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Written By
Mrs. Sarah Osborn,
Miss Susanna Anthony,
Late of Newport,

Published According to Act of Congress.

Newport, (R.I.) Printed at the Office of
The Newport Mercury.

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The following Letters are not arranged under the form of a regular Correſpondence; for they were not written in that order. Many intervening letters are loſt.—Many of theſe, were without date, and the dates of others were ſo obliterated, as to be unintelligible.—It therefore appeared inexpedient, to date any of them; they were, however, written, between the years 17401740, and 17791779.

They were written in the confidence of friendſhip, without a ſuſpicion of their ever appearing in public.—Many more might have been added, had not the price been ſtated ſo low, in the Propoſals.

They expect not the attention of the Learned, nor the notice of the Gay.—If they obtain the approbation of the Pious; and, in any degree, promote the Redeemer’s Intereſt; the end of their publication will be anſwered.


Familiar Letters.

Letter I.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S A.S.A.

My very dear and lovely friend,

As I cannot pay you a perſonal viſit, I muſt beg your acceptance of a ſhort one from my pen, juſt to tell you, my heart is with you, and alſo to call upon you, to praiſe God, with, and for me. God hath graciouſly appeared for me this day, in his houſe, and at his table; notwithſtanding all my unbelieving fears! Oh, my friend, truſt, love, and live upon, this good, and faithful God; and pray for me, that I may conſtantly do ſo too. I long to know how you do, in this trying time. I hope your precious foul, is ſwallowed up in the God of ordinances; while, for wiſe and holy ends, you are at preſent detained from God’s houſe! The Lord preſerve you from any murmurings, and enable you patiently to ſubmit to his bleſſed will, at all times. If you are able, let me hear from you, by a line or two, which will be very grateful to,

Your sincere friend,

S. Osborn

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Letter II.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear friend,

Yours, I laſt night received, which was like cold water to a thirſty ſoul! It did refreſh my ſoul, to think, that I, unworthy I, was in your thoughts, and on your heart, when you was taken near your God! I truſt it has raiſed my love to my Redeemer, that he was pleaſed to manifeſt himſelf to you.

Oh, my friend, ſurely I love and honor my glorious Saviour, for any diſplays of his power and grace, though they be not directly made to me; yet if Jeſus be glorified in his ſaints, I rejoice, and thereby am made a partaker of their joys! Oh, let my infinitely glorious God be magnified and exalted, and I am delighted, yea even raviſhed! It is well, infinitely well, though I was denied the happy privilege of meeting God in his houſe, and at his table.—My ſpirits ſunk within me, while, in thought, I viewed the table ſpread, the gueſts invited, and a happy few permitted to lean on the breaſt of Jeſus, while at ſupper, and hear him ſaying unto them, Eat, O friends, drink, yea drink abundantly, O beloved; but I, ſhut out, not ſuffered to taſte the children’s bread! My ſoul melted into A3r 5 heavineſs! I had prayed, waited, and hoped, there to meet my God; and the denial was, and ſtill is, affecting and afflicting, but I forbear! God is juſt and holy, I am ſinful, and unworthy! Yet I rejoice for you, and more, that the divine perfections are gloriouſly diſplayed! But, O my dear, were you thus highly-favoured, by the King of kings! the eternal Jehovah! Did this pure, this holy Being, permit you to draw near to him, and even take you near him! Oh, why? Lord, what is man, that thou art mindful of him! Verily the contemplation, and enjoyment of God, is the higheſt dignity of human caprci!! Oh, here, my thoughts are loſt, in wonder, love, and adoration! What, man, fallen, guilty man, to be thus highly-favoured! To be raiſed to know, and enjoy, this infinite, ſelf-ſufficient God—a Being, who is indeed his own infinite delight and happineſs, the portion, reſt, and delight, of finite creatures! O infinite grace, and love! And did He, who is the high and lofty one, who inhabiteth eternity, condeſcend to manifeſt himſelf to you! Shall not this, fix your heart forever, in admiration, love and gratitude, to God the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, who all engaged in this work for you! O, my dear friend, be grateful, be thankful, be humble, be holy, and joyful. And though A3v 6 you may not ſtay on the mount, to build tabernacles, yet take Jeſus down with you! Oh, now take care, you do not loſe ſight of him, whom you lately ſaw by faith, and ſaw him infinitely lovely, and deſirable; for ſo, I am ſure, he appeared to you if you ſaw him at all; either what he is in himſelf, or what he is to you.

Oh, my friend, I am jealous over you, I truſt with a godly jealouſy, leſt you let Satan, the world, or your own heart, cauſe him to withdraw! God is infinitely good and gracious, but he is Lord of lords, and a glorious Sovereign! He will not always bear with the affronts and indignities, which we offer him. Though he bear much, and long, yet, abuſed love and mercies, will let us ſee, it is an evil and bitter thing, to depart from the living God! But why do I thus write? Can my friend forget, or ſlight, that loving-kindneſs which is better than life: Can ſhe ſlight a Saviour’s love and grace? Can ſhe ever revolt any more! Can ſhe be ſo unthankful, as practically to ſay, his frowns are as good as his ſmiles? Can ſhe ever forget her late fears, and hear the Prince of Peace ſpeak pardon; or, Can ſhe forget her own ſolemn vows, and penitent reflections! Will ſhe forſwear herſelf and retract, A4r 7 tract, ſurely no! But I muſt have done, I am quite ſpent, yet am,

Yours, affectionate,

S. Anthony


Letter III.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S,

I have been once, and again, refreſhed by your dear letter; and deſire that we may, by aſſiſting grace, endeavour to keep up this way of converſing together; the Lord make it effectual, for the quickening and reviving our ſouls.

I have of late, been under diſtreſſing fears, that I ſhall, one day, be left ſo to myſelf, as to fall foully, if not finally, into ſin, to the great diſhonor of my profeſſion, and wounding of my own ſoul! I thought, I had reaſon to fear it, from my ſlothfulneſs, in ſecret duties where I believe, generally, apoſtacy begins. But behold, while I ſaid, my foot ſlippeth, the mercy of my God held me up! And inſtead of leaving me to revolt more and more, he hath returned, in his quickening, ſanctifying, and comforting influences, and conſtrains me to adore him, as a faithful God, who, I now believe, will never A4v 8 leave nor forſake me. Now I can ſet up my ebenezer again, for hitherto the Lord hath helped me. I am of your opinion, that it is a ſtratagem of Satan, which keeps us pondering ſo much on the vileneſs of our own hearts, as to hinder us from delighting, and rejoicing, in our glorious Mediator! Few, I believe, have been more overcome in this way, than I. But through the goodneſs of my God, I am more at liberty! And it is thus my dear, are we beſet with ſnares on every ſide? Are the righteous ſcarcely ſaved? and are we, among the happy few, who have entered the ſtrait gate, and are walking the narrow way, to life eternal! What obligations are we under, to love, praiſe, admire, and adore! Oh, let us not leave all this, to do in eternity; but let us now in time, begin that bleſt employment, which in eternity ſhall never end!

When I began to write, my heart was filled as with new wine, and wanted vent; but my pain, obliges me to break off abruptly.— Let us be looking forward, to the great Captain of our ſalvation; who will, I truſt, bring us at laſt, to the enjoyment of himſelf, which the utmoſt we can deſire.

Yours, in the bonds of friendſhip,

S. Osborn

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Letter IV.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S.

Through the hurry and confuſion of my mind yeſterday, I did not ſeem to take proper notice of that which ſo nearly concerned, and touched your heart ſo tenderly; yet it has ever ſince, lain near my heart.

And does it appear to you my dear, that Providence is now as it were, calling you to reſign your moſt dear enjoyments; to give up your beloved Iſaac, your beloved retirement? Does reaſon tell you, that your way is ſo hedged up, it is impoſſible for you to enjoy it under ſuch circumſtances as Providence is about to place you in? Now endeavour to exerciſe an Abraham’s faith, and hope, againſt hope! You will ſurely find the Ram, caught in the thicket: God will provide himſelf an acceptable ſacrifice. Your covenant God, who hath ſo often cauſed light to ſpring out of darkneſs to you, will not leave you deſtitute now, of the enjoyment of himſelf. No, no. He will find out ways and means, to bring you nigh to himſelf, and will refreſh your precious ſoul! Remember, with God, all things are poſſible! Renewedly caſt all your care on him, who A5v 10 careth for you; yea caſt this, with all your heavy burdens on him, he will ſurely ſuſtain you. Look on your dear and lovely Saviour, whom you have received with all his benefits; your glorious King, who continually ſways his royal ſceptre, and orders all things for his own glory, and your good. Look on your dear indulgent Father, through him, and think, whether he will deny you any thing you aſk, in the name of Chriſt, when conſiſtent with his glory, ſurely he will not, therefore leave all with him, by ventureſome believing, and all ſhall be well. He will never leave nor forſake you. And I believe, you may depend upon it, that when God cannot find out ways to bring you near to him here, he will ſoon take you to himſelf, and ſatisfy your longing ſoul with full fruition.— Time fails, accept this with dear love, from

Yours, in the strongest bonds,

S. O.

Letter V.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear, and constant friend,

When the bridegroom is abſent, ſhall not the children of the bride-chamber fast, as well as pray? A paſſage in your prayer, A6r 11 on Friday, viz. that we were now called to this, ſtruck me; and has continued with me. I once could practice this, without going from home; but it is otherwiſe with me now, for want of room.

It has been ſuggeſted to my mind, to propoſe one thing to you; but the fear of ſtraitening you, hath prevented me! I will, however, juſt mention it. I know you will be as forward as I, if your circumſtances will admit; it is this, To ſet apart one whole day, for ſolemn faſting and prayer, and let the whole ſociety join; I wiſh you to conſider of it until Wedneſday evening, that if you approve, and Providence permit, it may be on Friday next, and thus begin the New-Year. I do not deſire to crowd upon you, but do not let Satan caſt difficulties in your way, as he does in mine; for who knoweth, but our God will be with us, and yet cauſe us to glorify him, and thus avenge us of our adverſaries! Oh, may we ſeek the Lord, who hideth himſelf from the houſe of Jacob! And if we gain no more, than an encouragement to hold on ſeeking him, we ſhall ſurely find our account in it; for he will come, and will not tarry. Oh, it is a time of great diſcouragement; and who can tell, whether we are come to the darkeſt time of the night? I fear A6v 12 not, nor do we know how long the night will laſt! I know the day will come; but faith and patience will be neceſſary, to wait for the dawn!

Yours, in the firmest bonds,


Observation. Bleſſed be thou of the Lord, and bleſſed be thine advice! This was before the beginning of our ſolemn Faſt, 1762-01-01January 1, 1762. S.O.

Letter VI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear friend,

In the midſt of a multiplicity of buſineſs and company, I take my pen to write you a haſty line. I heard, by a line from Miſs M. that you had been called to give up your dear little Susan;A grand child of Mr. Oſborne’s, who was named for Miſs S.A. and while I tenderly felt for you, and ſympathized with you, I fixed upon it, that the Lord had need of it. I concluded it did, and would call up your attention; and perhaps the Lord had more important, honorable ſervice, for an old diſciple, in this time of peculiar trial, when all his faithful ſervants B1r 13 were required to repair, or ſtrengthen the hands of the repairers, of the houſe of our God!They were repairing the Meeting-Houſe, after the war. While the dear babe lived, I viewed it as growing up in the church of God, and much more than ſupplying our places: But when dead, I thought, perhaps this young plant, would have drawn too much ſap from that ſpreading, yet aged oak, and ſo eclipſe her beauty, mar her importance, and weaken at leaſt, her ſhady influence. Here I had pleaſure in viewing this Providence, as an expreſſion of the high value and importance in which the dear Redeemer held the ſervices and rewards of his dear child. May the all- ſufficient Jehovah be preſent, and encircle you in his everlaſting arms of mercy!

I am, with most sensible affection, Your constant friend,


Letter VII.

From the same, to Mrs. O. written in Boston.

My dear friend,

I wrote you ſome time ago, in anſwer to B B1v 14 yours; if you have received it, I truſt you will bleſs God for, and with me.

I am often converſing with you in my mind, about home, our everlasting home I mean, that dear world above, where Jeſus, our Emmanuel dwells, and where I hope we ſhall be ere long. Come, Lord Jeſus, O, come quickly! Amidſt all the ſatisfaction and pleaſures which I find here, I wiſh and long, for the bleſſed viſion, and fruition of my God! Oh, what can earth afford my thirſty ſoul, equal to this? Verily nothing! I would contemn all its imaginary delights: It is God, the infinite, ſelf-ſufficient, all-ſufficient God alone, can make me happy! I will have no other good, as my choſen portion! I truſt I have made my choice, a choice never to be re-called! Methinks I have no home, but in God; and here I will take up my reſidence, my ſafe repoſe forever! Say my friend, may I not? Methinks I hear your ſweet elevated reply, while faith renews its acting, and love is raviſhed with the divine perfections, Theſe are the very ſentiments of my ſoul! Surely there is nothing worth our living for, but the glorifying and enjoying of God. O then, what tranſport and delight, will heaven afford.— There, the happy ſouls are put beyond all poſſibility of diſhonouring God! Yea they B2r 15 are actually put into the higheſt capacity of glorifying him! What pure, what ſacred, ſincere, and undiſſembled praiſes, will they ſing, among the innumerable multitude; while they aſcribe glory and honor to God, and to the Lamb! There, the thirſty ſoul ſhall be ſatisfied in the full enjoyment of him, who is in his own infinite delight. But what can a mortal, finite worm ſay of this, only that it is the enjoyment of infinite good!— Here I loſe all conception, and believe and admire, what I cannot fathom! It is infinite, and cannot be fully reached by a finite mind; yet bleſſed be God, we, even we, in this diſtant land; may contemplate and adore thoſe tranſporting glories! Oh, do not our hearts burn within us with gratitude and love, while we view by faith the divine perfections; and believe this God, to be our reconciled friend and Father, our covenant God; and everlaſting portion! O, what unſpeakable pleaſure and delight, flow from the thought, of the near union which ſubſiſts between Chriſt and believers! And are we thus united to the bleſſed God? Let us walk worthy our divine privilege, behave as members of his body. —What light and life, what peace of conſcience, joy in the Holy Ghoſt, increaſe of grace, perſeverance to the end with eternal glory, reſult from this union! And ſhall B2v 16 we not improve theſe glorious advantages to glorify God, and exalt the dear Redeemer, in the eyes of the world? Oh how did he dignify our nature when he took it on himſelf, and how doth he ennoble and advance it, when he raiſes us to the dignity of ſons and daughters of God! Are we, degenerate fallen creatures, poor deſpicable worms, united to the great Jehovah, to the pure and holy God; and dare we affront him with our ſins! Will he bear with ſuch ingratitude? Will he put up with ſuch indignities? I am ready to wonder, that I have not been made a monument of abuſed mercy long ago! Where are thoſe grateful returns, which mighty love, inflamed by infinite benignity, once vowed to make? I rejoice in every bond which binds my ſoul to God, and yet break through all to forſake him! The devout language of my ſoul often is, Thy favour is better than life; O let me pleaſe Thee, and all is well. Look Thou upon me with approbation, and I poſſeſs all the happineſs my craving ſoul can wiſh! And yet much of my practice, contradicts this language! I cry to God in a devout pang and tell him, it is heaven to be near, and like him, that I long for greater conformity to him, that this is all the heaven I hope for; and yet ſo ſluggiſh are my purſuits, that I ſeem to deny my own aſſertions! B3r 17 And yet my friend, I hope for divine acceptance! I truſt the juſt Judge is my friend, the pure and holy Redeemer my Advocate, the bleſſed Spirit of all grace my Sanctifier! But how can I thus hope? Becauſe according to the word of God, I truſt I am intereſted in the righteouſneſsrighteouſneſs of Jeſus Chriſt, and that which I do, I allow not. I truſt from my inmoſt ſoul, I hate this inconſiſtency; and it is through the dear Mediator alone, that I have confidence toward God. Here, here, is the life of all my hope and joy! Oh, my divine refuge, how amiable doſt thou now appear! How miſerable were I without thee! How happy am I in thee, thou, who knoweſt thine own infinite perfections, can tell! I can but ſee through a glaſs darkly, but I hope ere long to know more, and love more! Till then, my friend, let us by faith, take a view of Emmanuel’s land, ſurvey that bleſt abode; but let us moſt admire and contemplate thoſe perfections of his nature, which ſhall have a transforming influence on our ſouls, for bleſſed be God, conformity and nearneſs are inſeparable! To be near him, and not like him, would yield no pleaſure; and to be like him, and not near to him, would be torment inexpreſſible! But I may not add, may Jeſus delight your precious ſoul. Pray for me, who am, I truſt, yours, in B3v 18 the bonds of an everlaſting relation; members of one body, Jeſus the head.


Letter VIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Madam,

I ſhould rejoice to ſee you, but am ſo ill, that I am not able. I am going out of town, to ſtay till Saturday. I have been quite ill theſe two days, not able to ſit up. May God proſper and bleſs you in your journey. O, that we may ere long meet again in ſafety and comfort here, or in a better world, where neither ſin nor ſickness ſhall ever interrupt, the devout aſpiration of all our brighter powers! O happy hour! O ſweet releaſe! How welcome would it be, to my thirſty ſoul, to ſee the God I love! The God in whom my life is hid! Yea my all, both for time, and for eternity, and yours too! But I muſt conclude, begging you to pray for me, as I ſhall for you.

May God preserve you! Your faithful,


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Letter IX.

From the same, to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

I have but a moment, yet becauſe I would not seem to forget you, I will employ it in writing. But what ſhall I ſay? My ſoul is burdened with this clog of earth! Sin and Satan diſturb my reſt. Oh, for the dawn of that everlaſting Sabbath, when all my ſoul ſhall reſt in God, its eternal centre! It is this, bears me through this wilderneſs of briers and thorns; the hope of rest, ſweetens the cup; it is then, my friend, I ſhall learn war no more! Then I ſhall reſt forever, under the great Captain of my Salvation; my God, and my Chriſt, the endleſs delight of my ſoul! There, no gloomy fears or horrid ſuggeſtion ſhall ever interrupt my reſt! ’Till then, I ſhall never be happy! Yet, I know, my God is infinitely wiſe in all theſe things, and therefore I will glory and triumph in him! Let him order all things for me, as he ſeeth beſt; for He is my wisdom as well as righteouſneſs. I have put over all my concerns into his hands, and now I long to reſt ſatisfied with all his diſpenſations! Oh, let not any of his ways be grievous, to a ſoul that is intereſted in his everlaſting Covenant- love, who hath ſuch a Redeemer as Jeſus! B4v 20 Is Chriſt my reſt and portion, then can I ſay I am diſtreſſed and poor? No! let me rather make out after him, and receive his love! —But I may not add.



Letter X.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

Dear S.

Since our converſation laſt week, I ſeem to ſee more than ever, wherein I am wanting to myſelf; and it is, in not improving the fullneſs, ſufficiency, and perfection of righteouſneſs, there is in the Lord Jeſus! —It is indeed for want of this, that I ſo often faint, and ſit down diſcouraged, ready with Jonah to ſink, and wiſh to die, when corruptions preſs hard upon me; and though with Sampſon, when his hair was cut, I begin to ſhake myſelf a little; yet finding no ſtrength of my own, I forget where help is to be found; and ſo ſuffer theſe Philiſtians to put out both the eyes of my faith, and make their own ſport of me! Whereas, could I but learn and practice, the art of living on Chriſt by faith, I might ſnap their bands aſunder as burnt tow, and triumph in the midſt of B5r 21 them! They could not bind me, no, not with ſtrong cords! O pray for me, that I may do ſo. May the Lord go on to ſtrengthen you. I rejoice in his goodneſs to you, that he doth not ſuffer you to be overwhelmed by thoſe, who ſeek your ruin! Oh, bleſſed be God, he is ſtronger than the ſtrong man armed, and will not ſuffer you to be tempted, above what you are able, and will with the temptation, make a way for your eſcape! The Lord be with you.

Your real friend,


Letter XI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear, dear Madam,

Do not be diſcouraged; it is but the trial of your faith and patience. I thought you knew, it was through much tribulation, many and various trials, that our graces muſt be brightened and kept alive, until perfected in eternal life! O conſider, you have but the very lot, which infinite wiſdom and eternal counſel hath aſſigned you. Had leſs difficulty, and fewer trials been beſt for you, you ſhould have had them. I am perſuaded, we B5v 22 need nothing but grace, to make every condition, and circumſtance in life, comfortable and happy. I truly ſympathize with you. I pray God to appear for you.

Yours, most affectionately,


Letter XII.

From the same, to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

I long to ſee you, but Providence ſeems to forbid, and I deſire to ſubmit! O, that in the end it may be found, that I have indeed been refining, and that the fruit of all has been the taking away of ſin. I was taken laſt evening very ſick, I fainted, and lay near an hour, but juſt able to let my friends know that I was alive; and I am ſo weak to-day, that I can keep off my bed but a few minutes at a time. Nature ſeems almoſt worn out, and had I not experienced ſuch ſcenes before, from which I should have been relieved, I ſhould think nature would ſoon ſink under it; but as it is, I am rather led to think, it is ſent for a trial, and not to releaſe me from this priſon of clay; but however, I deſire to kiſs B6r 23 the rod, and embrace the God that doth chaſtiſe! Oh, my dear, when my God comes, as it were himſelf, with the rod, I am ſo taken up with his admirable perfections, that I loſe ſight of the rod, in his preſence! He hath ſcattered the clouds which ſeemed to make the rod lay heavy, and while he will ſhow me his covenant-love and faithfulneſs, all is well! And alas, it is owing to the weakneſs of my faith, that I do not always eſteem it ſo. Yet I muſt ſay, it is through Chriſt ſtrengthening me, that I can bear, or do any thing!

