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A Wonderful
Pleasant and Profitable
Letter
Written By
Mris Sarah Wight,
To a Friend,
Expressing
The joy is to be had in God
in
Great, Deep, Long, and Sore
Afflictions.


Occasioned by the Death of her Brother,
the Troubles of her Mother; but especially
the workings of God in her own heart.


Published for the Use of the
Afflicted.


London,
Printed by James Coitrel, for Ri. Moone,
at the seven Stars in Pauls Church-yard.
16501650.

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To the Right Honourable,
The Lady Fleetwood.

Madam,


I so esteem you, upon
the account, especially
of God, not this
World
, that passeth away;
I am bold to present this
little piece, not mine own, to
your view, as suitable (in some
sort) to your former, and present
state; having drank (in a
degree) as of the same Cup of
inward sorrow and suffering, so
likewise of joy and salvation,
herein mentioned; it being the A3A2por- a2v
portion of all, as faith the Head of
all, “Ye shall indeed drink of the
Cup that I drink of.”
Your Ladisships
Sympathy, together with
your Dear and Noble Lord’s,
with the afflicted of all sorts,
as I have largely, and multitudes
of others (I believe) found, and
this Author (I suppose) in
particular; hath occasioned this,
presented for a looking-Glass of
solace and delight, to your inward
Man
, by

Your Ladiships,
humbly devoted
to God on
your behalf,


R.B.

Some
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Some Apology to
Mrs. Sarah Wight,
Touching the printing of her
Letter without her knowledge
or consent.

Chosen of God (in affliction) and precious,

Having sundry times read over your
Letter, and found in it what my
heart longed after, and in God
rejoyced greatly in
; I judged with others,
in the Light of him, the printing of
it might be of exceeding use, especially
now, to the many bewildernessed ones,
to whom it might serve as a Witness,
they having none left them (as to Man) in
this cloudy and dark day, to lean upon,
save only their dearly beloved Lord; and
he neither not alwayes manifest, and yet
manifest too, in a measure, in the true A3and a3v
and alone Messiah in them, the Rock of
Ages, and the onely Hope.
This I
have done without consulting you about it,
it being judged by others, (your Friends)
and by me also, it might have prevented the
publishing it, through a temptation perhaps
of modesty in you; but thus making
you publick was (I know) divinely
urged of God in many
, as in order to
his own immortal glory and praise, appearing
in your most most low estate; so
to the profit and consolation of many the
likeminded, but especially the like afflicted,
(in any degree) with you; among
whom I leave you, and my self with you,
bowing continually (as is most meet) at
the feet of God most holy, Amen.

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A Wonderful
Pleasant and Profitable
Letter

Dear Sir,


Precious Christian friend,
much beloved in the
Lord of all love; in him
I kindly salute you, wishing
you and your dear
Relation, with my self and all Saints,
an heavenly increase of knowledge
in the mystery of our Lord and Saviour
Jesus Christ: not doubting, but
as ye have received some of the Spirit,
so you enjoy daily fresh supplies,
and at last shall be perfected in the
Spirit; to the glory of God, who Bhath b1v 2
hath formed you to shew forth his
noble praise.

Sir, in our winter-season of affliction,
I finde it a Christians crown of
rejoycing, to retire in the Spirit, to
hear what God speaks: for none
speaks or teaches like him; never man
spake like Christ. In this retirement
of spirit, or silent waitng upon God,
we shall be able to see, and say with
the Prophet David, that “God is good of
a truth,”
to his purified, sincere, singlehearted
Israelites, in the midst of all
troubles; under Pharaohs bondage, at
the Red-sea, in the wilderness, in the
firy furnace, doing them unexpected
good: at all times, he is a present
help to us, and an Ark or hiding-
place for us, from all storms and tempests.

I finde, there is no condition so
sad, but there is balm enough in Gilead,
sutable comfort of supplies in
Israels God, to revive and raise up a
fainting spirit. The depths of misery,sery, b2r 3
we finde, are never beyond his
depthless depths of mercies. When
the Lord is pleased to make bare his
holy Arm for the deliverance of his
people out of troubles, he first lays
them very lowe, that his work may
be more admirable: he many times,
for this very end, strips us naked and
bare, and deprives us of all helps and
props belowe, that we may thereby
learn to make the Lord alone our
stay and trust; who stiles himself, A
God that comforteth those that are
cast down, poor helpless nothings:
this is the very time a soul may expect
great appearances and deliverances
from God, when its help
stands onely in the Name of the
Lord.

That soul that findes a special presence
of God with it in trouble, as
the children in the firy furnace, hath
ample cause to bless his Name. This
gracious presence hath been much
with us, in moderating the measure B2of b2v 4
of our cross, though not in taking it
away; which I desire to wait the
Lords time for, in praising him, who
hath not hitherto suffered it to be above
our strength. As he moderates
the measure, so the time: its but a
moment of affliction, and light, in
comparison of the greatness and
weightiness of the glory in eternity.
O what cause have we to bless the
Lord, who limits both measure and
time, and is also present in mixing
some comfortable Cordial, which
sweetly allays the bitterness of our
heavie crosses, and strengthens us to
bear it patiently, in some measure!
As the Lord is present in sanctifying
a cross; so when he hath perfected
his noble work in us, he will be a present
and perfect deliverer of us. O
what a comfort it is to know we
dwell in the especial love of God under
the cross, as those who are free
from it! And though a Saint may
be cast out of a happie state in the world, b3r 5
world, yet never, never out of their
dear God’s favour. O what joy doth
this administer to us, to know, That
however it goeth with us, yet our Father
will deal kindly with us, and
continually accompany us with his
presence; seasoning our hearts with
grace, and mounting our spirits high,
carrying them forth with pure respects
to advance his glory.

The true-divine soul, you know, is
never satisfied, till it’s as neer God as
is attainable. Truly, the nearer we
come to him, the more we are emptied
of sin, and all selfishness. A Christian’s
happiness lies in being emptied
of all self, self refined, as well as
gross self; and in being filled with a
full God, and the glorious emptying,
satisfying incomes of his free spirit.
Certainly, that soul that denies it self
most, seeks it self most: for the more
it endeavours to advance the Lord in
all, above all enjoyments, experiences,
gifts, graces, relations, or any B3crea- b3v 6
creature, or creature-comforts; the
more we exalt our condition in him.
It’s sweet, and but meet, upon the revelation
of any mercy, to yeeld our
God all the praise, saying, “Lord, as
the benefit & comfort shall be mine;
so shall all the praises and glory be
thine: Not Unto me, nor unto any
thing acted or done by me; but to
thee be the whole glory of all, who art
the author of every good and perfect
gift we enjoy.”
It’s an excellent thing,
to know, own, and love the Lord above
all, even in the time of adversity.
As prosperity should not lift up,
so adversity should not daunt a Christian.
When we finde our estate here,
like a web woven with interminglings
of wants and favours, crosses and
blessings, standings and fallings, combats
and victories, and the like, which
hath and doth accompany a poor soul
in its pilgrimage, as it did the Israelites
of old in theirs; Every condition
is beautiful in its season.

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Christianity hath its several Offices,
at several seasons: it hath a forrowful,
mourning, praying time;
and its rejoycing, praising, triumphing
time, when it’s warmed with the
glorious sunshine of Gods favour, in
which consists our eternal life and
joy. The seasons, varieties, & changes
in the outward world, lively represent
the seasons, varieties and changes
that are in the inward world of mankinde.
I daily behold things here
belowe, true according to Solomon’s
description; living, and dying; coming
into the world, and going out of
it; planting, and plucking up; killing,
and quickning; wounding, and
healing; breaking down, and building
up, weeping, & laughing; mourning,
and rejoycing.

