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A
Narrative
of the
Life and Travels,
of
Mrs. Nancy Prince.

Boston:
Published by the Author.
18501850.

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Entered according to act of Congress, in the year 18501850,
By Nancy Prince,
In the Clerk’s office of the District court of Massachusetts.

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Narrative.

As my unprofitable life has been spared, and
I have been, by the providence of God, wonderfully
preserved, it is with gratitude to my Heavenly
Father, and duty to myself, that I attempt to give
to the public a short narrative of my life and
travels.

I was born in Newburyport, in 17991799. My
mother was the daughter of Tobias Wornton, who
was stolen from Africa, when a lad, and was a
slave of Capt. Winthrop Sargent; and, although
a slave, he fought for liberty, and was in the
Revolutionary army at the battle of Bunker Hill.
My grandmother was an Indian. My father,
Thomas Gardener, was born on Nantucket; his
parents were of African descent, and when he died
of bleeding at the lungs, leaving my mother a
widow the second time, with an infant in her
arms. She then returned to Gloucester, her
native place. My mother soon married again
her third husband, by whom she had six children.1 1(1)v 6
My step-father was stolen from Africa,
and while the vessel was at anchor in one of the
Eastern ports, he succeeded in making his escape
from his captors by swimming ashore. After a
lapse of two years he came to Gloucester, and
followed the sea, and was twelve years with
Capt. Elias Davis, in the employ of Capt. Fitz
W. Sargent
. During the war he was taken by a
British Privateer, and pressed into their service.
He was sick with dropsy a long while, and
died in 18131813. My mother was again left a
widow, with an infant six weeks old. When she
heard of her husband’s death, she replied, “I
thought it; what shall I do with these children?”

Her grief, poverty, and responsibilities, were too
much for her; she never was the mother that she
had been before. I was at this time in Capt.
Sargent’s
family. I shall never forget the feelings
I experienced on hearing of the decease of
my father-in-law; he was never very kind to the
first set of children. But by industry, a humble
home was provided for my mother and younger
children. Death had twice visited our family
within three months, my father having buried my
grandfather before he sailed. I thought I would
go home a little while, and try to comfort my
mother. The three oldest children were put into
families. My brother and myself went out of 1(2)r 7
town, in one family, where we staid until the war
was over. We often went home with our wages,
and all the comforts we could get; but we could
not approach our mother as we wished. God in
mercy took one little brother of seven years, who
had pined in consumption; thus our family was
scattered. I determined to get more for my
labor, and I left Essex and went to Salem, in
18141814, to service in a family. I had always enjoyed
the happy privilege of religious instruction.
My dear grandfather was a member of a Congregational
Church, and a good man; he always
attended church in the morning, and took us with
him; and in the afternoon he took care of the
smaller children, while my mother attended with
her little group. He thought it wrong for us to
go to a school where the teacher was not devoted
to God, for I early knew the difference between
right and wrong. They had family prayers
morning and evening. I often looked at them,
and thought to myself, “Is this your religion?”
I did not wonder that the girl who had lived there
previous to myself, went home to die. There
were seven in the family; two of them being
sick, one with a fever and the other in a consumption,
of course the work must have been
very severe, especially the washing. Sabbath
evening I had to prepare for the wash. I was 1(2)v 8
then but fourteen years of age, and a stranger.
I was called up at two o’clock in the morning,
and what embittered my heavy task, I was not
spoken kindly to, but was blamed for being slow,
and for not performing my work well. Hard
labor and unkindness were too much for me, and
in three months my health and strength were
gone. I went home to Gloucester in their chaise.
I found my mother in poor health, but through the
mercy of God, and the attention and skill of Dr.
Dale
, and the kindness of friends, I was restored,
so that in a few months I was able again to go to
work, although my side afflicted me, which I
attributed to over-working myself.

In 18151815 I returned to Salem, accompanied by
my eldest sister, and obtained good places. She
afterwards returned to Boston as a nursery girl,
where she lived a few months, and was deluded
away on 1815-02-07February 7th of 1815. A friend came
to Salem and informed me of it. Her death
would not have been so painful to me. We
loved each other very much, and more particularly
as our step-father was not very kind to us;
we used to say as soon as we were large enough
we would go away, as we did. It was very cold,
but notwithstanding, I was so distressed about my
sister, that I started on foot the next morning
after I heard of it. At Lynn Hotel we refreshed 1(3)r 9
ourselves, and all seemed much interested about
me. Two women took me aside, and inquired
how it was I was with that woman. I told my
reason. My companion had a little son of hers
in her arms. By the time we were seven miles
from Salem, cold and fatigued, I could walk no
farther, and we hired a horse and sleigh, and a
man to drive us to Boston, where we arrived at
seven in the evening. I put up with a friend of
mine, who lived in Bedford street, who received
me very kindly. My feet, hands, and ears, were
all frost-bitten. I needed all the hospitality that
was extended to me. I was young and inexperienced,
but my object was hallowed. God chooses
in his wisdom the weak things of the earth; without
his aid how could I ever have rescued my lost
sister! Mr. Brown, when he learned my errand,
kindly offered to assist me. He found where my
sister resided, and taking with him a large cane,
he accompanied me to the house. My sister I
found seated, with a number of others, round a
fire, the mother of the harlots at the head. My
sister did not see me until I clasped her round the
neck. The old woman flew at me, and bid me
take my hands off of her. Mr. Brown defended
me with his cane from her attacks. There were
many men as well as girls there, and all was
confusion. When my sister came to herself, she 1* 1(3)v 10
looked upon me. I said, “Sylvia, my dear
sister, what are you here for? Will you go with
me?”
The enraged old woman cried out, “No,
she cannot go.”
Sylvia replied, “I will go.”
Then followed a scene. The old woman seized
her to drag her down into the kitchen; I held on
to her, while Mr. Brown, at my side, so used
his great cane, and so threatened her, that she
was obliged to let her go; and, after collecting
her things, she left the house with Mr. Brown and
myself

The next day we started for Salem, and went
to the stage-office; we expected Mr. Low, the
driver of the Gloucester stage, who knew us as
his towns-people, would let us take passage with
him without any difficulty; but he refused, unless
we would ride upon the top. It was very cold,
and we had never rode in that way; his inhumanity
grieves me even now. I had sent my
mother my wages the week before, and what
money I had, I had taken in advance of my employers.
We were greatly embarrassed, when
a colored man, unknown to us, penetrated our
difficulties, and asked us if we had two dollars;
we told him we had; he very kindly took us to
another stage-office, and we bargained for a horse
and sleigh to take us to Salem, where we arrived
safely in about two hours and a half; and we gave 1(4)r 11
up our conveyance to the same owners, with ten
thousand thanks to our colored friend, and to our
Heavenly Father; for had we attempted to walk,
we must have frozen by the way. The lady I
lived with (Mrs. John Deland,) received us very
kindly, and permitted my sister to remain with
me awhile; then she returned to Gloucester, to
the family who brought her up, and I thought we
had gained a great victory.

My brother George and myself were very
desirous of making our mother comfortable; he
went to sea for that purpose. The next --04April I
came to Boston, to get a higher price for my
labor, for we had agreed to maintain our mother,
and we hoped she would take our little brother,
who was supported by the town, and take care
of him. George came home, and sailed again in
the same vessel, leaving her a drawbill of half
of his wages. My sister returned to Boston to
find me, and wished to procure a place to work
out. She tried me much. I thought it a needy
time, for I had not yielded my heart to the will
of God, though I had many impressions, and
formed many resolutions; but the situation that I
had been placed in, having left my mother’s
home at the age of eight, had not permitted me
to do as I wished, though the kind counsels of my
dear grandfather and pious teachers followed me 1(4)v 12
wherever I went. Care after care oppressed
me; my mother wandered about like a Jew; the
young children who were in families were dissatisfied;
all hope but in God was lost. I then
resolved in my mind to seek an interest in my
Saviour, and put my trust in him. For that
purpose I changed my place for one more retired,
got my sister with me, and then God blessed my
soul; being justified by faith, I found peace with
God, even the forgiveness of sins, through Jesus
Christ
. After living sixteen years and five months
without any hope, myself and seven others were
baptized, in obedience to the great command.

My brother George returned home, and we
again provided a home for mother and the little
ones; he went to sea, and affairs now seemed to
promise comfort and respectability. But mother
chose to marry again; this was like death to us
all. George returned home, but was so disappointed,
that he shipped again to come no more.
Although a boy of sixteen years, he was as steady
and capable as most men at twenty. My cares
were consequently increased, having no one to
share them with me. My next brother, who
lived in S. Essex, came to Salem to his mother,
but was driven away by her husband, and came
to me. I carried him to Gloucester, and left him
in the hands of the town; but he stayed but 1(5)r 13
three weeks, and returned to me again. I then
boarded him for one dollar a week, until I could
procure suitable employment.

When winter came, poor mother’s health was
declining; little Samuel could do but little; my
father-in-law was very cross, for he expected to
be supported by my brother George. I could
not see my mother suffer; I therefore left my
place and went to Salem, to watch over her and
Samuel, and lived with the Rev. Dr. Boles’s
family. In the spring I returned to Boston, and
took my brother with me. Soon after, my sister
Lucy left her place and went to her mother, but
was not permitted to stay. My mother wrote to
me, requesting me to take care of her. I then
determined in my mind to bring her to Boston,
and, if possible, procure a place for her; and on
her arrival, I obtained board for her and Samuel
at a friend’s, for one dollar a week. My brother
John, that I had boarded, at last got a place
where he had wages; soon the Lord opened a
way for little Samuel. Dr. Phelps took him to
bring up, so that I was left with one only to sustain.
Soon my hopes were blasted. John left
his place, and was several months on my hands
again; finally, he made up his mind to go to sea.
I was so thankful that he had concluded to do
something, that I took two month’s wages in 1(5)v 14
advance to fit him out for Liverpool. In five
months he returned, without a single thing but
what he stood in; his wages were small, not
enough to render him comfortable; had not a
friend given him a home, he would have been
again dependent on my exertions. Another
friend took Lucy, with whom she staid eleven
months; she continued in different families for
some time, till she was about twelve. I left her
at the Rev. Mr. Mann’s family, at Westminster,
for a certain time, thinking it would be best for
her, and John I left to fight his own battles. My
sister Sylvia was one of my greatest trials.
Knowing she was in Boston, my mother, in one
of her spells of insanity, got away from her
home, and travelled here after her. She came
where I lived. My employers were very kind to
her. After tarrying a few days with me, I hired
a horse and chaise, and took them both back to
Salem; and returned back to my place in 18221822,
with a determination to do something for myself.
I left my place after three months, and went to
learn a trade; and, after seven years of anxiety
and toil, I made up my mind to leave this
country.