Your unworthy friend,


P.S. I hoped your hands would have grown better, by the means you were uſing, yet I ſee no ſigns of it; but I forbear.

Letter XIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear friend,

This letter will inform you, that you made a miſtake the other day, when you B6v 24 thought my hands were grown worſe;Mrs. Oſborn had then a bad humour in her hands, which prevented her writing. no, it was my heart, or you would doubtleſs have had a few lines, by ſome means before now. However, ſince God in his Providence is depriving us of opportunities to converſe by word of mouth, I deſire we may do it by writing, and converſe in this way, as often as your weakneſs, and my opportunities will admit. I find that your growing weaker, while I am thus confined, is grievous to me, leſt I ſhould be deprived of being with you to the laſt! But I deſire to ſubmit to the will of a Sovereign God!—Oh, may you conſtantly enjoy his ſmiles now, even now, when your outward man is decaying day by day! May your inward man be renewed more and more. May you be conformed to the image of the bleſſed God; and, as a Sampson indeed, glorify God more at your death, than ever yet you have done in all your life! Oh, my dear, I find a ſelfiſh principle in me, which pleads hard for your life; nevertheleſs, I cannot be ſo cruel to you, as to wiſh your ſtay.—But I know not what work I ſhall make, if I live, and am called to reſign you! I dread my ſtubborn heart, I fear it will reſiſt, I fear it will murmur!—Oh, my dear, pray for me, C1r 25 while you have breath, that I may not be left behind you, in this howling wilderneſs, unſanctified and unreſigned! Oh, pray that if God does take you from me, a double portion of his Spirit may reſt upon me; that I may now fly to the fountain, and take up my reſt and comfort there! Very pleaſant haſt thou been to me; and would to God I were ripe enough to go with thee! But O, pray that we may have a joyful meeting at Chriſt’s right hand!

Ah, my dear, methinks I cannot help rejoicing with you in the proſpect, that God is about to anſwer the ardent petitions, and breathings of your ſoul after him, and to fill you with himſelf!

Oh, my dear S. do not forget me, nor deprive me of the privilege which I have often requeſted, and now beg as on my knees, I mean the peruſal of your dear manuſcripts; which have ſo often refreſhed me, and warmed my heart. My dear, do not deny me, but be willing I ſhould reap advantage by you, while you are ſweetly ſleeping in Jeſus! Conſider how much I ſtand in need of every help; and as you have never denied me in life, be not cruel to me at laſt! Be entreated, by all the bonds of friendſhip, to grant my C C1v 26 requeſt! Leave it with God, who has glorified himſelf in you, and made you ſuch a monument of his grace, to take care of his own honor in every thing relating to you.

Farewell, my dear! the Lord ſupport and comfort you! The Lord give you a victorious faith, a flaming love, a becoming patience and zeal for his glory. The Lord ſhine in upon your precious ſoul, and fill you as full of himſelf, as in this mortal ſtate you can contain, till you ſhall be complete in glory. This is the ſincere deſire, of

Your faithful friend,


Letter XIV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Gladly would I have been with you this evening, but finding myſelf ſo unable, I dare not preſume. Alas! I am ſoon tired in, though not of religion. This is my greateſt, yea I may ſay, all my affliction. But, bleſſed be God, I hope in his own time, I ſhall get where I ſhall never tire more! O, when ſhall it be, that neither faintneſs, nor ſickneſs, ſhall check my faith and love!

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God was pleaſed yeſterday, to refreſh me in ſermon, and at his table; but as I ſaid before, I ſoon grow weary; pray for me! O pray for me, that now I cannot wreſtle with God as formerly, and as it were, pull the bleſſing down, He would shed it down abundantly, on my ſoul! O, I long to get near my God, and bathe my thirſty ſoul in his fulneſs! but I muſt ceaſe!


Letter XV.

From the same, to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

Into your breaſt, I have often poured out the joys and ſorrows of my ſoul; and as often have found compaſſion, tenderneſs, and ſympathy there; and now, though I cannot ſee your face, yet let me reach your pity and prayers, by a few lines.

I have eſteemed it the higheſt joy and felicity of my ſoul to meet God in his Sanctuary! —There, my dark underſtanding hath been enlightened; there, my ſtubborn will hath been bowed; there, my cold affections, have been warmed; there, my too-wavering faith hath been eſtabliſhed and ſtrengthened! Yea, C2v 28 there, I truſt, my repentance, ſincerity, and obedience, have been excited, quickened, cleared and encreaſed! How often hath the word, prepared for me and applied to me, been more convincing, and eſtabliſhing to me, than a voice from Heaven could have been! From my firſt embracing thoſe precious privileges I now enjoy, a ſovereign God, hath ſeemed to delight, to own and bleſs them to unworthy me; ſo that I am drawn by mere neceſſity, to deſire them, delight, and rejoice in them.

Theſe, my friend, have been the grand motives, which have cauſed me to ſtudy ſoul- proſperity more than bodily health. Could I be permitted to viſit God’s ſanctuary, and no one complain of me,Miſs Anthony’s health was ſo low, that her friends thought it imprudent for her to go out. I think I could bear my indiſpoſition of body with alacrity. But my friends, and my phyſician, ſeem more and more againſt my going out to meeting; ſo that I ſeem to be ſhut out of God’s houſe, and am even melted down under the trial! I know my friends do it out of kindneſs to my health; but do, my dear, uſe your influence with them, to gratify me! It is not a fond conceit of my own opinion, but if I know my own deceitful heart, it is only becauſe C3r 29 cauſe I love the ſanctuary of God, and do eſteem one day ſpent in his Courts, better than a thouſand elſewhere! O pray for me, that while I am permitted to walk on earth, it may be to walk up to the houſe of God! And if I am deprived of this privilege, pray that I may have abundant meaſures of the preſence of that God, who is not confined to houſe, ordinances, or means!

May this God refreſh your ſoul with large communications of light and life from himſelf! May you always repoſe your ſoul on the breaſt of Jeſus, and at laſt be filled with the complete enjoyment of him! There, and there only, is true happineſs, without the leaſt alloy.—I need not tell you, in this, is all my hope and joy!

But I must conclude, Your unworthy,


Letter XVI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear friend,

I long to know how you do! The weather has prevented, or I ſhould have ſeen you C3v 30 before now, therefore beg you will not have hard thoughts of me. I know if I cannot help you, yet I bear you continually on my heart, beſeeching the Father of Mercies, to refreſh and revive you with his abundant conſolations! O, may he make you glad, with the light of his countenance! I cannot but hope, that ere now, God hath ſcattered the clouds, and as it were, unveiled his divine beauty and lovelineſs to your view! I hope you are now admiring, and adoring, free, rich ſovereign grace! Methinks I hear you ſaying, he was angry, but his anger is turned away; and while the bleſſed Spirit is teſtifying and ſhewing the bleſſed fruits of the frown, you cry, Lord it is enough! If thy glory is advanced, all is well! I hope you are full of conſolation; and theſe lines will find you, either at the feet of your Jeſus, or leaning on his boſom!

O, my friend, do you not wonder at the grace of God, that you, or I, after ſuch ingratitude, ſhould ever be permitted to get near him again; that he does not hold us at a diſtance, equal with our ſin!— You may wonder for me, who am leſs than nothing, and conſtantly departing from God! Surely you muſt adore his grace, as it reſpects me, if no other! O, the breath C4r 31 I draw, to write theſe lines, is forfeited!— Verily God is gracious, becauſe he will be gracious!



Letter XVII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

Dear S.

By ever letter I receive from you, I think, ſomething more of my own heart is diſcovered to me. In your laſt, you have ſhewed me how much more, the hateful principle of ſelf-love reigns in me, than love to God! This I did not diſcern, when I wrote my laſt. You are right, my dear, the glory of God, the exalting of Jeſus, ought to be the object of our purſuit, rather than our own eaſe. The Lord humble me for the narrowneſs of my heart!

Well, bleſſed be God, I have had a diſcovery of the fulneſs, ſufficiency, willingneſs, truth and faithfulneſs of the great Redeemer, the week paſt, in converſing with one who is in great diſtreſs, for her ſoul; one who thinks her day is paſt, her ſins too great to be forgiven! And verily I believe there is not any thing that will ſtir up the zeal and C4v 32 courage of a poor, faint-hearted Chriſtian, like meeting with thoſe who diſtruſt the Saviour: For, if we are not quite ſenſeleſs, it conſtrains us to ſpeak for him, whom we truſt, hath broken through ſuch oppoſition, and cauſed his grace to triumph over, and ſubdue, ſuch rebels! O, if he hath conquered me, ſurely nothing can be too hard for him! I would gladly add, but time will not permit. Let us preſs forward dear friend, we ſhall find God’s grace ſufficient, to perfect that which he hath begun in us! Then we will adore and praiſe forever, without any of theſe breaks and pauſes. The Lord be with you. Pray hard, for your affectionate,


Letter XVIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Notwithſtanding my purpoſe of writing to you, yet, my backward heart would have deferred it, did I not hope it might, by the bleſſing of God, be a mean of reviving our ſouls. I wiſh we may reap a double crop, viz. in writing and receiving. O, may we again C5r 33 take ſweet counſel together, and walk in the light of God’s countenance!

O my friend, I long for the freedom and familiarity we once enjoyed, when we were brought near to our God, and to each other! How did we then ſhare, each others joys and ſorrows! Jeſus, was known to us, by the lovely name, Emmanuel! Was he not with us? and did not our hearts burn within us, while we converſed with, and of him!— How ſweet was it to hear, and tell, in what manner the bleſſed God, had revealed himſelf to us, either in his providences, or ordinances! Surely his ways were pleaſant, and all his paths peace! Come then my friend, let us join heart and hand, in purſuing religion, as the only object worthy our eſteem! Methinks, while I am writing to ſo dear a friend, I am only converſing with my own ſoul; and may uſe the utmoſt freedom. Is there any variableneſs or change in our God? Is there not enough in him, to ſatisfy our utmoſt deſires? Why then do we live at ſuch a diſtance from him! Alas, I ſeem to be always reſolving, but never fixedly performing! I ſeem ſerious, and earneſt to will, but too indifferent to do! The corruptions of my heart never were more powerful, than of late.

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I think of Hezekiah, whom God recovered from great ſickneſs, but his heart was lifted up; and he did not render to God, according to the benefits done to him.

I am ſurrounded with dangers, but the worſt is my own heart! I am ready to wonder at the patience of God towards me:— O, it is becauſe he is God, and not man; therefore I am not conſumed! I cannot but ſee and abhor the wretched depravity of my whole ſoul, and bewail my unlikeneſs to God; yet I would ſo look at it, as to excite more ardent deſires, after the enjoyment of him! I have been inclined, of late, to look on God as a juſt Judge, rather than a compaſſionate Father, in and through Chriſt; this, Satan would have improved, to work in me a ſervile fear; and prompt to duty, not from love and delight in God, but from a ſlaviſh ſpirit. But glory to God, when Satan ſtrove to drive me from God, the bleſſed Spirit, I truſt, led me nearer to him; for, while I beheld him as a juſt and terrible Judge, I ſaw every refuge fail, Chriſt only muſt be my ſurety! then did he appear truly precious to my ſoul! Thus Satan was baffled, for me, O unbounded grace!

When I hear profane wretches ſpeak lightly of Chriſt, it is then, with renewed vigour, faith C6r 35 and love, I embrace him, as the only portion of my ſoul. Here, have I ſaid to my ſoul, take up thy reſt forever, even in thy God! O, it is ſweet-reſting our ſouls, and all their concerns, on a faithful covenant God, and Father, through our dear Redeemer.

O my friend, I have renewed my choice; and now, methinks, I am as happy, as I can be here. I have enough; I aſk no more! Nothing, but what flows from union, and communion, with the bleſſed God! O, this is enough, were I ſtripped of all the delights of the Univerſe! I am happy now; but O, what does yet remain!—Rivers of pleaſure, yet unfathomed by us: even the open viſion, and full fruition of our God; for which I long!

Your constant,


Letter XIX.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My very dear, dear S.

I rejoice exceedingly, to find, that God is ſo evidently appearing for you, and is, cruſhing Satan under your feet! The Lord C6v 36 go on to refreſh your precious ſoul, by giving you yet more extenſive views of the excellency, and all-ſufficiency of the dear Redeemer, and the glorious way of ſalvation by him! Ah, my dear, this ſhall find us work for eternity! There we ſhall admire, adore, wonder, and gaze, on the divine perfections, and ſhout forth the riches of redeeming love and grace! But O, think you, that ſuch another monument of mercy will be ſet up, in all the New-Jeruſalem, as worthleſs me! One ſo ungrateful, ſo vile, and unworthy! Never was adorable, ſovereignſovereign mercy, more richly diſplayed, than in chooſing rebel me, to be one of the happy few! But O, my dear, what great things am I writing? Is it of a truth thus? Were we choſen from eternity, given to the dear Mediator, redeemed by his precious blood, called effectually in time, juſtified, adopted, and in part ſanctified! And do we hope to be complete in glory, wholly freed from the tyranny of ſin and Satan, and in the full enjoyment of our God! O, but why theſe great things for us! Let us ſtand and wonder! What manner of love is this, that we ſhould be called, the children of God! Let us rejoice, and again I ſay, rejoice! The Lord be with you.

Pray for me, and write to me as often as D1r 37 you can, for I am much refreſhed by your letters.

Yours in Chriſt,


Letter XX.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written at Providence.

My dear Friend,

Shall I communicate to you, the good things my eyes ſee, and my ears hear?— Surely the one half was not told me nor had I any idea of it before I came here! The firſt tidings I met, was the hopeful converſion of the ſon, of . The next, was a Mr. ―, who had been a vile character: I have ſeen and converſed with him, to my great ſatisfaction; his exerciſes were ſolid, rational, and ſcriptural, I truſt he is born of God, and think I can ſay, I glorified God in him!

O, my dear, even my unbelieving, jealous, ſuſpicious temper, dare not queſtion this, work of God! O, if you were here, I doubt not you would ſay, this is the Lord’s doings, D D1v 38 and it is marvellous in our eyes! I have heard Mr. S. twice to-day, and think him an excellent preacher. I have ſeen as yet, nothing which appeared diſorderly; but all ſolemn, reverential, ſerious and rational.— I have ſeen Deacon ―, whoſe heart ſeems much revived with the proſpect, that ſoon, a nation ſhall be born in a day! We hear that the work is general, and that ſome Jews have been brought in, at New-York. O when ſhall Rhode-Island come up in remembrance before God!

You will be anxious to know, how it is with me? My paſſions have been much moved this day, more than I have ſeen any other perſons, though I have ſeen thoſe, who, I believe, had much more real religion.—The moſt I have been able to realize, ſince I have been here is the caſe of a humbled ſinner, broken off, from every refuge, and bowed at the foot of divine ſovereignty.—Alſo the preciouſneſs, of a dear, glorious, Almighty Redeemer, to ſuch a ſoul —But I cannot add.

I am yours, in the strongest bonds,


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Letter XXI.

From Mrs.Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written under extreme Weakness.

My very dear Mrs. O.

It would be no ſmall comfort to me, to enjoy your company, with that uninterrupted freedom, I once did. Yet I beg to ſubmit to that divine hand, which hath, and doth, mix all my cup, for me! My dear, although I am not able to hold my head from the pillow while I write, yet my regard for you is ſuch, I could not omit it. Although my God is correcting me, I hope, yea I believe, he will not reject me! O, may it appear, that I perform, as well as resolve, Though he ſlay me, yet will I truſt in him! I have long thought he ſaw, an afflicted ſtate beſt for me; but never really thought he meant to take me away, till within theſe few days, in which my diſorders have riſen to extremity. So great has been my pain, and diſtreſs, that it ſeemed all new work I had to do, as though I had never taken a ſtep in the valley before! I was in ſuch extreme pain yeſterday, that had it laſted a little longer, I muſt, without uncommon ſupport, have loſt my ſenſes!

But that dear, that gracious God, who ſent it, knew what I could bear, and would lay D2v 40 no more upon me, than what he would ſupport me under. The becoming temper of a child, was ſet before me in theſe words, patient in tribulation! The words were as conſtantly with me almoſt, as my breath; and I could not help admiring the mercy of God, that I was not always held up, in ſuch extremity of pain! I have been trying a new medicine to-day: I am willing, while my life continues, to uſe means; for I truſt my deſires, after the full enjoyment of God, ſhall never influence me to neglect my duty to my body, though I do not expect any real help; but, that after I have a while, ſuffered the divine will, I ſhall be admitted to the full enjoyment of himſelf!

O, my dear, how can I ſay this, without tranſport! Will God in very deed, and is he about to bring me, to behold his face in glory! What, ſo worthleſs and deſpicable a worm, as I am! I, who have long thought myſelf infinitely unworthy the ſociety and enjoyment of the ſaints, though in their imperfect ſtate here below! Shall I be admitted into the ſociety of Angels, and the ſpirits of juſt men made perfect? And above all, into the preſence of the infinitely pure Jehovah! But ſhall ſuch a defiled ſoul as mine, enter the world, where God hath declared, D3r 41 that nothing unholy, ſhall enter!—O, what a hopeleſs, miſerable caſe were mine, did I not believe in the fulneſs and ſufficiency of the bleſſed Saviour, even for me. He is made of God, wiſdom, righteouſneſs, ſanctification, and complete redemption, to all who believe!

Now is Chriſt, precious to me. O, where were my hopes or joy, was it not for this dear Saviour! But why, have I reaſon to hope, he is mine? Not for any merit in me, no! grace is free, and ſovereign, or it had never regarded me! How glorious is the inheritance, which is purchaſed! What immortal ſprings of conſolation flow there!— Rivers of pleaſure! How tranſported muſt a ſoul be, to find itſelf releaſed, from this clog of clay; all the darkneſs, ſtubbornneſs, coldneſs, and reluctancy, changed into light, joy, refined fervour, and activity! But ah, I am now ready to ſay, can this be near to me? Surely I was miſtaken; I muſt not yet expect the prize! So ſhort a race—ſo unripe a ſoul—muſt not expect ſo ſoon, to be gathered in! But now, I leave it with God, who knoweth my deſires.

I am yours,


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Letter XXII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S.

Let me now call on you, to magnify the Lord with me, and let us exalt his name together; for I was brought low, and he helped me! I was commanded often in a day, to ſtand ſtill and ſee the ſalvation of God, and now I ſee it! The day is broke, and the ſhadows are fleeing away.

The Lord is my ſhepherd, and I ſhall not want. Thanks be to God, who brought me to reſt in himſelf, and to rely on his word, before he opened a door for my deliverance. O, he deals kindly with me, to make me believe for my mercies, before I have them. Thanks to you, my dear friend, for your compaſſion in my diſtreſs. Thanks to my dear paſtor and ſpouſe, for their affectionate, tender concern for me; may God in infinite mercy reward them. May they never want a friend, to comfort and refreſh them in times of trouble.

May precious Chriſt, eſteem every act of kindneſs, done to his poor worthleſs creature, as done unto himſelf; yea, and he will; a D4r 43 cup of water ſhall not be loſt. I have met with a remarkable providence, which has greatly relieved me. O, God can make me thankful.



Letter XXIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Yours, ſhort as it was, did refreſh me. O, may we hold on in this way. I wiſh the God of life and love, may take you near to himſelf, and fill your ſoul, from his communicable fulneſs, with light, life, and love; until you are ſatisfied with favour, and full with the bleſſing of the Lord.

O that my ſoul was as wide as his mercies are to me! and boundleſs as his benefits! filled, yea, over-filled, with gratitude, love and praiſe! Yet this would be too ſmall an offering to ſo bountiful a benefactor! I cannot tell how good God is, to unworthy me. —Methinks the tongue of an Angel would faulter here! O, why then doth this burden of clay reſtrain the grateful emotion which riſes in my ſoul, and groans for vent!

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O my dear, why did the moſt high God love me! and love me againſt my own ſtubborn rebellious will? Why, O why, doth he now ſtand by me, when Satan is ready to ſwallow me up; defeat all his rage, and change every fear of my ſoul into triumph! I have had a ſmart conflict, but Chriſt, hath fought my battle for me; my dear, dear Redeemer, hath appeared for me! Say, ſhall I not magnify his name? O, that I could! How little have I ever ſaid of him! What low thoughts do I entertain of him! Help me, help me, O my friend; He is your Redeemer too!—How glorious doth he appear, in wiſdom, love, and power, yea in every perfection! Worthy, infinitely worthy, our higheſt truſt and confidence, and well deſerving our beſt obedience! I never truſted him in vain!—O, what has my Saviour done for me! But O, what is He in himſelf! With wonder I view the wiſdom and goodneſs of God, manifeſted towards vile me! O, what condeſcenſion, what ſovereignty is diſplayed herein! I believe Satan was never more vigilant, (at leaſt it ſeems ſo to me) to procure my ruin, than now; and never, did God appear to me, more engaged for my ſalvation and peace, yea joy and triumph. O what ſhall I render to this God! How ſhall I manifeſt my D5r 45 gratitude to my Saviour! O that I could join the hallelujahs above, and aſcribe, glory and honour to God, and to the Lamb!