I know, you, and many of the precious
sons and daughters of Sion, can
experimentally witness the truth of
this, not onely outwardly, but inwardly:
they by an enlightned eye B4behold b4v 8
behold mutability written in every
thing of the first man Adams state, even
in the height of his first glory:
which glory must and shall dayly, yea
doth pass away; and will, till it shall
cease to be what it is, mixed, and fading.
When this glory shall be abolished,
then will a more pure & lasting
glory disclose it self: the decreasing
of the one, makes clear way for the
increasing of the other. The Lord
suffers his poore creature for a season
to take quite contrary ways, and to
fetch contrary steps; to throw down
all he builds up, and another while
build up all he throws down: yea, its
appointed to him to Run thorow so many
degrees of death, as he hath gone degrees
of life; and to run thorow so many passages
in the dark world, as he hath done in the
light world,
one while to make himself
an universall transgressor, and
anon to justifie himself in all his
transgression; shewing himself to be
as he is in all he doth as a man; a fool, an b5r 9
an unwise one, in all he doth; in living,
dying, planting, plucking up; in
weeping and rejoycing: a fool, in
making himself a sinner; a Saint, till
God make him what he will have him to
be; this or that, here and there, when and
what he pleaseth:
not what we will,
but what he will, this our Potter may
do with us; for we are the clay: he
is our father, and we his children, at
his dispose; more his then our own: we
are his children, I say, though he may
withdraw from us, and because of our
weakness hide from us for a season
the true colour & original of things,
and those various workings by which
he doth those things: the great Jehovah
may put what paint he will upon
things, and what Dy he pleaseth into
us: and we with beholding the present
colour subject to change, with
the present eye, may be confident in
what we see, both in judging it, and
other things by it, not rightly knowing
him that judges it, nor consideringing b5v 10
what various changes both the eye
and colour are subject to undergo.

That which had a time to be born,
planted and built up, hath a change,
accompanied to it; it hath also a time
to die, to be plucked up, and thrown
down; like the glory of old Jerusalem
or the old first world: and there
is nothing so deaded, or troden under foot,
plucked up, or rased out, but shall have a
gladsome season, a time of quickening,
glorifying, and planting, and writing in againe
by the finger of God.
All things
are at first brought forth in weakness
in the inward world, as well as in the
outward world: saith the Wiseman,
“All things under the Sun are vanity,” or to
have a vain course a while: the Lord is
perfect in every motion of his, both in
the inward & outward world; whatever
he doth shall be for ever; nothing
can be added to it, or taken from it:
but
poor silly man, like the wild Asses
colt, is weak and vain, the outward
and inward man vain; yea, every motiontion b6r 11
of his, as he is onely man, comes
to nothing, he may seem to be wonderous
wise, to have notions of great
weight, even of eternity upon him; &
yet he cannot reach eternity as man;
being but a vain empty nothing, the
purposes he hath in him, are but poor
low, shallow things: yet he hath his
season to take his pleasure in his vain
inventions: but when these seasons
are blown over, he is the stripped of
all, of inside and outside, as I have often
been
; and so made naked to divine
purpose. One breath of the Almighty
blasts all the creaturely perfection
which we have been acquainted with;
one appearance of love, dissolves the
soul to nothing, as the Sun doth wax:
some boast, I see, of their selfish seeming
glory, Riches, honour, parts and
abilities, and such like; which I poor
empty nothing
cannot do: yet I am not
troubled at it, now I consider what a
moth is in these garments, and how
subject these treasures are to be corrupted,rupted b6v 12
and creature-fulness exhausted:
one grain of that precious faith,
and one dram of love which the
Lord gives his hidden ones, is far beyond
all other things, that we can
act or do; it’s all of God, without our
mixtures.

The Lord having shewn me some of
his glory in this particular, I beseech
him to shew me more; for it doth
content me, and it will suffice my soul
more then hid treasures; the sensible
and full enjoyment of thy Spirit, will
cause my soul to return satisfied to her
rest, praising the God of all our mercies;
not caring what others boast of,
when thou art become the Crown of
my glory, the top of all Royalties to
me; my spirit now breaths out this
language, & says, “Holy God, let who
will treasure up to themselves, yet
will not I: that which some love and
store up besides thy self, of their own
excellency; I cannot but abhor, & cast
away, as filthy raggs of no value: everyvery b7r 13
thing that is in me, that springs
up out of my dry ground, that springs
not from the sap of thy Holy Spirit.”

If I know my own heart, I would
not glory in any thing below my
Maker, and what is of him, and conveyed
by his Spirit alone into me: it
rejoyceth my soul much, to see the
Lord at work, gathering all, as he
hath given me as his own, and saving
me for his own Name sake, and not
for any worth, or worthyness in me,
Justifying me, or any unworthyness
condemning me: O how admirable
it is for to find God thus freely and
fully loving and saving his poor people,
and owning all that is his, as he
hath been and appeared in them; and
causing all that hath been and sprung
from us to pass away for evermore:
My soul shouts forth with the true
spiritualized Christian, this voice:
Dear God, as I am a selfish corrupt
creature, so let there be no profit of
all my labor and travel; but thou who alone b7v 14
alone art the Author of every good
and perfect gift we enjoy, do thou
reap the travels of thy soul, for its high
time for thee to enjoy thy own
: for my
part, I cannot but turne from all the
fruitless works of my hands, all the
motions and delights of my Spirit,
in the inward world of my heart, and
with as much irksomness and great
tiredness of spirit, as ever Solomon did
in the outward world: yet I know
every thing is beautiful in its season,
time and place, though nothing is
lovely out of it: there is a beauty in living,
when the spring of life is come:
O how lovely is it! there is also a
beauty in death, when that season is
come: it’s as beautyful to see things
in Winter, as to see them live in the
Spring of Summer: there is nothing
so deformed, but, when we look upon
God in it, we see much beauty written
in it; nor nothing so evil, but it hath
good on it: there is nothing so bad,
but it’s good in its own order, place and b8r 15
and season, and course; nor nothing so
good, but it’s bad and uncomely out
of its place, order, and season. There
is a beauty in killing, healing, weeping;
in Rejoycing, and triumphing:
but this beauty shines not so glorious
out of their seasons, as it doth in:
There is the very nature and exellency of
God in every thing that he doth
; which
makes it beautyful: for every thing
that springs from him; savours and
tastes of his life and perfection.

The outward and inward man hath
but a poor, lowe, dark, shallow knowledge
of the things of God, whatever
they may pretend to have. There is
no soul able of it self to reach these
things; they are onely spiritually
discerned, and known by the sight of
the Spirit: it’s by this Spirit onely,
that the soul comes to know, observe,
and understand the ways and wonders
of God in the deeps, and his various
motions and operations in
things which he doth. There is nothingthing b8v 16
seen in the Root by the sense of
the creature, as it lies or springs from
thence, or as it returns thither. Man,
as man, you know, hath onely a brutish
understanding of every thing; so
of God: “I had not” (says one) “the unstanding
of a Beast,”
as of God himself,
so of all his motions, thoughts,
actions and intentions, in and about
things, times, places and persons; seeing
onely a present appearance of
this or that, not knowing what it is,
whence it came, what it means, or
wither it tends. So he judges according
to present outward appearance,
and shews himself to be what
he is, and what God will have him to
be, A fool in himself, that the pride of
his glory may be stained, and God alone
exalted.

Though this be a dark obscure dispensation,
yet because God will have
it so with us, this is beautiful in its
season: as darkness is proper for the
natural night, so is spiritual darkness for c1r 17
for the spiritual night as proper for
it: as light becomes the day, and as
truth and substance is proper for it; so
are shadows and lyes for the night:
& while the night remains, it’s as sutable
they should remain, as when the
day dawns the shadows fly away: O
how clearly doth herein the excellency
of Christ, of Sion, the holy feed,
appear! though they are not exempted
from any varieties or changes in the
inward or outward world running
thorow them; yet they still sweetly
remain the same: being one with the
Father, they are as he is, like him,
as Seth was like Adam: what ever
their cloathes, their appearances be;
yet their life and substance is still the
same. For a season, the inward man
I find, is so benighted, and bewildered,
yea all his life so deaded, and his
light so put out, and his glory darkened,
that he is made to see and confess,
that he knoweth nothing as ought
to know, nor hath nothing to boast of, Cno c1v 18
no more then the outward man; and
that it’s onely the spiritual man that
shall grow up to perfection, and live
and flourish, whether in the seed, or
grown up.