1823-09-01September 1st, 1823, Mr. Prince arrived from
Russia; 1824-02-15February 15th, I was married; 1824-04-14April
14th
, embarked in brig Romulus, arrived at 1(6)r 15
Elsinore 1824-05-24May 24th, left the same day for Copenhagen,
where we remained twelve days. We
visited the King’s Palace, and several other
extensive and beautiful buildings. We attended
a number of entertainments among the Danes
and English, which were religiously observed;
their manners and customs are similar; they are
very attentive to strangers; the Sabbath is strictly
observed; the principal religion is the Lutheran
and Calvinistic, but all persuasions are tolerated.
The languages of that people are Dutch, French,
English, &c. The Danes are very modest and
kind, but, like all other nations, they well know
how to take the advantage. I left there the
1824-06-077th of June, and arrived at Cronstadt on the
1824-06-1919th; left there the 1824-06-2121st for St. Petersburg, and
in a few hours were happy to find ourselves at
our place of destination, through the blessing
of God, in good health, and soon made welcome
from all quarters. We took lodgings with a
Mrs. Robinson, a native of our country, who was
Patience Mott, of Providence, who left there in
the year 18131813, in the family of Alexander Gabriel,
the man who was taken for Mr. Prince.
There I spent six weeks very pleasantly, visiting
and receiving friends, after the manner of the
country. We then commenced housekeeping.
While there I attended two of their parties; 1(6)v 16
there were various amusements in which I did
not participate, which caused them much disappointment.
I told them my religion did not allow
of dancing or dice playing, which formed part
of the amusements. As they were very strict in
their religion, they indulged me in the same
privilege. By the help of God I was ever
enabled to maintain my stand.

Mr. Prince was born in Marlborough, and lived
in families in this city. In 18101810 he went to
Gloucester, and sailed with Captain Theodore
Stanwood
for Russia; he returned with him, and
remained in his family, and at this time visited
my mother’s family. He again sailed with him,
in 18121812, for the last time. Captain Stanwood
took with him his son Theodore, for the purpose
of attending school in the city of St. Petersburg.
Mr. Prince went to serve Princess Purtossozof,
one of the noble ladies of Court. It is well
known that the color of one’s skin does not
prohibit from any place or station that he or she
may be capable of occupying.

The Palace, where the Emperor resides, is
called the Court, the seat of government. This
magnificent building is adorned with all the ornaments
that possibly can be explained; there are
hundreds of people that inhabit it, besides the
soldiers that guard. There are several of these 2(1)r 17
splendid edifices in the city and vicinity. The one
that I was presented in, was in a village, three
miles from the city. After leaving the carriage,
we entered the first ward; the usual salutation by
guards was performed. As we passed through
the beautiful hall, a door was opened by two
colored men, in official dress, and there stood the
Emperor Alexander on his throne, in royal
apparel. The throne is circular, elevated two
steps from the floor, and covered with scarlet
velvet tasseled with gold. As I entered, the
Emperor stepped forward with great politeness
and condescension, and welcomed and asked me
several questions; he then accompanied us to
the Empress Elizabeth; she stood in her dignity,
and received me in the same manner. They
presented me with a gold watch, and fifty dollars
in gold.

The number of colored men that filled this
station was twenty; when one dies, the number
is immediately made up. Mr. Prince filled the
place of one that had died. They serve in turns,
four at a time, except on some great occasions,
when all are employed. Provision is made for
the families within or without the Palace. Those
without go to Court at 8 o’clock in the morning;
after breakfasting, they take their station in the
halls, for the purpose of opening the doors, at 2 2(1)v 18
signal given, when the Emperor and Empress
pass.

1824-08-01First of August we visited the burying-ground,
where the people meet, as they say, to pay
respect to their dead. It is a great holiday; they
drink and feast on the grave stones, or as near
the grave as they can come; some groan and
pray, and some have music and dancing. At a
funeral no one attends except the invited; after
the friends arrive, a dish of rice boiled hard, with
raisins, is handed round; all are to take a spoonful,
with the same spoon, and out of the same
dish; in the meanwhile the priest, with his clerk,
performs the ceremony, perfuming the room with
incense. The lid is not put on to the coffin, the
corpse being laid out in his or her best dress.
The torch-men (who are dressed in black garments,
made to slope down to their feet, with
broad brimmed hats that cover their shoulders,)
form a procession, with lighted torches in their
hands, bowing their heads as they pass along very
gravely; then comes one more, with the lid on
his head; then the hearse with the corpse, drawn
by four horses, covered with black gowns down
to their feet; they all move along with great
solemnity. Before entering the grave-yard, the
procession goes to an adjoining church, where
there are many ladies, placed on benches, side 2(2)r 19
by side, according to their ages; the ladies
dressed as if they were going to a ball-room, displaying
a most dreadful appearance. Each one
has her hands crossed, and holding in one of
them a pass to give to Peter, that they may enter
into Heaven. At this place they light their
candles, and receive their rice in the manner
before mentioned. The top is then put on to the
coffin, and the procession forms and repairs to
the grave; the priest sanctifies the grave, then
casts in dust, and the coffin is consigned to its
narrow-house; then commence the yells; they
drink, eat cake, black bread, and finish their
rice, when the party return back to dinner, where
every thing has been prepared during their absence.
This is the Greek mode of burying their
dead. On the birth of a child, the babe is not
dressed until it is baptized; it is immersed all over
in water; a stand, with an oval basin, is brought
for the purpose by the clerk. The mother is presented
with gifts, which are placed under her
pillow. Should the babe die before this rite is
performed, it is not placed with the others; but
should it die having been baptized, although not
more than two hours old, it is dressed and placed
on the bench at church with the rest. In this
manner the common people bury their dead.

When any of the Imperial family dies, they 2(2)v 20
are laid in state forty days, and every thing
accordingly. There is a building built expressly
for the Imperial families, where their remains are
deposited. In the front part of it, the criminals
that have rebelled against the Imperial family are
placed in cells, thus combining the prison and the
tomb; and in sailing by, these miserable creatures
are exposed to the careless gaze of unfeeling
observers.

St. Petersburg was inundated 1824-10-09October 9th, 1824.
The water rose sixteen feet in most parts of the
city; many of the inhabitants were drowned.
An Island between the city and Cronstradt, containing
five hundred inhabitants, was inundated,
and all were drowned, and great damage was
done at Cronsrttradt. The morning of this day was
fair; there was a high wind. Mr. Prince went
early to the Palace, as it was his turn to serve;
our children boarders were gone to school; our
servant had gone of an errand. I heard a cry,
and to my astonishment, when I looked out to see
what was the matter, the waters covered the
earth. I had not then learned the language, but
I beckoned to the people to come in; the waters
continued to rise until 10 o’clock, A. M. The
waters were then within two inches of my window,
when they ebbed and went out as fast as
they had come in, leaving to our view a dreadful 2(3)r 21
sight. The people who came into my house for
their safety retired, and I was left alone. At
four o’clock in the afternoon, there was darkness
that might be felt, such as I had never experienced
before. My situation was the more painful
being alone, and not being able to speak. I
waited until ten in the evening; I then took a
lantern, and started to go to a neighbor’s, whose
children went to the same school with my boarders.
I made my way through a long yard, over
the bodies of men and beasts, and when opposite
their gate I sunk; I made one grasp, and the
earth gave away; I grasped again, and fortunately
got hold of the leg of a horse, that had
been drowned. I drew myself up covered with
mire, and made my way a little further, when I
was knocked down by striking against a boat,
that had been washed up and left by the retiring
waters; and as I had lost my lantern, I was
obliged to grope my way as I could, and feeling
along the walk, I at last found the door that I
aimed at. My family were safe, and they accompanied
me home. At 12 o’clock, Mr. Prince
came home, as no one was permitted to leave the
Palace till his Majesty had viewed the city. In
the morning the children and the girl returned,
and I went to view the pit into which I had sunk.
It was large enough to hold a dozen like myself, 2* 2(3)v 22
when the earth had caved in. Had not that horse
been there, I should never again seen the light
of day, and no one would have known my fate.
Thus, through the providence of God, I escaped
from the flood and the pit.

“My helper, God, I bless thy name; The same thy power, thy grace the same; I midst ten thousand dangers stand, Supported by thy guardian hand.”

Should I attempt to give an account of all the
holidays, it would fill volumes. The next to
notice is Christmas and New Year. The --01-01first
day of January
a grand masquerade is given by
his Majesty, at the winter Palace; forty thousand
tickets are distributed; every thing is done in
order; every gentleman wears a mask and
cloak, and carries a lady with him. They are
formed in a procession, and enter at the west
gate; as they pass through, all the golden vessels
and ornaments are displayed; these were back
of a counter, which extends two hundred feet;
there the company receive a cup of hot chocolate,
and a paper of comfits, and a bun; a great many
are in attendance, as a vast many persons are
permitted to pass in and view the Palace, and go
out at the east gate.

The --01-066th of January is a still greater day, for
then the water is christened; a church is built on 2(4)r 23
the ice, ornamented with gold and evergreens,
and a row of spruce trees, extending from the
door of the Palace to the church. At this time
all the nobles, of different nations, make their
appearance in their native costume. The Patriarch,
Archbishops, and other dignitaries of the
Court, have a service; then they pass through
and christen the water, and make it holy; then
there is a great rush of the people for this holy
water. On the plane an ice hill is built, eighty
feet high, where the Emperor and his Court
exercise themselves.

--02-10February 10th is another holiday. Buildings
are constructed on the plane for the occasion.
All kinds of amusements may be found here, and
all kinds of animals seen; much time and money
are spent. The buildings are built in rotation.
All the children of the different seminaries and
institutions of education, are driven round in
gilded carriages to witness the performances.
After this is the great Fast, previous to the
crucifixion of our Saviour. Then Christ is represented
as riding into Jerusalem; branches of
trees are placed in the ice, and strewed through
the streets, and every performance is carried
out. The Saviour is made of white marble; he
is crucified and buried, and on the third day he
rises, according to the Scriptures; then the 2(4)v 24
cannons are fired. At the close of this forty
day’s Fast, they have a great Feast and Fair; all
business is suspended, and the festivity and frolic
continue for one week.

The --05-01first of May is another great holiday.
The merchants’ daughters are arranged on each
side of a long mall, in the beautiful gardens, and
arrayed in their best clothes, under the care of an
old woman known in their families; the gentlemen
walk round and observe them, and if they
see one they fancy, they speak to the old woman;
she takes him to the parents and introduces him;
if the parties agree, they prepare for the betrothal.
It is their custom to marry one of their
own station. All these holidays are accounted
sacred. The first year I noted them all, as I was
accustomed to attend them.

1825-05May, 1825, I spent some time visiting the
different towns in the vicinity of St. Petersburg.
In the fall of the same year, the Emperor retired
to a warmer climate for the health of the Empress
Elizabeth
. 1826-01January, 1826, the corpse of Alexander
was brought in state, and was met three
miles from the city by the nobles of the Court;
and they formed a procession, and the body was
brought in state into the building where the
Imperial family were deposited. 1826-03March, of the
same year
, the corpse of Elizabeth was brought 2(5)r 25
in the same manner. Constantine was then king
of Poland, he was next heir to the throne, and was
unanimously voted by the people, but refused,
and resigned the crown in favor of his brother
Nicholas. The day appointed the people were
ordered to assemble as usual, at the ringing of the
bells; they rejected Nicholas, a sign was given
by the leaders that was well understood, and the
people, great and small rushed to the square and
cried with one voice for Constantine. The Emperor
with his prime minister, and city governor,
rode into the midst of them entreating them to
retire, without avail, they were obliged to order
the cannons fired upon the mob; it was not known
when they discharged them that the Emperor
and his ministers were in the crowd. He was
wonderfully preserved while both his friends and
their horses were killed. There was a general
seizing of all classes, who were taken into
custody. The scene cannot be described; the
bodies of the killed and mangled were cast into
the river, and the snow and ice were stained
with the blood of human victims as they were
obliged to drive the cannon to and fro in the
midst of the crowd. The bones of these wounded
who might have been cured were crushed. The
cannon are very large, drawn by eight horses
trained for the purpose. The scene was awful; 2(5)v 26
all business was stopped. This deep plot originated,
18141814, in Germany, with the Russian nobility
and German, under the pretence of the Free
Mason’s
lodge. When they returned home they
increased their numbers and presented their chart
to the Emperor for permission which was granted.
In the year 18221822, the Emperor being suspicious
that all was not right took their chart from
them. They carried it on in small parties, rapidly
increasing, believing they would soon be
able to destroy all the Imperial branches, and
have a republican government. Had not this
taken place undoubtedly they would have at last
succeeded. So deep was the foundation of this
plot laid, both males and females were engaged
in it. The prison-houses were filled, and thirty
of the leading men were put into solitary confinement,
and twenty-six of the number died, four
were burned. A stage was erected and faggots
were placed underneath, each prisoner was secured
by iron chains, presenting a most appalling
sight to an eye-witness. A priest was in attendance
to cheer their last dying moments, then fire
was set to the faggots and these brave men were
consumed. Others received the knout, and even
the princesses and ladies of rank were imprisoned
and flogged in their own habitations. Those that
survived their punishment were banished to Siberia. 2(6)r 27
The mode of banishment is very imposing
and very heart-rending, severing them from all
dear relatives and friends, for they are never permitted
to take their children. When they arrive
at the gate of the city, their first sight is a guard
of soldiers, then wagons with provisions, then the
noblemen in their banished apparel guarded, then
each side conveyances for the females, then ladies
in order guarded by soldiers.