P.S. You will excuſe this broken letter. I was ſo ſwallowed up with the love of God, when I wrote the former part of it, that it was impoſſible to confine my thoughts to the ſcribbles of my pen. You ſee what ſtammering work I make, when I ſtrive to expreſs infinite goodneſs, with a mortal hand. Bleſſed be God, ere long, the tongue of the ſtammerer ſhall ſpeak plainly!



Letter XXIV.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My Dear One,

My heart has been yearning towards you, ever ſince I ſaw you; and I have been longing, for another interview. I hope, my dear, I ſhall ſee you to-day. O, may the everlaſting, faithful Jehovah, ſupport and comfort you! Yea, and he will do it— He will not leave you comfortleſs, he will come unto you! Neither men, nor devils, D5v 46 ſhall be able to ſeparate you from the love of God, which is in Chriſt Jeſus! Still thou ſhalt go, and ſtill return. Boundleſs grace will triumph on earth, and be magnified in you to all eternity; notwithſtanding all the rage of earth and Hell.

God will be gracious, becauſe he will be gracious. He hath been ſo, and he will be ſo. He is a glorious Sovereign, and Satan cannot prevent the exerciſe of his adorable, free, boundleſs grace towards you, by all his malicious accuſations, or your real vileneſs! O rouſe up your faith, cling to Jehovah for protection, and hear your glorious Lord, ſaying to you, becauſe I live, ye ſhall live alſo! He will, in his own time, bring you off triumphant, over all the powers of the infernal pit!

O, how many victories hath he already given you! and will he now give his glory to another? No, he never will! Satan ſhall know, that you have an Almighty friend! But I muſt only ſay that I am,

Your sympathizing, affectionate,


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Letter XXV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Pray excuſe my not writing before.— Much of my time this week, hath been ſpent with other friends.

Surely it is very pleaſant to my ſoul, to ſee, and converſe with thoſe, whom I eſteem the excellent of the earth; yet even here, I cannot find complete ſatisfaction. No, alas, there is ſo many interruptions, ſo many breaks and pauſes, that however pleaſed I am with theſe enjoyments, yet I cannot ſay in the midſt of any, or all of them, here is full ſatisfaction, here I will reſt; no! they rather ſerve only to encreaſe my thirſt, and raiſe my deſire to an inſatiable height, after thoſe uninterrupted enjoyments above. There, we ſhall ſee our God, as he is! There, we ſhall converſe without fear or reſtraint forever. Not all the superior finite ſpirits, ſhall check or damp the ſongs of the moſt inferior. Though ſome have greater glory, yet ſuch ſhall be the ſweet harmony of our Emmanuel’s land, that all ſhall join, to aſcribe glory to God, and the Lamb!

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Here below, I often find the face of a ſuperior Chriſtian, check my familiar converſe, and ſtrike me into ſilence! But there, even the tongue of the dumb, ſhall be looſed!— There, not even the open viſion of God, nor the company of thouſands, and ten thouſands of ſuperior ſaints and Angels, ſhall hinder, but rather embolden our ſong of praiſe!

Well, let us wait and hope till the bleſſed change ſhall come! Methinks the pleaſures of this lower world are as really weaning, as its troubles; and for myſelf, I think I can ſay, I am more weary of the joys and vanities, than of the ſorrows and afflictions of it: I have been made unſpeakably more deſirous of a releaſe from mortality, by the moſt deſireable enjoyments I have met with, than by any trials I have endured. Spiritual enjoyments would lead me to thirſt for full fruition, but temporal pleaſures, only tended to ſteal away the heart from God, ſo that both would make me long for immortality!

I would bleſs God, for any revivals afforded you; O, that our God would yet delight to dwell in us! I pray God may ſanctify his rod to you, in your frequent bodily weakneſs; and even when ſenſible joys are abated, would ſtrengthen your faith, and E1r 49 grant you all the bleſſings of the new, and everlaſting covenant!



Letter XXVI.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

Dear S.

Daily encumbrances, neceſſary viſits, bodily indiſpoſition, and a backward heart, join to prevent my writing ſo ſeaſonably, and full, as I ſhould be glad to; however, I now in haſte will try to write a little.

And firſt I would tell you, that the late ſhock I have met with, has hitherto been bleſſed, for quickening me to greater diligence in making my calling and election ſure. O, I have cauſe with you to cry out, all God’s ways are truth, and faithfulneſs!— O, how much wiſdom and goodneſs, hath he manifeſted, in his diſpenſations towards rebellious me! How often hath he recovered my wandering ſoul, and brought me nearer to himſelf; when I have been in my own apprehenſion, on the very brink of ruin!

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Sometimes he will viſit me with affliction; he will take away the huſband of my youth, and thereby cauſe me to fly to the Widow’s God, and rejoice in him, as the beſt of huſbands! At another time, he will take away a tender father, and enable me to acquieſce in his diſpenſation, and rejoice in him, as my father’s God, as my God; and a father of the fatherleſs! Then he will remove an only brother, and thereby cauſe me more fully to know, what it is to be reſigned to his will, and to adore his ſovereignty!

Again, leſt my heart ſhould be joined to idols, he will have an only ſon! and ſhow me at the ſame time, that he is better to me, than ten ſons! Ah, than ten thouſand ſons, or all earthly enjoyments! Then, when my heart gets entangled with the world, full of plots and contrivances how I ſhall get this, or that; pay one and another, &c. God will utterly daſh all my ſchemes; hedge up my way with thorns; croſs all my endeavours; and bring me to the greateſt extremity, that I may know aſſuredly, the work of my deliverance muſt be all his own. And when he hath ſubdued my ſtubborn will, brought me to leave all with him, to work in his own way; then he appears on the mount of difficulty, preſerves his own honour, cauſes his E2r 51 name and ways to be well ſpoken of, inſtead of evil, as I had feared, delivers me from all my fears, and makes me to rejoice in him. He inclines the hearts of all my friends, to miniſter to my comfort; ſmiles upon my endeavours, and makes me as cheerful and happy, as I can be in this life! But if my poor fooliſh heart abuſes theſe mercies, grows cold and indifferent, and need be, I ſhall be in heavineſs through manifold temptations. Corruption ſhall break out, Satan ſhall be let looſe, and God will make his arrows ſharp, as though I were his enemy! Thus it has been of late. Juſtly is he ſtiled, a wonder-working God!

It is ſweet, my friend, thus to trace him in his foot-ſteps here; for ſurely he appears lovely and faithful. But O, what will it be, when we ſhall have a more full diſcovery in glory! When we ſhall ſee him, as he is! Oh, eternity ſhall then aſſiſt our praiſes!

You aſk, if I ever find ſuch ſubſtantial joy, as when my whole ſoul is devotedly fixed on God?—I anſwer, no! I have no idea of any happineſs, compared to this! This is the utmoſt of my deſires, to be made holy, as God is holy! To have his image, inſtamped on my ſoul, makes me happy here; E2v 52 but oh, what ſhall I be, when I awake in his likeneſs! O, even from the thoughts of this, flow rivers of pleaſure!—But ſhall ſuch polluted worms as we, be brought to this? the enjoyment of a holy God! Let us ſtand, and wonder—ſtand and adore our glorious Mediator, who hath purchaſed all theſe bleſſings for us, at the expenſe of his own moſt precious blood!—Here, I am loſt in admiration!

Yours, in the sweetest bonds,


Letter XXVII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written in the country.

My dear Madam,

I juſt ſit down to write you a haſty line, though perhaps I may ſee you, before this reaches you. I lodged near the water laſt night, to be ready this morning; but the wind being contrary, and likely to hold ſo, I returned to , which may perhaps prevent my being at the place, when the wind and tide ſuits; however, let the will of the Lord be done, and I ſubmit. Indeed, my dear friend, I have ſeen ſo much of the kind, E3r 53 tender indulgence, of my heavenly Father, in this viſit; that I hope I am, in ſome meaſure, willing he ſhould have the entire diſpoſal of it. I was brought to Mr. E―’s, at a time when his whole heart ſeems engaged in his Maſter’s work; he is in labours more abundant.

Again, I was carried to Mr. F―’s, when it was with him, a time of great darkneſs, and ſore perplexity!—Preſſed beyond meaſure! Lord, what is duty? Here perhaps my ſoul hath felt the moſt tender, godly ſympathy, I ever knew; a frame not wanting peculiar ſweetneſs,—O pray, that God, who only can cauſe light, would give him to ſee, and be reconciled to the divine will; which evidently appears to be, his continuance here.

Religion is hopefully reviving here, eſpecially under Mr. E―’s labours.

Yours, in the strongest bonds,


Letter XXVIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My very dear Friend,

We much rejoiced, on Friday evening, E3v 54 to receive the account from you, of God’s gracious dealings with you, in carrying you in ſafety, to your journey’s end. The Lord be praiſed, who gave his Angels charge concerning you; yea, was himſelf your protection! I truſt your life and health, ſhall be ſtill precious in his ſight.

I rejoice every day that a kind providence hath carried you into the country; among thoſe dear friends too! I need not tell you, how dear your preſence is to me, yet I cheerfully deny myſelf for a ſeaſon, hoping to enjoy you again, in God’s time. I had rather think of your recruiting in Stonington, than decaying in Newport.

On our ſolemn day,A Faſt kept by the Female Society. you had an affection ate remembrance, as often we united. I truſt God was with us, of a truth. I think our dear Mrs. P. was never more enlarged, than on that day; ſhe was indeed a wreſtling Jacob! O my dear, the time is haſtening on, when, I truſt, full fruition of our God, ceſſation from ſin and ſorrow, the enjoyment of each other, with all the Saints and Angels, ſhall complete our happineſs, to all eternity E4r 55 O bleſſed be God for Jeſus Chriſt, and for hopes of glory through him!

Yours, affectionately,


Letter XXIX.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. written in Boston.

My very dear, dear Friend,

I have received two letters from you, which were very refreſhing to me. It is with great pleaſure and delight, that I read the lines of my own dear, boſom Chriſtian friend; one whom God hath made precious beyond expreſſion to my ſoul, and to whom I can write, without reſtraint or fear. I will then, in compliance with your requeſt, acquaint you with my ſpiritual affairs.

You knew ſome of my fears, though no one could fully know all the diſtreſſing thoughts I had, reſpecting this journey. But now I will tell you, I know that Jehovah is a praying-hearing God! Praiſe him, O ye his ſaints!

I have a chamber to myſelf, with a retired cloſet, in which are a number of good books, E4v 56 this Mrs. D. devoted to me; and told me, as ſoon as I arrived there, that I might be retired whenever I pleaſed. I ſaid in my ſoul, this is the Lord’s doing, may it ever be marvellous in my eyes! I ſeem to be at home, and am ſeldom interrupted.

O my dear, who that knows Jehovah’s name, would not put their truſt in him!—He hath diſperſed all my fears, and crowned me with loving-kindneſs, and tender mercies! I dare not ſay, I have no ſenſe of his mercies; yet I muſt ſay, it is amazing, that a reaſonable ſoul can know, that it receives ſo much, from a Being, to whom it has forfeited every mercy, and from whom it deſerves nothing but wrath, even to the uttermoſt, and yet feel ſo little divine love and gratitude!

O my dull, ſtupid, barren ſoul! Can I be born of God? That dear God, who is love; —that God, who daily manifeſts himſelf to me to be love, and yet I love him no more! Say my friend, can it be? Shall I dare claim ſo near a relation, and act ſo contrary! Dare I claim union to a holy God, who am ſo unholy! And yet, through free, ſovereign grace, I truſt I may, and do! O bleſſed be God, for Jeſus Chriſt; he is my hope, my everlaſting refuge! This is my friend; and E5r 57 I can be at home, in Boſton, with this conſolation, as well as in Newport.—I truſt I am not come here, without my covenant God and Father, my dear Redeemer and friend! What more then have I to wiſh!

I have long ſince endeavoured, ſo to treaſure up my happineſs in God, as that I might be happy only in him, and always in him! And now, my ſoul ſaith, it is enough! I enjoy many comforts, but here, is my only real, fixed portion, delight and joy, and here I would reſt forever!

Your unworthy, affectionate,


Letter XXX.

From the same, to Mrs. O. written in Stonington.

My very dear Mrs. O.

I am longing to hear from you, and the reſt of my Newport friends. I arrived here comfortably, and am in agreeable circumſtances. Verily God is good to the evil and unthankful. O my dear, covenant love and faithfulneſs follows me, wherever I go, or reſt! I enjoy every comfort of life; but E5v 58 God knows theſe, without his preſence; cannot make me happy. I have tokens of his his preſence, I truſt; but my old companion, a wicked heart, attends me ſtill.

The firſt Sabbath, I was admitted to the privilege of God’s houſe, and ſat at the dear Redeemer’s table; had a good Sabbath.

Since I wrote the above, I have received the packet from Newport. I rejoice to hear from you all. I thank you for your expreſſions of affection!—O, whence is it, that ſuch a nothing worm, ſuch a dead dog as I am, ſhould have ſuch regard ſhewed me, both here, and there, who deſerve to be hiſſed out out of the world, for my baſeneſs, and vile ingratitude.

I do indeed, my dear, appear to be the vileſt wretch, in the creation! You, and all who know me, my own conſcience, God, and Angels, can witneſs againſt me. What hath God done for me, and how low have been, and ſtill are, my returns!—I am this moment melted down, and confounded; inexpreſſibly abaſed and aſhamed, under a juſt, though inadequate view, of my amazing wretchedneſs and vileneſs, before a holy, gracious, infinitely amiable God! But I cannot promiſe you, or myſelf, that another E6r 59 moment, perhaps the next, I may not imagine myſelf worthy of a thouſand times more love, eſteem and regard, than ever a blind world hath paid to my merit; and be diſſatisfied, becauſe God himſelf does not ſet aſide his own infinitely wiſe determinations, to gratify my humour! All things have gone well with me here, ſo I do not complain, but God knows what a fruitleſs, barren heath, I am!

O my friend, what other way, could ſuch a one as I, ever be ſaved in, but the goſpel way of ſalvation, by Chriſt? That ſure foundation, laid in Zion! Without money, and without price! Without ſtrength, without beauty, or any recommending qualification! Free pardon, full atonement, wiſdom, righteouſneſs, ſanctification, and redemption; and by this power and authority, I will, and you shall!

I am ſure there is no poſſibility of ſalvation, for me, in any other way, and bleſſed be God I can ſay, I deſire none but this! Bleſſed be God, for Jeſus Chriſt! Bleſſed be God, for the covenant of his grace, well-ordered in all things, and ſure; here is all my ſalvation, and all my deſire. The Anchor- ground is ſure; let faith but faſten here, E6v 60 and we ſhall ride out all the ſtorm, and get ſafe into port at laſt, even the haven of ever- laſting reſt! There, our blindneſs, ſtupidity and ingratitude, ſhall be no more! Our inbred luſts, thoſe helliſh legions, ſhall no more terrify or pollute our ſouls; but the transforming viſion, and fruition of God, through the one Mediator, Chriſt Jeſus, ſhall forever complete our happineſs and joy!— O my dear friend, ſhall we not be animated hereby, to gird up our loins, purſue our work, and wait for the ſalvation of God!

O my dear, my boſom-friend, I feel my love to you to be without diſſimulation, there- fore wiſh you the ſame ſtrength and conſolation, with my own ſoul. O, may our higheſt ambition be, to join hand in hand, to promote the cauſe and intereſt of our infinitely worthy RedeeemerRedeemer. May your ten talents, and my one, as I truſt they have been, ſtill be improved for God! What, but the glory of God, the honor of the Redeemer, our own and others conformity to, and enjoyment of him, can become us, as dedicated creatures, bound by every poſſible obligation, to be the Lord’s! What is he not in himſelf, that is not truly lovely? And what has he not done for us, that could be worthy of a God, in a F1r 61 way of mercy, for ſuch fallen, depraved creatures!

O for ſuch a ſteady, unſhaken faith, in that God, who hath condeſcended to give ſuch declarations of his boundleſs grace, in Chriſt Jeſus, that the exceeding riches of it, might be diſplayed, and eternally magnified, to the praiſe of his great name.—O, that we may evidence to the world, that we believe, what we profeſs.—That God is ſuch a Being, as he hath revealed himſelf to be.— That he is a good Maſter, and we have not been deceived! But I muſt cloſe.



Letter XXXI.

From Miss S.A. to a Minister,—written in the younger part of her Life.

Rev. Sir,

Perhaps you may think it ſtrange, that I ſhould addreſs you by my pen, when I may have ſuch uninterrupted opportunities, for converſation. But I am ſo unhappy, as not to be able always, on every ſubject, to uſe F F1v 62 that freedom with my ſuperiors, which the caſe requires; eſpecially when we do not both ſee alike. But now Sir, I beg you to allow me an intire freedom, while I lay aſide all objections, againſt writing to one, ſo much above me. I know your good ſenſe, learning and judgment, may ſee a thouſand faults; but I rely on your candour, and will not fear any ſevere remarks. The converſation I had with you, reſpecting the duty I owe to my body, has put me upon writing.

It is one of the moſt preſſing concerns of my life, to know what regard is to be paid to my health? I know ſelf-preſervation is a great duty; and ſhould I laviſh away my ſtrength, and deſtroy my life; God might retort on me, Who hath required this, at thy hand? I know, he is not a God who delighteth in robbery, for ſacrifice; and I may not diſpenſe with one precept, more fully to comply with another. Here, I often ſtumble.—I would, by all means, be tender of my life and health, as a talent that God hath intruſted me with, and for which I am accountable to him; and ſhould I abuſe it, (although in his ſervice) it would be moſt diſpleaſing in his ſight! Yet I find my wicked heart ſo much inclined, ſecretly and inſenſibly to take advantage of the perſuaſions F2r 63 of my friends, to ſpare myſelf; joined with the natural love, which all have to the body, eſpecially when under pain and diſorders; till I fear few, and ſhort engagements are moſt agreeable. Should this grow into habitual, ſelf-indulgence; a ſin which is wove into our natures, what ſhould I do, but deſtroy the very life of my ſoul!

I ſhould loſe the light of God’s countenance, communion with him, and acceſs to him; peace of conſcience, increaſe of grace, and expoſe myſelf to injure the declarative glory of God, which is concerned in Chriſtians living near to him! I ſhould ſhow, that I loved life and health, better than Chriſt, and ſo was not worthy of him! Yea I ſhould merit that curſe, which is pronounced on him. who doeth the work of the Lord negligently! I know, that when I ſought the Lord, with my whole ſoul, I did ſenſibly derive ſtrength from him! Oh, I tremble at the thought of giving further advantage, to my ſlothful, backward heart; it is like throwing up the reins! God did never countenance my ſloth; no, his method hath been, to make me follow hard after him!

Oh, Sir, I am diſtreſſed, I muſt act contrary to what appears to be my duty, as well as F2v 64 that which is my greateſt privilege, if I abate, or do not rather increaſe my vigilance, in the ways of religion. Yet when I hear thoſe, who are eminent in grace, and whoſe ardent deſire is, that God may be loved and ſerved more, and better; when these argue againſt me, I am covered with ignorance and darkneſs, and am afraid to truſt my own wicked heart. Oh, that God would direct me.

I eſteem it not only my duty, but my moſt happy privilege, to contemplate and enjoy a Being, who is his own infinite delight! This is all that makes life deſirable, or preferable to death! When God is pleaſed to make any diſcoveries of theſe things to me; my ſoul even breaks, with intenſe and ardent longing, for the open viſion, and full fruition of God; and I know not how, to bear this diſtance! But, in the mean time, ſtrive after, and purſue, the higheſt degree of holineſs, attainable in this life! Nor can I ſee, how it is poſſible, for a ſoul, in the lively enjoyment of divine views, to indulge a ſlothful, indolent temper of mind! If I am not totally ignorant, of all that belongs to the ſpirit and life, of a Chriſtian, I think it impoſſible, in the exerciſe of faith and love; and under a deep and ſolemn impreſſion of divine, infinite, eternal realities; the vaſt F3r 65 importance of ſoul-concerns, &c. ſo far, to let love of eaſe, and bodily comfort prevail; as not to purſue thoſe things with reſtleſs ardour! Should I act in this manner, I muſt give up all my pretenſions to any thing above, or beyond nature.

I wiſh my dear Chriſtian friends may never know, by experience, what an exerciſe it is to the ſoul, when it hath gained ſome life and warmth in duty, and would gladly have theſe things fixed and abiding on their minds; then to be obliged, through weakneſs of body, to relax, and give over the eager purſuit. O, how diſtreſſing!—And muſt I then make myſelf moſt unhappy, and wretched? Deprive myſelf of all I count worthy my being, only to reſt a poor, frail body, that perhaps will laſt but a very ſhort time after all? Oh, ſhall I not debaſe my nature, and render my being as unworthy as I am capable of doing!