For the coming of this full enjoyment
of all blessedness & happiness,
longeth my poor waiting soul, in a
daily expectations, upon the God of
all our mercies, who is coming to fulfill
our desires, to compleat our glory:
he comes not with a thought to tarry
or go back; he comes swiftly with
speed, leaping to meet his beloved
waiting Jacobs, to revive their spirits
with his loves, his wisdom, power,
grace, goodness, yea, all his Riches of
grace and glory; that they may sing
sweetly, strongly, thorowly, fervent,
and frequ ent, the new songs of Hosanna,
Hallelujahs
, blessing and glory,
power and praise to our God for ever,
who is the Authour of all our present
good and the Omega of our perfect
happiness in that heaven of heavens where c2r 19
where Just men made perfect take up
Sanctuary and assured Rest for ever,
solacing their souls with their Beloveds
loves; the riches, honors, pleasures
and soul-delights of eternity that are
in the bosome of our dear and precious
father: in the full fruition of this
rest and glory, longeth my waiting
soul to be, where time shall be no
more; the time of sin, sorrow,
paine, death, any weakness or imperfection:
when that which is perfect
is come, I know all this which is
imperfect will be done away: yea
then there will be no complaining or
cause of complaining within or without,
because all sin, and so all sorrow
and fighting shall certainly be done away,
as being momentary; & the pure
language, the new melodious tune
of Joy and gladness from the Spirit,
shall be onely sung, heard, and known
to be for ever in the Saints, to their
Saviour, who is our choice, our chief,
our only and dearly beloved One in C2all c2v 20
all, without, and above all in himself.

Worthy Sir, because Honourable
in the Lambs cloathing, having put
pen to paper with an intent to salute
you & your neer relation with a few
broken fragments gathered up from
my Masters table, I shall take leave,
having a little freedom, to communicate
a few more lines to you; hoping
it will not be too burdensome to you.
Sir, I cannot but Christian-like thank
you for your Remembrances of us at
all times; though I know you are in
convent with that God, who will recompence
sevenfold into your bosom,
for all your labor of undeserved, unexpected
love: your sympathizing,
from a fellow-feeling of our affliction,
and others, plainly demonstrate
you to be a fellow-member of that
mysticall body whereof Christ is the
Head: O what a mercy is it to be
heartily affected with the afflicted!
to have the same mind which was in Christ c3r 21
Christ in us! to have the same love
one to another, as Christ hath to us, in
quality, though not in quantity! The
love of the Lord in his people, is many
times made out to them in an unexpected
way, to wonderment, when
they think least of it: as Hagar said,
the Lord looked after her, when she
looked not after him; so doth he to
many of his people oftentimes, provide
and protect them in a way and
manner which they cannot but wonder
and bless his Name. It’s a wonder
to mee sometimes, to see how sensible
one Christian is of anothers sufferings,
because it’s so rare: but when I
consider all that the Saints have but
one God, one Father, one Faith, one
Baptisme, one Love, one Spirit, who
dwells in them all, and runs thorow
them all, and conveys it self to all as
it pleaseth, whether absent or present,
afar off or neer at hand, known
or unknown by face: Although the
Saints are scattered abroad in this C3 wide c3v 22
wide, wilde world, and distinct in
the flesh from one another; yet are
they one in the Lord, and so love,
sympathize, sorrow, and rejoyce together,
as members in truth of Christs
body: Christ was of a sympathizing
suffering Spirit; and such hearts,
qualities, and dispositions, he would
that we should have: therefore he
puts his Law of love and kindness into
us: he takes our humane nature, and
infuses his divine nature into us
: Christ
bears all our griefs, and carries our
sorrows, and in all our afflictions is
afflicted with us, and for us.

O how good it is, in our wilderness
of trouble, to lean upon this our
Beloved, who can bring us out of
them all! we are very apt to stumble
at the way and maner of Gods dispensations,
when we have little cause
for it, if we did but consider that he
hath glorious ends in all he doth and
suffers, for the exaltation of his Name
and our sole comfort.

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Though the Lord may cross his
people in the way of his providence,
so that all things may fall alike to all
in this World before men
; yet not in his
account hereafter: for he may give
us to look unto him in his word of
Promise, and there behold him by an
enlightened eye, doing all things after
the counsel of his own good will and
pleasure, for his glory, and our everlasting
comfort, beyond and above all
outward sense and external hopes; as
he did to Abraham, calling things that
are not, as though they were: “I am not
so much a wonder, as an admirer, and a little
writer of the wonders of God in the deep
of affliction;”
to some of my fellow-
sufferers, who have been bewildered
in their spirits as I have been, though
now through rich mercy in som measure
refreshed with the crums of Canaans
comfort, & drops of honey and
milk, grace and love, that flows from
our good spiritual land. Much of
Gods fatherly Dealings, and Refreshings,C4fresh- c4v 24
I might relate unto you
which my hungry, thirsty weary
Restlesse soul hath known, seen, and
felt, in the day of trouble, the hour of
sad temptations, if I had freedom.

Sir, the sharp exercise which hath
been upon my spirit, since that little
unknown book was made, of Gods
glorious Displayings of light and
love upon a poor, dark, forlorn, nothing-creature
in an unexpected time,
I was not then capable of the publishing
of it: if I had, I could not be free,
fearing how it might be with me afterwards.
Truly, since then, I have had
a sharp Winter-season, mourning
for the loss of all that comfort: I have
been stripp’d so bare of seeming comfort
since, that I cannot boast of that,
nor of any comforts, but of the God of
comforts
; not of enjoyments, or experiences;
not of any gifts or graces;
but of the giver alone, and of my infirmities;
and in that Power of Christ
which hereby is made more manifest in c5r 25
in us: The Lord alone is the boast and
glory of his people
; in his Name we set
up our Banners, and upon him alone
shall our mind be fixed, and our soul-
affections set, and not on things below:
this is to have our hearts above,
on things remaining; not shadowy,
but substance; and our conversation
in heaven, though we tabernacle in
houses of clay in the world. When
Christ is our only object, then, but
not till then, will all below be our
abject, in comparison of a full God, a
naked Christ, a free Spirit. O that it
might be all our aimes and ambitions,
to take up our crosses and follow
Christ fully; even thorow fire and
water: for here our God hath promised
to be with his people; and
when we are purged and purified enough
he will lead us out into a wealthy place, of
peace and Joy.

O that we could walk in our Masters
steps without stumbling, and do as he
did, run our race with joy; knowing if c5v 26
if we run, we shall obtaine the
Crown, which is not to be had on
this side of the end of it: Surely this
prize is worth the running, waiting,
for, and longing after, till we enjoy it.
Our suffering and Cross is but a little
while, for a small moment; but
our glory is for everlasting, our reigning
for ever. Thrice-happy is
that soul, whom God chuseth for his
own in his furnace
and chastens in his
school
: happy entering, happy in it,
and for ever happy afterward. Blessedness
and Happyness is annexed to
Gods chastning: Blessed and happy
is the man God correcteth, and teacheth
new lessons thereby: therefore
not to be despised: Our loving Father,
even smiles, when we think he frowns
upon us:
when he seems to strike us, he
stroaks us.
He doth to us, sometimes,
as he did to Adam, convey a precious
promise, with a sad threatening; saying,
“The seed of the woman, &c.” Mercies
oftentimes come veiled to us; and a sentence c6r 27
sentence of death may pass upon our
choicest mercies, as did upon Abraham,
for the tryall of our graces;
which would not shine so bright, if
not fire-tryed, with Abrahams; whose
faith, love, and holy obedience to
God, after thus tryed, shined more
eminent and glorious.