Preparations were now being made for the
coronation of the new Emperor and Empress.
This took place 1826-09September, 1826, in Moscow,
555 miles south-east from St. Petersburg. All
persons engaged in the court were sent beforehand,
in order to prepare for the coming event.
After his majesty’s laws were read as usual on
such occasions, those who wished to remain in
his service did so, and those who did not were
discharged.

After the coronation the Emperor and his court
returned to St. Petersburg. 1827-06June, 1827, war was
declared between Russia and Turkey. They had
several battles with varied success. The Russians
surrounded and laid siege to Constantinople.
The Sultan of Turkey sued for peace, and a
treaty was at last signed and peace was proclaimed
in 18291829. In 1829-03March, of the same year,
war was declared with Poland. 18311831, the cholera, 2(6)v 28
that malignant disease, made its appearance
in Austria, from thence to little Russia, making
great ravages, thousands of people falling a prey.
It then began to rage in St. Petersburg, carrying
off 9255. This disease first appeared in Madagascar,
18141814, there most of the inhabitants died.
It is called the plague that God sent among the
people of Israel and other nations for centuries
back. Much might be said of this dreadful disease
and others that are but little known in this
country. God often visits nations, families, and
persons, with judgments as well as mercies.

The present Emperor and Empress are courteous
and affable. The Empress would often
send for the ladies of the court at 8 o’clock in the
evening to sup with her, when they arrive at
court they form a procession and she takes the
lead. On entering the hall, the band strikes up;
there are two long tables on each side, and in the
midst circular tables for the Imperial family. The
tables are spread apparently with every variety
of eatable and deserts, but every thing is artificial,
presenting a novel appearance. When the company
are seated, the Emperor and Empress walk
around the tables and shake hands with each individual
as they pass. The prisoners of war who
are nobles, are seated by themselves with their
faces veiled. There is a tender or waiter to each 3(1)r 29
person, with two plates, one with soup and the
other with something else. After a variety of
courses, in one hour they are dismissed by the
band. They then retire to another part of the
palace to attend a ball or theatrical amusements.
At the Empress’s command they are dismissed.
She carries power and dignity in her countenance
well adapted to her station. And after
her late amusements at night she would be out at
an early hour in the morning visiting the abodes
of the distressed, dressed in as common apparel
as any one here, either walking or riding in a
common sleigh. At her return she would call
for her children, take them in her arms and talk
to them. “She riseth while it is yet night and
giveth meat to her household and a portion to her
maidens, she stretcheth out her hands to the
poor, yea, she reacheth out her hands to the
needy; she is not afraid of the snow for all her
household are clothed in scarlet.”
Then she
would go to the cabinet of his Majesty; there
she would write and advise with him.

The Russian ladies follow the fashions of
the French and English. The religion is after
the Greek church. There are no seats
in their churches; they stand, bow, and kneel,
during the service. The principal church is on
the Main street. There are the statues of the 3 3(1)v 30
great commanders that have conquered in battle.
They are clad in brass, with flags in their hands,
and all their ancient implements of war are deposited
there. The altar is surrounded by statues
of the Virgin Mary and the twelve apostles.
When Russia is at war and her armies are about
to engage in battle, it is here that the Emperor
and his family and court, come to pray for victory
over the enemy. The day they engaged in
battle against the Poles, the Empress Dowager
took her death; she was embalmed and laid in
state six weeks in the hall of the winter palace.
I went a number of times to see her, and the people
pay her homage, and kiss the hands of that
lump of clay. All religion is tolerated, but the
native Russians are subject to the Greek Church.
There are a number of institution in St. Petersburg
where children of all classes have the privilege
of instruction. The sailors’ and soldiers’ boys
enter the corps at the age of seven, and are educated
for that purpose. The girls remain in the
barracks with their parents, or go to some institutions
where they are instructed in all the branches
of female education. There are other establishments,
where the higher classes send their
children.

There is another spacious building called the
Market
, half a mile square, where all kinds of articles 3(2)r 31
may be bought. Between the Market and
the church there is a block of buildings where
silver articles of all kinds are to be purchased.
These stores present a very superb appearance
and are visited by every foreigner that comes
into the place. Besides these buildings, Main
Street
is lined with elegant buildings with projecting
windows, to the extent of twelve miles.
Nearly at the termination of the street there is a
spacious building of stone which encloses the
Taberisey Garden, so called from its having every
kind of tree, shrub, flower and fruit, of the known
world, which flourish alike in winter as in summer.
There is an extensive Frozen Market
which forms a square as large as Boston Common.
This space of ground is covered with
counters, on which may be purchased every variety
of eatable, such as frozen fish, fowl, and meats
of every description, besides every other article
of commerce which will bear the extreme cold of
a St. Petersburg winter. The city was founded
by Peter the Great, and built upon a bog which
was occupied by a few fishermen’s huts, and belonged
to the Finns. It is situated at the extremity
of the Gulf of Finland, and is built partly on
the main land and partly on several small islands.
The foundation of the city is extremely marshy,
which subjects it to frequent inundations. For 3(2)v 32
this reason there are canals which are cut through
the streets, very beautifully laid out, faced with
granite, railed with iron chains nubbed with brass,
with bridges to cross from one street to the other.
The city houses are built of stone and brick, and
twice the thickness of American houses. They
are heated by Peaches, of similar construction to
our furnaces; the outside of which is faced with
China tiles, presenting a very beautiful appearance.
The village houses are built of logs corked with
oakum, where the peasants reside. This class of
people till the land, most of them are slaves and
are very degraded. The rich own the poor, but
they are not suffered to separate families or sell
them off the soil. All are subject to the Emperor,
and no nobleman can leave without his permission.
The mode of travelling is principally
by stages which are built something like our omnibusses,
with settees upon the top railed and
guarded by soldiers, for the purpose of protecting
the travellers from the attacks of wild beasts.
The common language is a mixture of Sclavonian
and Polish. The nobility make use of the
modern Greek, French, and English. I learned
the languages in six months, so as to be able to
attend to my buisiness, and also made some proficiency
in the French. My time was taken up
in domestic affairs; I took two children to board 3(3)r 33
the third week after commencing housekeeping,
and increased their numbers. The baby linen
making and children’s garments were in great demand.
I started a business in these articles and
took a journeywoman and apprentices. The
present Empress is a very active one, and inquired
of me respecting my business and gave
me much encouragement by purchasing of me
garments for herself and children, handsomely
wrought in French and English styles, and many
of the nobility also followed her example. It
was to me a great blessing that we had the means
of Grace afforded us. The Rev. Richard Kenell,
was the Protestant pastor. We had service twice
every Sabbath and evening prayer meetings, also
a female society, so that I was occupied at all
times.

At the time of the inundation, the Bibles and
other books belonging to the society were injured.
But Mr. Kenell took the liberty to purchase at
full price and sell at an advance. In order that
the poor might have them, we all agreed to
labor for that purpose; I often visited the matron
of the Empress’ children, and encouraged by her
I took some to the Palace, and by this means disposed
of many at head quarters. Other friends
without the court continued to labor until hundreds
and thousands were disposed of. The old 3* 3(3)v 34
Bishop finding his religion was in danger sent a
petition to the Emperor that all who were found
distributing Bibles and Tracts should be punished
severely. Many were taken and imprisoned,
two devoted young men were banished; thus the
righteous were punished, while evil practices
were not forbidden, for there the sin of licentiousness
is very common.

I have mentioned that the climate did not agree
with me; in winter my lungs were much affected;
it was the advice of the best physicians that I had
better not remain in Russia during another cold
season. However painful it was to me to return
without my husband, yet life seemed desirable,
and he flattered me and himself that he should
soon follow. It is difficult for any one in the
Emperor’s employment to leave when they please.
Mr. Prince thought it best for me to return to my
native country while he remained two years
longer to accumulate a little property and then
return――but death took him away. I left St. Petersburg,
1833-08-14August 14th, 1833, having been absent
about nine years and six months. On the 1833-08-1717th
I sailed from Cronstradt for New York. Arrived
at Elsinore the 1833-08-2525th. 1833-08-29Tuesday 29, left. 1833-09-02September
the 2nd.
, laid to in a gale. 1833-09-18September
18th
, made Plymouth, Old England. 1833-09-1919th sailed.
Arrived in New York 1833-10-10Oct. 10th, left there 1833-10-18Tuesday 3(4)r 35
18th
, arrived in Boston the 1833-10-2323d. Sabbath
1833-11-09Nov. the 9th, I had the privilege of attending service
in the old place of worship. On this day I
also had the pleasure of meeting with an old
friend of my grandfather, nearly one hundred
years of age. I found things much changed;
my mother and sister Silvia died in 18271827, (that
I was aware of.) The Rev. T. Paul was dead
and many of my old friends were gone to their
long home. The old church and society was in
much confusion; I attempted to worship with
them but it was in vain. The voyage was of
great benefit to me. By the advice of friends I
applied to a Mrs. Mott, a female phisician in the
city, that helped me much. I am indebted to
God for his great goodness in guiding my youthful
steps; my mind was directed to my fellow
brethren whose circumstances were similar to my
own. I found many a poor little orphan destitute
and afflicted, and on account of color shut
out from all the asylums for poor children. At
this my heart was moved, and proposed to my
friends the necessity of a home for such, where
they might be sheltered from the contaminating
evils that beset their path. For this purpose I
called a meeting of the people and laid before
them my plan: as I had had the privilege of assisting
in forming an Asylum for such a purpose 3(4)v 36
in St. Petersburg, I thought it would be well to
establish one on the same principles, not knowing
that any person had had a thought of any thing
of the kind. We commenced with eight children.
I gave three months of my time. A board was
formed of seven females, with a committee of
twelve gentlemen of standing, to superintend. At
the end of three months the committee was dispensed
with, and for want of funds our society
soon fell through.