I know you do not deſire, that I ſhould intirely refrain from religious exerciſes, internal nor external; but I cannot be reconciled, even to a partial remiſſneſs, it may ſoon become total!

I beg, Sir, you would pray for me, that I F3v 66 be directed, in the way of duty.—And believe that I am,

With great respect, Your sincere Friend,


Letter XXXII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

I want a line from you, yet I cannot forbear writing to you. Satan would fain of late, have taken away all my glory and confidence. He ſeemed to fight, neither with great nor ſmall, but with the King of Iſrael only! His darts were directed, againſt the great Redeemer. Surely my confidence in Chriſt Jeſus, excites the rage of Satan. I find on every occaſion, he is ſet on deſtroying this; he knows my ſtrongeſt defence is here!

Could Satan once undermine this confidence, and make me queſtion my ſecurity through Chriſt, he thinks he ſhould then have gained the day; then have gotten poſſeſſion of the ſtrongeſt ſort, and would expect the reſt ſoon to ſurrender! Thus I muſt fall a prey F4r 67 to his fury, this I am ſatisfied he is aiming at; here I find his wrath levelled.—When a ſenſe of the worth of an immortal ſoul, and of the holineſs and juſtice of God, prevails in my mind, then, Satan would perſuade me, that there is not ſufficient ſecurity in Chriſt, to venture ſo precious a ſoul upon; that it will not do, to venture the wrath of an infinite Being, on an unſeen Mediator; with a thouſand other ſuggeſtions of the ſame nature.——But, bleſſed be God, it is to little purpoſe.

Bleſſed be God, who hath not left me ignorant of the devices of Satan; and though he may ſtrive to bruiſe Chriſt’s heel, by diſturbing one of the meaneſt of his members, yet, I know, my all-ſufficient Redeemer, will break his head.—The darts are thrown at Chriſt and therefore I put it upon him, to fight his own battles; reſolving I will not quit my hold; for, even by this conflict, Jeſus appears more worthy of my ſtrongeſt confidence, yea infinitely precious to my ſoul! I find it beſt, to reject theſe ſuggeſtions with abhorrence, and renew my flight to Chriſt; reſolving, come life, come death, I will not quit my Saviour; ſince neither earth, nor hell, has been able to diſcover any way of ſalvation worthy my truſt. Nor have F4v 68 any, or all the ſubtileſt wits, been able to confute all the goſpel plan of ſalvation. It is ſo juſt,—ſo reaſonable,—ſo worthy of God, and ſo ſafe for man, —that, if I periſh, I would periſh relying hereupon. Here I reſolve to reſt ſecure, on the terms, which the glorious God, hath propounded in the goſpel. Here is ſufficient foundation, for my truſt.

I can but periſh: and if I do, no blame to Satan, it is my own voluntary choice; I venture my ruin, and will perſiſt in the ſtead- faſt belief, of complete ſalvation, through faith in Chriſt Jeſus.—Had I a thouſand ſouls, I would venture them all here; and in this choſen Redeemer, would I triumph, and glory forever! O my dear, what ſhould we have done? had it not been for this God- man Mediator! Well, let Satan rage; I truſt it ſhall but wake up my faith and love, and ſtrengthen my confidence. Bleſſed be this glorious Saviour, who is now ſaving me, and bruiſing my enemy with the very dart he flung at me! O, infinite wiſdom! O, eternal goodneſs! This is my Redeemer, mighty to ſave! O how ſafe, how ſecure are thoſe, who have a faithful God and Saviour, engaged for them! And is this our happy lot, my friend?—Then let us walk worthy of God, unto all well-pleaſing. Can F5r 69 we bear to ſin, againſt ſo good a God!—Our covenant God and Father, with whom we hope, ere long, to dwell; who hath cauſed all his goodneſs, to paſs before us! May we not write, on all the different diſpenſations of his Providence towards us, mercy and truth, goodneſs and faithfulneſs? Surely we may look back, and view his tender care of us. How often hath he calmed our fears, pardoned our ſins, and reſtored comforts to our ſouls. When we have looked for the ſcourges of an angry God, we have had the ſmiles of a tender father!

Can we forget, ſuch love as this? Can we be ſo vile? But, ah! theſe baſe, theſe wretched ſouls of ours, need infinite forbearance, or they had long ago been paſt all recovery! But, ſuch is our God, and ſuch are we! He knows our frailty, and is ready to pardon; yea he delighteth in ſhowing mercy, through his dear Son; our only hope, our only refuge, our only way of acceſs, to the Father! O, let us make great uſe, of our Redeemer, in our Chriſtian courſe.— This is moſt pleaſing to God; it does honour to all the divine attributes, wiſdom, goodneſs, juſtice, truth, and holineſs; yea, we cannot honour God more, than in making conſtant application to Chriſt, and owning F5v 70 him, as our only Lord and Saviour.—But I muſt have done.



Letter XXXIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My very dear Friend,

I rejoice to hear of your ſafe arrival, and comfortable circumſtances. O may God abundantly refreſh you, in body and in ſoul! —May my three dear friends, return laden, with the fruits of Canaan; and give us, who are yet in the wilderneſs, ſome ſweet, animating proofs, of the good things with which Emmanuel’s land abounds!Mrs. Oſborn, and two more of Miſs A’s Friends, were at Long-Iſland, on a viſit, where there was a great revival of Religion. O, to know that God yet dwells with man on earth, by the communications of his ſpirit and grace, with his word, how reviving!

Never was I more in the dark, reſpecting the deſigns and purpoſes of God, concerning us! When I look back, upon that unwearied importunity, which I truſt, God has excited, and that encouragement I thought he did give; I am ready to conclude, with good F6r 71 Mr. Elliot, that theſe dark times, are the womb of a bright morning! But when I conſider present Providences, and appearances, I am ready to ſay, Surely all theſe things are againſt us. My haſty wiſhes have been long catching at this, or that, mean or appearance, to be the cloud big with a heavenly ſhower; but inſtead of light, there is darkneſs! Yet, juſt are all thy ways, O thou, King of Saints!—You know, my friend, the Providences, which have appeared filled with great events, both of a terrible, and comfortable aſpect, have paſſed over, without being unfolded to us! Yet I will ſpeak for our God, although we have not had what we deſired and hoped; neither have we yet, had that, which we feared, and deſerved! How ſurprizingly hath God over- ruled, in threatening dangers; and ſaid to the tempeſtuous billows, be ſtill!

Mr. Buell’s letter to the Deacon, with a paſſage out of Mr. S’s, have been like cold water, to a thirſty ſoul; and the moſt animating to my hopes, of any thing I have ſeen of late. Hath God excited the ſeed of Jacob to ſeek his face, for us?—And ſhall it be in vain? Will not God ſhow, that he is a God hearing prayer? Will he deny himſelf, to correct us? Surely not!

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I was brought into anxiety for you, on hearing of the violence of the ſtorm; but have been relieved, by caſting my care on God! That I have a throne of grace to go to, is my comfort; and I begin to think, that I muſt thankfully, and ſubmiſſively accept of theſe refreſhing ſeaſons, as my delightful repaſt through this wilderneſs; while conflicts within, and diſappointments reſpecting Zion, are without, and abide me! O my dear, hope deferred, hath made my heart ſick, ſick unto death!

O, if we may eſcape with our lives, and the honour of our Lord be unſullied by us, amidſt all the dangers and ſore temptations of this ſtate,—ſurely the great Captain of our ſalvation, ſhall forever be admired and adored, and we ſhall ſhout forth ſovereign grace, in the higheſt ſtrains! As to preſent dark appearances, this muſt be our reſolution,— We will wait on the Lord, who hideth his face from the houſe of Jacob, and hope in him too! I hope to ſee you come home, ſtrong in faith, giving glory to God.—May I be aſhamed of all my unworthy, deſponding thoughts, of my ever-bleſſed, ever-faithful, gracious God—Aſhamed I am; but O for a better temper of ſoul, that the murmurer, may learn doctrine; and ſhe who erred G1r 73 in ſpirit, may come to underſtand. There is a ſecret hope among ſome of us, that the Reverend Mr. Buell, will come with you.— O may our all-glorious Jeſus ever delight to honour him, in his work; and may he yet, have ſome fruits among us, that ſhall abound to the glory of God!

My dear, cannot you engage ſome dear, praying ſouls, to meet us, at ſome appointed ſeaſon, to beſiege the throne of grace, for poor Rhode-Island!

Yours, &c.


Letter XXXIV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Friend,

Your kind letter, warm with love and zeal, had I no regard to religion, my reaſon and judgment muſt approve of; much more, when religion puts in, ſo high a claim!

I have nothing to say againſt your arguments, nor dare I determine againſt them in my practice; yet I think I never felt ſuch ſenſible backwardneſs, to any exerciſe of a religious nature in my life, as I do to writing G G1v 74 of letters. Whatever turn of mind I once had for it, which might render it a duty then, ſeems now abſent. I am now, much more inclined to get diſengaged from all the world —and want more to feel, and know, the ſubſtantial realities of vital religion. O, if the moſt kind, and gracious God, would take me near to himſelf, lead me into a greater knowledge of his covenant, and the bleſſings thoreofthereof, it is all I want!

I find a diſaffection for creature converſe, I long to know more of the hidden life of a Chriſtian.—My ſoul is reaching after more ſolid—pure, and ſelf-abaſing, diſcoveries of God; and the truths of the goſpel. My main buſineſs; yea all my work ſeems to lie, between God and my own ſoul; to know more of both, is of the utmoſt importance! —And while this work preſſeth on me, I can by no means purſue another. Let me, O, let me, forget and neglect, all but God, and the truths of the goſpel! Here, my friend, let me fix; and then, if Providence calls, I hope I ſhall obey. I once thought, I ſhould not write any more; but I rather think, if God aſſiſt and influence, I ſhall.

I thank you for your letter, it deſerves my grateful acknowledgements. Pray for me; G2r 75 O pray that my ſoul may feel the powerful influences of the Holy Spirit, bringing me into an entire conformity to God—a more ſpiritual, holy diſpoſition of ſoul, refined from all droſs and corruption!



Letter XXXV.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A. who was then in Boston.

My dear S.

On Friday laſt, I received your firſt letter, I was ſincerely glad of it; but have not time now, to enlarge in anſwering it. I can only ſay, I rejoice in all the goodneſs of God to you, and wiſh you, always to put your truſt and confidence in him, for whom I can witneſs, that he is always faithful to his promiſes; and infinitely worthy our higheſt praiſe, and adoration!

O, bleſs God for me; for verily I think he never made more frequent, and glorious diſcoveries, of his amiable perfections, than of late.—Nor did I ever rejoice, more ſteadily, in the glorious, God-man Mediator; who is all, and in all!

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O my dear, let us renew our flight to him, claſp him in the arms of our faith, and dedicate our all unto him! And O, how ſafe, is what we commit unto him!—Safe indeed: For he hath infinite power; and will ſurely keep, what is depoſited in his hands, both in life, and death!

In the belief of this, I determine to ſet out on the morrow, to viſit my mother; there, I expect to meet the Rev. Mr. F—, who will conduct me to his houſe.

Providence hath ſeemed to favour my going, by many concurring circumſtances.— Yet I have been ſeriouſly concerned to know, if I am in the path of duty;—eſpecially as I have heard, that it is very ſickly there. Had I known this before I fixed my plan, I ſhould have deferred my journey for the preſent; —for it is my opinion, that we ought neither to run from, nor into ſickneſs, unleſs we are eſpecially called, in Providence.

I know, however, that what God hath in infinite wiſdom deſigned for me, ſhall be accompliſhed. Be it ſickneſs or death, it will certainly ſeize me. If death is determined for me now; I truſt, through the merits of the dear Mediator, I ſhall be admitted into the open viſion, and full fruition of my God! G3r 77 —For bleſſed be our Emmanuel, it is his will, that all thoſe, whom the Father hath given him, may be with him, to behold his glory

Then, farewell ſin, and ſorrow.—Farewell, vain and deluding world.—Farewell, forever!

But if God deſigns to hold me longer in life, it is as eaſy for him to preſerve me there. as here; therefore with him I leave it, for he doth all things well! Bleſſed be his name, vile and deſpicable as I am, yet through the riches of ſovereign grace, I am his own; let him do, as ſeemeth him good!



Letter XXXVI.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

Yours I received, and what ſhall I ſay? Theſe are the ſad complaints which we ſhall ever make, while we live in this wretched world, and have this more wretched heart to deal with.—Ten thouſand interruptions G3v 78 await us, in the way of duty. This ſhall never be the place of our reſt:—It is the fixed law of God, that Chriſt alone ſhall be the rest of his people. Let us then fly from all things here below, to him who is the centre of our ſouls.—Let us for help, againſt our own vile hearts, fly to him, where help is only to be found. We can never make our hearts better—We may labour and ſtrive all our days, and weary out our ſouls, but ſhall not gain any thing, unleſs Jeſus appears for us; and then, we ſhall be victorious.

I know your complaints, I feel your burdens, and would help you, if I could; but, alas, if I were to try, you might well reply, Phyſician heal thyſelf! I am daily groaning under the burden of a hard heart—ſtubborn will—a depraved and ungrateful ſoul—a ſubtle, malicious foe, who is ſeeking to deſtroy me;—yet, bleſſed be God, I truſt, more and mightier are they who are with me, than thoſe that are againſt me. O let us glory, in our Almighty Redeemer! Have we not liſted under Jeſus? Is not he the Captain of our Salvation? Then let him command, and let us obey.

We are not called, to man the army; nor G4r 79 to furniſh ourſelves for the warfare; but only to make uſe of the armour, which Jeſus provides for us. O my friend, what ſhould we do, without this all-glorious Redeemer.— Methinks I ſhould Lie down in eternal deſpair, and everlaſting horror, were it not for him! O, how ſweet is this dear Saviour, to my weary, burdened ſoul! O, ſhall we droop and faint, who have ſuch an Almighty prop! Let thoſe faint and be diſcouraged, who have no better ſtrength than their own; but let us, magnify our Redeemer, by a conſtant— reſolute—confidence and dependance on him.

We can never make too great uſe of him, in our Chriſtian courſe; yea, we are undone, except we lean on him;—for we are by no means a match, for thoſe mighty legions of enemies, who are ſeeking our deſtruction.

Yours, in the strongest bonds,


Letter XXXVII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear S.

What is the peculiar cauſe of that dejection, G4v 80 tion, which appeared in you yeſterday? Is it the trials and temptations which your dear, aged parent, is paſſing through, which affects you? The Lord ſupport you, and make you an inſtrument in his hand, to ſupport and comfort her. God is not a man, that he ſhould lie; though Satan, and our unbelief dare call his word in queſtion. O that our God would appear for our help; put Satan to flight, and cauſe us to put our truſt in him! O my dear, reſolutely go on, caſting your dear mother, on the faithfulneſs of that God, who hath ſaid; He will never leave, nor forſake thoſe, who truſt in him. Hath he not been the guide of her youth, and the ſtaff of her age?—Her tried friend, in all circumſtances in life?—Enabled her to give evidence of the reality of her Religion;—ſo that you have had no reaſon to doubt of her intereſt in Chriſt.—Has ſhe not been kept, by the mighty power of God, all her days? —She ſhall ſtill be kept; Chriſt will not deliver her into the hands of Satan now; no, he is able to keep what ſhe hath committed into his hands, and to preſent her faultleſs, clothed with his righteouſneſs, and redeemed by his precious blood. The Lord be with you my dear, ſtrengthen you in body and in ſoul, till he take you to behold his glory;— G5r 81 where ſin and ſorrow ſhall ceaſe forever, and God himſelf ſhall wipe all tears from your eyes!

Your sympathizing,



From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Madam,

I hope before this time, the joy of the Lord is your ſtrength—and that you are now ſpeaking highly, and honorably of him, knowing in whom you have believed—that he is the faithful, covenant-keeping God—infinite in patience and forbearance—boundleſs in his grace—forgiving iniquity, tranſgreſſion and ſin! I hope you are triumphing, in the complete atonement, made by Chriſt Jeſus; and exulting in that glorious righteouſneſs, which he hath wrought out, and brought in!

Surely here, is all our ſalvation; and here, hath been all our refuge, hope, and confidence, in our higheſt conſolations, and deepeſt abaſement. O my dear, what but this hope, hath preſerved you or me, from ſinking; when wave after wave, and billow on billow, G5v 82 hath gone over our heads! What but this, hath preſerved and ſupported, all the generation of God’s children, that have gone before us? and this, ſhall preſerve thoſe who follow after; and we, vile as we are, ſhall witneſs to the truth and faithfulneſs of Jehovah.— Take courage, my dear friend, God will not loſe, what he hath wrought for, and in us;—the prey, ſhall not be taken from our Almighty Redeemer:—fear not—the Lion of the tribe of Judah, ſhall prevail, and be victorious! What enemies have you and I to encounter, but ſuch as have been conquered for us, by the great Captain of our ſalvation. Alas for me, it is my ignorance of, and unlikeneſs to the Conqueror, that is my miſery and bane! I bluſh and am aſhamed, while I write of the perfections of God.—his boundleſs grace—the completeneſs and immutability of his covenant—my hope in God—and the ground of hope; and yet, that I ſhould be ſo little affected with, or influenced by it!

I ſeem to be like a perſon in a lethargy, ſometimes a little arouſed,—open my eyes,— behold a glorious ſtructure,—all-complete!— all-perfect,—ſurrounded with an infinite variety.—A world of wonders open to my view, —all important; but my weak ſight is ſoon G6r 83 confounded, and my ideas confuſed, through the power of the deceaſe! O, this painful indolence and ſtupefaction! I feel myſelf moſt wretched, yet cannot ſhake off this ſloth! Alas, I find, that neither time—nor place—nor circumſtances, will do it.—Nothing, but the healing hand of my Almighty phyſician, will cure the diſeaſe of ſin!

I find, though abſent, yet we travel along together; ſometimes up, and ſometimes down.—Well, there is nothing better for us, than ſubmiſſion to our all-wiſe Conductor.

Yours, affectionately,


Letter XXXIX.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O. when her only Child lay on his death-bed, out of the town.

My dear Friend,

I am deeply affected with your affliction, and tenderly ſympathize with you in your ſorrow. Methinks I could be willing to put my ſhoulder to yours, and bear part of the burthen, yea the whole of it, rather than you ſhould be cruſhed under it! But what ſhall G6v 84 I ſay? Has your God and Father put this cup into your hand? Then drink it, my dear, with ſubmiſſion, love, and fear;—forget the cup, while you behold the hand which gives it to you. It is not from my hand; no, nor from the neareſt friend on earth; if ſo, you might fear ſome poiſon with the gall. —O that I could tell you, or rather that God would ſhow you, from whoſe hand it is. Is it not from the hand of your God and Father—your Redeemer—Saviour—head, and huſband—and hath he not ſaid, you are as the apple of his eye—and will he hurt that? No! Surely, he will not! O, ariſe, and by faith caſt your child upon Chriſt—tell him he is your only ſon, and you want a pardon for him;—and will not he, who is an inexhauſtible fountain,—a boundleſs ocean of infinite fullneſs, be as ready to pity the soul of your ſon, as he was to pity the bodies of thoſe who came to him for healing, in the days of his fleſh? Verily the promiſes are to believers, and their children.

But, however, God may deal with you, as to giving comfortable evidence of his being born again. Study and ſeek, a reſigned will. O do not fall out, with your Father! Kiſs the hand, though it have a rod in it—it is H1r 85 the hand of your God ſtill.Mrs. Oſborn’s exerciſes, under this trial, were truly ſublime, an account of which, is given in her life, published by Doctor Hopkins. O my dear, you and I may, yea muſt love him, becauſe he is a Sovereign God! Set your King on his holy hill, Zion—and not only suffer, but entreat him to be ſovereign ſtill. And now, my dear, once and again I commit you and yours, both living and dying, into the hands of the Father of Mercies, the God and Father of our Lord Jeſus Chriſt! Bury not living mercies with dead ſorrows, but ſtill adore your God in adverſity! If your child yet lives, tell him from me, not to delay one moment longer, but fly to the bleſſed Jeſus!— Tell him I have prayed, and by God’s leave that I will ſtill pray for him; and I beg he would pray for himſelf.—And now farewell, my friend; bless the Lord, for he is good.— I long to ſee you, but muſt say, Father, thy will be done!



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Letter XL.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

By reflecting on Mr. ―’s ſermon, I think I am better able to anſwer your queſtion, that when you aſked it, viz. What good I got by that ſermon?

I cannot thank the miniſter, nor the ſermon, for any good obtained thereby, and therefore I will aſcribe the more to God.— Perhaps if the truth had been preached, I might have been ready to give that praiſe to the preacher, which was due only to God; but I am now free from this ſnare, for I cannot think it had any direct tendency, to honor God, or do good to men.

I cannot ſee how the divine perfections are glorified; how the wiſdom of God is diſplayed in lowering the Law, in order to bring in the goſpel, and yet the conditions, Do, and live, remain in full force! If ſalvation came by the law, then Chriſt is dead in vain; and what becomes of the juſtice, truth, and faithfulneſs, of God!—How are they glorified by this ſcheme of ſalvation, by the deeds of the law?