I find our sad visitation known to
you, Sir, was not so much a Punishment,
as some may call it; but rather
a strict tryal, to try our faith, love,
patience, and pure good-will to God;
whether it be simply and entirely to
him, without by-ends, as Satan would
have accused Job to God, saying “Doth
Job love
, or serve God for nothing?”
& also
to try our strength, what we can do or
suffer for God; and also to try our wisdom,
how prudent & patient we could
behave our selves like true Christians,
in the loss of all outward enjoyments,
though deare and precious to us; not
onely in flesh but in Spirit.

O what an unspeakable mercy it is, to c6v 28
to finde and feel God enabling of us
to hold out in these firy tryals! speaking
well of the Name of our dear
God, owning him in giving mercies
to us, and not friends; and owning
him to take them from us, and not enemies:
the Lord gives & takes also.
Truly the Lords tryall in these things,
is a firy strict tryall: God tries our
Faith and love, as he did Abrahams, by
causing him to offer up his onely son
Isaac the son of promise: “Now I know,”
said God to him, “in doing this, that thou
lovest me: and thou shalt know it for
in Blessing I will multiply Blessings upon
thee and thy seed”
; This Ascending spark
of love in Abraham, from God to God,
did as I may say engage the Lord to
descend showers of blessings upon
him, and his feed. Our God in wisdom
doth all things: he tries and
proves us, to do us unexpected good
in the latter end: he tries whether
we can live in the practicall part of
Christianity, what we can do and suffer- c7r 29
suffer in truth for Christ; whether we
can be content to leave all for him;
be content with Christ alone, without
freinds, or the world, gifts, graces,
qualities, and conditions, and
such-like in one hand, and Christ in the
the other; whether we can be content to
resign up all to God, all outward, and inward,
things; all Relations, Ordinances,
Gifts, Graces, Desires, Hopes, all that
can be named or desired of Heaven and
Earth; that nothing of self may Remain;

none of our wills, desires, ends, hopes,
but all crossed and destroyed in us,
which is contrary to the Lords will:
the Creatures will being so contrary
to Gods will in all things, it’s well to
have it crossed, though it be in that
which may be most for its seeming
comfort. Surely they who are acquainted
with the excellency of Gods
hidden Divine will, would not have it
crossed, but rather its own will in any
thing, though it may seem hurtful to
it; sure it’s thus.

Sir, c7v 30

Sir, I shall acqauint you a little
what a hard thing it was for me to
submit to this will of God, though easie
to him to make me quietly submit,
and resign up all to him, in the departure
of my dear brother. Though the
dispensation was dark and dismall,
yet I dare say from a full perswasion, after
many doubts, that though it might seem in
Judgment, yet God hath received him to everlasting
mercy: for being weak, I finde
he was suddenly overcome by the strong
man, not willingly, but by constraint; meeting
with many unnamed inward and outward
fears and troubles. Certainly, what
is not done in despite, willingly, against
God, but the the violent hurrying of Temptation,
through weakness, not willingly, shall
never be layed to any poor tempted souls
charge.
The Lord doth not look so
much to the weakness of his creature,
and temptation, as to his own rich
mercy and free love. Surely thus
the God of love hath looked upon my
dear departed Brother; for I had experienceperience c8r 31
of him in his life-time, that
when he was himself, he served the
Lord with many Tears, and Temptations
oftentimes”
; and did endeavour to
walk as exact as a Christian, to that
light of knowledg God was pleased to
measure out to him. Much I might
say of this nature, had I oportunity,
and thought it convenient: which
causeth me to Believe the Lord hath not
looked upon him to take advantage of his
weakness, to destroy; but to save him, according
to the multitude of his tender mercies;
and being a God of love, patience and
long Suffering, hath, I am now perswaded,
though one while I was much troubled
with doubts and eares, hath taken him
from sin and sorrow, to bliss and blessedness:
He was of a very weak Constitution
of body.
Truly, dear friend, the
great loss of such a comfortable staff,
such a hopefull son, and brother, the
maner and unexpectedness of his going
from us, hath been a sword in our
bones, first pierced thorow our soul; which c8v 32
which hath cut us to the heart: First,
from a serious consideration of Gods
dishonour, by opening the mouths
of the ungodly, to cause them to
stumble at the way of God, saying
“What profit is it to serve God? and
are these they that made the Lord
their trust?”
and such-like things.
And secondly, the Saints discouragement,
besides our own great discomfort
in the middle of our supposed
comfort. I hope the effect of the
sword I mention, will prove the Lords
severing sword, to separate more between
flesh and Spirit, Christ and the
creature.

I find, all that God doth, is to try us
whether we can love God as well in
the way of his Judgments, as in the
way of his mercies; love him in casting
us down, as raising us up: in
smiting as healing, in Winter as
Summer, for all, in all changes and
conditions, above all: many are the
troubles of the holy seed of God; and truly d1r 33
truly did we not suffer something, the remaining
part of Christs sufferings would
be unfulfilled; which tryal and proof he endures
in us:
as he suffered in the patterne,
so we in truth: O there is a
necessity of our suffering something,
if we would be feelingly sensible of
what Christ hath suffered in the flesh
for us, to crown us with glory in the
Spirit, and be sympathizing with others
in affliction, and really magnifying
that free grace of God which
ends in full glory; causing us always
to extol the Lord, blessing him with
a triumphant song of praise. I am
sure the Saints have cause to bless the
Lord at all times, even in the wilderness,
because this is the place where
God usually speaks comfortably to
his people. Though he lead them this
solitary way, yet it’s the right way;
the way of the Lord is an unknown strange
way, even in the whirlwind.
O what a
happyness is it to finde, afflictions
come not out of the dust, but as we Dmay d1v 34
may say, they are the finger, the providence
of God, for our good: he
makes them antidotes to us, to expell
poyson: the more we have of them
Sanctified to us, the more pure, like
Christ: we have no cause to say
when we are under the rod, therefore
not beloved of our Father, because so
and so afflicted; but the rather loved
of our Father, because chastened: hereby
we are made more comformable
to Christ, by being buried with him
in the Baptisme of his sufferings: The
Cup of affliction, which the sanctified
ones drink of, is a Fathers Cup;
which they cannot but drink, handed
to them for their good from himself;
whose ways are all mercy and
truth, whose paths drop fatness,
whose out-goings and in-comings
are all sweet and precious to us. The
poor creature in trouble, is very apt to
cry out and say, “Is this and this a
pleasant way? is this a comfortable
condition? and can God indeed bring good d2r 35
good out of such great evills? O it’s
impossible.”

Thus I have thought often: Can
any good come out of sinfull Nazareth,
out of my confusion, and darkness?
O it’s impossible: with us it
is, but not with God, who at first
commanded light to shine out of
darkness. O what cause have we to
exalt Gods power and love in the firy
furnace! to glorifie him in the
fires, is most excellent: O they cannot
but do it, when they see him keep
them alive in the midst of that fire
which consumes onely the dross, preserving
the Gold pure for his Use:
That enlightening hony which is in the top
of our Gods Rod,
doth enlighten us to
behold this great and glorious fight,
why the Bush burns, and is not consumed.
O this honey out of the rock,
Gods love-manifestations, will sweeten,
and doth, all conditions and changes
to us and all Christians. some
are afflicted for the tryall of faith D2and d2v 36
and patience, that they may have
their perfect work by exercise. Sometimes,
that the handy-work of God
may be made more manifest upon us,
the Lord may take away our corn,
Wine, Wool, and Oile which he
giveth us, when we do not prize him
above all; that hereby we may learn
to love our giver more than gifts, and
to know the worth and sweetness of
them more by the want of them a
while: We may be Deprived of any
comforts, yet not of the God of comforts;

and sadly cast down, yea seemingly
foresaken, and overwhelmed with sorrows
like unto David, and weary of
life with Job, distracted as Heman, and
yet belong to, and dearly beloved of
God, as they were: therefore it’s good
to take up this Holy Resolution, to
wait on God in the way of his seeming
Judgments, and in meditation of
his loving-kindness, till he shall
make hard things easy, and crooked
things strait, rough places plain, and bring d3r 37
bring to light the hidden things of
darkness, making darkness light before
us. Said good Jacob, (who
found it good to wait upon God) “‘I
have waited for thy Salvation’”
; and I will
wait: and David, “‘In waiting I waited:’”
and Job, “‘All my appointed time will I wait
till my change come’”
. O how desirable
a thing it is to see Christians have
such patient, believing, submitting
hearts to the Lords will: Though he
kill me, yet will I trust in him:
and, I
am thine, save me
: This is a sweet rolling
on God in a day of trouble; and
saying with Christ, “‘The Cup which my
Father hath given me, shall I not drink it?’”

it’s a Cup, not a Sea; and a Fathers
Cup, not an enemies; and a Fathers
gift.