I passed my time in different occupations and
making arrangements for the return of my husband,
but death took him from me. I made my
home at the Rev. J. W. Holman’s, a Free Will
Baptist
, until I sailed for Jamaica. There had
been an Anti-Slavery Society established by W.
L. Garrison
, Knapp, and other philanthropists of
the day. Their design was the amelioration of
the nominally free colored people of these States,
and the emancipation of the slaves in other States.
These meetings I attended with much pleasure
until a contention broke out among themselves;
there has been a great change in some things,
but much remains to be done; possibly I may
not see so clearly as some, for the weight of
prejudice has again oppressed me, and were it
not for the promises of God ones heart would
fail, for He made man in his own image, in the 3(5)r 37
image of God, created he him, male and female,
that they should have dominion over the fish of
the sea, the fowl of the air, and the beast of the
field, &c. This power did God give man, that thus
far should he go and no farther; but man has
disobeyed his maker and become vain in his imagination
and their foolish hearts are darkened.
We gather from this, that God has in all ages of
the world punished every nation and people for
their sins. The sins of my beloved country are
not hid from his notice; his all seeing eye sees
and knows the secrets of all hearts; the angels
that kept not their first estate but left their own
habitations, he hath reserved in everlasting chains
unto the great day.

My mind, after the emancipation in the West
Indies
, was bent upon going to Jamaica. A field
of usefulness seemed spread out before me.
While I was thinking about it, the Rev. Mr. Ingraham,
who had spent seven years there, arrived
in the city. He lectured in the city at the
Marlboro’ Chapel, on the results arising from
the emancipation at the British Islands. He
knew much about them, he had a station at a
mountain near Kingston, and was very desirous
to have persons go there to labor. He wished
some one to go with him to his station. He
called on me with the Rev. Mr. Colyer, to persuade 3(5)v 38
me to go. I told him it was my intention
to go if I could make myself useful, but that I
was sensible that I was very limited in education.
He told me that the moral condition of the people
was very bad, and needed labor aside from
any thing else.

I left America, 1840-11-16November 16th, 1840, in the
ship Scion, Captain Mansfield, bound for Jamaica,
freighted with ice and machinery for the silk factory.
There were on board a number of handicrafts-men
and other passengers. We sailed on
Monday afternoon, from Charlestown, Massachusetts.
It rained continually until Saturday. 1840-11-23Sunday
the 23rd
, was a fine day. Mr. De Grass, a
young colored clergyman, was invited to perform
divine service which he did with much propriety;
he spoke of the dangers we had escaped and the
importance of being prepared to meet our God,
(he died of fever about three weeks after arriving
at Jamaica,) some who were able to attend
came on deck and listened to him with respect,
while others seemed to look on in derision; these
spent the afternoon and evening in card-playing.
About twelve at night a storm commenced; on
Monday were in great peril; the storm continued
until 1840-11-27Friday the 27th. On that day a sail was
seen at some distance making towards us, the
captain judging her to be a piratical vessel ordered 3(6)r 39
the women and children below, and the
men to prepare for action. The pirates were
not inclined to hazard an engagement; when
they saw the deck filled with armed men they
left us. Thus were we preserved from the storm
and from the enemy. 1840-11-29Sabbath, 29th, divine service,
our attention was directed to the goodness
of God, in sparing us.

Monday, and we mortals are still alive. Tuesday,
thus far the Lord has led us on. Wednesday,
thus far his power prolongs our days.
1840-12-03Thursday, December 3rd, to-day made Turks
Island
. Friday, this day had a view of Hayti,
its lofty mountains presented a sublime prospect.
Saturday, we had a glance at Cuba. 1840-12-06Sunday,
December 6th
, at six o’clock in the evening,
dropped anchor at St. Anne Harbor, Jamaica.
We blessed the Lord for his goodness in sparing
us to see the place of our destination; and here
I will mention my object in visiting Jamaica. I
hoped that I might aid, in some small degree, to
raise up and encourage the emancipated inhabitants,
and teach the young children to read and
work, to fear God, and put their trust in the
Saviour. Mr. Whitmarsh and his friend came on
board and welcomed us. On Tuesday we went
on shore to see the place and the people; my intention
had been to go directly to Kingston, but 3(6)v 40
the people urged me to stay with them and I
thought it my duty to comply, and wrote to Mr.
Ingraham
to that effect. I went first to see the
minister, Mr. Abbot, I thought as he was out, I
had better wait his return. The people promised
to pay me for my services, or send me to Kingston.
When Mr. Abbot returned he made me
an offer, which I readily accepted. As I lodged
in the house of one of the class-leaders I attended
her class a few times, and when I learned the
method, I stopped. She then commenced her
authority and gave me to understand if I did not
comply I should not have any pay from that society.
I spoke to her of the necessity of being
born of the spirit of God before we become members
of the church of Christ, and told her I was
sorry to see the people blinded in such a way.

She was very angry with me and soon accomplished
her end by complaining of me to the minister;
and I soon found I was to be dismissed
unless I would yield obedience to this class-leader.
I told the minister that I did not come there
to be guided by a poor foolish woman. He then
told me that I had spoken something about the
necessity of moral conduct in church members.
I told him I had, and in my opinion, I was sorry
to see it so much neglected. He replied, that he
hoped I would not express myself so except to 4(1)r 41
him; they have the gospel, he continued, and
let them into the church. I do not approve of
women societies; they destroy the world’s convention;
the American women have too many of
them. I talked with him an hour. He paid me
for the time I had been there. I continued with
the same opinion that something must be done
for the elevation of the children, and it is for that
I labor. I am sorry to say the meeting house is
more like a play house than a place of worship.
The pulpit stands about the middle of the building,
behind are about six hundred children that
belong to the society; there they are placed for
Sabbath School, and there they remain until service
is over, playing most of the time. The
house is crowded with the aged and the young,
the greater part of them barefooted. Some have
on bonnets, but most of the women wear straw
hats such as our countrymen wear.

I gave several Bibles away, not knowing that
I was hurting the minister’s sale, the people buy
them of him at a great advance. I gave up my
school at St. Ann, the 1841-03-1818th of March. I took the
fever and was obliged to remain until the 1841-04-077th of
April
. The people of St. Ann fulfilled their
promise which they made to induce me to stop
with them. On the 1841-04-1111th of April I arrived at
Kingston, and was conducted to the Mico Institution,4 4(1)v 42
where Mr. Ingraham directed me to find
him; he had lost his pulpit and his school, but
Mr. Venning, the teacher, kindly received me.
I remained there longer than I expected; the
next morning he kindly sent one of the young
men with me to the packet for my baggage. I
then called on the American Consul, he told me
he was very glad to see me for such a purpose
as I had in view in visiting Jamaica, but he said
it was a folly for the Americans to come to the
Island to better their condition; he said they
came to him every day praying him to send
them home.

He likewise mentioned to me the great mortality
among the emigrants. The same day I
saw the Rev. Mr. J. S. Beadslee, one of our missionaries,
who wished me to accompany him
forty miles into the interior of the country.

On 1841-05-18May the 18th, I attended the Baptist Missionary
meeting, in Queen Street Chapel; the
house was crowded. Several ministers spoke of
the importance of sending the gospel to Africa;
they complimented the congregation on their liberality
the last year, having given one hundred
pounds sterling
; they hoped this year they would
give five hundred pounds, as there were five
thousand members at the present time. There
was but one colored minister on the platform. It 4(2)r 43
is generally the policy of these missionaries to
have the sanction of colored ministers, to all their
assessments and taxes. The colored people give
more readily, and are less suspicious of imposition,
if one from themselves recommends the
measure; this the missionaries understand very
well, and know how to take advantage of it.
On the 1841-06-2222d and 1841-06-2323rd of June, the colored Baptists
held their missionary meeting, the number
of ministers colored and mulattoes was 18, the
colored magistrates were present. The resolutions
that were offered were unanimously accepted,
and every thing was done in love and harmony.
After taking up a contribution they concluded
with song and prayer, and returned home
saying jocosely, “they would turn macroon hunters.”

Mack is the name of a small coin in circulation
at Jamaica. I called, on my return, at the
market and counted the different stalls. For
vegetables and poultry 196, all numbered and
under cover; beside 70 on the ground; these
are all attended by colored women. The market
is conveniently arranged, as they can close the
gates and leave all safe. There are nineteen
stalls for fresh fish, eighteen for pork, thirty for
beef, eighteen for turtle. These are all regular
built markets, and are kept by colored men and 4(2)v 44
women. These are all in one place. Others
also may be found, as with us, all over the city.
Thus it may be hoped they are not the stupid set
of beings they have been called; here surely we
see industry
; they are enterprising and quick in
their perceptions, determined to possess themselves,
and to possess property besides, and quite
able to take care of themselves. They wished
to know why I was so inquisitive about them, I
told them we had heard in America that you are
lazy, and that emancipation has been of no benefit
to you; I wish to inform myself of the truth
respecting you, and give a true account on my
return. Am I right? More than two hundred
people were around me listening to what I said.

They thanked me heartily, I gave them some
tracts, and told them if it so pleased God I would
come back to them and bring them some more
books, and try what could be done with some of
the poor children to make them better. I then
left them and went to the East Market, where
there are many of all nations. The Jews and
Spanish looked at me very black. The colored
people gathered around me, I gave them little
books and tracts, and told them I hoped to see
them again.

There are in this street upwards of a thousand
young women and children, living in sin of every 4(3)r 45
kind. From thence I went to the jail, where
there were seventeen men, but no women. There
were in the House of Correction three hundred
culprits; they are taken from there, to work on
plantations. I went to the Admiral’s house,
where the emigrants find a shelter until they can
find employment, then they work and pay for
their passage. Many leave their homes and come
to Jamaica under the impression that they are to
have their passage free, and on reaching the
Island are to be found, until they can provide for
themselves.

How the mistake orignated, I am not able to
say, but on arriving here, strangers poor and unacclimated,
find the debt for passage money hard
and unexpected. It is remarkable that whether
fresh from Africa, or from other Islands from the
South or from New England, they all feel deceived
on this point. I called on many Americans
and found them poor and discontented,――
rueing the day they left their country, where,
notwithstanding many obstacles, their parents
lived and died, which they helped to conquer
with their toil and blood; now shall their children
stray abroad and starve in foreign lands.

There is in Jamaica an institution, established
in 18361836, called the Mico Institution. It is named
after its founder, Madame Mico, who left a large 4* 4(3)v 46
sum of money to purchase, (or rather to ransom,
the one being a Christian act, the other a sin
against the Holy Ghost, who expressly forbids
such traffic.) Madame Mico left this money to
ransom the English who were in bondage to the
Algerines; if there was any left, it was to be devoted
to the instruction of the colored people in
the British Isles.

Beside the Mico establishment, there are in
Jamaica twenty-seven church missionary schools,
where children are taught gratis. Whole number
taught, 952. London Missionary Society
Schools, sixteen; the number taught not ascertained.
National Schools, thirty-eight. There
are also the Wesleyan, Presbyterian and Moravian
Schools; it is supposed there are private
schools, where three or four thousand are educated
in the city of Kingston, and twice the number
in the street without the means of instruction.
All the children and adults taught in the above
named schools, are taxed £1 a year, except the
English Church School, this is the most liberal.
The Rev. Mr. Horton, a Baptist minister in Kingsston,
told me he had sent ninety children away
from the Baptist school because they did not
bring their money. It is sufficient to say they
had it not to bring!

