards me,
which I have not properly noticed and improved.
—Surely there was infinitely more
instruction in it, than I have received. And
yet, I think, I never had a more real, and
abiding delight, in devoting myself and all
my enjoyments to God, and in viewing all
at his disposal! I have thought, what if God
was about to make an exchange with me;
take from me my dear relatives, and give me
grace and ability, to obtain precious souls for
Christ. In this view, I have felt an inexpressible
pleasure; and when all were gone,
wished for ten thousand more to exchange!
But I know it doth not become me, to make
conditions. Let the Lord do, as seemeth
him good.

Is there any true benevolence, in esteeming
it a privilege, to have dear relatives and N2v 148
friends, merely that we may give them up at
the call of God? Or, is this inconsistent
with that natural affection, which we ought
to have. Would such a pleasure imply a despising
the chastening of the Lord? Dear
Sir, I rely on your candour, and am,

Your obliged,

S.A.

Letter LXIX.

To the Same.

Dear Sir,

I thank you for your last unmerited favour.
O, that I had a heart, to improve the
rich privileges, with which a gracious Providence
indulges me!

By your kind condescension to me, you
are making work for yourself; but this I believe
will not discourage you, if my unteachableness
does not. I wish for instruction;
and my pride would like to obtain it, without
exposing my own ignorance!—But I shall
venture, on the kindness and candour, of my
Reverend and esteemed pastor; and, in my
broken manner, propose some queries, respecting
what is termed appropriating faith. N3r 149
Perhaps you will be obliged to tell the dream,
as well as the interpretation.

I have rejected the idea, of faith’s consisting
in a belief, that Christ died for me in particular.
—But possibly I have been holding
the same idea, in some other form of expression.
Permit me then to ask, When a person
feels himself infinitely guilty and vile, justly
condemned by the holy and righteous law
of God; acknowledges, against thee, and
thee only, have I sinned! &c. When this
person has a view of the divine Redeemer,
in his infinite beauty and worthiness, who
hath magnified the law, and made it honourable;
hath brought in everlasting righteousness,
and is mighty to save; doth he not, in
flying for refuge, to lay hold on the hope set
before him, choose Christ, for his Almighty
Saviour?—He hath been crying, “God be
merciful to me, a sinner”
; here he beholds
mercy; doth he not embrace it, for himself?
—Doth he not receive Christ, as his Prophet,
Priest, and King?—Although he cannot
know that he is so, until he hath a consciousness,
that he hath complied with the terms
of the gospel. Although I believe, the soul
is chiefly taken up, with adoring views of
the glory of God, in the face of Jesus Christ;
yet, as the divine law hath been brought N3v 150
home, with application to themselves, so I
think they will make application to the Redeemer,
for themselves; and may not these
exercises arise, from a regard to the glory of
God?—But it is time I should stop, and subscribe,

Your unworthy friend,

S.A.

N.B. Doubtless many would be glad to see the
Answer, to the above Letter; it is therefore inserted
here.

Letter LXX.

An Answer, to the Questions, in the last Letter,
by the Rev. Mr. H.

Question. Although faith doth not consist
in believing that Christ died for me, in
particular; yet, is there not a degree of appropriation,
in all true saving faith?—Does
not the believer, see Christ a sufficient Saviour
for him; does he not fly to Christ, for
that very deliverance and salvation, which
he feels he wants; and does he not trust in
him, for this salvation, for himself?

Answer I. The sinner, in believing on N4r 151
Christ, does see, that in Christ there is a sufficient
remedy for him; enough to supply all
his wants.

2. Salvation by Christ, even that very salvation
which he gives, suits and pleases his
heart, and he desires this salvation; yea, he
trusts in Christ for it, and heartily accepts
of it.

3. All this may be, yet the sinner not
have the least thought, that he hath an interest
in Christ, and this salvation; nor any
particular thought, or reflection, about his
own salvation, whether he shall be saved, or
not; but wholly taken up, in attending
to the pleasing, glorious things, which he
sees in the gospel.