By considering these things, the Lord
pleased to work comfort, renew his
love to my soul when much troubled
at my deare brothers death, by which
I hope the Lord will gradually crucifie
all that he would have crucified, D3and d3v 38
and blast of all creature-props and
helps, that he alone may be our onely
stay and blessedness. The neerer a
soul comes to God its haven of happiness,
the more it meets with sad
storms and tempests: Which makes
our port of glory more desired, and
gladsome to us when we come unto
it: The bitterness of misery sets off the
sweetness of mercy, as the blackness of the
night the glory of the day:
I am sure
my brothers afflictions here, were
sharp before he went hence; which
causeth me to beleive he is now for
ever comforted: Some comfort came
from this word to me; Refrain thy
voice from weeping, and thy eyes
from tears, when my soul was in bitterness;
for thy work shall be rewarded
of the Lord, and thou shalt see him
again with greater Joy:
though thy desire
was crossed here in some things, as
Davids was and others; Yet ye shall rejoyce
together in my Kingdom. I finde
this was of God coming in power to the satisfying d4r 39
satisfying of my troubled soul in an agony
of sorrow. I answered this voyce, Lord,
it’s enough if thou make thy word good: thy
will, thy unknown will, by any but thy self
be done, O Father.
And further it
was said, That nothing should separate
him and Christ, nor estrange his
love from him.

Till God appeared in this maner to
me, Quieting my heart in some measure,
I was much troubled touching
his honour, to think how he would
suffer by some, till he told me he
knew what was most for his glory, far
better then silly I. Truly I may say,
“How had it been unless the Lord had
been on our side!”
wee had almost
fainted, and dwelt in silence; had
not Jehovah our Mighty God been
seen in the mount wonderfully for
out preservation and deliverance; for
which I desire to Bless his Name for
ever, who comforts me much from
these words, bidding me look to Jesus
the Authour and finisher of our D4Faith d4v 40
Faith, who for the Joy that was set
before him, endured the cross, despised
the shame, and is now set
down on the Right hand of the Majesty
on High. He was oppressed and
afflicted, yet he open’d not his mouth;
learn of him, for he is meek and lowly,
which makes him so unspeakable
lovely. Patient was Christ when
he suffered: he overcame by patience,
as well as by power.
As Christ was
patient, so was his members; and so
should they be like David in their suffering
seasons: says David, “‘I was
dumbe, and opened not my mouth’
:
‘and let the Righteous smite me, and
it shall be an excellent Oil’
; it will be
for my profit; his correction.”

This is our loving friend, Christ,
will not wound us, but heale us;
when he smites us, he smiles upon us:
for he even then refreshes us with his
brook, and well-spring of life, in our
waylesse wildernesse, under all our
sorrows and smitings; and hereby God d5r 41
God makes us to lift up our heads
with Joy and praise. O what cause
have We to blesse the Lord under our
crosses, for his supporting hand of
love! truly, as great cause, as if he
took them away from us. It’s a desirable
thing to own God to be Just,
when he shews mercy; and when he
gives grace, to be still exalting the
Riches of his glory. O the happyness,
the heavenlyness of those spiritualized
souls, whose wills are subdued
to the Lords will in all things;
so to acknowledge him Righteous in
all he doth, and our selves vile! O
what a blessed state are they in, who
have no will to be guided by, but the
Fathers will in all things; which easily
learns them to deny and defie
self fully, in all they do and say;
and to esteem onely of God and the
workings of his Spirit above all. O
that we might be as Christ was, lovely
in all conditions, by our Holy submission
to our Father! Christ we know d5v 42
know learn’d obedience by the things
which he suffered. O how lovely
was he when he lay in a Manger,
when he lay on the ground, and sweat
Water and Blood; when he was
scourged, and crowned with Thorns;
when he hung on the Cross between
two Theeves; when he lay in the
grave! even now Christ appeared
most lovely, by how much he abased
himself thus low. O how desirable
a thing it is to see goodness and
greatness kiss each other in one noble
person! O what a great condescention
of love was this in such a great person
as Christ, who is King of Kings! O
that such a gloryous Majesty should
so low condescend to such poor, weak
unworthy worms, to teach sinners in
his way, to doe as he hath done, to
suffer patiently and willingly without
the least gainsaying or resistance,
such grevious things! Christ was as
a sheep before the slaughter: David
under afflictions was dumbe also, becausecause d6r 43
he saw the Lord did it, and not
man, so Aaron. when he lost his sons
suddenly, held his peace: And good
old Eli said, “‘It’s the Lord, let him do
as he pleaseth.’”
In this sweet spiritual
frame was Job, when he said it was
the Lord that took from him in the
flesh, who could give him much more
in the Spirit. All that they suffered,
was not so much from an enemy as a
Father, for their good; who seeing
how apt the current of their affections
was to run more to them then to
him, their heart being not so fixed
upon him as he would have them,
but very apt to be divided, and to
wander form him, like ours as we are
creatures; therefore he sends afflictions
as messengers to fetch them home
to his Sheepfold.

Once this word came in Power to me
when I was very sad: O soul, greive not,
grieve not for thy Brother: “precious in my
sight”
is thy Brothers death, though grievous
to thee and others: was not Christs sufferings d6v 44
sufferings much more terrible? and “think
not strange your firy tryalls”
; for what is
befallen you, is common to all in this life:
and the same afflictions are accompanied
to your fellow-members in the world. Think
of Samsons death, a good man, who died
among the Philistins, and seemingly in anger
to be revenged on them for his two eys.
Consider these things, and lay them to
heart; and sorrow no more as one without
hope”
; but “know, all things shall worke togeather
for good”
, even this, unto ye:
therefore “be still, and know I am God”, “doing
whatever I please, in heaven, and
earth, and all places:”
his time was not in
thy hands: “A sparrow cannot fall to the
ground, nor a hair off the head, without
my knowledge.”
When these things
was spoken to me, I was very restless
in my spirit, even resolving to
spend my few days in silent sorrow,
not expecting any more Sun-shine
days of joy: and suddenly the glory of
the Lord broke forth thorow some thick darkness d7r 45
darkness, bidding me lift up my head; and
the Lord was pleased to speak to me as
sweet as ever; telling me he would wipe
all teares from my eyes, and the rebuke or
reproach of his people he would take from
off all the earth: he had spoken it who
would do it, Jehovah, a fulfiller of Promises:
therefore let not thy troubled fearfull
heart be disquieted or afraid: Peace,
Peace be unto thee.
I found Christ
reasoned with me, as once he did with
his disciples when they were sad;
“Why are ye troubled? and why do such
fears and doubts arise in thy heart?”
am
not I and my favour more to thee, then enjoyments
or Relations, or any thing thou
canst desire? though I chasten thee sharply,
to draw thee neer me; yet my favour
will I not take from you, nor alter my love:
is not this, O soul, more then all, to
give thee my self, Who am the Desire of Desires,
the Beauty of all Blessedness, the top
of all Royalties; even the fulness that filleth
all in all, who hath made thee beautifull
thorow my comlyness: though black in d7v 46
in thy self under the bondage of coruption,
yet Lovely as Redeemed, Justified, and
Sanctified?
my soul was even melted
within me, at the sweet and powerful
manifestation of love, that I cryed
out, None but a naked Christ: and
who would not fell all, for this Precious
Pearl
, and willingly resigne up all
even life it self, to Christ, who became
poor, and despised in the worlds eye,
that we through his poverty might
be dignifed in the Spirit, and made
rich in Faith, in grace, in humility,
and goodness? this is to be heavenly
rich in God, in love.