Most of the people of Jamaica are emancipated 4(4)r 47
slaves, many of them are old, worn out and degraded.
Those who are able to work, have yet
many obstacles to contend with, and very little to
encourage them; every advantage is taken of
their ignorance; the same spirit of cruelty is opposed
to them as held them for centuries in bondage;
even religious teaching is bartered for their
hard earnings, while they are allowed but thirty-
three cents
a day, and are told if they will not
work for that they shall not work at all; an extraordinary
price is asked of them for every thing
they may wish to purchase, even their Bibles are
sold to them at a large advance on the first purchase.
Where are their apologists, if they are
found wanting in the strict morals that Christians
ought to practice? Who kindly says, forgive
them when they err? “Forgive them, this is the
bitter fruit of slavery.”
Who has integrity sufficient
to hold the balance when these poor people
are to be weighed? Yet their present state is
blissful, compared with slavery.

Many of the farmers bring their produce twenty
or thirty miles
. Some have horses or ponys,
but most of them bring their burdens on their
head. As if returned from St. Andrews’s Mountain,
where I had been sent for by a Mr. Rose, I
was overtaken by a respectable looking man on
horseback; we rode about ten miles in company. 4(4)v 48
The story he told me of the wrongs he and his
wife had endured while in slavery, are too horrible
to narrate. My heart sickens when I think
of it. He asked me many questions, such as
where I came from? why I came to that Isle?
where had I lived, &c? I told him I was sent
for by one of the missionaries to help him in his
school. Indeed, said he, our color need the instruction.
I asked him why the colored people
did not hire for themselves. We would be very
glad to, he replied, but our money is taken from
us so fast we cannot. Sometimes they say we
must all bring £1; to raise this, we have to sell
at a loss or to borrow, so that we have nothing
left for ourselves; the Macroon hunters take all
――this is a nickname they give the missionaries
and the class-leaders――a cutting sarcasm this!

Arrived at a tavern, about a mile from Kingston,
I bade the man adieu, and stopped for my
guide. The inn-keeper kindly invited me in;
he asked me several questions, and I asked him
as many. How do the people get along, said I,
since the emancipation? The negroes, he replied,
will have the Island in spite of the d――.
Do not you see how they live, and how much
they can bear? We cannot do so. This man
was an Englishman, with a large family of mulatto
children. I returned with my mind fully 4(5)r 49
made up what to do. Spent three weeks at the
Mico establishment, and three with my colored
friends from America. We thought something
ought to be done for the poor girls that were destitute;
they consulted with their friends, called a
meeting and formed a society of forty; each
agreed to pay three dollars a year and collect,
and provide a house, while I came back to America
to raise the money for all needful articles for
the school. Here I met Mr. Ingraham for the
first time; he had come from the mountains,
and his health had rapidly declined; wishing to
get his family home before the Lord took him
away, he embarked for Baltimore, in the Orb,
and I sailed for Philadelphia, 1841-07-20July 20th, 1841,
twenty-one days from Jamaica, in good health. I
found there, Fitz W. Sargent’s family, from Gloucester,
who I lived with when a little girl; they
received me very kindly, and gave donations of
books and money for that object.

I met the Anti Slavery Society at Mrs. Lucretia
Motts
, who took great interest in the cause. I
visited among the friends, and spent my time
very pleasantly. 1841-08-05August 5th, I started for New
York
; arrived safely, and staid with an old
friend; ascertained that Mr. Ingraham’s family
were at Newark, at Theodore Wells. He died
four days after his arrival. I was invited to Mrs. 4(5)v 50
Ingraham’s
(his cousin’s widow) to spend a week.
There I met with much encouragement to labor
in the cause. Missionaries were coming and going,
and all seemed to be interested in my object.
Saturday evening I went to the bath room, where
I left my neck ribbon: returning after it, I had
the misfortune to fall through an open trap door,
down fifteen feet, on hard coal. I had no light
with me. I dislocated my left shoulder, and was
generally very much bruised; my screams
brought the girl to my assistance, and by the
help of God she brought me out of the cellar; it
was some time before a surgeon could be procured;
at last Dr. Jossleyn came to my relief,
he set my shoulder. I was obliged to remain at
Mrs. Ingraham’s three weeks; as soon as I was
able I left there for Boston. I intended to have
gone by the western boat, but by mistake got on
board Captain Comstock’s, and was exposed on
deck all night in a damp east wind, and when I
arrived at the landing I could not assist myself;
a sailor who saw and pitied my situation, kindly
took care of me and my baggage, and on my arrival
in Boston procured a carriage for me. If
it had not been for his kindness I know not how
I should have got along.

As soon as I was able I commenced my task
of collecting funds for my Free Labor School in 4(6)r 51
Jamaica. I collected in Boston and vicinity, in
New York and Philadelphia, but not sufficient to
make up the required sum, and I was obliged to
take fifty dollars from my own purse, thinking
that when I returned to Jamaica they would refund
the money to me. --04-15April 15th, embarked
on board the Brig Norma, of New York, for Jamaica.
I arrived at Kingston --05-06May 6th, and
found every thing different from what it was
when I left; the people were in a state of agitation,
several were hanged, and the insurrection
was so great that it was found necessary to increase
the army to quell it. Several had been
hanged. On the very day I arrived a man was
hanged for shooting a man as he passed through
the street. Such was the state of things that it
was not safe to be there.

A few young people met to celebrate their
freedom on an open plain, where they hold their
market; their former masters and mistresses envious
of their happiness, conspired against them
and thought to put them down by violence. This
only served to increase their numbers; but the
oppressors were powerful and succeeded in accomplishing
their revenge, although many of
them were relations. There was a rule among
the slave holders, to take care of the children
they have by their slaves; they select them out 4(6)v 52
and place them in asylums. Those who lived
with their white fathers were allowed great power
over their slave mothers and her slave children;
my heart was often grieved to see their conduct
to their poor old grand parents. Those over
twenty-one were freed in 18341834, all under twenty-
one, were to serve their masters till twenty-one.
It is well known that at that time, the children
alike with others, received twenty-five dollars a
head for their relatives. Were I to tell all my
eyes have seen among that people it would not
be credited. It is well known that those that
were freed, knowing their children were still in
bondage, were not satisfied. In the year 18381838,
general freedom throughout the British Islands
gave the death blow to the power of the master,
and mothers received with joy their emancipated
children; they no longer looked the picture of despair,
fearing to see their mulatto son or daughter,
beating or abusing their younger brothers and
sisters of a darker skin. On this occasion there
was an outrage committed by those who were in
power. What little the poor colored people had
gathered during their four years of freedom, was
destroyed by violence; their fences were broken
down, and their horses and hogs taken from them.
Most of the mulattoes and masters are educated,
many of them are very poor, some are very rich; 5(1)r 53
the property is left to the oldest daughter, she
divides it with her brothers and sisters; since
slavery ended many of them have married; those
who are poor, and mean to live in sin, make for
New Orleans and other slave States; many of
the planters left the Island when slavery was abolished.
In 1841-06June, 1841, a number of people arrived
from Sierra Leone at Jamaica; these were
Maroons who were banished from the Island.
They were some of the original natives who inhabited
the mountains, and were determined to destroy
the whites. These Maroons would secrete
themselves in trees, and arrest the whites as they
passed along, they would pretend to guide them,
when they would beat and abuse them as the
whites did their slaves; the English finding
themselves defeated in all their plans to subdue
them, proposed to take them by craft. They
made a feast in a large tavern in Kingston, and invited
them to come; after they had eaten, they
were invited on board three ships of war, that
were all ready to set sail for Sierra Leone; they
were many of them infants in their mother’s arms,
they were well taken care of by the English and
instructed; they were removed about the year
17961796――they are bright and intelligent, I saw and
conversed with them; when they heard of the
abolition of slavery, they sent a petition to Queen 5 5(1)v 54
Victoria
that they might return to Jamaica, which
was granted. Several of them were very old
when they returned; they were men and women
when they left the Island, they had not forgot the
injuries they had received from the hands of man,
nor the mercies of God to them, nor his judgments
to their enemies. Their numbers were
few but their power was great; they say the
Island, of right, belongs to them. Had their been
a vessel in readiness I should have come back
immediately, it seemed useless to attemp to establish
a Manual Labor School, as the government
was so unsettled that I could not be protected.
Some of my former friends were gone
as teachers to Africa, and some to other parts of
the Island. I called on the American Consul to
consult with him, he said that although such a
school was much wanted, yet every thing seemed
so unsettled that I had no courage to proceed. I
told him there was so much excitement that I
wished to leave the Island as soon as he could
find me a passage, it seemed useless to spend my
time there. As soon as it was known that I intended
to return, a movement was made to induce
me to remain. I was persuaded to try the experiment
for three months, not thinking their motive
was bad. Before I left the United States, I
got all that was needed, within fifty dollars. The 5(2)r 55
fifty dollars I supplied from my own purse, expecting
they would pay me. It cost me ten dollars
for freight, and twenty-five for passage
money; these people that I had hoped to serve,
were much taken up with the things I had brought,
they thought that I had money and I was continually
surrounded; the thought of color was no
where exhibited, much notice was taken of me.
I was invited to breakfast in one place, and to
dine in another, &c. A society was organized,
made up of men and women of authority. A
constitution was drafted by my consent, by those
who were appointed to meet at my rooms. Between
the time of adjournment they altered it
to suit themselves. At the time appointed we
came together with a spirit apparently becoming
any body of Christians; most of them were members
of Christian churches; the meeting was
opened with reading the Scriptures and prayer.
Then said the leader, “since our dear sister has
left her native land and her friends to come to
us, we welcome her with our hearts and hands.
She will dwell among us, and we will take care
of her――Brethren think of it!”
after which he sat
down, and the constitution was called for. The
Preamble held out all the flattery that a fool
could desire; after which they commenced the
articles, supposing that they could do as they 5(2)v 56
thought best. The fourth article unveiled their
design. “As we have designed to take care of
our sister, we the undersigned will take charge of
all she has brought”
; the vote was called, every
person rose in a moment except myself: every
eye was upon me; one asked me why I did not
vote, I made no answer――they put the vote again
and again, I remained seated; “well” said the President,
“we can do nothing without her vote”; they
remained some time silent, and then broke up the
meeting. The next day the Deacon called to
see what the state of my mind was, and some of
the women proposed that we should have another
meeting. I told them no, I should do no more
for them. As soon as they found they could not
get the things in the way they intended, they
started to plunder me; but I detected their design,
and was on my guard, I disposed of the articles,
and made ready to leave when an opportunity
presented. A more skilful plan than this
Satan never designed, but the power of God was
above it. It is not surprising that this people are
full of deceit and lies, this is the fruits of slavery,
it makes master and slaves knaves. It is the
rule where slavery exists to swell the churches
with numbers, and hold out such doctrines, as
obedience to tyrants, is a duty to God. I went
with a Baptist woman to the house of a minister 5(3)r 57
of the Church of England, to have her grandchild
christened before it died; she told me if
she did not have it christened, it would rise up in
judgment against her. This poor deluded creature
was a class leader in the Baptist Church,
and such is the condition of most of the people:
they seemed blinded to every thing but money.
They are great for trade, and are united in their
determination for procuring property, of which
they have amassed a vast amount. Notwithstanding
I had made over various articles to one
of the American Missionaries, a Mr. J. S. Beadslee,
of Clarendon Mountains, I also gave to others
where they were needed, which receipts and
letters I have in my possession. Notwithstanding
all this, they made another attempt to rob me,
and as a passage could not be obtained for me to
return home, I was obliged to go to the Mico establishment
again for safety, such was the outrage.
Houses were broken open and robbed
every night. I came very near being shot: there
was a certain place where we placed ourselves
the first of the evening. A friend came to bring
us some refreshments, I had just left the window
when a gun was fired through it, by one that
often sat with us; this was common in the time of
slavery. Previous to vessels arriving, passages
were engaged. I disposed of my articles and 5* 5(3)v 58
furniture at a very small profit. On the 1842-08-011st of
August
, Capt. A. Miner arrived, and advertised for
passengers. The American Consul procured me
a passage, and on the 1842-08-1818th of August myself and
nine other passengers embarked for New York.