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Bleſſed be God, I am renewedly eſtabliſhed in the firm belief of ſalvation, only through faith in Chriſt Jeſus.—A faith which unites to, reſteth on, and receiveth Chriſt, as a whole Saviour. A faith which purifies the heart, works by love, and influenceth the whole man, to a life of univerſal obedience. —Surely this muſt be moſt worthy of God, and moſt ſafe, for wretched, miſerable man― who is without ſtrength, or will, to help himſelf!

O, glory to God, for Jeſus Chriſt! In him I will glory forever!—Though the croſs of Chriſt be to the Jews a ſtumbling-block, and to the Greeks, fooliſhneſs; yet, to all thoſe who are ſaved, it was, is, and ever ſhall be, the power of God, and the wiſdom of God!

The ſcheme of this ſalvation by the law, is hurtful to man, as it tends to draw him from Chriſt, the only hope of ſinners.—Settle the Formaliſt, on his lees—and bring all, to reſt ſhort, of a ſaving change of heart. If a bare profeſſing of Chriſt, is coming to him; how is the gate ſtrait, and the path narrow?— Forgive me, my dear, that I have filled my letter with ſuch cavils.—I hope, I ſhall never have the like occaſion. It is diſagreeable; yet I could not forbear.

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I abhor a contradictory, cenſorious temper, I truſt you know;—and I think I could bear any thing eaſier, than to have my dear, my ever-glorious Redeemer, ſet low, and degraded!—Well; he is ſtill more precious to me, and I renew my flight to him.—If others can do without him, I cannot. O, glory to this deareſt, God-man Mediator,—this ſovereign God, who can bring light out of darkneſs— can eſtabliſh my faith in Chriſt, by ſuch a ſermon, and cauſe me renewedly to renounce all hope in any other name.

Verily, I ſee ſuch a diſplay of the divine character and perfections, in the way of ſalvation by Jeſus Chriſt; I am aſſured, it muſt be of God! O, the depth of the riches, both of the wiſdom, and knowledge, of God! O, the infinite goodneſs, and love, of Jehovah!—Let us, my dear, ſhow our love and gratitude to God, by making great uſe of this Saviour; and let us do it with a view, to the glory of God, and not merely, for our own eaſe!

We ſhould certainly find more comfort and pleaſure, by looking more to Chriſt; but we ſhould ſeek the glory of God, even in this, rather than our own enjoyment.

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Let us ſet the crown on the head of King Jeſus, ſaying, reign glorious Emmanuel!— Reign Almighty Redeemer, display thy glory —and cauſe thoſe, who ſee neither form nor comelineſs in thee, to cry out, Thou art all fair, there is no ſpot in thee, the chief among ten thouſands, yea altogether lovely! —And thoſe, who have ſuch ſaint views of thee, as I have, let them be even ſwallowed up, in the open viſion, and full fruition of thy glory!

O, let me ſee thy face; let me taſte thy love, O my God, my everlaſting all!— When, O, when ſhall I be with thee, where thou art, to behold thy glory!—To be changed into thy Image!—There it ſhall be the glory of our glory, to glorify and exalt thee! Till then, my ſoul can never be completely at reſt.—O, waſt me, near thy feat; let me dwell but where I long to, and I ſhall be what thou wouldſt have me be, and what I wiſh to be! This I dare promiſe, yes, becauſe God hath promiſed it. There, O there, my exalted Redeemer, ſhall reign gloriouſly, and none of the bleſſed inhabitants diſdain his regal ſceptre! There no diſcord will have place, for the redeemed of the Lord ſhall all ſing redeeming love, to all eternity! —O, methinks, I long to join their acclamations, H3v 90 tions, and extol Jeſus the Saviour, before men and Angels!

God hath now, I truſt, been ſhowing me my utter inability, to do any thing, acceptable to him, of myſelf; and the neceſſity I am under, of conſtantly looking to Chriſt, for righteouſneſs and ſtrength!

Now is Chriſt precious; and I now long to yield a univerſal and perfect obedience to all his commands;—for true faith doth not hinder, but promote obedience.

O let me now ſhow this, by a more holy life, and converſation.

Your real friend,


Letter XLI.

From Mrs. O. to a particular friend.

My dearly beloved Friend,

Beautiful, through that comelineſs, which God hath put on you, in Chriſt Jeſus. —I rejoice, and glorify God on your behalf, for the great things he hath done in you, and for you. Surely God hath done great things H4r 91 for you; although you are not brought to triumph, but are yet labouring under ſome diſcouragements. God will perfect his own work, and make you more than conqueror, through his grace.—He will build you up, and you ſhall have joy, in his own time.

March on, my dear, with courage; you have a glorious Captain, under whoſe banner you have now liſted.—You may depend upon his protection.—Chriſt Jeſus will never fail you, all the days of your life. Be ſtrong, and of good courage; Chriſt will cover your head, in the field of battle;—he will not leave you there, nor give you into the hand of your enemies; no, he never will deliver you up to their will. As he hath begun to ſave you; he will go on, till he hath put the hoſts of hell to flight. He will ſtrengthen your faith, and manifeſt himſelf to you, and at laſt take you, to behold his glory!

So prayeth your affectionate,


Letter XLII.

From Miss S.A. to the same person.

My dear Friend,

Be not troubled, or diſcouraged, though H4v 92 you did not feel that ſenſible ſweetneſs and joy, which you deſired.

Perhaps, you made too great dependence, on ſenſible joy and manifeſtations; or might limit the Almighty, to that particular time; and God ſaw beſt to ſhow himſelf a Sovereign, and yet give you the beſt things—the moſt ſolid, durable, purifying, eſtabliſhing good!

When I firſt joined the church, I did not find that ſenſible raviſhment in the ordinance, which I had hoped for;—yet I was built up by it, and afterwards found great ſenſible comfort and communion, in my attendance thereon.

Bleſſed be God, often when I have had leaſt ſenſible joy, I have found real virtue and ſtrength, derived from Chriſt, through this medium. O, let our God take his own way —he will guide us by his counſel, and at laſt receive us to glory! He will give grace, and glory; and no good thing, will he withhold, from thoſe that walk uprightly.— Thoſe who ſeek and ſerve him, in all the ways of his appointment, and whoſe deſire and dependence is on him alone, ſhall ſurely find his grace ſufficient for them.

I bleſs God, for the gracious aſſiſtance afforded H5r 93 forded you. May you be ſtrengthened, and refreſhed, more and more! O, may to God of all grace, and love in Jeſus Chriſt, be glorified in, and by us! May we, who have put on Chriſt, not only by an outward profeſſion, but by an inward and ſpiritual union; walk worthy our high and holy vocation.— May we adorn the doctrine of God our Saviour, and ſhow the world, that there is ſomething more, in true Religion, than a bare name.

Yes, there is a living, vital principle, productive of good works. Let us keep our eye fixed on Chriſt, not looking for that from ourſelves, which can only be derived from him, who is the head of all divine influence; and thus may we grow up, in him, unto perfection!



Letter XLIII.

From Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. Hopkins, while he was preaching at Newport, on probation, and difficulties began to arise.

Reverend and kind Sir,

I was very ſenſibly ſtruck yeſterday, at H5v 94 hearing you ſpeak of a ſpeedy remove from us! And the impreſſions are abiding; nor can I free myſelf from ſome degree of anxiety, on the occaſion.—Perhaps I have laid claim to more, than God has given me. I had reſted till of late, comfortably ſatisfied, that the great Head of the Church, would graciouſly provide for us; who, and when, I left with him to determine. But now I began to think, I might follow and fix.

I have often wondered, that my faith, in ſuch an important point, had not been more tried and ſhaken. But perhaps this is the time! however, I am not reconciled to your speedy departure; nor am I wholly diſmayed at the preſent embarraſſment of affairs. It often is the caſe, that when a wiſe, and good God, deſigns great, and ſpecial mercies, great difficulties lay in the way; and thereby his wiſdom, power, and grace, is more conſpicuous, in removing them.

Perhaps we have not prayed enough yet, for ſo great a mercy, as the re-eſtabliſhment of the goſpel among us. Wait, dear Sir, awhile longer, and God is helping us, we will pray more frequently, more earneſtly; the difficulties ſhall, by divine grace, urge us on. And if we obtain you of God, in a way of H6r 95 faith and prayer, I am perſuaded it will be better, both for you, and us! For myſelf, I ſcarce ever received any ſignal mercy, but which was ſweetened, by the trials that went before it.

I know, Providence wants neither time, nor opportunity, to bring about its purpoſes; but I find it beſt for me, to let it have both; by a patient waiting, for the event. By divine aſſiſtance, we will make this a principal ſubject of our addreſſes, at the throne of grace, this afternoon;That afternoon was devoted to prayer, by the Female Society. urged by the moſt noble motives, the glory of our enthroned Redeemer, who is Head of his Church! You will join us, dear Sir, and be a helper of our faith and prayer, as well as of our joy.

May every poſſible bleſſing, from the inexhauſtible fountain of the Redeemer’s fulneſs, attend you; and may your longer ſtay among us, and prayers for us, render you the richeſt bleſſing we ever enjoyed; and unſpeakably encreaſe your joy here, and crown of rejoicing hereafter!—Thus prayeth,

Your unworthy friend,


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Letter XLIV.

From Mrs. O. to the Rev. Mr. Hopkins, when he was preaching on Probation, in Newport.

My worthy, esteemed, and I had almoſt said Dear Pastor,

And O, that it might be the divine will, to permit me, to ſpeak it out! It is God alone, I know, that can bring it to paſs!— To him alone, then, I muſt go. It is he only that can take away the diſcouraging diſpoſition, of any who ſay, We be not able: Thoſe againſt us, are ſtronger than we.They are men of great ſtature, even as giants; and we in our own fight, are as graſshoppers, and ſo we are in their ſight!

It is God alone, who can inſpire his people at this day, with the excellent ſpirit of a Caleb and a Joſhua, and enable them to ſay, relying on him by faith, Let us ſettle at once and poſſeſs, for we are well able to overcome, and maintain; we being on the Lord’s ſide, and he on ours! O that God, for Chriſt’s ſake, would thus help us! Help us, however few in number, however low in circumſtances, yet to determine by his grace, to exchange intereſts with him, at once reſolve to ſupport his goſpel, his truths, his Ministers, let what will become of us; let Chriſt see to that.

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O for ſuch a temper of ſoul! How ſoon would the walls of the city fall, as the walls of Jericho, and we go in and poſſeſs; go in and out, and find paſture!

It is true, my dear Sir, I cannot aſſuredly know, what is in the womb of divine Providence, nor what better things God deſigns for you, while I am ſaying however, all theſe things are againſt us! I have nothing left to comfort me, in this ſituation, (if you are conſtrained to turn away from us) but abounding grace to the chief of ſinners; and God’s ability to glorify himſelf, and bring the greateſt good, out of the greateſt evil. But my heart rather trembles for fear of him, and I am afraid of his judgments; as we do appear to be ripening apace, for judgments.

Oh, Sir, if you do depart, ſhake not off the duſt of your feet, for a teſtimony againſt usus; but ſtill, if permitted, lift up a cry for us! May the Lord God Almighty bleſs you, ſtrengthen, eſtabliſh and ſettle you, in his own way and work, until he take you into his boſom of eternal reſt!

But ſtop, my pen! Huſh my fears! Carry me no further now, in taking a farewell: for except God interpoſe and reſign me, I ſhall I I1v 98 not be able to bear it! O, that I may have no will but God’s! And who can tell, but it may yet be his will, to give me Mr. H. for my miniſter! Perhaps the great head of the church hath choſen him, and will yet make bare his arm, for his ſettlement, ſupport and ſucceſs, in poor Newport! With God all things are poſſible; in the mount of the Lord it ſhall be ſeen!

Who are men, to oppoſe infinite wiſdom, Almighty power, mercy, love, and faithfulneſs! All hearts are in his hands; Devils are at his controul; and whatſoever he hath fore-ordained, shall come to paſs. The Lord reigns, and not a ſparrow falls, without his permiſſion. Why ſhould we fear? We that are in Chriſt, are of more worth than many ſparrows: What can we do then, but commit the cauſe to the great head of the church, and ſay, the will of the Lord be done! If he does not interpoſe, in uniting the hearts of this people; it may be for wiſe and holy ends. Let us hear him ſaying, What I do, thou knoweſt not now, but thou ſhalt know hereafter!

My dear Sir, you have this to comfort you, that you have taken every method, conſiſtent with truth and a good conſequence, to engage I2r 99 and unite this people. I rejoice that you have this teſtimony, in your own conſcience, and in ours alſo. No one, I believe, charges you with any miſconduct. If you go, you leave a witneſs for God, and yourſelf, in our hearts. And oh, may God have all the glory! May God go on to draw forth your precious ſoul, in gratitude and thankful praiſe, the ſweet employment of heaven! By whatever means your joy and praiſe is excited, I will, God helping me, praiſe and rejoice with you, for herein God is glorified; he hath expreſsly ſaid, Whoſo offereth praiſe, glorifieth me! Oh, that I were more, in this delightful exerciſe, which ſeemed to ſwallow up your ſoul, when you wrote your laſt to me! Oh, how do the redeemed above exult!— Well, let us ſtill, dear Sir, amidſt all our ſorrows, bear a part with them; ſince our Redeemer lives, and hath told us, that, therefore, we ſhall live alſo!

If God is glorified, and we are accepted in the beloved; let us go on to praiſe him here below, till we aſcend to join the eternal hallelujahs above, and caſt down our crowns, at the Redeemer’s feet, forever and ever. Amen, hallelujah! Hold out, faith and patience, a little longer; a few more ſtruggles, with ſin, Satan, and the world, and all ſhall I2v 100 be well, to all eternity! How ſweet, in this view, is this word Eternity! When we ſhall be holy, as God is holy; pure, as God is pure; we ſhall love, and praiſe eternally!

But why, hath ſuch a wretch as I, this hope? Becauſe triumphant grace hath abounded, to the chief of ſinners! It is the wretched, the miſerable, helpleſs, and vile, Chriſt came to ſave; and ſuch an one, am I! I have fled to him, for refuge; and therefore ſhall not be confounded, or put to ſhame. Time fails, I can only return you a thouſand thanks, for all your friendſhip, and favours to,

Your sincere Friend,


Letter XLV.

From Miss S.A. to a young friend,.

My dear friend,

I am tenderly concerned for you, and have longed for an opportunity to converſe with you; but as I have not any proſpect of a good one, I have taken this method.

And in the firſt place, fix this on your I3r 101 mind; that it comes from one, who moſt ſincerely loves you; and is dictated by a heart full of ſenſibility and concern, for your beſt good; and in ſome meaſure, impreſſed with a ſenſe of the vaſt importance, of your eternal ſalvation.

I tenderly feel for you, under your outward trials. I know they have been great, and very afflicting! But were I aſſured, that you had given yourſelf up to God, had taken him for your portion, and placed all your happineſs in him; though I ſhould feel a tender ſympathy, yet I ſhould have no cauſe for anxiety; becauſe I am aſſured, that all things ſhall work for good, to thoſe who love him.

But worldly ſorrow, worketh death! Let me then intreat you, not to indulge a repining ſpirit at the Providence of God, or any angry reſentment at the inſtruments of your ſorrow. But view the hand of God in it, and receive the inſtruction he offers you.— Let not your trials, overwhelm you with care and anxiety; for the world, and all things in it, are paſſing away, and will ſoon be gone from you, or you from them. O, do not let the cares, or the flatteries of this vain world influence you to neglect the means of grace! I3v 102 Indeed, my dear, I have had very painful feeling of late, on obſerving your great neglect of, and inattention to, the worſhip of God, in public. I have not ſaid any thing to you, reſpecting your religious ſentiments, while you attended at different places of worſhip; becauſe, I hoped, you would examine and fix. But now, I cannot be ſilent! It is, indeed, time for you to know, what you are!

Chriſtianity is ſomething real, and important; and every rational mind, ought to feel it ſo.

Enquire into its doctrines; embrace and fix on thoſe, which appear moſt agreeable to ſcripture, and ſolemnly attend on all its inſtitutions. Your great inattention to the houſe and ordinances of God, gives me inexpreſſible concern. I hope none of your friends, will hinder, or diſcourage you. But I know you are not likely, to have encouragement, from the family, where you live; who ſo wickedly neglect the houſe of God themſelves.—Remember your dear mother, who, though ſhe could not hear a word, yet would go, to ſet an example to her children. Do, my dear, let me intreat you, to give yourſelf time;— examine what religion is, and of what importance, to you;—reflect on your own conduct, I4r 103 and ſee how you treat it! The great author of chriſtianity hath ſaid, He that is not with me, is againſt me!

Yours, affectionately,


Letter XLVI.

From Miss S.A. to a friend just recovered from the small-pox, but who died suddenly, immediately after.

My dear Friend,

You have been much in my mind and heart, ſince I firſt heard of your having that diſtemper. My only refuge has been the throne of grace,—there I have carried you; and have begged recovering mercy, for you. And now, my dear friend, what ſhall I next do, after a thankful acknowledgement of the divine goodneſs, in exciting and anſwering of prayer; but congratulate you, on your recovery, and preſs upon you, the great obligations you are under, to your divine benefactor and healer?—Hath he brought you to the gates of the grave, and from thence bid you return?—Hath he redeemed your life I4v 104 from death, and ſhall it not now, be moſt ſolemnly devoted to his ſervice and glory?— Will not my friend now give up herſelf to God, and to his people; and by a more cloſe union to, and more conſtant aſſociating with them, ſhow on whoſe ſide, ſhe is?—Will not this ſtrengthen her, againſt the world, and its temptations?

It hath been with much concern, that I have viewed you for ſome time paſt, abſenting yourſelf from your Chriſtian friends; eſpecially at a time when temptations abound, and the ſtrongeſt and beſt, need every aſſiſtance and help, to keep them from being inſnared. —Chriſtian ſociety has been found, a very powerful help. Inſpiration hath told us, that Two are better than one.

O my dear, though God hat ſo wonderfully ſpared your life, and recovered you from that dreadful diſtemper; yet death may be at the door, in ſome other way!—We are both in the decline of life. We have but a little while to live. What is all this world, but a vain bubble! What relief could it afford you, in your late danger and diſtreſs? Surely none!—O then, let the late experience you have had, cure you of all your worldly ſchemes and purſuits. Now, O now, I5r 105 my dear friend, be entreated, to make the Lord your portion; lay up all your good, in him! Let communion with him, and his people, be your delightful enjoyment!

Thus far I wrote, but was obliged to ſtop, to attend on other duties; and the ſame evening, a ſudden death, cloſed the eyes, and finiſhed the probation ſtate, of my friend— She is now beyond the reach of my pen, and needs not my advice! She knows more than I do, and feels more of the reality of eternal things!—One is taken, and another left! May I be ready, when Jehovah calls!

Letter XLVII.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend.

My dear Friend,

I omitted writing yeſterday, becauſe I had ſo much to ſay, and had ſo little time; and I find the ſame reaſon to-day; yet I cannot forbear, juſt intreating you, not to let any thing you have ſaid to me, give you the leaſt concern. I receive it moſt kindly. I think I know, all about ſuch exerciſes. Satan, and bodily diſorders, have a great hand in them.—They are a part of that warfare, I5v 106 which God aſſigns his people; out of which, they ſhall come off more than conquerors, through the great and glorious Captain of Salvation! Theſe are ſome of the tribulations, through which thoſe, who would waſh their garments in the blood of the dear Lamb, muſt paſs; as a purifying furnace to purge away, as well as imbitter ſin. Hope in God, my dear, whoſe Almighty arm is able to ſupport and deliver.

Believe me to be, your most cordial, unreserved, devoted friend,


Letter XLVIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear Friend,

I would gladly write you ſome ſuitable anſwer to your letter, but know not how to do it. I ſeem, in ſome ſenſe, to be like the enquiring, wandering, daughters of Jeruſalem, when the Spouſe was ſeeking her Beloved, Cant. v. 9.—What is thy beloved, more than another beloved, O thou faireſt among women, that thou doſt ſo charge us? I6r 107 —Alas, I have loſt thoſe transforming views of his glorious perfections, which ſo animate and inflame your ſoul; and the language of my practice is, there is no form nor comelineſs in him, wherefore I ſhould deſire him. Yet I believe, He is the altogether lovely one; the chiefeſt among ten thouſands! —But O, I cannot get near to him; and this cannot, I plainly ſee, is my ſtubborn will! O, if that were but bowed to the ſceptre of King Jeſus, I ſhould ſoon find better times.

I have been for ſome time paſt, rambling out among means and creatures, in a wilderneſs. And I am ſure, I ſhall not find reſt, till I return, and ſtay myſelf upon God. But I cannot find the way back again! Yet, methinks, I hear Chriſt ſpeaking to me, in his word, I am the way, the truth, and the life.—O, if I could but claſp my Saviour, in the arms of a ſtrong, and lively faith, I ſhould do well; though a thouſand things were againſt me. But without him, I can do nothing.

I know I have too often tried your patience, with my fruitleſs complaints; yet if I write at all, I muſt write as I feel. Out of the abundance of the heart, the mouth I6v 108 ſpeaketh.—The Lord be with you, and make you exceeding glad, with the light of his countenance.—If God gives you a heart to pray, pray hard for

Your Friend,


Letter XLVIX.