O who would not leave all, to follow
Chrst for his treasures of wisdom
and knowledg, and all good things
which he gives to his close followers?
This was one word which was spoken to me
also: “Lovest thou me more then these;”
more then Gold, Silver, Lands, Livings,
any relations, Golden gifts and Graces,
men or meanes? and “love not the world,
nor the things of it:”
love nothing, I say, equall d8r 47
equall or above me: “for he or she that
loves any thing more then me, is not worthy
of me:”
set not thy affections on things
below, on earthly, sensitive things; but
on Heavenly things above,”
invisible glories.
“If riches encrease, set not thy heart
upon them.”

My Dear brother was such riches
to me, that if I could have but enjoyed
his life, and him spiritually restored
to a comfortable state in this life,
according to my earnest and constant
souls desire, and the desire of many
precious Saints; that our God might
have been more glorifyed in his life
on earth; O what riches, what
a portion of great joy would this
have been to my soul, none knows:
but now seeing by this, uncertainty
and emptyness in all things below the
Lord, I am forced to Say, What is
riches, or the encrease or sweet enjoyment
of any creature-comforts, to
the lifitng up of Gods lovely countenance
upon us! I can say now more feelingly d8v 48
feelingly, Whom have I in Heaven or
in Earth to glory in, or stay my self
upon, but God alone, from whom
flows all our fresh springs of comfort,
joy, life, love, and sweetness? The
Lord, I hope, by our late chastisements,
will make us more holy, humble,
thankfull and fruitfull in every
good work of God; and cause the
sword not onely to pierce into our
souls, but even to divide and sever
more between soul and body, flesh
and spirit, Christ and the Creature;
That nothing may remaine in us, but
what loves, admirers, and blesses our God
alone above all.

Sir, this is all my desire, to know
more, and do, and patiently submit
to the holy will of our Dear God in
all things; and to have more single
affections to him, and his naked glory.

Christian friend, I have written in
these papers some poor stamerings, or
what the Lord hath communicated to me e1r 49
me with comfort in weakness, through
which I have written this to you, that
you with me may bless the Lord for
his precious loving kindness to his
unworthy hand-maid. I cannot tell
whether I may be troublesom to you,
because so tedious at one time. When
I begin to write to a Christian friend
in this kind, I am always much enlarged;
the more, because but flow of
speech. In these few lines you may
perceive a little, that many are the troubles
of the Righteous
, and also that the
Righteous Lord supports sweetly under
them all; and in his own best time
graciously delivering them out of all.
These troubles of ours may well be
compared to waters, even a flood of
waters, as David said, that hath wave
upon wave: which though it be our
Fathers pleasure, and our portion to
wade thorow; yet this is our comfort,
We shall not sink in them: they
may piece our body, but cannot run Ethorow e1v 50
thorow our souls, to the destroying
of our life which is hid with Christ
in God, who is our Head, which
shall never perish: and you know
that member can never dear drowning,
whose head is still above water:
Whilst Peters Faith was anchored in
Christ the Rock of his Salvation, the
water to fence did so far give back,
that they miraculously became a
solid path to lead him to his Lord:
so I hope our late, as well as former
troubles will tend to lead us neerer
to our desired haven of rest: for certainly,
all the waters of affliction are
to those whose faith is exercised in
their God, but a short Compendious
way to Communion and fellowship
with the Father and the Son in the
Spirit, which is best of all; better
then life, as David said; who had, as
we have, fresh troubles often, and
fresh mercies; fresh Temptations,
and fresh deliverances: what said
good David, when he had deviated and e2r 51
and gone astray like a lost sheep: “Before
I was afflicted I went astray; but
now have I kept thy Word.”
Here he
sweetly acknowledges tribulations
to be messengers sent from God,
to lead him to the Shepherd of his
soul: said he, “‘Now have I kept thy word:’”
now do I know by this thy sanctified
visitation, of a truth, that I am thine:
before, “I was a lost sheep of the house
of Israel.”
All our afflictions, inward
and outward, in our selves or in the
world, ՚twill appear to be onely
but the corrections of an indulgent
Father, for our profit, in the end; to
make us rich in God, though poor in
our selves. In the mean time, the
good Lord endue us with Power
from on High, whereby we may
possess our souls with Patience, till
the time of refreshing from on High
shall Visit us; till he who changes
times and seasons, changes hearts
and conditions with us. Truly if the
Poor Creature could change, or any ways E2help e2v 52
help it self, or have any velieserelief or help
from any broken reed, or cisterne, besides
the Lord the living Fountain: how
would it do, as Israel of old did, run from
God to them, adoring it self, and Idolizing
the creature, men and means, more
then admiring the Lord in them, above
them?
Truly our natures are too apt
to this: for let the Lord but open a
little of himself to us in any thing or
way, we are Readyer to be taken
with it then him; like some, who looke
more at the Dish, then the Meate in it.

How apt (let experience speake) are
we to take up our rest in something
below our rest, and not look up higher
to the Fountain from whence all
our fresh springs of comfort floweth?
therefore our God seeing this not
good for us, in wisdom and love dries
up all Cisternes
and Pools when it’s thus
with us,
that nothing we run to the
creature for in need, may yeild us satisfactions,
below himself; lest We
should rob him of his glory, and give e3r 53
give it to something below himself,
which is not worthy of our heartlove:
and his jealousie is such, that
he will not give his glory to another,
nor his praise to any thing or Idol,
but himself. To this end therefore
he imbitters every thing in the world
to us, to wean us from her shadowy
delights; like loving mothers, who
wean their children from the brest
which is so sweet and dear to them:
even thus (as I may say) doth God our
loving Father with his beloved children,
make every thing vile to them,
that he alone may be the preciousness
of his Saints, and all things nothing
in comparison, that he alone may be
their All in all, above all; their onely
boast and glory.

Before this glorious discovery of
love, I was like another creature, running
like Israel of old, from Mountain
to Hill, and Hill to Mountain;
from men to meanes, from means to
men: I was, like the Spouse, restless in E3my e3v 54
my spirit; which made me to send
my spiritual sense all abroad to seckseek
Christ, as I thought; but truely I
found him not in any thing or place,
save in denying me that soul-comfort
which I sought for: all my seeking
was like Maries at the Sepulchre,
forsaking all things for him, as I
thought; whom if I could but have found,
in my way and time, I should have thought
I had found enough;
being led forth
to seek The true God in an Ignorant way;
being blinded with Ignorance;
I asked
every thing below him, sensitive
things: I asked the Earth, the Sea,
and the great Deeps, and the Windy
Aire, with the Dwellers therein; also
the Sun, Moon, and Stars, lesser
and greater; knowing and unknowing
creatures, and I found they all
answered me with one voyce, “We be
not thy God; seek him, O seeker, above
us:
Thou art but deceived in us; we
are onely by him made and upheld;
he is Lord over us:”
this was without. Then e4r 55
Then I went home, and said to all
that were about the doors of my
flesh, “Tell ye, my familiars, what ye
know of God; O tell me somewhat
of him whom my soul longeth after”
:
and they cryed out also to me, “We be
not thy God
; it’s he hath made us, not
we our selves.”
Notwithstanding all
these denyals, being soul-restless still,
I asked further, even the whole world
in general, if it were not my Saviour,
and could deliver me from the bondage
of corruption; and it answered
me very powerfully, “I am not, but I
am by him: he whom thou seekest
for in me, even he made me: above
me must thou seek to him that made
me, and ruleth all things, to new
make thee.”

Being, as you may perceive, Sir, a
wandering bird, and soul-disquieted
within me, I sought to every Idol
which I made an Idol below the true
God for soul-rest, peace of conscience
and joy in the Holy Ghost: but like E4Noahs e4v 56
Noahs dove, found this not in any
thing to refresh my weary soul. Now
I finde, that though every thing be
beautiful in its season, place and station;
yet in this respect it must deny
it self, and be nothing, as it did to
me; and acknowledg this is not to be
had in any created glory on this side
the Creator himself. Every thing
spoke the same to me in this; “We be
not the Lord thou lookest for; but
from him, and by him, for his glory.”