4. But so far as he reflects, on the misery,
and dreadfulness of a state of sin, and eternal
destruction, with application to himself; and
on the sufficiency, and glory of Christ, and
the worth of salvation by him; he will be
filled with a pleasing hope, of this salvation.
—But as the desire of this salvation, and
even a sight and belief of it, has its foundation
in a benevolent, disinterested turn, or
affection of his heart; so the hope, which
springs from this, cannot be a selfish thing;
but benevolence is, as it were, the very life N4v 152
and soul of it; or it is a hope, of the glory
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to a considerable degree; while the person
does not think that the does believe, or has
an interest in Christ.

5. But when the mind comes to reflect on
its own exercises, which are by the Spirit of
God caused to be lively and strong, it will
have a consciousness that it doth believe, and
trust, in Christ, for salvation; and so far as
this takes place, he will think of Christ, and
apply to him, as his Saviour, who hath died
for him.—Yea,

6. The very first act of faith, may be so
strong, and attended with such circumstances,
that the person may have a consciousness,
and even an assurance, that Christ is offered
freely; and that he does accept of him, and
trust in him.—But then, this is not essential
to true faith; but in such a case, only an attendant
of it.—In a word,

7. The sinner, in the exercise of true faith,
always trusts in Christ, as able and willing
to save him; and trusts in him, and receives
him for himself, or as his Prince and Saviour;
that is, is willing and chooses he
should be so.—He flies to Christ, as a refuge N5r 153
for himself; as the only hope set before him.
—But this may be, without any persuasion,
that his present exercises are, a trusting in
Christ, receiving him, flying to him, &c.—
So he may be at the greatest distance from
looking on Christ as his Saviour, in any peculiar,
or appropriate sense; or as having
interest in him, more than any sinner on
earth.

This, however, does not exclude hope of
salvation, but rather includes it; which hope
is as different, from that of an unregenerate
sinner, as benevolence is from selfishness.—
And whenever he comes to hope, and be
confident, that he does believe in Christ, his
hope is not a selfish one, but benevolence
is the very foundation of it; so that his hope
and assurance of salvation would give him
no pleasure, would do him no good, and indeed
would cease to be Christian hope, was
not the glory of God, and the greatest general
good, included in it, and promoted
by it!

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Letter LXXI.

From Mrs. O. to the Rev. Mr. F―, of S.
giving some account of her exercises in the
time of firing on the town, but the British
Ships.

Reverend, and dear Sir,

When a friend providentially brought
me your letter, I rejoiced much to hear of
your welfare, and anxiously desired to speak
to my worthy friend. The bearer kindly
offered, to write for me.Mrs. Osborn’s sight, forbid her writing with her own hand.
We had but little
time; my thoughts were as the swellings of
Jordan, language failed; and doubtless conveyed
ideas different from my meaning.—I
have been much dissatisfied with some parts
of my letter, especially my omissions—as I
did not tell my dear friend, how much I had
borne him on my heart, nor so much as to
ask the continuance of his prayers for me,
though I doubt not the mercies with which
I have been indulged, both spiritual and temporal,
as also the preservations and deliverance
of Newport; are in answer to yours,
and others of God’s people’s prayers. And
sure I am, I had rather had an interest in the
prayers of the people of God, than to possess N6r 155
millions of gold and silver. And now Sir,
I earnestly beg you will not cease to pray for
me. O, pray that I may be a widow indeed!
―Solemnly devoted to God, to my latest
breath; and may the best of blessings rest on
you, and yours forever!

Forgive, dear Sir, if you think my assertions
were too bold, respecting the safety of
God’s little remnant. I had at that time,
such a view of the adorable attributes, of the
infinitely glorious, unchangeable, faithful,
covenant-keeping Jehovah, and the safety
of all those who trusted in him, that I could
not find language to express my ideas!

Verily, though miracles have ceased, God
is the only refuge of his people!—The name
of the Lord, is a strong tower.—He is an
all-sufficient good, in the absence of the dearest
enjoyments on earth!—Happy people,
whose God is the Lord!