From Miss S.A. to a friend at a distance, when Miss S.A. was in the country, in time of the war.

My dear, very dear Friend,

Shall I ever ſee you again?—O how long, how painful the ſeparation! Were it not for the expence of travelling, and my cowardly ſpirit, I ſhould doubtleſs have attempted a journey to ſee you, and the reſt of my friends, this ſpring; but theſe are a bar in my way.

God, in his providence, hath dealt very kindly with me; I am able pretty comfortably to go five or six miles on the Sabbath, to meeting.—The family are very kind to me, and I want for nothing of a worldly nature. I have not any trials but what would be removed, K1r 109 moved, if my heart was properly impreſſed with the infinite importance of divine and eternal things.—O my leanneſs, my leanneſs!

I rejoice my dear, that you are ſeated under ſuch a wiſe, pious, and zealous miniſter; and in the midſt of ſuch a number of Chriſtian friends!

O that, at ſuch a time as this, the friends of God would diſtinguiſh themſelves; in ſtemming the torrent of univerſal corruption, and in the moſt diſintereſted attachment to the cauſe of Chriſt! I hope things with you, appear in a more encouraging light. It is very dark here, ſo far as I can learn; and indeed our public affairs wear a more gloomy aſpect in my view, on account of the dreadful degeneracy, ſo very apparent!—However, it is a conſolation to know, that Jehovah, will be perfectly juſtified by all the upright; and ſhall be glorified by all thoſe things which take place, in conſequence of theſe provocations.

Jehovah reigns!—May the divine goodneſs ever attend you.

Yours, in the strongest bonds,


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Letter L.

From Miss S.A. to the same person; after a short interview, with each other.

My dear friend,

It ſeems but like a dream, that I have ſeen you! The time was ſo ſhort, and attended with ſo many interruptions, which were unavoidable; by which that near, and intimate, familiar unboſoming, which I had been longing for, was prevented. O that I might learn wiſdom, though taught it by briers and thorns.

I have paſſed through a trying ſcene, ſince I ſaw you; have been again ſeparated from my deareſt connexions, and moſt valuable, important, ſpiritual privileges.Miſs A. was obliged to leave Newport, a ſecond time.I muſt refer you to Mr. H. for my ſtory. I would have returned to Newport; but divine providence has ordered otherwiſe. I know it is moſt juſt; God hath taken nothing from me, but what I have abuſed, in a moſt dreadful manner!

Our dear, worthy paſtor, I think, has ſhone with a tenfold luſtre, in his miniſtrations and K2r 111 conduct, ſince his return to Newport.—Mr. Hopkins returned, immediately after the Britiſh evacuated the town.The greatneſs of his ſoul, exerciſed in ſuch diſintereſted benevolence and zeal for God, hath filled me with wonder and admiration; and it gives me pleaſure to learn, that he is like to exerciſe it ſtill at Newport, though I am ſhut out! This is a dark providence, and yet, that I ſhould be ſo provided for here, and ſhould be treated ſo kindly, calls for a grateful acknowledgment.

May the dear, divine Redeemer, be your ſure protection, and his infinite fulneſs, your abundant, delightful repaſt. To him I commit you, my truly dear friend, and am,

Yours, affectionately,


Letter LI.

From Miss S.A. to a friend at a distance, when Miss A. was keeping School, in the country.

My dear, very dear Friend,

I have received two letters from you K2v 112 which were moſt welcome to me; but I have not time now to ſay much, having many letters to write, which muſt go by this opportunity.

I conclude you have had my hiſtory, from our dear Paſtor; ſo I ſhall not go back.— When I parted laſt, I had feelings not eaſily expreſſed; but I reflected, and ſaid, it is the Lord, and was quieted. The next day I heard the Rev. Mr. B. preach, from theſe words, Call no man father.—Matth. xxili.O, it was like apples of gold! a word in ſeaſon!

I had many objections againſt going to Mr. G―’s, to ſtay; however, there and there only. Providence ſeemed to lead, and I was to follow.—He, who governs the univerſe, had ſomething elſe in view. While I was here, the Col. mentioned my ſtaying, to inſtruct his little children this winter; I agreed, and am moſt kindly entertained by this family, and the employment hitherto has not been diſagreeable. God appears to have ordered my lot, in much mercy!—I find I am not able to attend ſo cloſely to the exerciſes of my mind as formerly, and therefore eſteem it a great favour to be employed in any ſervice, that infinite wiſdom ſees beſt; if K3r 113 I may not be found idle, and ſo be caſt out of God’s vineyard! O, may I be faithful, and the dear little ones be profited. I never thought myſelf calculated for this ſervice; but ſince God has called me to it, I know he can aſſiſt and bleſs, the weakeſt inſtruments. To him I feel diſpoſed to look.

I have had a letter from Newport, which informs of the death of Mr. Oſborn. Dear Mrs. O. ſeems to be left alone; but I truſt, ſhe is faſt ripening for a better ſociety.

O my dear, I have a thouſand things to ſay, which I cannot ſay without my pen. I have my trials, the greateſt of which, is a barren heart, under all the manuring of divine providence.

I am cloſing a year, which has been filled up with the moſt aſtoniſhing forbearance, and ſalvations. Methinks there never was a more righteous ſentence than that woaldwould be, Cut it down, why cumbereth it the ground!

Jehovah hath ſeemed to be trying it out with me; to ſee if I will be reclaimed, and brought to fruitfulneſs, by the moſt wonderful care, condeſcenſion and goodneſs, exerciſed toward the moſt vile and ill-deſerving! K3v 114 But if ſovereign mercy doth not triumph ſtill, I muſt ſoon ſink under the weight!—O that the next year, may be a year of ſome ſuitable returns. A year, when the dear ſeparated connexion may be gathered together; and unite, in bringing forth that fruit, which ſhall be to the praiſe and glory, of our God, and Redeemer.

With tendereſt ſalutations to dear friends with you, I am,

Yours, affectionately,


Letter LII.

From Mrs.Miss S.A. to a friend.

Worthy friend,

The ſweetneſs of friendſhip, conſiſteth very much, in ſincere, mutual love, and sympathy. Such I truſt is ours.—I would prove it thus on my part, nor will I doubt it on yours.—While I ſympathize with you in the various trials in the Chriſtian life, I will give you ſome of the exerciſes of my own ſoul; that, if poſſible, I may help to remove your preſent fears, and dark forebodings.

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Your caſe, is not ſo ſingular, as you imagine:—All thoſe who have inliſted under Jeſus Chriſt, muſt appear in arms, and fight. We may as well wiſh to be excluded, from all intereſt in him, as to be exempted from theſe ſore combats! It is the fixed engagement, we are under, to our Lord;—to fight, againſt ſin and Satan, as long as they oppoſe, which will be as long as we remain in this militant ſtate. This life is called, a vale of tears!— Sins and ſorrows encompaſs our path, through this wilderneſs! Well, ſince it is thus, let us not be over-anxious after reſt here, but expect and prepare for daily conflicts!—O, let our utmoſt deſire be, to glorify our God and Saviour, and ſweetly reſt in that. It is certain, if we ſincerely love God, we ſhall willingly forego our comfort, for his glory. —O, how divine the pleaſure, how unſpeakable the ſatisfaction; of beholding ourſelves, as inſtruments of glorifying God! In this view, I ſometimes behold with great delight, the moſt amazing trials of my life. At ſome ſeaſons, I ſeem to be called, to combat with hell itſelf!—I am beſet, with a legion of Devils, at once!—All combined to root my ſoul, from its foundation.

And if the foundation be deſtroyed, what can the righteous do? What indeed, K4v 116 can they do! I do not mean doubts about our own intereſt in Chriſt, the ſincerity of our faith, love, &c. for theſe may be falſe, and yet there may be hope;—but if the foundation, of them, were deſtroyed, viz. the Being of God; the ſecurity of ſalvation, by Chriſt; or the reality of all religion: if this could be deſtroyed, what could the righteous do!!—Satan hath long been ſtriving to deſtroy my belief of theſe truths. My ſoul hath been greatly amazed, with ſuch conflicts as are inexpreſſible! But glory to God, eternal praiſes to him, who hath proved his Being: the all-ſufficiency of Chriſt; and the reality of religion; by giving me ſtrength, and ſuch aſſiſtance, even cauſing me to triumph in victory!



Letter LIII.

From Mrs. O. to Miss S.A.

My dear Friend,

I ſend you the copy of my letter to Mrs. ―. Do not ſhow it to any body, except to . I feel tender, and would not expoſe her any farther than the honor of God K5r 117 calls for. I have not had any word in reply, but ſhe is much more pleaſant than before. —The Lord over-rule it for good! My conſcience is greatly relieved. May the beautiful golden rule, be ever mine. I could not talk; my heart was too full! O, I am a dreadful coward. Reproving, is of all works, one of the hardeſt!

Divine Providence hath forbid my journey to Stonington, and I am quite ſatisfied: God doth all things well. Pray for me. Who knows but our next meeting will be in heaven? O, when ſhall I get there! This world is a tireſome place! Methinks my name, is weary of the world. May I with patience wait, till Chriſt ſhall let me behold his glory!—The Lord be with you, my dear friend. I am, a thouſand times,



Letter LIV.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

My dear Mrs. O.

Other concerns, have hitherto prevented my writing; but I dare not omit it any longer, though I have but a moment of time.

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O, when ſhall eternity begin! I have been converſing with death, in all its ghaſtly horrors! and yet it cannot frighten away my moſt ardent deſires for a releaſe from the body.—Still I view the victories and triumphs of my Redeemer; and by faith, ſee him who is inviſible! By faith, I behold him gone to heaven to ſecure, and prepare a manſion for me! He, having overcome death, and triumphed over the grave; hath engaged to bring at laſt, perfectly juſtified, through his merits, all thoſe who believe in him.—There I ſhall behold theu ncloudedthe unclouded face of God, and drink full draughts of the rivers of pleaſure! O my friend, my ſoul even breaks with longing, after this God! This choſen, this only happineſs of my ſoul. All my other wiſhes, are ſwallowed up in this!

O that, while I am kept in this diſtant land, I might be favoured with more ſweet and frequent fortaſte’s, more pledges, and earneſts of his love! O, for one divine ray of light, in this dark ſoul. O, for one beam of the ſun of righteouſneſs, this would make a glorious day!—O, that your Redeemer, and mine, would take us nearer to himſelf! O, tell him I long to lean on his breaſt!— Tell him, I even faint, for ſome renewed manifeſtations of his perfections to my ſoul!— K6r 119 O, how much dearer would they be to me than life, and all the delights on earth!

I am yours in sincerity,


Letter LV.

From Miss S.A. to a friend, who was under some spiritual difficulties.

My dear friend,

I am always glad to hear from you; but why are you caſt down? Is not your Redeemer, the ſame Almighty, omnipotent, faithful and gracious God, as ever? Is not his covenant-faithfulneſs as immutable, as when you rejoiced in it as all your ſalvation, and all your deſire?—O, keep your hold of it; for he, will never leave nor forſake, any of his people!

How was it with the diſciples? Jeſus conſtrained them to get into a ſhip, and paſs over unto the other ſide,Matth. xiv. 22. without him. And what was the conſequence?—Why, the evening came on, and they were in the midſt K6v 120 of the ſea, with a contrary wind, toiling in rowing; and they knew not Jeſus, when he was coming to them, on this boiſterous ſea; but ſuppoſed him to be a frightful ghoſt, and cried out!—It is ſaid he would have paſſed by them, but they were not aſleep, for they all ſaw him; and ſuppoſing him to be a ſpirit, Cried out.Mark vi. 49. Then, then, did he hear their cry, and manifeſted himſelf unto them: Be of good cheer; it is I, be not afraid. —And he entered into the ſhip, and the wind ceaſed, and they were filled with joy and wonder!

O, how often is this the caſe, with his poor diſciples, when he cauſes them to paſs on the ſea of temptation, without his ſenſible preſence! It is well for them, if they are not aſleep.—Toiling and rowing, are beſt for them to keep them awake, and great fears to make them cry out in earneſt!—Jeſus will then appear for them, and comfort their ſouls; bring them to land, and at laſt to their deſired haven of everlaſting reſt!

In heaven, there will be no evening,—no contrary winds,—no toiling or rowing, on tempeſtuous ſeas—no diſtreſſing fears nor abſence from Jeſus forever! There, the L1r 121 weary are at reſt, and the wicked ceaſe from troubling! There all our hopes and wiſhes meet; and Jeſus, will be forever known by the name, Emmanuel!—O, that will be Emmanuel’s land, where holy ſouls will forever reſide; and all will unite in aſcribing, glory and honor, thankſgiving and praiſe, to the enthroned Redeemer!

O, for the joyful day! But until then, we muſt keep cloſe to our leader, the Captain of our Salvation;—obey the word of command;—fight like valiant ſoldiers, fired with a noble zeal and ardour, for the honor of our God! We may fight, and be courageous, ſince the battle is the Lord’s; and he hath aſſured us, that through him, we ſhall come off, more than conquerors!

O my dear, you are liſted under Chriſt, and you muſt, you will fight. Sometimes the hoſt of hell are ſent to fight, with neither great nor ſmall, but with the King of Iſrael only. —They point their arrows againſt the perfections of God; his word, &c. O then call on him to ſee to his own cauſe, and he will not leave you to fall, in his battles.—But I muſt have done.



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Letter LVI.

From Miss S.A. to a Friend.

My dear kind friend,

I feel that I am under a thouſand obligations to you, which I take pleaſurepleaſure in acknowledging; yet were it not ſo, my affection for you would not ſuffer me to be ſilent. I have, with ſome degree of ſenſibility, felt the anxiety of my friend, and rejoiced in the accompliſhment of her wiſhes. And now the year is cloſing, I am attending her in the reflections ſhe is making, on the divine mercy and goodneſs in the paſt, and her enquiries and purpoſes for the enſuing year.— —What ſhall I render to the Lord?—I will pay my vows, &c.—And while I rejoice with my friend in all her agreeable proſpects, I obſerve her in all her fears and deſpondences. I know your circumſtances, amidſt all their agreeables, are attended with many ſnares and temptations. It is probable, you will be entering on the new year when you receive this, I will then wiſh you may enjoy the moſt powerful, and the moſt pleaſing views of the divine, all-glorious Redeemer, in his infinite importance, authority and worth; and hear him ſaying, If any man will be my diſciple, he muſt forſake father and mother; L2r 123 ther; he muſt deny himſelf, take up his croſs, and follow me.—May you, my friend, with the firmneſs of a David, reſolve, (if to be religious, is to be vile) to be more vile ſtill! I wiſh, my friend, all that divine wiſdom, which is neceſſary to recommend religion, to the conſciences of all, without giving up one title of its precepts, or purity. My friend will forgive my freedom. She knows I love her, therefore I thus write.

Yours, affectionately,


Letter LVII.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend.

My dear Friend,

I have juſt received yours.—Am ſorry to hear of your illneſs; but, let God ſerve himſelf of us, in the way he pleaſes. For this, we were made;—for this, we are preſerved;—for this, we were redeemed;— and, what are we fit for, but this?—We ſometimes wiſh, and long, to ſerve the Lord; but, in very deed, it is He only, that ſerveth himſelf of us. And what can we wiſh, or L2v 124 deſire, beyond this? Being intereſted in his ſpecial favour, through Jeſus Chriſt, what more can we deſire, than to be uſed by him, to promote his own wiſe purpoſes.

We are his, by every poſſible bond, and obligation.—O, to me, it is a delightful thought.—Would to God, that he would glorify himſelf, by every faculty of my ſoul, and by every member of my body; with every thought and imagination of my heart and every circumſtance of my life! This is my Heaven, to be for him, and for none other! —O, that he would take poſſeſſion of my whole ſoul! O, when ſhall I arrive to the ſtature, of a perfect man, in Chriſt Jeſus!— And when ſhall I ſee, the univerſal ſpread of his kingdom! I have been longing for this, till my very ſoul, breaks with deſire! O my friend, do tell me ſomething, of your exerciſes, reſpecting Zion; I long to know. —I want every Saint to ariſe, and plead the cauſe of Zion, with her great and glorious head! O, to ſee God glorified, and ſinners purified; to feel, and ſee, the goings, and glory of God, in his ordinances, and providences, infinitely out-weighs all other proſpects, my ſoul can have any idea of!—O, for more of God, for more of God; in myſelf, and others!

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I drag about a dead weight, which taints all I do; while all about me, partake of the infection.—O, woe is me, that I am polluted, and dwell in the midſt of pollution!— O, when will my Redeemer come, and deſtroy theſe his enemies! When will he come, and purify to himſelf, a peculiar people!

I must take his people in, with myſelf; I have no intereſt, ſeparate from the cauſe of Zion. I view myſelf as a member of that body, of which Chriſt my Lord is head;— and if one member ſuffers, all the members ſuffer with it; and if one member be honored, all the members rejoice; and to perfect the body, they all need the ſame things that I need, though not perhaps to the ſame degree; as I am ſo far behind, in conformity to my great head. But bleſſed be God, he hath promiſed to perfect, that which is wanting.

I greatly rejoice in, and with you. O my dear, love much, and praiſe much!—Strive to help my too-cold affections, that the Redeemer may have the glory which is his due! But O, what can depraved, finite mortals render, for infinite benignity?

We can but liſp, his praiſes now; but O, Heaven will raiſe, and purify our ſong. But L3v 126 I may not add.—Pray for me, pray for Zion, and may God Almighty bleſs you, with the beſt of bleſſings.

Yours, affectionately,


Letter LVIII.

From Miss S.A. to Mrs. O.

Dear Mrs. O.

I find little diſpoſition to write, yet I dare not give way to ſloth; ſince it hath pleaſed God, to bleſs to us, this mode of converſing.

I am indeed ſurrounded with divine goodneſs. God hath been pleaſed to favour me of late, with ſome nearer acceſs to himſelf, than uſual. O, how ſweet is the thought, of being in covenant with God! With this glorious Redeemer,—under whoſe dear protection, we are always safe; and may be happy, if we are not wanting to ourſelves.— It is in this Saviour, that I would boaſt and glory! I know I am, in myself, weak, worthleſs and vile, helpleſs, and without defence; but in Christ Jeſus, I truſt I am ſtrong, and completely bleſſed.—O, the unſearchable L4r 127 ſearchable riches, of our purchaſed redemption! Here I may have joy, and rejoice; under the deepeſt, and moſt afflicting ſenſe, of my ſinful, wretched, and undone ſtate, by nature!—All my miſeries, do but ſerve to make my dear Redeemer appear more, infinitely more precious! Here, methinks, I could dwell forever. O, the fulneſs of Jeſus Chriſt! What is he, in himſelf! And what hath he done, for me? But theſe are queſtions which none, but his own infinite ſelf, can anſwer! No finite being can give a full anſwer!—O then, let us ſeek a deeper, experimental knowledge of him; for although we can never expreſs, or conceive his fulneſs, yet we may obtain ſome transforming views of his perfections?

And now my friend, what more can I ſay? Nothing, but what I truſt you know, better than I can tell you—that he is altogether lovely; the chiefeſt amongſt ten thouſands! This is my beloved, and this I truſt is my friend!—But my thoughts are too full, for time or pen to expreſs! Therefore I muſt conclude.

Yours, in Christ Jesus,


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Letter LVIX.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend in Newport, when Miss A. was in the countrycountry.

My very dear Friend,

I wrote you a long letter, and gave it to the bearer on Thurſday. Yeſterday, and today, I have received yours. I thank you, my kind friend, for theſe repeated inſtances of your love.

I am affected with the circumſtances of my dear Mrs. B―. How kind is Providence to her, in carrying you there, at this time, to be with her. Will ſhe not hope in divine mercy? O my dear, Mrs. B―,Miſs A. now addreſſes the perſon mentioned in the laſt paragraph. Is not ſovereign grace, to be magnified?— Is not mercy, to be built up forever?—But where are fitter ſubjects for it, than you and I? Cannot you commit yourſelf into the hands of Chriſt? Among the Gods, there is none like him. Nor are there any words, like his.

Does he not chooſe to diſplay his power and grace, in the moſt wretched, and moſt deſperate caſes?—The mighty Redeemer, L5r 129 is more than equal, to all your neceſſities, fears, and diſtreſſes.—My waiting eyes, are to him; who alone can ſpeak peace, and conſolation to your ſoul, while I feel the tendereſt emotions of friendſhip and ſympathy.

I have been out to meeting, all day. The text in the morning was, All is vanity, and vexation of ſpirit.—This afternoon, Behold his face, in righteouſneſs; ſweet and precious truths. I thought this was the Heaven I wanted, this was what my ſoul deſired, to behold his face, in righteouſneſs!— Among the many thoughts which I had, one was, of ſeeing my dear Mrs. B― there, triumphing in ſovereign grace!

I feel a deſire to ſee Newport, this fall; but muſt leave it with infinite wiſdom.

Yours, sincerely,


Letter LX.

From Miss S.A. to a particular friend in the country; written in Newport, when it was a garrison by the British.

My dear Friend,

I have had peculiar ſatisfaction, in that L5v 130 kind, and gracious Providence, which carried you out. I have rejoiced that your way, (ſo far as we could judge) was made ſo proſperous; while clouds and darkneſs, increaſe on us!