I might have diversified my book with more
extended descriptions of Jamaica, with its tropical
climate and productions, and contrasted it
with Northern Russia. I hope my readers will
not think that I was unmoved by all the wonders
and beauties of nature, that were presented to
me in various climes. Before giving an account
of the voyage from Jamaica, it may prove interesting
to some readers, to have a brief description
of the country. With her liberty secured to her,
may she now rise in prosperity, morality and religion,
and become a happy people whose God is
the Lord.

“West Indies. A denomination under which is comprehended
a large chain of islands, extending in a curve
from the Florida shore on the northern peninsula
of America, to the Gulf of Venezuela on the
southern. These islands belong to five European
powers, viz: Great Britain, Spain, France, Holland,
and Denmark. An inhabitant of New
England
can form no idea of the climate and
the productions of these islands. Many of the 5(4)r 59
particulars that are here mentioned, are peculiar
to them all.
The climate in the West India Islands is
nearly the same, allowing for those accidental
differences which the several situations and qualities
of the lands themselves produce; as they lie
within the tropic of Cancer, and the sun is often
almost at the meridian over their heads, they are
continually subjected to a heat that would be
intolerable but for the trade winds, which are so
refreshing as to enable the inhabitants to attend
to their various occupations, even under a noonday
sun; as the night advances, a breeze begins
to be perceived, which blows smartly from the
land, as it were from the centre towards the sea,
to all points of the compass at once. The rains
make the only distinction of seasons on these
islands. The trees are green the year round;
they have no cold or frost; our heaviest rains are
but dews comparatively; with them floods of
water are poured from the clouds. About May,
the periodical rains from the South may be
expected. Then the tropical summer, in all its
splendor, makes its appearance. The nights are
calm and serene, the moon shines more brightly
than in New England, as do the planets and the
beautiful galaxy. From the middle of August to
the end of September the heat is most oppressive, 5(4)v 60
the sea breeze is interrupted, and calms warn the
inhabitants of the periodical rains, which fall in
torrents about the --10-01first of October.
The most considerable and valuable of the
British West India Islands, lies between the 75th
and the 79th degrees of west longitude from
London, and between 17 and 18 north latitude;
it is of an oval figure, 150 miles long from east
to west, sixty miles broad in the middle,
containing 4,080,000 acres. An elevated ridge,
called the Blue Mountains, runs lengthwise
from east to west, whence numerous rivers
take their rise on both sides. The year is divided
into two seasons, wet and dry. The months
of July, August, and September, are called the
hurricane months. The best houses are generally
built low, on account of the hurricanes and
earthquakes. However pleasant the sun may
rise, in a moment the scene may be changed; a
violent storm will suddenly arise, attended with
thunder and lightning; the rain falls in torrents,
and the seas and rivers rise with terrible destruction.
I witnessed this awful scene in June last,
at Kingston, the capital of Jamaica; the foundations
of many houses were destroyed; the waters,
as they rushed from the mountains, brought with
them the produce of the earth, large branches
of trees, together with their fruit; many persons 5(5)r 61
were drowned, endeavoring to reach their homes;
those who succeeded, were often obliged to travel
many miles out of their usual way. Many young
children, without a parent’s care, were at this
time destroyed. A poor old woman, speaking
of these calamities to the me, thus expressed
herself: ‘Not so bad now as in the time of
slavery; then God spoke very loud to Bucker,
(the white people,) to let us go. Thank God,
ever since that they give us up, we go pray, and
we have it not so bad like as before.’
I would
recommend this poor woman’s remark to the fair
sons and daughters of America, the land of the
pilgrims, ‘Then God spoke very loud.’ May
these words be engraved on the post of every
door in this land of New England. God speaks
very loud, and while his judgments are on the
earth, may the inhabitants learn righteousness!
The mountains that intersect this island, seem
composed of rocks, thrown up by frequent earthquakes
or volcanoes. These rocks, though having
little soil, are adorned with a great variety
of beautiful trees, growing from the fissures,
which are nourished by frequent rains, and
flourish in perpetual spring. From these mountains
flow a vast number of small rivers of pure
water, which sometimes fall in cataracts, from
stupendous heights; these, with the brilliant verdure 5(5)v 62
of the trees, form a most delightful landscape.
Ridges of smaller mountains are on each
side of this great chain; on these, coffee grows
in great abundance; the valleys or plains between
these ridges, are level beyond what is usually
found in similar situations. The highest land in
the island is Blue Mountain Peak, 7150 feet above
the sea. The most extensive plain is thirty miles
long and five broad. Black river, in the Parish
of St. Elizabeth, is the only one navigable; flatboats
bring down produce from plantations about
thirty miles up the river. Along the coast, and
on the plains, the weather is very hot; but in the
mountains the air is pure and wholesome; the
longest days in summer are about thirteen hours,
and the shortest in winter about eleven. In the
plains are found several salt fountains, and in the
mountains, not far from Spanish Town, is a hot
bath of great medicinal virtues; this gives relief
in the complaint called the dry bowels malady,
which, excepting the bilious and yellow fevers, is
one of the most terrible distempers of Jamaica.
The general produce of this island is sugar, rum,
molasses, ginger, cotton, indigo, pimento, cocoa,
coffees, several kinds of woods, and medicinal
drugs. Fruits are in great plenty, as oranges,
lemons, shaddoks, citrons, pomegranates, pineapples,
melons, pompions, guavas, and many 5(6)r 63
others. Here are trees whose wood, when dry,
is incorruptible; here is found the wild cinnamon
tree, the mahogany, the cabbage, the palm,
yielding an oil much esteemed for food and
medicine. Here, too, is the soap tree, whose
berries are useful in washing. The plantain is
produced in Jamaica in abundance, and is one
of the most agreeable and nutritious vegetables
in the world: it grows about four feet in height,
and the fruit grows in clusters, which is filled
with a luscious sweet pulp. The Banana is very
similar to the plantain, but not so sweet. The
whole island is divided into three counties, Middlesex,
Surry, and Cornwall, and these into six
towns, twenty parishes, and twenty-seven villages.
This island was originally part of the Spanish
Empire
in America, but it was taken by the
English in 16561656. Cromwell had fitted out a
squadron under Penn and Venables, to reduce
the Spanish Island of Hispaniola; but there this
squadron was unsuccessful, and the commanders,
of their own accord, to atone for this misfortune,
made a descent on Jamaica, and having arrived
at St. Jago, soon compelled the whole island to
surrender.
Ever since, it has been subject to the English,
and the government, next to that of Ireland, is
the richest in the disposal of the crown. Port 5(6)v 64
Royal
was formerly the capital of Jamaica; it
stood upon the point of a narrow neck of land,
which, towards the sea, forms part of the border
of a very fine harbor of its own name. The conveniences
of this harbor, which was capable
of containing a thousand sail of large ships, and
of such depth as to allow them to load and unload
with the greatest of ease, weighed so much with the
inhabitants, that they chose to build their capital
on this spot, although the place was a hot, dry
sand, and produced none of the necessaries of
life, not even fresh water. About the beginning
of the year 16921692, no place for its size could be
compared to this town for trade, wealth, and an
entire corruption of manners. In the month
of --06June in this year, an earthquake which shook
the whole island to the foundation, totally overwhelmed
this city, so as to leave, in one quarter,
not even the smallest vestige remaining. In two
minutes the earth opened and swallowed up ninetenths
of the houses, and two thousand people.
The waters gushed out from the openings of the
earth, and the people lay as it were in heaps: some
of them had the good fortune to catch hold
of beams and rafters of houses, and were afterwards
saved by boats. Several ships were cast
away in the harbor, and the Swan Frigate, which
lay in the Dock, was carried over the tops of 6(1)r 65
sinking houses, and did not overset, but afforded
a retreat to some hundreds of people, who saved
their lives upon her. An officer who was in the
town at that time, says the earth opened and shut
very quick in some places, and he saw several
people sink down to the middle, and others appeared
with their heads just above the ground, and
were choked to death. At Savannah above a
thousand acres were sunk, with the houses and
people in them, the place appearing, for some
time, like a lake; this was afterwards dried up,
but no houses were seen. In some parts mountains
were split, and at one place a plantation
was removed to the distance of a mile. The
inhabitants again rebuilt the city, but it was a
second time, ten years after, destroyed by a great
fire. The extraordinary convenience of the harbor
tempted them to build it once more, and in
17221722 it was laid in ruins by a hurricane, the most
terrible on record.
Such repeated calamities seemed to mark out
this spot as a devoted place; the inhabitants,
therefore, resolved to forsake it forever, and to
reside at the opposite bay, where they built
Kingston, which is now the capital of the island.
In going up to Kingston, we pass over a part
of and between Port Royal, leaving the mountains
on the left, and a small town on the right. 6 6(1)v 66
There are many handsome houses built there, one
story high, with porticos, and every convenience
for those who inhabit them. Not far from Kingston
stands Spanish Town, which, though at
present far inferior to Kingston, was once the
capital of Jamaica, and is still the seat of government.
On the 1780-10-033d of October, 1780, there was a
dreadful hurricane, which overwhelmed the little
seaport town of Savannah, in Jamaica, and part
of the adjacent country; very few houses were
left standing, and a great number of lives were
lost; much damage was done also, and many
lives lost, in other parts of the island.
In 1823-01January, 1823, a society was formed in
London for mitigating and gradually abolishing
slavery, throughout the British dominions, called
the Anti-Slavery Society. His Royal Highness,
the Duke of Gloucester, was President of the
Society; in the list of Vice Presidents are the
names of many of the most distinguished philanthropists
of the day, and among them that
of the never to be forgotten Mr. Wilberforce; as
a bold champion, we see him going forward,
pleading the cause of our down-trodden brethren.
In the year 18341834, it pleased God to break the
chains from 800,000 human beings, that had
been held in a state of personal slavery; and 6(2)r 67
this great event was effected through the instrumentality
of Clarkson, Wilberforce, and other
philanthropists of the day.
The population of Jamaica is nearly 400,000;
that of Kingston, the capital, 40,000. There are
many places of worship of various denominations,
namely, Church of England, and of Scotland,
Wesleyan, the Baptist, and Roman Catholics,
besides a Jewish Synagogue. These all
differ from what I have seen in New England,
and from those I have seen elsewhere. The
Baptist hold what they call class-meetings. They
have men and women, deacons and deaconesses
in these churches; these hold separate class-
meetings; some of these can read, and some
cannot. Such are the persons who hold the
office of judges, and go round and urge the
people to come to the class, and after they come
in twice or three times, they are considered candidates
for baptism. Some pay fifty cents, and
some more, for being baptized; they receive a
ticket as a passport into the church, paying one
mark a quarter, or more, and some less, but
nothing short of ten pence, that is, two English
shillings
a year. They must attend their class
once a week, and pay three pence a week, total
twelve English shillings a year, besides the sums
they pay once a month at communion, after 6(2)v 68
service in the morning. On those occasions the
minister retires, and the deacons examine the
people, to ascertain if each one has brought a
ticket; if not, they cannot commune; after this
the minister returns, and performs the ceremony,
then they give their money and depart. The
churches are very large, holding from four to six
thousand; many bring wood and other presents
to their class-leader, as a token of their attachment;
where there are so many communicants,
these presents, and the money exacted, greatly
enrich these establishments. Communicants are
so ignorant of the ordinance, that they join the
church merely to have a decent burial; for if
they are not members, none will follow them to
the grave, and no prayers will be said over them;
these are borne through the streets by four men,
the coffin a rough box; not so if they are church
members; as soon as the news is spread that one
is dying, all the class, with their leader, will
assemble at the place, and join in singing hymns;
this, they say, is to help the spirit up to glory;
this exercise sometimes continues all night, in so
loud a strain, that it is seldom that any of the
people in the neighborhood are lost in sleep.”