The strength and courage I mentioned,
which God graciously graciously granted me
in times of danger; was not the result of
any confident persuasion, that I should not
be slain.—No! when the bullets were whistling
around me, I realized the next might
have a commission to reach me; and if this
was the way, infinite wisdom had chosen, I N6v 156
had no objection to make.—I chose neither
life, nor death, only that God might glorify
himself in me; and that, whether I lived, or
died, I might be the Lord’s.—I know every
shot was directed by unerring wisdom; and
every heart of the enemy, as much as his
controul, who hath said to the restless ocean,
“hitherto shalt thou come, and no further”;
and here shall they proud waves be stayed.

Thus I rested on God.—Oh! boundless
grace, adorable sovereignty!—Why was I
not rather called to drink, the very dregs, of
the cup of his displeasure?—Why was I not
made, even a terror to myself, and all around
me! I, who have had so great a hand, in
drawing down the judgments of God upon
us!—Oh, my friend, adore, with me; let
the Lord alone be exalted; and let me be
reckoned, among the chief of sinners!

Through the goodness of that God, who
hath said, “I will never leave thee, nor forsake
thee”
, I am again called to set up my
Ebenezer; for hitherto the Lord hath helped
me. I have been unwell, but through
mercy am better. I have known no sufferings,
this hard winter,After the British evacuated Newport, and the town was
in want of almost every comfort of life.
but what hath been O1r 157
the effect of sympathy: for while many
others have been ready to perish, I have had
a constant supply of food and fewel.

Touching Zion’s cause; my dear sir, since
I wrote you, while thinking on the sad things
we bemoan; I have been much refreshed
with the thought, that when Elijah complained
that true religion was lost, God had reserved
to himself seven thousand.—And who
can say, that God has not many more in this
dark time, than we are aware of. I rest in
this truth, “The foundation of God standeth
sure; having this seal, the Lord knoweth
who are his.”
—And though the prevalence
of error and delusion, are matters of
for lamentation; yet, may not mourners
in Zion, be comforted in this, that the
chosen of God, shall never be finally deceived;
though such should arise, as would, if
possible, deceive the very elect.—We know,
that the gates of Hell, shall never prevail against
that Church, which Christ hath purchased
with his own most precious blood.

Blessed be God, the great Head of the
Church, in whom dwells all the fullness of
the Godhead bodily, is equal to all the work
assigned him; able to protect and defend O O1v 158
his own, as well as to redeem them.—May
not all that hath befallen us, both in Church
and State, serve rather to strengthen, than
stagger our faith; since our divine Redeemer
faithfully warned us of the coming of such
things, in the latter days.—We see that not
one jot or tittle of his word fails, in this part;
and shall not latter-day promises, be as truly
fulfilled.—May we not lift up our heads,
because redemption draweth nigh!—Oh, Sir,
when I get fast hold of that foundation-truth,
spoken by precious Christ himself, “All that
the Father hath given me, shall come unto
me; and him that cometh, I will in no wise
cast out.”
Then, as saith Mr. Elliot,
“Faith lies at Anchor, in the midst of waves
and billows; and believes the accomplishments
of the promises.”
—Then I can travel,
not only over this vast continent, but over
all the globe; and be assured, that every soul
born, or yet unborn, who were given to
Christ in the covenant of redemption, shall
come to him; and of those whom the Father
hath given him, he will lose none, no not
one: Even in this dark day, none shall pluck
them out of his hands!

And when the set time to favour Zion is
come, then Christ will be avenged on Satan
for all the mischief he hath done; the old O2r 159
Serpent shall be bound, that he deceive the
nations no more! God shall pour out his
Spirit, in plentiful effusions. The knowledge
of God, shall cover the earth, as the waters
fill the sea.—Then Christ Jesus will reign
triumphant, King of Nations, as he is now
King of Saints. Amen. Hallelujah! So
come Lord Jesus.—Whether you or I, shall
live to see the dawn of that blessed day, is
not known to us. But if we are so happy, as
to arrive safe in Heaven, before it commence;
where there is joy among the Angels,
over one sinner, that repenteth, what
transports of joy shall we behold, when millions
repent; when a nation, is born in a
day!—Shall we not then be partakers of that
joy, which is unspeakable, and full of glory!
—Shall not our souls exult, in seeing the
glory, of the once crucified, but now risen,
ascended, enthroned Redeemer!—Thanks
be to him, that he hath said; “Father, I
will, that those whom thou hast given me,
be with me, where I am; to behold my
glory!”
—Oh pray, that I may be prepared,
for this!