I have found the Apostles words true,
that many times we may understand
him by his visible works in the creation
of the world.

In my former Creaturely seeking
of the Lord, as I have a little mentioned,
I found a vast emptyness in all
things: but when God was pleased
to shew me this, he turn’d me to himself,
and then gave me rest and satisfaction
in his love, which is better
then life; whereby my hungry thirsty
spirituall-starved soul was satisfied with e5r 57
with that fulness that fills empty nothings
with good things.
O it’s the
sweet incomes of this Divine fulness
that makes “The dry land a Pool, and our
thirsty lands springs of Water.”
O when
the Lord shall thus appear to us,
shewing us by his light the vileness
and vanity of every thing which is
Excellent within or without us; then
indeed the soul crys out, What have
I to do any more with Idols,
to seek after
Bethel, after any thing that will not
profit; but the “True, Living, Immortall
God,”
who dwells in everlasting, unutterable,
and unsearchable light and glory,
without beginning or end? Truely
when we seek the true God aright,
we shall finde him to be a certain
Light above all Lights, which no carnal
eye can comprehend, and a certain
Voyce which none in their creaturely
state can conceive of and such a sweet
perfume is Christ, which no nose
of sense can attain unto: He is a certain
Sweetness above all Sweetness; no perfumes,fumes e5v 58
Ointments, Spices, Milk, Honey,
or Manna, is comparable to this
sweetness, though ever so desirable;
for this is incomparable, above and
beyond all, for ravishing, pleasant,
and satisfying: and such am imbraceing
is Christ, our soul lover, which
no sensitive feeling can take hold
of; this pure light of life shineth
where no place is to hold it; and
the Voice of Christ soundeth free
where no aire is to help it; and his
sweet savour yeildeth sweetness and
life where there is no feeding on creature-comforts;
and Christs imbracing
is such an imbracing, where no
armes are ever pluck’d asunder.

Now when the poor soul hath thus
found and enjoyed Christ in the inmost
Holy Places
of its new heart,
whom it so earnestly sought for, and
now entirely loveth; now it cries
out, “None, none but Christ:” it now
makes account of nothing in comparison
of him, in whose favour consistssists e6r 59
its life: this is it a soul seeks
when it seeks God; this is it we love
and desire, Even a manifestation of
that Jesus love who hath saved us
from our sins, and is Emanuel, God
with us, in all our troubles, sorrows,
tryalls, and temptations: This blessed
man Christ Jesus is our joy and
Crown of rejoycing; which causeth
us to break forth into songs of praises
and Hallelujahs; glory for evermore
to our God. Finding all things
dead, and empty to me, when I
sought Christ sorrowing as I have
mentioned; I was afterwards comforted
in some measure, being made
willing to wait in silence, in which silence
my soul with Hannah poured
out my complaint to him, whom I
know when all failes us, doth help
us; being mighty to save, keep and
deliver, even then: for the Lord
never leaves his in trouble, but supports
and delivers out in his appointed
time. He that sets our faces to Zion, e6v 60
Zion, will undoubtedly bring us hither
in his own time, to possess our
prepared mansions of glory in his
kingdom, to live there in praising
him to all eternity; singing continually
form our God to our God,
whom we have been seeking, like the
Spouse, abroad, When he was at home
in the secret closet of the heart; to which
when we return in peace, we here finde him
in our souls by his Spirit, sitting as onely
Lord and King in his Throne, ruling over
all the Powers of darkness in us.
O
for ever happy are they whom God
is thus nigh unto in all things; filling
them with all joy in himself,
through believing: O can any soul
that hath or doth taste or enjoy but every
so little of the Lord, say his consolations
are small, but very great,
and precious; full of life, love, Power,
like himself; and full of vertue
and streaming sweetness, like Jonathans
hony, which revives the drooping
spirits of sad hearts, in their dry barren e7r 61
barren, sad, solitary wilderness-condition?
Though this is the Fathers
will, to have us pass thorow this state
in such harsh and difficult ways to
the eye of sense and reason, which
would much terrifie and perplex a
carnal heart; yet our God hath such
sweetness to mingle with them,
which makes them very passable to
his Beloved, whom he leads thorow:
for the bondage of Egypt, he can
make tolerable; and the wilderness,
with all the intricacies thereof, he can
make easie; who makes rough places
a plain way for us to go thorow our
Journeys end: Canaan also, with the
high walls and strong enemies thereof,
even the children of Anak, whose
very sight struck terror; even these
our God did and doth make Conquerable
to his Christ, and anointed
ones.

Christ by his death hath made his
people Conquerors over all enemies,
and oppositions; by his death he hath e7v 62
hath brought to light life, strength
joy, glory, and immortality: though
he was, as we are oftentimes, put to
death in the flesh; yet he was quickned
in the spirit: it’s this Spirit alone
that satisfies, quiets, and composeth
a poor troubled soul, when none nor
nothing can: and it’s this holy Spirits
work to lead us out of one truth into
another, out of one dispensation into
a higher; and at last possess us of perfect
rest and happiness: out of which
rest I have been much bewildered
and perpelxed in my spirit, from the
sense of a dead lost condition, not
knowing what to do, or which way
to turn my self for comfort. About
four years ago, I was very sick and
weak; in which weakness the enemy
took advantage to shew his power,
and set upon me strongly, tempting
and troubling me, by raising new
feares and doubts in my heart; which
cause me to conclude that all former
discoveries of love which the Lord had e8r 63
had communicated to me, was but
lying vanities, and delusions: this
trouble was beyond all my former
childish troubles; for my old life
was not so much captivated, as my
new one, my spirit: and truely this
temptation lay with some confidence
upon me, that I knew not what to
say, or do: I thought sure the smoaking
flax, that little spark of grace
was now extinguished wholly: but I
can through rich mercy say, Blessed
and for ever praised by Jehovah, who
hath so sweetly unbosomed himself,
and unboweled his precious love to
his unworthy hand-maid; telling me,
that all my creaturely mutability
should not, nor could not alter his
unchangable love: for whom he loved
once, he loved for ever, to the end,
and in the end, endless, ever; out of
sin into grace, and out of grace into
glory: neither should any of the water
which I had cast upon the smoaking
flax, quench it, by disowning and doubting e8v 64
doubting of the realitie of my state
and the truth of those precious appearances
I had enjoyed from the
Lord: this smoaking flax, was
God beginning a good work in my
soul, who would perfect it for his
praise. O how strongly doth the
renewings of the Lords love to us,
engage our hearts to honour him all
our days, in righteousness and holyness!
who not withstanding all our
unworthyness, and greatness of sins,
sins after conversion, as well as before;
sins often reapeated, as well as
once onely committed; yet is our
loving friend, who loveth us freely,
faithfully and constant, even in
the height of our unconstancy to
him; as he was pleased to shew me,
by not leaving me destitute of his
mercy and his Truth, in my sad sorrows.

By this firy contest, I finde, that
what is of God shall and will stand,
all windes and weather, against all the f1r 65
the many tempests and violent
stormes of all principalities and powers
of spirituall wickedness in High
places; all this hath been in vain: for
this fire, though a little while it did
but Smoak; Yet it will Blaze, and that
with fervent heat: it will never go
out; it’s God Everlasting; it’s God
beginning a good work in the soul,
who will undoubtedly perfect it, it’s
God in darkness, or glimmerings,
who will be a Shining light to
us, and fulness of Heavens Glory in
us.