On the --11-077th November, I was called to part with my dear ſiſter T―. Her pain and diſtreſs, increaſed faſt upon her, after you left us. O, it was an affecting ſcene—to ſee the univerſal, extreme pain, in which ſhe lay, without a murmuring word,—yea, with a cheerfulneſs, becoming the Chriſtian character, to her laſt moments;—waiting for, and expecting, her diſſolution! On Thurſday, about ten o’clock, ſhe expired! After I had attended on her through this finiſhing ſcene, and all was done for her that could be done, it appeared duty, to turn to my dear Mrs. O. who was sick; deſtitute; and in affliction; not knowing, but God would call me to attend her, through the like ſcene! But I found her better, though very weak.―At this time, and a little before, I had been brought to greater ſtraits than ever.―More than two weeks, we were deſtitute of wood, only a little, which our dear Mrs. M. ſent us; and the weather, was extremely cold.The town was very deſtitute of Wood, and other neceſſary articles of life, at this time. But O, L6r 131 my dear, I had an infinite God; it was enough!—I ſaw myſelf to be in the very circumſtances, infinite wiſdom, perfect rectitude, boundleſs goodneſs, and never-failing faithfulneſs, had choſen for me.—I gloried in it—and though theſe circumſtances, were not in themselves deſirable; yet, conſidered as the wiſe choice, of an all-glorious—all-perfect Being, I preferred them, as inexpreſſibly more eligible, than any that I, or any of my deareſt, earthly friends, could chooſe for me! —And at this time, through sovereign grace, I truſt I was enabled to perform my former reſolution, that when earth should sever all from me, I would boast, and glory in my choice of God! Indeed, as far as we have any true love, to the glorious Jehovah; a view of his government, will reconcile us, to any possible ſituation!

Our dear Mrs. O. ſeems to be in very different circumſtances, from any ſhe ever ſaw before.—Refuge, and helpers fail;— and ſhe does not ſeem to poſſeſs that confidence, and joy, which was uſual in difficulties. —Yet I know God will appear, he will not forſake; his faithfulneſs, will not fail!

We have ſeen darker times, I think, ſince you left us, than ever before, and our proſpects L6v 132 pects more gloomy.—Yet Jehovah is the ſame;—as able to deliver, as ever! If we are his, (and I truſt we are) it is his cauſe, his intereſt, his charge, to care for us; direct, ſupport, deliver us, or ſanctify all evils to us. Verily there is no help for us, but in God;—and ſurely that is enough!

O, it is good, if the will of God be ſo, that we ſhould be in circumſtances, which conſtrain us to look to him alone; ſhut up from all helpers, but the Lord!

Hitherto, eſpecially of late, I have felt myſelf in the hands of Jehovah, following where he leads. I did not want to ſtay; fain would I have gone away,When the British took poſſeſſion of Newport, Miſs A. wiſhed to go off the Iſland; but found it not practicable. he held me.— I rebelled, and was almoſt ſhipwrecked in the ſtorm; all my ſupport at times was, that the mighty Redeemer was able to conquer me; I was in his hands, and he knew what to do, with his froward children.—And now, here I am, conſtrained to ſay; he hath done all things well!

Here I am, let me but follow, where Chriſt leads;—and go where, and when, he commands; —abide where he chooſes, and let ten thouſand deaths await me; all is well!

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O my dear friend, I fear nothing, but the leaſt deviation, from the moſt wiſe, and holy law, and will, of Jehovah!—I think, if he ſhould point out the way, for me to go to my dear connexions, I ſhould gladly embrace it; yet if he ſay, ſtay here; can I object, after all that I have ſeen of Jehovah, in this place? —Surely God hath not left himſelf without witneſs, that he is good to the evil, and unthankful, every day; every moment, is this ſcripture fulfilled before my eyes, and upon me! I am polluted, and dwell among a polluted people; a people of unclean lips!Miſs A. has reference to the profanity of the troops, which dwelt in the town, at that time; and much of which her ſituation obliged her to be in the hearing of. —Yet Jehovah works here; were it not for this, I am ſure theſe circumſtances, and this place would have been a very Hell; but here I have enjoyed a very Heaven, if heaven conſiſts in manifeſtations of Jehovah’s character.

O my dear, to some people, my letter would ſeem to be full of contradictions. The diſtreſs and miſeries of this place are great; —the proſpects, I may ſay big, with every evil.—I think I would not ſtay here another day, for all the riches on earth!—Yet, if my Redeemer hold me here, I hope to gain M M1v 134 ſpiritual riches;—a heavenly treaſure; to ſee more of God ſtill; here I am, let the Lord do with me, as ſeemeth him good!

I have juſt been to ſee Mrs. O.; find her not quite ſo dejected, as ſhe was yeſterday; though every thing in Providence appears dark, reſpecting her! Well, let faith wait on; and truſt in, the mighty God of Jacob; yea, glory in his government.

Since I wrote the above, Mrs. O. has received a letter, and preſent, from Mrs. ―. This coming from ſuch an unexpected quarter, and at this time, has greatly affected our Friend.—She cries, ſurely the finger of God, is in it!—Now, ſay my friend, is not Jehovah, worthy to be truſted?

Another date, in the ſame letter:—

And now, my dear, we muſt ſtill truſt in God; it looks as if the very dregs of the cup are for us; the probability now is, that the small-pox will ſpread, and what diſtreſs will this occaſion!Very few of the inhabitants of Newport, ever had the ſmall-pox; as it never went through the town.—Had it ſpread, at that time of general calamity, it would have been diſtreſſing indeed!

I think we are called to weeping and M2r 135 mourning, but not to deſpair. No, the Lord yet lives;—Jehovah reigns;—let us rejoice, though it be with trembling! I have many difficulties, both perſonal and relative, to encounter, but God orders them all. I am conſtrained to look to him.—Perhaps I ſhall not be able to add to my letter. Let my friends know all. Pray for us, bleſs God; give much love. I have waited for thy ſalvation, O Lord; and it ſhall come!

Another date:

I muſt begin again, as my letter does not go yet. Where are all my dear friends, (I think of them by name) who have been praying for me, in this time of captivity?—Let them not ceaſe, I am extremely needy;—my circumſtances trying;—but, through their prayers; the grace of the Lord Jeſus, can cauſe me to glory, in tribulation? O, the wonderful grace of God, revealed in the goſpel! What more can I want!—I find, the word of the Lord endures forever!—It is a tried word! God is a preſent help, in trouble; he is near at hand.—O the infinite perfection of his government! What conſummate happineſs; what complete bleſſedneſs; to be under his dominion!—But I M2v 136 muſt ſtop; one day will reveal it.—O, for an eternity, to celebrate his praiſes!!



Letter LXI.

From Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. Hopkins.

Rev. and very dear Sir,

As I know I am bound to believe things, which I cannot comprehend; ſo I am bound to believe, when you expreſs yourſelf gratified by my writing; but how a perſon of your diſcerning can be ſo, is beyond my conception. Yet while I cannot have the leaſt doubt of your ſincerity, I will write; and rejoice that I may do it with an entire freedom.

There is not any thing which gives me a more pleaſing ſenſation, and raiſes my ſoul more to God, than your ſupports and enjoyments. And, by my acquaintance with you, I truſt there is a new ſcene of eternal enjoyment opened; and I hope, in a more perfect, uninterrupted manner, to partake of your joy and triumph, through our all-conquering Emmanuel forever!

Oh, how big is the preſent ſtate, even every circumſtance of it, with eternal pleaſures M3r 137 to the friends of Chriſt, in his higheſt, and moſt glorious exaltation, as Head over all things!—What an infinite weight of boundleſs joys, muſt they have, in the thought, that Dominion is with him!—Oh, if I did but believe that he is, what he really is, this truth would break all my captive chains; an be an unfailing ſource of joy and tranquillity, even amidſt all the evils, which encompaſs both my friends and myſelf.—I am, dear Sir, tenderly concerned for your health at preſent, and cannot but urge to the uſe of the beſt means; and let the Lord do that, which ſeems good, in his ſight.

I thank you, Sir, for your laſt, kind, valuable favour; and am ready to wonder, that amidſt all your many, and important labours, you ſhould condeſcend to hold a correſpondence with one ſo unworthy.—I know you have, vaſtly too high . an opinion of me; but ſo it muſt be, or I ſhould not have an abiding in the ſociety of the people of God! May the Lord encreaſe the number of your dear Chriſtian friends; and may they all, be equal to your benevolent conception of them.

I am, dear Sir, Yours, under the most sacred obligations,


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Letter LXII.

From Mrs.Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. H.

Very dear Sir,

I thank you, for your laſt, kind letter; but cannot attempt to make any returns in this. I have been ſo very unwell, dark, and dejected, that I have had little heart for any thing!

Ever ſince laſt Sabbath, I have been fighting in the dark, except a few moments on Monday evening; one of the ſhorteſt, ſweeteſt ſeaſons, I ever had! I could not account for it in any other way, than that my worthy friend was praying for me. I felt in a ſmall degree, that I was; and had alſo ſome view, of the infinite, boundleſs compaſſion, of the dear, divine Redeemer, towards his people.— Thoſe precious truths, you delivered ſome time paſt, from Iſa. xl. 11, which made ſuch an impreſſion on my mind at that time; now broke out as a ſun-beam—Bodily ſtrength was directly exhauſted, and I could not purſue the delightful exerciſe; yet ſomehow, through much darkneſs and dejection, the glorious character, of the divine, omnipotent M4r 139 Redeemer, has been a ſupport and ſtay to my mind, ever ſince!

Requesting an interest in your prayers still, I am, under great obligations, Your unworthy friend,


Letter LXIII.

From Miss S.A. to the Rev. Mr. H.

Rev. and much-esteemed Sir,

I thank you for your very acceptable letter, which has been too-long unnoticed; owing chiefly to my diſcouragement with myſelf.

As to the death of my dear parent, it was indeed a cloſe trial. Yet I think, under all my tender feelings, I have had pleaſure in the righteouſneſs, juſtice and wiſdom, of that ſentence, Dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return! even though executed on me, and all my deareſt enjoyments. I have been made to taſte a peculiar ſweetneſs, in going to God, and as it were claiming a new property in him, as the Father of the fatherleſs. M4v 140 leſs. But O, how little do I profit, under all the divine cultivations! If I am a little awaked for a moment, to ſee the importance of living to God, and being all activity in his ſervice; how ſoon do I doſe again. O, can ſuch ſtupidity, be the ſpot of God’s children!

I have had very ſenſible fears, that I ſhould turn out a vile apoſtate!—But then had only two requeſts to make; namely, that God might be glorified upon me, and that my enmity might never riſe againſt him! I know it ſhall never be ſo, unleſs the honor of God can be ſecured, and it be made to appear by my wickedneſs, that it is a righteous thing in God thus to diſpoſe of me; and ſurely I can ſee no difficulty here.

My mind at times, ſince this year commenced, has been ſenſibly impreſſed with the importance of being prepared to meet God; in what way, and at what time ſoever, he cometh!—I know that temptations and trials abide me; but when, and what, is nothing, if I may but approve myſelf to God.—O, there is ſomething ſo inexpreſſibly ſweet and deſirable, in being a hearty, cordial, entire friend to Chriſt, that it exceeds every attainment M5r 141 ment on earth!—All things ſhrink into nothing, before this!

I am, Rev. Sir, Yours,


Letter LXIV.

From the same, to the same, written in New- London, in time of war.

Rev. and Dear Sir,

Your very acceptable letter came to hand, laſt week.—I have met with a diſappointment in not ſeeing the ladies, and in not proceeding on my journey; but I am not anxious, the Lord reigns, hath the diſpoſal of all my affairs, and hath done all things well. O, what conſummate wiſdom, what glorious ſovereignty, and what tender care, hath attended me, through every ſtep of my life.—What obligations am I under! How reaſonable that I ſhould, with entire confidence, and abſolute ſubmiſſion, reſt all with him!

The protection lately granted, my dear Newport friends, lays me under new bonds. M5v 142 I think I feel myſelf leſs my own, than ever! —What ſhall I render to the Lord? I am ſure this additional favour, demands ſome new, and ſpecial tribute; and great will be my guilt, if I do not make ſome grateful returns! And God hath, while graciouſly appearing for my dear connexions, been viſiting me perſonally, with loving kindneſs and tender mercy. He hath gone before, and prepared an agreeable place for me, in a ſtrange land.

The Rev. and dear Mr. Woodbridge, repreſented the neceſſity of my ſtaying ſome time with him, in his low eſtate! He is much better, mends faſt, is ſenſible of it himſelf. His whole conduct is full of inſtruction. —His prayers are moſt excellent, and refreſhing; in which he ſeems to riſe to God, and centre in him, with the moſt entire ſatisfaction. I cannot give you an idea of the agreeable, divine temper, which he exhibits.—O Sir, I am under peculiar advantages, and am ready to think, that I can never forget this interview; eſpecially with the worthy Mr. W. his ſoul ſeems all attention, to know the mind of God, in his diſpenſations towards him. For this, he earneſtly requeſts the prayers of his friends; and for this, I alſo aſk all your prayers, for him.—You muſt all M6r 143 help me, to fulfil that divine precept, to ſeek the good of the people with whom I ſojourn.

Letter LXV.

To the same—The conclusion of a Letter.

The cauſe of truth, appeared ſo infinitely important, that when I was ſo exhauſted, that I could ſay no more, I could not ceaſe crying, come Lord Jeſus; O come, in the diſplay and vindication of divine truth.— But the views and exerciſes I had, on this occaſion, cannot be expreſſed. But alas, I have been ready to think, for ſome weeks paſt, that my praying-times were over, ſuch degrees of ſtupidity prevail; and when I gain a little view of divine and eternal things which engages me in that exerciſe my bodily ſtrength immediately fails, or ſome diſorder ſeizes me, that I am not able to continue!— O, that I might ceaſe to be mortal, when I ceaſe to pray; and my harp be tuned, for immortal, inceſſant praiſe!

O that the wiſe, the kind Redeemer, would admit me to the unwearied ſervices of his kingdom above!—Bleſſed be God, he hath employment enough, for all his people; and Heaven is not a ſtate of inactivity! O then, M6v 144 why ſhould I drag on, at ſo low a rate! But the Lord reigns, and I muſt rejoice. O may the everlaſting God be your refuge; and his fulneſs your abundant ſupply, for all the important ſervices, to which he hath called you.

Yours, under the highest obligations,



Part of another Letter, to the same.

Rev. and Dear Sir,

God knoweth, how often you have miniſtered to my neceſſities, in your public diſcourſes.—Your ſermon, laſt Thurſday evening, was peculiarly adapted to my caſe!—O how ſwift are my feet to ſhed blood! Surely I need the moſt enlarged, and exalted views of the boundleſs, ſovereign grace of God, and the infinite worthineſs, excellence, power, and ſufficiency of the glorious Redeemer, in order to maintain a hope, that ever ſuch a loſt, wretched creature as I am, can be redeemed from all iniquity. And if I now know my own heart, the greateſt deſire I have for my own ſalvation is, that theſe may be magnified in it; and that they ſhall be, beyond all conception, is matter of eternal praiſe!

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Letter LXVII.

From Miss S.A., to the same person.

Rev. and dear Sir,

I am very ſenſibly affected, with your late indiſpoſition.—I heard nothing of it till laſt evening, when I was deprived the pleaſure and profit of your converſation; yet I hope this providence ſhall not be in vain.— O, my dear Sir, what pleaſure do I enjoy, in having ſuch a glorious, kind, compaſſionate, all-ſufficient, and infinitely wiſe Redeemer, into whoſe hands I can commit my dear, and invaluable friend! To him, I think, I have now, given up all my right, and the privileges and enjoyments under his ſervant, all my wiſhes and deſires for them. I have nothing left! If I take back, I ſhall be guilty of the moſt horrid ſacrilege! But this I know I ſhall do, if ſovereign grace do not prevent.

Since laſt evening, I have ſeen it ſo infinitely fit, ſafe and happy, to have this, my dear friend and paſtor, with every circumſtance of his, in the hands of Chriſt, and at his wiſe diſpoſal; that I with confidence leave him there, knowing he will do more N N1v 146 for him, than I can aſk or think! While he will promote his own intereſt, in which you are engaged.

All is well! It is enough that Jeſus lives and reigns! O, let him govern, let him diſpoſe; and O! let me never retreat, or rebel! O! may Jeſus fill your ſoul with divine communications, and delightful conſolation, in a view of the Majeſty, glory, beauty, extent, and duration, of his kingdom!

I thank you Sir, for your ſermons on Baptiſm: I read them with inexpreſſible pleaſure. They have been the moſt inſtructing, and ſatisfactory to me, of any thing I ever met with, on the ſubject. I could not but ardently wiſh, they might be made public.— O, what obligations am I under, for what God has done for me, through your labours, to leave all future events with him!

I am, dear Sir, your unworthy,


Letter LXVIII.

To the Same.

Rev. and dear Sir,

I thank you, a thouſand times, for your N2r 147 laſt; but much regretted, that you ſhould entertain any opinion of me, which ſhould prevent your preſſing all that inſtruction on me, which you would on the moſt ignorant creature in the world.—I am ready to think, I never was more untractable, under any providence, than I have been under my late bereavement.

Surely the wiſe, the righteous, and holy God, had deſigns in it, even towards me, which I have not properly noticed and improved.—Surely there was infinitely more inſtruction in it, than I have received. And yet, I think, I never had a more real, and abiding delight, in devoting myſelf and all my enjoyments to God, and in viewing all at his diſpoſal! I have thought, what if God was about to make an exchange with me; take from me my dear relatives, and give me grace and ability, to obtain precious ſouls for Chriſt. In this view, I have felt an inexpreſſible pleaſure; and when all were gone, wiſhed for ten thouſand more to exchange! But I know it doth not become me, to make conditions. Let the Lord do, as ſeemeth him good.

Is there any true benevolence, in eſteeming it a privilege, to have dear relatives and N2v 148 friends, merely that we may give them up at the call of God? Or, is this inconſiſtent with that natural affection, which we ought to have. Would ſuch a pleaſure imply a deſpiſing the chaſtening of the Lord? Dear Sir, I rely on your candour, and am,

Your obliged,


Letter LXIX.

To the Same.

Dear Sir,

I thank you for your laſt unmerited favour. O, that I had a heart, to improve the rich privileges, with which a gracious Providence indulges me!

By your kind condeſcenſion to me, you are making work for yourſelf; but this I believe will not diſcourage you, if my unteachableneſs does not. I wiſh for inſtruction; and my pride would like to obtain it, without expoſing my own ignorance!—But I ſhall venture, on the kindneſs and candour, of my Reverend and eſteemed paſtor; and, in my broken manner, propoſe ſome queries, reſpecting what is termed appropriating faith. N3r 149 Perhaps you will be obliged to tell the dream, as well as the interpretation.

I have rejected the idea, of faith’s conſiſting in a belief, that Christ died for me in particular.—But poſſibly I have been holding the ſame idea, in ſome other form of expreſſion. Permit me then to aſk, When a perſon feels himſelf infinitely guilty and vile, juſtly condemned by the holy and righteous law of God; acknowledges, againſt thee, and thee only, have I ſinned! &c. When this perſon has a view of the divine Redeemer, in his infinite beauty and worthineſs, who hath magnified the law, and made it honourable; hath brought in everlaſting righteouſneſs, and is mighty to ſave; doth he not, in flying for refuge, to lay hold on the hope ſet before him, chooſe Chriſt, for his Almighty Saviour?—He hath been crying, God be merciful to me, a ſinner; here he beholds mercy; doth he not embrace it, for himself? —Doth he not receive Chriſt, as his Prophet, Prieſt, and King?—Although he cannot know that he is ſo, until he hath a conſciouſneſs, that he hath complied with the terms of the goſpel. Although I believe, the ſoul is chiefly taken up, with adoring views of the glory of God, in the face of Jeſus Chriſt; yet, as the divine law hath been brought N3v 150 home, with application to themſelves, ſo I think they will make application to the Redeemer, for themſelves; and may not theſe exerciſes ariſe, from a regard to the glory of God?—But it is time I ſhould ſtop, and ſubſcribe,

Your unworthy friend,


N.B. Doubtleſs many would be glad to ſee the Anſwer, to the above Letter; it is therefore inſerted here.

Letter LXX.

An Answer, to the Questions, in the last Letter, by the Rev. Mr. H.

Question. Although faith doth not conſiſt in believing that Chriſt died for me, in particular; yet, is there not a degree of appropriation, in all true ſaving faith?—Does not the believer, ſee Chriſt a ſufficient Saviour for him; does he not fly to Chriſt, for that very deliverance and ſalvation, which he feels he wants; and does he not truſt in him, for this ſalvation, for himself?

Answer I. The ſinner, in believing on N4r 151 Chriſt, does ſee, that in Chriſt there is a ſufficient remedy for him; enough to ſupply all his wants.

2. Salvation by Chriſt, even that very ſalvation which he gives, ſuits and pleaſes his heart, and he deſires this ſalvation; yea, he truſts in Chriſt for it, and heartily accepts of it.

3. All this may be, yet the ſinner not have the leaſt thought, that he hath an intereſt in Chriſt, and this ſalvation; nor any particular thought, or reflection, about his own ſalvation, whether he ſhall be ſaved, or not; but wholly taken up, in attending to the pleaſing, glorious things, which he ſees in the goſpel.