These are the comforts, on which I live.
—Pray, Sir, pardon the length of my letter:
I could not stop, my heart was full; and it
is probable, this is the last time I shall be permitted O2v 160
to speak to you in this world, as
every attempt to indite, is an overthrow to
my feeble frame.—I thank you, Sir, for all
your past indulgence; and for all the helps
you have afforded me, in my various trials.
—The Lord, reward you.—May a double
portion of his Spirit, rest upon you.—May
you ever taste the sweetness of, the “Lo, I
am with you, always;”
till, having turned
many to righteousness, you finish your course,
and enter into the joy of your Lord!—Farewell,
my dear friend; farewell! Please
to give my tender love to your spouse, and
daughter; and accept the same yourself.—
From

Yours, in the delightful bonds of love,
gratitude, and friendship,

S.O.

Letter LXXII.

From Mrs. O. to Deacon ―.

Worthy Sir,

Yours, of 1769-03-29March 29, 1769, came not to
hand, till 1769-06-24June 24th. I now write, to return
you a thousand unfeigned thanks; for your
kind, endearing, friendly, and Christian caution.
—Blessed be thou of the Lord; and
blessed be thine advice!—The Lord sanctify O3r 161
it to me, as a preservative against the sin of
Devils, that monster of monsters, Spiritual
Pride!—That sin, which would rob God, of
all his glory; and even dethrone, the Majesty
of Heaven, if in its power, and set up the
Idol, Self, in his room!

Can the jealous eye of Jehovah, bear this,
without the utmost indignation and abhorrence!
—What can provoke, this sacred Majesty
more, than the prevalency of this sin;
or cause him to leave the soul, influenced by
it, to fall into scandalous sins, for its humiliation?
“Pride goes before destruction,
and a haughty Spirit, before a fall.”
“God
resisteth the proud.”
—Oh, Sir, I have lived
more than fifty-five years; and more than
thirty-two of them, have been fighting,
watching, praying, weeping, and groaning,
for deliverance from this monster, with a
thousand heads!—And yet, must lay my
hand upon my breast, and say, “the Traitor
is there still; to the breaking of my heart!”

—I find it intermixing itself, with every
attempt I make, to glorify God!—And oh,
how does it cut the soul to the quick, to find
the most solemn, ardent, and vigorous duties,
tainted with pride and self!

Oh, Sir, very sore have been my trials and
conflicts, on account of my character; and O3v 162
correspondence with my superiors! By these
things, I have sometimes appeared to myself,
as a mark set up, for Satan to level all his
darts against.—I have wanted to hide, or
creep into some secret corner, to avoid the
rage of sin and hell;—but still, Providence
has forbid; and without my seeking, correspondents
have increased upon me from time
to time, and great good hath God brought
to my weary soul hereby!—Blessed be God,
he favours me with the counsel of the judicious,
the faithful, and the wise.—This is a
privilege, God hath indulged me with; and
why should I cast it away, merely because
God hath made me, and my poor performances,
acceptable to my friends?

If he will display his divine sovereignty,
in such a babe; ought I not to say, “Even
so, Father, for so it seemeth good, in thy
sight!”

My pen, as well as myself, have long, I
trust, been solemnly given up to God, to be
used for him, and for none other; and when,
through sore conflicts, I am tempted to lay
it aside, the sin of the slothful servant, stares
me in the face; and I dare not!—Besides,
every friend, as you have now done, Sir, lays
me under an obligation, to answer them.— O4r 163
Was I not to answer you, what could you
conclude, but that I was offended at your
endearing faithfulness, and I cannot bear
the thought. Had you applauded me,
I had nauseated your Epistle, and perhaps
never answered it; but now, though I
at first relucted at writing, yet I am constrained
to beg a continuance, not only of your
kind caution, but of your reproofs too, if you
see it needful.—Let the righteous smite me,
it shall, I trust, be an excellent oil, that shall
not break my head! As to the charitable
opinions, which you and others entertain of
my having grace; in truth I trust, through
adorable sovereignty, which hath triumphed
over the chief of sinners, that you are not
mistaken.