After leaving Jamaica, the vessel was tacked
to a south-west course. I asked the Captain
what this meant. He said he must take the current, 6(3)r 69
as there was no wind. Without any ceremony,
I told him it was not the case, and told the
passengers that he had deceived us. There
were two English men that were born on the
island, that had never been on the water; before
the third day passed, they asked the Captain
why they had not seen Hayti. He told them
they passed when they were asleep. I told them
it was not true, he was steering south south-west.
The passengers in the steerage got alarmed, and
every one was asking the Captain what this
meant. The ninth day we made land. “By
――,”
said the Captain, “this is Key West;
come, passengers, let us have a vote to run over
the neck, and I will go ashore and bring aboard
fruit and turtle.”
They all agreed but myself.
He soon dropped anchor. The officers from the
shore came on board and congratulated him on
keeping his appointment, thus proving that my
suspicions were well founded. The Captain went
ashore with these men, and soon came back,
called for the passengers, and asked for their
vote for him to remain until the next day, saying
that he could, by this delay, make five or six
hundred dollars
, as there had been a vessel
wrecked there lately. They all agreed but
myself. The vessel was soon at the side of the
wharf. In one hour there were twenty slaves at 6* 6(3)v 70
work to unload her; every inducement was made
to persuade me to go ashore, or set my feet on
the wharf. A law had just been passed there that
every free colored person coming there, should
be put in custody on their going ashore; there
were five colored persons on board; none dared
to go ashore, however uncomfortable we might
be in the vessel, or however we might desire to
refresh ourselves by a change of scene. We
remained at Key West four days.

1842-09-03September 3d we set sail for New York, at 3
o’clock in the afternoon. At 10 o’clock a gale
took us, that continued thirty-six hours; my
state-room was filled with water, and my baggage
all upset; a woman, with her little boy, and
myself, were seated on a trunk thirty-six hours,
with our feet pressed against a barrel to prevent
falling; the water pouring over us at every
breaker. 1842-09-09Wednesday, the 9th, the sun shone
out, so that the Captain could take an observation.
He found himself in great peril, near the coast
of Texas. All hands were employed in pumping
and bailing. On the 1842-09-11eleventh, the New Orleans
steamer came to our assistance; as we passed up
the river, I was made to forget my own condition,
as I looked with pity on the poor slaves, who
were laboring and toiling, on either side, as far
as could be seen with a glass. We soon reached 6(4)r 71
the dock, and we were there on the old wreck a
spectacle for observation; the whites went on
shore and made themselves comfortable, while
we poor blacks were obliged to remain on that
broken, wet vessel. The people were very busy
about me; one man asked me who I belonged
to, and many other rude questions; he asked me
where I was born; I told him Newburyport.
“What were your parents’ names?” I told him
my father’s name was Thomas Gardener; his
countenance changed; said he, “I knew him
well;”
and he proved friendly to me. He appeared
very kind, and offered to arrange my
affairs so that I might return to New York
through the States. I thought is best to decline
his proposal, knowing my spirit would not suffer
me to pass on, and see my fellow-creatures suffering
without a rebuke. We remained four days
on the wreck; the boxes that contained the sugar
were taken out; the two bottom tiers were
washed out clean. There were a great many
people that came to see the vessel; they were
astonished that she did not sink; they watched
me very closely. I asked them what they
wished. In the mean time, there came along a
drove of colored people, fettered together in pairs
by the wrist; some had weights, with long chains
at their ankles, men and women, young and old. 6(4)v 72
I asked them what that meant. They all were
ready to answer. Said they, “these negroes
have been impudent, and have stolen; some
of them are free negroes from the northern
ships;”
“and what,” I asked, “are they there
for?”
“For being on shore, some of them at
night.”
I asked them who made them Lord over
God’s inheritance. They told me I was very
foolish; they should think I had suffered enough
to think of myself. I looked pretty bad, it is
true; I was seated on a box, but poorly dressed;
the mate had taken my clothes to a washer-
woman; why he took this care, he was afraid to
send the cook or steward on shore, as they were
colored people. I kept still; but the other
woman seemed to be in perfect despair, running
up and down the deck, ringing her hands and
crying, at the thought of all her clothes being
destroyed; then her mind dwelt upon other
things, and she seemed as if she were deranged;
she took their attention for a few minutes, as she
was white. Soon the washer-woman came with
my clothes; they spoke to her as if she had been
a dog. I looked at them with as much astonishment
as if I had never heard of such a thing. I
asked them if they believed there was a God.
“Of course we do,” they replied. “Then why
not obey him?”
“We do.” “You do not; 6(5)r 73
permit me to say there is a God, and a just one,
that will bring you all to account.”
“For what?”
“For suffering these men that have just come in
to be taken out of these vessels, and that awful
sight I see in the streets.”
O that is nothing; I
should think you would be concerned about yourself.”
“I am sure,” I replied, “the Lord will
take care of me; you cannot harm me.”
“No,
we do not wish to; we do not want you here.”

Every ship that comes in, the colored men are
dragged to prison. I found it necessary to be
stern with them; they were very rude; if I had
not been so, I know not what would have been
the consquences. They went off for that day;
the next day some of them came again. “Good
morning,”
said they; “we shall watch you like
the d―― until you go away; you must not say
any thing to these negroes whilst you are here.”

“Why, then, do you talk to me, if you do not
want me to say any thing to you? If you will let
me alone, I will you.”
“Let me see your protection,”
they replied, “they say it is under the
Russian government.”
I pointed them to the
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verse
: “The merchants of these things which
were made rich by her, shall stand afar off, for
the fear of her torment, weeping and wailing.
For strong is the Lord God who judgeth her.”
6(5)v 74
They made no answer, but asked the Captain
how soon he should get away.

On the 1842-09-1717th, the Captain put eight of us on
board the bark H. W. Tyler, for New York; we
had about a mile to walk; the Captain was in
honor bound to return us our passage money,
which we had paid him at Jamaica; he came
without it to see if we were there, and went away
saying he would soon return with it; but we saw
no more of him or our money! Our bark, and a
vessel loaded with slaves, were towed down the
river by the same steamer; we dropped anchor
at the bottom of the bay, as a storm was rising.
The 1842-09-1818th, on Sabbath, it rained all day. Captain
Tyler
knocked at my door, wishing me to come
out; it rained hard; the bulwork of the bark was
so high I could not look over it; he placed something
for me to stand on, that I might see the
awful sight, which was the vessel of slaves laying
at the side of our ship; the deck was full of young
men, girls and children, bound to Texas for sale!
1842-09-19Monday, the 19th, Captain Tyler demanded of us
to pay him for our passage. I had but ten
dollars
, and was determined not to give it; he
was very severe with all. I told him there were
articles enough to pay him belonging to me.
Those who had nothing, were obliged to go back
in the steamer. 1842-09-20Tuesday, the 20th, we set sail; 6(6)r 75
the storm was not over. The 1842-09-2222nd the gale took
us; we were dismasted, and to save sinking,
sixty casks of molasses were stove in, and holes
cut in the bulworks to let it off; all the fowls,
pigs, and fresh provisions, were lost. We were
carried seventy-five miles up the bay of Mexico.
The Captain was determined not to pay the
steamer for carrying him back to New Orleans,
and made his way the best he could.

The 1842-10-033rd of October we arrived again at Key
West
. The Captain got the bark repaired, and
took on board a number of turtles, and a plenty
of brandy. 1842-10-07Friday, the 7th, set sail for New
York
; the Captain asked me why I did not go
ashore when there in the Comet; “had you,”
said he, “they intended to beat you. John and
Lucy Davenport, of Salem, laid down the first
ten dollars towards a hundred for that person
who should get you there.”
The Florida laws
are about the same as those at New Orleans.
He was very talkative; wished to know if I saw
any thing of the Creole’s crew while at Jamaica.
I told him they were all safe, a fine set of young
men and women; one dear little girl, that was
taken from her mother in Virginia, I should have
taken with me, if I had had the money. He said
his brother owned the Creole, and some of the
slaves were his. “I never owned any; I have 6(6)v 76
followed the sea all my life, and can tell every
port and town in your State.”

1842-10-19October 19th, 1842, arrived at New York, and
thankful was I to set my feet on land, almost
famished for the want of food; we lost all of our
provisions; nothing was left but sailors’ beef, and
that was tainted before it was salted. I went at
once to those who professed to be friends, but
found myself mistaken. I hardly knew what
was best. I had put up at Mrs. Raweses; she
did all she could to raise the twenty-five dollars
that I must pay before I could take my baggage
from the vessel. This seemed hard to obtain;
I travelled from one to another for three days;
at last I called at the Second Advent office; Mr.
Nath’l Southard
left his business at once, and took
me to Mr. Lewis Tappan and others; they raised
the money, and went with me to the ship after
my baggage. It was three o’clock on Saturday
afternoon when I called on Mr. Southard; the
vessel and Captain belonged to Virginia, was all
ready for sea, waiting for a wind; they had
ransacked my things. I took from Jamaica forty
dollar’s
worth of preserved fruits; part were lost
when we were cast away in the Comet, and some
they had stolen. At eight o’clock on Saturday
evening, I made out to have my things landed on
the wharf; it was very dark, as it rained hard. 7(1)r 77
My kind friend did not leave me until they were
all safely lodged at my residence. I boarded
there three weeks, thinking to come home; but
it was thought best for me to wait, and see if
Captain Miner came or not, hoping that I might
recover my loss through him. I took a room and
went to sewing, and found the people very kind.

1843-02February, 1843, the colored men that went
back to New Orleans, for want of passage
money, arrived at New York, wearied out. All
the white people remained there. I waited in
New York until the 1843-07-31last of July, when I started
for Boston. 1843-08-01August 1st, 1843, arrived, poor in
health and poor in purse, having sacrificed both,
hoping to benefit my fellow-creatures. I trust it
was acceptable to God, who in his providence
preserved me in perils by land and perils by sea.

“God moves in a mysterious way His wonders to perform; He plants his footsteps on the sea, And rides upon the storm. Deep in unfathomable mines Of never-failing skill, He treasures up his bright designs, And works his sovereign will.”