4. But ſo far as he reflects, on the miſery, and dreadfulneſs of a ſtate of ſin, and eternal deſtruction, with application to himſelf; and on the ſufficiency, and glory of Chriſt, and the worth of ſalvation by him; he will be filled with a pleaſing hope, of this ſalvation. —But as the deſire of this ſalvation, and even a ſight and belief of it, has its foundation in a benevolent, diſintereſted turn, or affection of his heart; ſo the hope, which ſprings from this, cannot be a ſelfiſh thing; but benevolence is, as it were, the very life N4v 152 and ſoul of it; or it is a hope, of the glory of God.Rom. v. 2.This hope may be, and flouriſh to a conſiderable degree; while the perſon does not think that the does believe, or has an intereſt in Chriſt.

5. But when the mind comes to reflect on its own exerciſes, which are by the Spirit of God cauſed to be lively and ſtrong, it will have a conſciouſneſs that it doth believe, and truſt, in Chriſt, for ſalvation; and ſo far as this takes place, he will think of Chriſt, and apply to him, as his Saviour, who hath died for him.—Yea,

6. The very firſt act of faith, may be ſo ſtrong, and attended with ſuch circumſtances, that the perſon may have a conſciouſneſs, and even an aſſurance, that Chriſt is offered freely; and that he does accept of him, and truſt in him.—But then, this is not eſſential to true faith; but in ſuch a caſe, only an attendant of it.—In a word,

7. The ſinner, in the exerciſe of true faith, always truſts in Chriſt, as able and willing to ſave him; and truſts in him, and receives him for himself, or as his Prince and Saviour; that is, is willing and chooſes he ſhould be ſo.—He flies to Chriſt, as a refuge N5r 153 for himſelf; as the only hope ſet before him. —But this may be, without any perſuaſion, that his preſent exerciſes are, a truſting in Chriſt, receiving him, flying to him, &c.— So he may be at the greateſt diſtance from looking on Chriſt as his Saviour, in any peculiar, or appropriate ſenſe; or as having intereſt in him, more than any ſinner on earth.

This, however, does not exclude hope of ſalvation, but rather includes it; which hope is as different, from that of an unregenerate ſinner, as benevolence is from ſelfiſhneſs.— And whenever he comes to hope, and be confident, that he does believe in Chriſt, his hope is not a ſelfiſh one, but benevolence is the very foundation of it; ſo that his hope and aſſurance of ſalvation would give him no pleaſure, would do him no good, and indeed would ceaſe to be Chriſtian hope, was not the glory of God, and the greateſt general good, included in it, and promoted by it!

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Letter LXXI.

From Mrs. O. to the Rev. Mr. F―, of S. giving some account of her exercises in the time of firing on the town, but the British Ships.

Reverend, and dear Sir,

When a friend providentially brought me your letter, I rejoiced much to hear of your welfare, and anxiouſly deſired to ſpeak to my worthy friend. The bearer kindly offered, to write for me.Mrs. Oſborn’s sight, forbid her writing with her own hand. We had but little time; my thoughts were as the ſwellings of Jordan, language failed; and doubtleſs conveyed ideas different from my meaning.—I have been much diſſatisfied with ſome parts of my letter, eſpecially my omiſſions—as I did not tell my dear friend, how much I had borne him on my heart, nor ſo much as to aſk the continuance of his prayers for me, though I doubt not the mercies with which I have been indulged, both ſpiritual and temporal, as alſo the preſervations and deliverance of Newport; are in anſwer to yours, and others of God’s people’s prayers. And ſure I am, I had rather had an intereſt in the prayers of the people of God, than to poſſeſs N6r 155 millions of gold and ſilver. And now Sir, I earneſtly beg you will not ceaſe to pray for me. O, pray that I may be a widow indeed! ―Solemnly devoted to God, to my lateſt breath; and may the beſt of bleſſings reſt on you, and yours forever!

Forgive, dear Sir, if you think my aſſertions were too bold, reſpecting the ſafety of God’s little remnant. I had at that time, ſuch a view of the adorable attributes, of the infinitely glorious, unchangeable, faithful, covenant-keeping Jehovah, and the ſafety of all thoſe who truſted in him, that I could not find language to expreſs my ideas!

Verily, though miracles have ceaſed, God is the only refuge of his people!—The name of the Lord, is a ſtrong tower.—He is an all-ſufficient good, in the abſence of the deareſt enjoyments on earth!—Happy people, whoſe God is the Lord!

The ſtrength and courage I mentioned, which God graciouſly graciouſly granted me in times of danger; was not the reſult of any confident perſuaſion, that I ſhould not be ſlain.—No! when the bullets were whiſtling around me, I realized the next might have a commiſſion to reach me; and if this was the way, infinite wiſdom had choſen, I N6v 156 had no objection to make.—I choſe neither life, nor death, only that God might glorify himſelf in me; and that, whether I lived, or died, I might be the Lord’s.—I know every ſhot was directed by unerring wiſdom; and every heart of the enemy, as much as his controul, who hath ſaid to the reſtleſs ocean, hitherto ſhalt thou come, and no further; and here ſhall they proud waves be ſtayed.

Thus I reſted on God.—Oh! boundleſs grace, adorable ſovereignty!—Why was I not rather called to drink, the very dregs, of the cup of his diſpleaſure?—Why was I not made, even a terror to myſelf, and all around me! I, who have had ſo great a hand, in drawing down the judgments of God upon us!—Oh, my friend, adore, with me; let the Lord alone be exalted; and let me be reckoned, among the chief of ſinners!

Through the goodneſs of that God, who hath ſaid, I will never leave thee, nor forſake thee, I am again called to ſet up my Ebenezer; for hitherto the Lord hath helped me. I have been unwell, but through mercy am better. I have known no ſufferings, this hard winter,After the Britiſh evacuated Newport, and the town was in want of almoſt every comfort of life. but what hath been O1r 157 the effect of ſympathy: for while many others have been ready to periſh, I have had a conſtant ſupply of food and fewel.

Touching Zion’s cauſe; my dear ſir, ſince I wrote you, while thinking on the ſad things we bemoan; I have been much refreſhed with the thought, that when Elijah complained that true religion was loſt, God had reſerved to himſelf ſeven thouſand.—And who can ſay, that God has not many more in this dark time, than we are aware of. I reſt in this truth, The foundation of God ſtandeth ſure; having this ſeal, the Lord knoweth who are his.—And though the prevalence of error and deluſion, are matters of for lamentation; yet, may not mourners in Zion, be comforted in this, that the choſen of God, ſhall never be finally deceived; though ſuch ſhould ariſe, as would, if poſſible, deceive the very elect.—We know, that the gates of Hell, ſhall never prevail againſt that Church, which Chriſt hath purchaſed with his own moſt precious blood.

Bleſſed be God, the great Head of the Church, in whom dwells all the fullneſs of the Godhead bodily, is equal to all the work aſſigned him; able to protect and defend O O1v 158 his own, as well as to redeem them.—May not all that hath befallen us, both in Church and State, ſerve rather to ſtrengthen, than ſtagger our faith; ſince our divine Redeemer faithfully warned us of the coming of ſuch things, in the latter days.—We ſee that not one jot or tittle of his word fails, in this part; and ſhall not latter-day promises, be as truly fulfilled.—May we not lift up our heads, becauſe redemption draweth nigh!—Oh, Sir, when I get faſt hold of that foundation-truth, ſpoken by precious Chriſt himſelf, All that the Father hath given me, shall come unto me; and him that cometh, I will in no wiſe caſt out. Then, as ſaith Mr. Elliot, Faith lies at Anchor, in the midſt of waves and billows; and believes the accompliſhments of the promiſes.—Then I can travel, not only over this vaſt continent, but over all the globe; and be aſſured, that every ſoul born, or yet unborn, who were given to Chriſt in the covenant of redemption, ſhall come to him; and of thoſe whom the Father hath given him, he will loſe none, no not one: Even in this dark day, none ſhall pluck them out of his hands!

And when the ſet time to favour Zion is come, then Chriſt will be avenged on Satan for all the miſchief he hath done; the old O2r 159 Serpent ſhall be bound, that he deceive the nations no more! God ſhall pour out his Spirit, in plentiful effuſions. The knowledge of God, ſhall cover the earth, as the waters fill the ſea.—Then Chriſt Jeſus will reign triumphant, King of Nations, as he is now King of Saints. Amen. Hallelujah! So come Lord Jeſus.—Whether you or I, ſhall live to ſee the dawn of that bleſſed day, is not known to us. But if we are ſo happy, as to arrive ſafe in Heaven, before it commence; where there is joy among the Angels, over one ſinner, that repenteth, what tranſports of joy ſhall we behold, when millions repent; when a nation, is born in a day!—Shall we not then be partakers of that joy, which is unſpeakable, and full of glory! —Shall not our ſouls exult, in ſeeing the glory, of the once crucified, but now riſen, aſcended, enthroned Redeemer!—Thanks be to him, that he hath ſaid; Father, I will, that thoſe whom thou haſt given me, be with me, where I am; to behold my glory!—Oh pray, that I may be prepared, for this!

Theſe are the comforts, on which I live. —Pray, Sir, pardon the length of my letter: I could not ſtop, my heart was full; and it is probable, this is the laſt time I ſhall be permitted O2v 160 mitted to ſpeak to you in this world, as every attempt to indite, is an overthrow to my feeble frame.—I thank you, Sir, for all your paſt indulgence; and for all the helps you have afforded me, in my various trials. —The Lord, reward you.—May a double portion of his Spirit, reſt upon you.—May you ever taſte the ſweetneſs of, the Lo, I am with you, always; till, having turned many to righteouſneſs, you finiſh your courſe, and enter into the joy of your Lord!—Farewell, my dear friend; farewell! Pleaſe to give my tender love to your ſpouſe, and daughter; and accept the ſame yourſelf.— From

Yours, in the delightful bonds of love, gratitude, and friendship,


Letter LXXII.

From Mrs. O. to Deacon ―.

Worthy Sir,

Yours, of 1769-03-29March 29, 1769, came not to hand, till 1769-06-24June 24th. I now write, to return you a thouſand unfeigned thanks; for your kind, endearing, friendly, and Chriſtian caution.—Bleſſed be thou of the Lord; and bleſſed be thine advice!—The Lord ſanctify O3r 161 it to me, as a preſervative againſt the ſin of Devils, that monſter of monſters, Spiritual Pride!—That ſin, which would rob God, of all his glory; and even dethrone, the Majeſty of Heaven, if in its power, and ſet up the Idol, Self, in his room!

Can the jealous eye of Jehovah, bear this, without the utmoſt indignation and abhorrence!—What can provoke, this ſacred Majeſty more, than the prevalency of this ſin; or cauſe him to leave the ſoul, influenced by it, to fall into ſcandalous ſins, for its humiliation?— Pride goes before deſtruction, and a haughty Spirit, before a fall.God reſiſteth the proud.—Oh, Sir, I have lived more than fifty-five years; and more than thirty-two of them, have been fighting, watching, praying, weeping, and groaning, for deliverance from this monſter, with a thouſand heads!—And yet, muſt lay my hand upon my breaſt, and ſay, the Traitor is there ſtill; to the breaking of my heart! —I find it intermixing itſelf, with every attempt I make, to glorify God!—And oh, how does it cut the ſoul to the quick, to find the moſt ſolemn, ardent, and vigorous duties, tainted with pride and ſelf!

Oh, Sir, very ſore have been my trials and conflicts, on account of my character; and O3v 162 correſpondence with my ſuperiors! By theſe things, I have ſometimes appeared to myſelf, as a mark ſet up, for Satan to level all his darts againſt.—I have wanted to hide, or creep into ſome ſecret corner, to avoid the rage of ſin and hell;—but ſtill, Providence has forbid; and without my ſeeking, correſpondents have increaſed upon me from time to time, and great good hath God brought to my weary ſoul hereby!—Bleſſed be God, he favours me with the counſel of the judicious, the faithful, and the wiſe.—This is a privilege, God hath indulged me with; and why ſhould I caſt it away, merely becauſe God hath made me, and my poor performances, acceptable to my friends?

If he will diſplay his divine ſovereignty, in ſuch a babe; ought I not to ſay, Even ſo, Father, for ſo it ſeemeth good, in thy ſight!

My pen, as well as myſelf, have long, I truſt, been ſolemnly given up to God, to be uſed for him, and for none other; and when, through ſore conflicts, I am tempted to lay it aſide, the ſin of the ſlothful ſervant, ſtares me in the face; and I dare not!—Beſides, every friend, as you have now done, Sir, lays me under an obligation, to anſwer them.— O4r 163 Was I not to anſwer you, what could you conclude, but that I was offended at your endearing faithfulneſs, and I cannot bear the thought. Had you applauded me, I had nauſeated your Epiſtle, and perhaps never anſwered it; but now, though I at firſt relucted at writing, yet I am conſtrained to beg a continuance, not only of your kind caution, but of your reproofs too, if you ſee it needful.—Let the righteous ſmite me, it ſhall, I truſt, be an excellent oil, that ſhall not break my head! As to the charitable opinions, which you and others entertain of my having grace; in truth I truſt, through adorable ſovereignty, which hath triumphed over the chief of ſinners, that you are not miſtaken.

I dare not ſay, I have no grace; or that I do not know, the Lord Jeſus Chriſt; but as to the opinion of any, that I am an eminent Chriſtian, &c. it avails but little with me; ſo long as I daily find ſin, worſe than a Mordicai, ſitting at the gate, and refuſing to bow! —The opinion of others, ſo far as I know it, I conclude, proceeds from their own humility, or their ignorance of me; for to myſelf, I appear to fall awfully ſhort, in every peculiar excellency, I ſee in them.—And all the peculiar imperfections, that I may ſee in one O4v 164 and another, which I might wiſh were otherwiſe, I turn inward, and find them all centring in me: So that I am conſtrained to inſcribe on myſelf, when compared with other Chriſtians, leſs than the leaſt, of all Saints! —And when compared with the law of God, no more worthy to be called his!—Thus God preſerves me, from being puffed up; by keeping me, in a degree, in ſight of myſelf. But if pride, is in a degree ſuppreſſed this way, I run into another extreme; no leſs provoking, in the ſight of God, viz. ſinful diſcouragement; diſtruſt of his grace; and forget the Lord, my Maker.—And when I feel myſelf thus forlorn, and am filled with ſelf-loathing; ſeeing ſin in every corner, I fear continually every day, becauſe of the fury of the oppreſſor; as if he were ready to deſtroy!

Perhaps I have never heard of the fall of any Chriſtian, for many years; but it is almoſt inceſſantly ſuggeſted, it is my turn next! —And when I wrote to you laſt fall, Sir, I was under diſtreſſing fears of this! My own ſins appeared ſo provoking in the ſight of God, that I ſeemed to ſtand upon a precipice, ready for a plunge every moment! I am often conſtrained to ſay, in the bitterneſs of my ſoul, As the Lord liveth, I have no hope O5r 165 of ſtanding, but in himſelf alone; for I am every way expoſed!—But Oh, ſince Omnipotence, and faithfulneſs itſelf, hath hitherto upheld me, is not my dear Redeemer ſtill as able to keep me from falling now, as to preſent me faultleſs at laſt? Is not his grace ſufficient for me, vile as I am! And though God ſtands in no need of me, to uphold his honour and glory; yet, ſince he hath condeſcended to ſay to mortals, ye are my witneſſes; ceaſe not to pray, dear Sir, that I may ſtand to my lateſt breath, a witneſs to his truth and faithfulneſs.—That he will make ſin and Satan know, that I have an Almighty friend! He, who will not deliver me up, nor ſuffer any to pluck me out of his hands; who hath ſaid, Becauſe I live, ye ſhall live alſo!With me, thou ſhalt be in ſafe-guard.

May I not yet, lift up my drooping head, and take courage? From union to Chriſt, by faith; from the tenor of the new, and everlaſting covenant; the interceſſion of my glorious Advocate in Heaven; and the promiſes of God, that he will never leave me nor forſake me? Oh, that I may look to Jeſus; who was the author, and will be the finiſher of my faith! Will not God, for his ſake, go on to forgive me, as he hath done; O5v 166 (from Egypt, even until now) blot out my tranſgreſſions as a cloud, and ſpeak peace and pardon to my ſoul! Will he not look on the face of his anointed, and for his ſake, ſtrengthen me with ſtrength, in my ſoul; continue me an inſtance of his ſovereign grace here, till he take me to be a monumental pillar, in his temple above!

Thanks be to God, for ſome ſpring to my hope, at this time. That after all my trials, the great Captain of my Salvation, will bring me out of the field of battle, more than a conqueror, through his grace! Bleſſed be God, who hath raiſed me up a praying friend, here and there, for this purpoſe!

But it is time to beg you will forgive my intruſion on your patience. You have opened ſuch a door of freedom, Sir, and I found the field I was in ſo large, I could not ſpeedily get out.

May the Lord go on, to enrich your precious ſoul!—May you mount up as on eagle’s wings, toward Heaven; run, and not be weary; walk, and not faint!—That the joy of the Lord, may be your ſtrength, till you arrive in glory, is the hearty deſire, of

Yours much obliged, unworthy friend,


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Letter LXXIII.

From Mrs. O. to a Lady in England; occasioned by the Death of the Rev. Dr. Guise.

Dear Madam,

Although I have not had the honour of a correſpondence with you, yet as you are the only ſurviving branch of my Rev. and honored Uncle’s family, I beg your acceptance of a few lines. I intended to have written, and returned thanks to my Uncle, for the book he ſent me, but was prevented.

I mourn, with your honored mother; you and your conſort; the church, and the public, the loſs of my couſin Guiſe, and of my Reverend Uncle! May God, of his infinite mercy, make up, to all of you, in himſelf, and in his Chriſt, what he hath taken from you in the creature! What reaſon have we to bleſs God, who continued them to us ſo long; and made them ſo rich a bleſſing!— That God ſo glorified himſelf in them; and hath now releaſed the weary Pilgrims, from all their bodily infirmities, and from the intolerable burden, sin! O, could we aſk them back, might we be heard? Were they not made perfect in holineſs, at death? Did they not immediately paſs into glory? Let O6v 168 us peep a little, after them; ſee how they worſhip, before the throne, of a holy God! and in the moſt humble, yet exalted ſtrain; caſting down their crowns; and ſhouting forth the praiſes of redeeming love, and diſtinguiſhing grace, which hath brought them there!

Were they not made the happy inſtruments, of turning many, to righteouſneſs? And do we not by faith, ſee thoſe ſhining as the brightneſs of the firmament, and as the ſtars forever and ever! Are they not, with open face, beholding the lovely Jeſus; and drinking in the communicable perfections of Jehovah! Satisfied with his likeneſs! Bleſſed be God, I have frequently been refreſhed, in tracing the precious ſouls to their everlaſting home! Thanks be to God, to me, they are not loſt, but found! While they were in Old-England, I had no hope of ſeeing them, they were at a great diſtance from me; but now, they are brought nigh, and through rich and ſovereign grace, I hope for a ſpeedy and joyful meeting! I am, I truſt, haſtening to them apace. Then, freed from the odious body of ſin, under which I groan; and clothed with my dear Redeemer’s ſpotleſs robe; I ſhall, with them, be a perfect worſhipper! I ſhall fall proſtrate and adore, P1r 169 yea, ſhout aloud; and yet never damp their joy!

O bleſſed be God, ſin cannot intermix with holy things there! No pride; no ſelfiſh views; no robbing God of his glory, let me ſhout as loud as I may! I am ready to think, if once I arrive there, I ſhall give way to none; for ſurely none are under greater obligations, than worthleſs me!



Letter LXXIV.

From Miss S.A. to a friend confined by sickness.

My dear Friend.,

I could not, until Friday night, hear a word from you; nor could I learn what were your circumſtances, whether ſick or well; and ſince then I have been ſo unwell, I have not been able to go out; and though I am now better, yet I have no proſpect of ſeeing you at preſent.

O, may God be your joy and ſolace, in your confinement! How ſweet is it my dear, to realize Jesus, as the great Redeemer P1v 170 from the miſeries of the fall.—In him, there is complete redemption, from all the ſins and ſorrows of this fallen ſtate! I have no ſorrows now, but ſin; my unlikeneſs to the bleſſed God; and ſince the blood of Jeſus, his Son, cleanſeth from all ſin; I will humbly hope, if ſhall ere long, be completely done away, both the guilt, and pollution of it.—O, who, that hath this hope, can help rejoicing!—Jesus my atonement, Jesus my advocate, my surety, my everlaſting All!— Jeſus, my Judge and my juſtifier! who then ſhall condemn?

I have not any concerns, but what I ſee Jeſus Chriſt hath wiſdom, power, grace, truth, and compaſſion enough, to manage infinitely well for me!—I am ſatisfied; life or death, ſickneſs or health, he doth all things well!— O, may you but enjoy his preſence, an all ſhall be well with you. Be not afraid, only believe; God is faithful, and will appear for the help of his people! He is a God of judgment, bleſſed are they who wait for him!— In due time we ſhall reap, if we faint not.— To him, my dear, I commit you, with my own ſoul.

Yours, in Christ Jesus,



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