I dare not say, I have no grace; or that
I do not know, the Lord Jesus Christ; but
as to the opinion of any, that I am an eminent
Christian, &c. it avails but little with me;
so long as I daily find sin, worse than a Mordicai,
sitting at the gate, and refusing to bow!
—The opinion of others, so far as I know it,
I conclude, proceeds from their own humility,
or their ignorance of me; for to myself,
I appear to fall awfully short, in every peculiar
excellency, I see in them.—And all the
peculiar imperfections, that I may see in one O4v 164
and another, which I might wish were otherwise,
I turn inward, and find them all centring
in me: So that I am constrained to inscribe
on myself, when compared with other
Christians, less than the least, of all Saints!
—And when compared with the law of God,
no more worthy to be called his!—Thus
God preserves me, from being puffed up;
by keeping me, in a degree, in sight of myself.
But if pride, is in a degree suppressed
this way, I run into another extreme; no less
provoking, in the sight of God, viz. sinful
discouragement; distrust of his grace; and
forget the Lord, my Maker.—And when I
feel myself thus forlorn, and am filled with
self-loathing; seeing sin in every corner, “I
fear continually every day, because of the fury
of the oppressor; as if he were ready to destroy!”

Perhaps I have never heard of the fall of
any Christian, for many years; but it is almost
incessantly suggested, it is my turn next!
—And when I wrote to you last fall, Sir, I
was under distressing fears of this! My own
sins appeared so provoking in the sight of
God, that I seemed to stand upon a precipice,
ready for a plunge every moment! I am
often constrained to say, in the bitterness of
my soul, “As the Lord liveth, I have no hope O5r 165
of standing, but in himself alone; for I am
every way exposed!”
—But Oh, since Omnipotence,
and faithfulness itself, hath hitherto
upheld me, is not my dear Redeemer still as
able to keep me from falling now, as to present
me faultless at last? Is not his grace
sufficient for me, vile as I am! And though
God stands in no need of me, to uphold his
honour and glory; yet, since he hath condescended
to say to mortals, ye are my witnesses;
cease not to pray, dear Sir, that I
may stand to my latest breath, a witness to
his truth and faithfulness.—That he will
make sin and Satan know, that I have an
Almighty friend! He, who will not deliver
me up, nor suffer any to pluck me out of his
hands; who hath said, “Because I live, ye
shall live also!”
“With me, thou shalt be
in safe-guard.”

May I not yet, lift up my drooping head,
and take courage? From union to Christ,
by faith; from the tenor of the new, and
everlasting covenant; the intercession of my
glorious Advocate in Heaven; and the
promises of God, that he will never leave me
nor forsake me? Oh, that I may look to
Jesus; who was the author, and will be the
finisher of my faith! Will not God, for his
sake, go on to forgive me, as he hath done; O5v 166
(from Egypt, even until now) blot out my
transgressions as a cloud, and speak peace
and pardon to my soul! Will he not look
on the face of his anointed, and for his sake,
strengthen me with strength, in my soul;
continue me an instance of his sovereign
grace here, till he take me to be a monumental
pillar, in his temple above!

Thanks be to God, for some spring to my
hope, at this time. That after all my trials,
the great Captain of my Salvation, will bring
me out of the field of battle, more than a
conqueror, through his grace! Blessed be
God, who hath raised me up a praying friend,
here and there, for this purpose!

But it is time to beg you will forgive my
intrusion on your patience. You have opened
such a door of freedom, Sir, and I found
the field I was in so large, I could not speedily
get out.

May the Lord go on, to enrich your precious
soul!—May you mount up as on eagle’s
wings, toward Heaven; run, and not be
weary; walk, and not faint!—That the joy
of the Lord, may be your strength, till you
arrive in glory, is the hearty desire, of

Yours much obliged, unworthy friend,

S.O.