Having lost all, I determined, by the help of
God, to leave the event; some of my friends in
this city sympathized with me, and others took
the advantage to reproach me. But in the hands 7 7(1)v 78
of the Lord there is a cup; the Saviour drank it
to the dregs. They gather themselves together;
they hide themselves; they mark my steps; they
waited for my soul, but the Lord is my defence,
the Holy One of Israel is my Saviour. I’ll trust
him for strength and defence. What things were
gain to me, I counted loss for Christ, for whom I
have suffered all things; and do count them
nothing, that I may win Christ and be found in
him, not having mine own righteousness, which
is of the Lord, but that which is through the faith
of Christ, that which is of God by faith, that I
may know him, and the power of his resurrection,
and the fellowship of his sufferings, being
made conformable unto his death, strengthened
with all might, according to his glorious power,
unto all patience and long-suffering, with joyfulness,
thinking it not strange concerning the fiery
trials, as though some strange thing happened;
for saith the apostle, it is better if the will of God
so be that ye suffer for well doing, than for evil;
they think it strange that ye run not with them
to the same excess of riot, speaking evil of you.
If they do these things in a green tree, what shall
be done in a dry?

“I hate to walk, I hate to sit With men of vanity and lies; The scoffer and the hypocrite Are the abhorrence of my eyes. 7(2)r 79 God knows their impious thoughts are vain, And they shall feel his power; His wrath shall pierce their souls with pain, In some surprising hour.”

The first twenty months after my arrival in the
city, notwithstanding my often infirmities, I
labored with much success, until I hired with and
from those whom I mostly sympathized with, and
shared in common the disadvantages and stigma
that is heaped upon us, in this our professed
Christian land. But my lot was like the man
that went down from Jerusalem and fell among
thieves, which stripped him of his raiment, and
wounding him departed, leaving him half dead.
What I did not lose when cast away, has been
taken from my room where I hired. Three times
I had been broken up in business, embarrassed
and obliged to move, when not able to wait on
myself. This has been my lot. In the midst
of my afflictions, sometimes I have thought my
case like that of Paul’s, when cast among wild
beasts. “Had not the Lord been on my side,
they would have swallowed me up; but blessed
be the Lord who hath not given me a prey to
their teeth.”

In 18481848 and 1849’49, the Lord was pleased to lay
his hand upon me. Some of my friends came
to my relief; but the promises of God were
neither few nor small; he knows them that trust 7(2)v 80
and fear him, and in his providence had reserved
the good Samaritan. One of my unretired friends
made my case known to the Rev. Dr. Bigelow
and wife, who sought me out in my distress. I
shall not soon forget the morning she came to
me, with an expression of love and kindness,
wishing to know my case. Mrs. Bigelow was the
daughter of Captain Theodore Stanwood, of
Gloucester, whom Mr. Prince sailed with as steward
the first time he went to Russia. Mrs. B. is one
of the kind friends I speak of, when carried to
Gloucester sick, in 18141814; she was then a little
miss. A friend of mine lived with her mother;
she used to say that Amelia would not rest, when
she came from school, till she had something to
bring to my mother and me. Mrs. Bigelow and
family were very kind, doing all in their power to
make me comfortable, and even moved me from
the house of the tyrant that I then hired from, and
raised me up other kind friends; and, with the
blessing of God and the counsel of Dr. Grey, my
health is much improved. “I am as a wonder
unto many, but the Lord is my strong refuge.”

Underneath him is the everlasting arm of mercy;
misfortune is never mournful for the soul that
accepts it, for such do always see that every
cloud is an angel’s face; sorrow connects the
soul with the invisible.

8(1)r 81

O Father, fearful indeed is this world’s pilgrimage,
when the soul has learned that all its
sounds are echos, all its sights are shadows. But
lo! a cloud opens, a face serene and hopeful
looks forth and saith, “Be thou as a little child,
and thus shalt thou become a seraph, and bow
thyself in silent humility and pray, not that
afflictions might not visit, but be willing to be
purified through fire, and accept it meekly.”

8*
8(1)v 82

Divine Contentment.

Advancement of Faith is Necessary.

All our disquietness do issue immediately from
unbelief. It is this that raiseth the storm of discontent
in the heart. Oh, set faith at work! It
is the property of faith to silence our doubtings,
to scatter our fears, to still the heart when the
passions are up. Faith works the heart to a
sweet serene composure: it is not having food
or raiment, but having faith, which will make
us content. Faith chides down passion; when
Reason begins to swim, let Faith swim.

Quest.question How doth Faith work contentment?

Answ.answer

  • 1. Faith shows the soul that whatever
    its trials are, yet it is from the hand of a kind
    Father: it is indeed a bitter cup; but “shall I
    not drink the cup which my Father hath given
    me to drink?”
    (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.John xviii. 11.) It is love to
    my soul; God corrects with the same love that
    he crowns me. God is now training me up for
    heaven; he carves me, to make me a polished
    pillar, fit to stand in the heavenly mansion.
    These sufferings bring forth patience, humility,
    even the peaceable fruits of righteousness, INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Heb.
    xii. 11
    . And if God can bring such sweet fruit 8(2)r 83
    out of a sour stock, let him graft me where he
    please. Thus faith brings the heart to holy
    contentment.
  • 2. Faith sucks the honey of contentment out of
    the hive of the Promise. ’Tis a comfortable thought that the promises of
    God are all given for the express purpose that we
    may have great and strong consolations, who make
    our duty and our privilege to be found pleading them
    at the throne of grace; O then be earnest, take no nay, He’ll answer every good desire; Give him your hearts, though cold as clay, They’ll melt like wax before the fire
    Christ is the Vine, the
    promises are the clusters of grapes that grow
    upon this Vine; and Faith presseth the sweet
    vine of contentment out of these spiritual clusters
    of the promises. I will show you but one cluster,
    ――The Lord will give grace and glory, and
    no good thing will he withhold from them that
    walk uprightly; (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Psal. lxxxiv. 11,) here is enough
    for faith to live upon. The Promise is the flower
    out of which Faith distils the spirits and quintessence
    of divine contentment. In a word, Faith
    carries up the soul, and makes it aspire after
    more noble and generous delights than earth
    affords, and to live in the world above the world.
    Would you lead contented lives, live up to the
    height of your faith.

8(2)v 84

Breathe after Assurance.

Oh, let us get the interest cleared between
God and our own souls! Interest is a word
much in use; a pleasing word: interest in great
friends, interest-money. Oh, if there be an interest
worth looking after, it is an interest between
God and the soul. Labor to say with Thomas,
my Lord and my God. To be without money
and without friends, and without God too, (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Eph.
ii. 12
,) is said; but he whose faith doth flourish
into assurance, that can say, with St. Paul――I
know in whom I have believed, (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.2 Tim. i. 12.)
Be assured that man hath enough to give his
heart contentment. When a man’s debts are
paid, and he can go abroad without fear of
arresting, what contentment is this! Oh, let
your title be cleared! if God be ours, whatever
we want in the creature is infinitely made up in
him. Do I want bread? I have Christ, the
Bread of Life. Am I under defilement? His
blood is like the trees of the sanctuary; not only
for meat, but medicine, INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Ezek. xlvii. 12. If any
thing in the world is worth laboring for, it is to
get sound evidences that God is ours. If this be
once cleared, what can come amiss? No matter
what storms I meet with, so that I know where to
put in for harbor. He that hath God to be his
God, is so well contented with his condition, that 8(3)r 85
he doth not much care whether he hath any
thing else. To rest in a condition where a
Christian cannot say God is his God, is a matter
of fear: and if he can say so truly, and yet is
not contented, is matter of shame. David encouraged
himself in the Lord his God. Although
it was sad with him, (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.1 Sam. xxx. 62.) Ziklag
was burnt, his wives taken captive, he lost all,
and had like to have lost his soldiers’ hearts
too――for they spoke of stoning him――yet he had
the ground of contentment within him, viz., an
interest in God; and this was a pillar of supportment
to his spirit. He that knows God is his,
and that all that is in God is for his good; if this
doth not satisfy, I know nothing will.

Pray for an Humble Spirit.

The humble man is the contented man: if his
estate be low, his heart is lower than his estate;
therefore he is contented. If his esteem is the
world below, he that is little in his own eyes, will
not be much troubled to be little in the eyes of
others. He hath a meaner opinion of himself,
than others can have of him. The humble man
studies his own unworthiness; he looks upon
himself as less than the least of God’s mercies,
(INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Gen. xxxii. 10,) and then a little will content
him. He cries out with Paul, that he is the chief 8(3)v 86
of sinners, (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.1 Tim. i. 15,) therefore doth not
murmur, but admire: he doth not say his comforts
are small, but his sins are great. He
thinks it a mercy he is out of hell; therefore, is
contented. He doth not go to carve out a more
happy condition to himself; he knows the worst
piece God cuts him is better than he deserves.
A proud man is never contented; he is one that
hath a high opinion of himself; therefore, under
small blessings is disdainful, under small crosses
impatient. The humble spirit is the contented
spirit; if his cross be light, he reckons it in the
inventory of his mercies; if it be heavy, yet
takes it upon his knees, knowing that when his
estate is bad, it is to make him the better. Where
you lay humility for the foundation, contentment
will be the superstructure, and Christ the topstone.

Keep a clear Conscience. INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.1 Tim. iii. 9.

Contentment is the manna that is laid up in the
ark of a good conscience. Oh, take heed of
indulging any sin! It is as natural for guilt to
breed disquietude, as for the earth to breed
worms. Sin lies like Jonah in the ship, it raises a
tempest. If dust or motes be gotten into the eye,
they make the eye water, and cause a soreness
in it; if the eye be clear, then it is free from that
soreness. If sin be gotten into the conscience, 8(4)r 87
which is as the eye of the soul, then grief and
disquiet breed there: but keep the eye of conscience
clear, and all is well. What Solomon
saith of a good stomach, I may say of a good
conscience (INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Prov. xxvii. 7.) To the hungry soul
every bitter thing is sweet; so to a good conscience
every bitter thing is sweet; it can pick
contentment out of the Cross. A good conscience
turns the waters of Marah into wine.
Would you have a quiet heart? Get a smiling
conscience. I wonder not to hear Paul say, he
was in every state content; when he could make
that triumph――I have lived in all good conscience
unto this day, INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Acts, xxiii. 1. When once a man’s
reckonings are clear, it must needs let in abundance
of contentment into the heart. A good
conscience can suck contentment out of the bitterest
drug: under slanders――This is our rejoicing,
the testimony of our conscience, INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.2 Cor. i.
12
. In case of imprisonment, Paul had his
prison-songs, and could play the sweet lesson of
contentment when his feet were in the stocks,
INTERNAL ERROR. Please report to wwp@neu.edu that regMe is unmatched.Acts xvi.24. Augustine calls it the paradise of a
good conscience. When the times are troublesome,
a good conscience makes a calm: if conscience
be clear, what though the days be cloudy?
… Oh, keep conscience clear, and you shall
never want contentment!

8(4)v

The Hiding Place.

Amid this world’s tumultuous noise,

For peace my soul to Jesus flies;

If I’ve an interest in his grace,

I want no other hiding place.

The world with all its charms is vain,

Its wealth and honors I disdain;

All its extensive aims embrace,

Can ne’er afford a hiding place.

A guilty sinful heart is mine,

Jesus, unbounded love is thine!

When I behold thy smiling face,

’Tis then I see my hiding place.

To save, if once my Lord engage,

The world may laugh, and Satan rage:

The powers of hell can ne’er erase

My name from God’s own hiding place.

I’m in a wilderness below,

Lord, guide me all my journey through,

Plainly let me thy footsteps trace,

Which lead to heaven my hiding place.

Should dangers thick impede my course,

O let my soul sustain no loss;

Help me to run the Christian race,

And enter safe my hiding place.

Then with enlarged powers,

I’ll triumph in redeeming love,

Eternal ages will I praise

My Lord for such a hiding place.