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Letter LXXIII.

From Mrs. O. to a Lady in England; occasioned
by the Death of the Rev. Dr. Guise.

Dear Madam,

Although I have not had the honour of
a correspondence with you, yet as you are
the only surviving branch of my Rev. and
honored Uncle’s family, I beg your acceptance
of a few lines. I intended to have
written, and returned thanks to my Uncle,
for the book he sent me, but was prevented.

I mourn, with your honored mother; you
and your consort; the church, and the public,
the loss of my cousin Guise, and of my
Reverend Uncle! May God, of his infinite
mercy, make up, to all of you, in himself,
and in his Christ, what he hath taken from
you in the creature! What reason have we
to bless God, who continued them to us so
long; and made them so rich a blessing!—
That God so glorified himself in them; and
hath now released the weary Pilgrims, from
all their bodily infirmities, and from the intolerable
burden, sin! O, could we ask
them back, might we be heard? Were they
not made perfect in holiness, at death? Did
they not immediately pass into glory? Let O6v 168
us peep a little, after them; see how they
worship, before the throne, of a holy God!
and in the most humble, yet exalted strain;
casting down their crowns; and shouting
forth the praises of redeeming love, and distinguishing
grace, which hath brought them
there!

Were they not made the happy instruments,
of turning many, to righteousness?
And do we not by faith, see those shining as
the brightness of the firmament, and as the
stars forever and ever! Are they not, with
open face, beholding the lovely Jesus; and
drinking in the communicable perfections of
Jehovah! Satisfied with his likeness! Blessed
be God, I have frequently been refreshed, in
tracing the precious souls to their everlasting
home! Thanks be to God, to me, they are
not lost, but found! While they were in
Old-England, I had no hope of seeing them,
they were at a great distance from me; but
now, they are brought nigh, and through rich
and sovereign grace, I hope for a speedy and
joyful meeting! I am, I trust, hastening to
them apace. Then, freed from the odious
body of sin, under which I groan; and
clothed with my dear Redeemer’s spotless
robe; I shall, with them, be a perfect worshipper!
I shall fall prostrate and adore, P1r 169
yea, shout aloud; and yet never damp their
joy!

O blessed be God, sin cannot intermix with
holy things there! No pride; no selfish
views; no robbing God of his glory, let me
shout as loud as I may! I am ready to
think, if once I arrive there, I shall give way
to none; for surely none are under greater
obligations, than worthless me!

Yours,

S.O.

Letter LXXIV.

From Miss S.A. to a friend confined by sickness.

My dear Friend.,

I could not, until Friday night, hear a
word from you; nor could I learn what
were your circumstances, whether sick or
well; and since then I have been so unwell,
I have not been able to go out; and though
I am now better, yet I have no prospect of
seeing you at present.

O, may God be your joy and solace, in
your confinement! How sweet is it my
dear, to realize Jesus, as the great Redeemer P1v 170
from the miseries of the fall.—In him, there
is complete redemption, from all the sins and
sorrows of this fallen state! I have no sorrows
now, but sin; my unlikeness to the
blessed God; and since the blood of Jesus,
his Son, cleanseth from all sin; I will humbly
hope, if shall ere long, be completely
done away, both the guilt, and pollution of
it.—O, who, that hath this hope, can help
rejoicing!—Jesus my atonement, Jesus my
advocate, my surety, my everlasting All!—
Jesus, my Judge and my justifier! who then
shall condemn?

I have not any concerns, but what I see
Jesus Christ hath wisdom, power, grace, truth,
and compassion enough, to manage infinitely
well for me!—I am satisfied; life or death,
sickness or health, he doth all things well!—
O, may you but enjoy his presence, an all
shall be well with you. Be not afraid, only
believe; God is faithful, and will appear for
the help of his people! He is a God of judgment,
blessed are they who wait for him!—
In due time we shall reap, if we faint not.—
To him, my dear, I commit you, with my
own soul.

Yours, in Christ Jesus,

S.A.

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