Precious friend, I finde, all that a
poor soul can do against the smoaking
flax, or Day-breaking of God, shall
never prevail against it, for it overcomes
all, and can be overcome of
nothing. O that I could more
praise and exalt the Lord for his unspeakable
loving kindness to me;
whose compassions fail not to his unworthy
servant, though once and often
she thought they had, under her Fspirits f1v 66
spirits captivity. Now I can through
mercy say, That Jehovah the infinite
and glorious being, shews wonders
to the dead, and makes the desolate
arise out of the grave of sin and silence,
as Lazarus did, and praise him
who preaches loving kindness to
such; and puts an end to death and
destruction, by his own life and salvation:
I finde the Lord makes
known his faithfulness and loving
kindness in the land of forgetfulness, to
souls that know not him, nor his
wonders in the deeps; which causeth
me to wait with joy for the further
manifestations of the goodness
and glory of God: Our God of love,
whose communications of love are
very precious to our soules, strongly
engaging our hearts to praise him:
O when, says my soul, shall we do
this sufficiently! When we confess
God to be his own praise. Some
say of Parents, That their Children
can never render to them their due: I f2r 67
I am sure we may say so of God! our
Father, and Wisdom our Mother, which
is Christ:
for let a soul give never so
much to God, it comes short of
what is his due from us, for making
us free, and joyfull in himself, from
the bondage of corruption, by awaking
and arising from under the black
dark veils of Ignorance and Unbeleife;
saving us from our enemies
which are too strong for us; and so
redeeming and gathering us to himselfe,
who can no ways be happy out
of him.

Now that we may be made thus
happy, Christ is a Refiners fire to us,
to burn and destroy all our dross,
hay, and stubble; that we may be
made a meet and fit habitation for
God through the Spirit. O how
should we be content with this purging
fire, knowing it to be our Gods
design of love, in sending his bosomSon
to utterly abolish Mortality, and
all that hath Death in it, and then F2cloath f2v 68
cloath us with life, glory, and Immortality,
according to his will; that
we may be fit Brides for the Marriage
of the Lambe; appearing like
those who are begotten of the Immortall
feed, and so changed from
glory to glory by love; Whose irradiant
beames, and sweet shinings forth
makes the Lion a Lambe, the vile precious,
and ravening ones meek and lovely.

These experienced souls, I finde, can
more admire, then speak forth the exceeding
riches of Gods grace and
free love, and of his strange and
mighty acts in renewmaking of us,
by destroying the old creation in us,
and transfiguring his new one in spirit.
When this new life and glory,
or new creation, is come down into
us, or we taken up into it; then may
a Christian be called A new Jerusalem,
a heaven, and earth, wherein dwells righteousness,
or the righteous Lord, who makes
all things new, and glorious
; by whose
in-dwelling presence in our hearts, we f3r 69
we come to see what all the mists
and fogs of darkness were, which
hindred the Revelation of Christ in
the Gospel, and his sweet discoveries
of love from us; which was onely
our proud, vile, vain, corrupt self;
this is the obscuring veile; which
veile for our comfort the Lord Jesus
puts aside, as he said he would do, in
the appointed time: this veile of
darkness I finde also to be that vile
woman which Solomon speaks of: her
specious pretences to man in his lost
condition, to bewitch us from the
true knowledg of our dear God and
his ways, and spirituall Worship:
but he who is our wisdom and Power,
our all, is stronger then all enemies,
to save and keep us for ever from
them. Christ is our over-topping
Mountain, in and by whom God
hath promised to destroy the veile
of the covering of the flesh, sin, or
self-righteousness, which is cast over
all people: this our spirituall eyes F3shall f3v 70
shall see with joyfull heart, when
Christ shall be established above all
other Mountains in the souls of his
people; above every high thought
& proud vain imagination, which offers
to exalt it self above God, where
it ought not to be, in our hearts;
till the Holy Child Jesus is born and
brought forth thence, our beloved Isaac,
heir of all things, with the Government
of life and Peace upon his shoulder,
to rule all, as only Lord and King,
King of Salem, Prince of Peace; who
hath, doth, and will bring all things in
us into Obedience to his Holy Scepter
; even
our corrupt averse wills, to subject
to his Holy Divine will in all things:
this great work Christ accomplishes
by degrees, when he takes up his abode in
our hearts.

Ah what a joy to the spirit, but what
a sorrow to the flesh, is this indwelling
preference in the hearts of his sanctified
ones! it’s a sorrow to the flesh
or old man in us, because it’s death; and f4r 71
and it’s very joyous to the new man
or second creation, because the life
and glory of it: the indwelling presence
of Christ is a death to all that
is evil in us, and a Quickning spirit to
that which is good: the first work our
King Jesus doth when he enters into
our hearts; he shew us the falsness,
foulness, Ignorance, and darkness
and all manner of evil in them; and
afterwards he shews us the reality
and purity of his own native beauty,
and Supernaturall Glory. When
the Sun of righteousness arises in our
dark hearts, we then immediately see
the gross darkness in us; and are then
able to discerne aright between darkness
and light, good and evil, truth
and Error, by the Spirit of God which
searches all things, even the deeps of
Gods Counsels, and the deeps of our
hearts: shewing us the weakness and
unworthyness of our selves, and also
the Power, Glory, and Omnipotence
of God above them, who can turn F4and f4v 72
and change them how and when he
pleaseth, for his own glory and our
sole comfort; and make us, of vile,
precious and beautyful, through his
comeliness. O what could God do
more for his vineyard, his people, then
he hath done? he hath invested
them with his own glorious Image,
and married them to Himself, or Son,
which is all one, who is Heire of all
things, King of Kings; and also dignified
them with the graces of his
Spirit, and cloathed them with the
Glistering Spangles of his Holyness, the
Angels Glory
; and cull and chuse
them from the common part of Gods
earth, to be the chiefe or precious
part of his earth: his choice Golden
Mine
, his peculiar treasure.

O may we not say, who have but
seen, heard, or tasted ever so little a
glimpse of this free rich grace, and
precious love of God; what, O what
shall we render unto the Lord for
these unspeakable special mercies! for certainely f5r 73
certainly God looks for some returne
of his own from us; he looks for some
thing present from us, as we do present
and future from him. He looks
we should live answerable to our enjoyments
and hopes. Says Peter,
What manner of persons ought we
professors to be in practice, in all holy
conversation! O how excellent a
thing is it to see all the Saints adorne
the Gospell of Christ in walking, as
well as talking! Noah is recorded for
a walker with God: O to walk holy
as Christ did, when he was upon
earth in the days of his flesh, is excellent:
we know his life was a life of
Sanctity, an holy life; for, said he,
“‘Which of you convinceth me of sin?’” and
he “who had no sin nor guile found in his
mouth:”
nay more, the Devil confest
him the Holy one of God. O what a
precious life was this holy life! as
Christ walked holy, so humble: O
that all Saints might walk in humility,
as their Lord and Head did; who though f5v 74
though he were Lord and Heir of
all, yet he washed his Disciples feet;
and humbled himself to death, even
the death of the cross. The humble
soul looks likest Christ; humility is the
veile of Christs Bride:
O how beautifull
doth she look in Christs eye, when
this veile of Rebekkah is upon her! “be ye
cloathed with humility,”
faith God, to
us. As this veile
hides anothers faults,
so its own graces, as Rebekkah did her beauty:
true grace, you know, shines
most irradiant thorugh the mask of
humility. O what are all Christian
duties, without heavenly humility!
Incense smels most sweet when beaten small;
then it sends forth its fragrant perfume.
As Divine humility studies
Gods goodness, so its own unworthiness:
Better is that sin which thorowly
humbles the soul, like David, then that
duty which lifts up Pharisee-like.
In this
the grace of humility is precious; it
gives all to God; as Joab when he
had gotten the Victory, sent for King David f6r 75
David to carry away the Crown of it; so
a believer, when he or she hath gotten
Victory over some corruption or
temptation, then they set the Crown
upon Christs head, and say with “‘David,
By my God I have leaped over a Wall:’”

and if they finde strength to go thorow
duties, then they with Paul write
Christ and free grace upon all: I laboured
more abundantly then them all: yet
not I, but the grace of God in me.
To
walk in love and amity, as Christ did,
to the glory of God, is very desireable:
he breathed forth nothing but
love; he was full of this perfume; as
his person was lovely, so was his disposition;
he was composed all of love:
he was so full of love within, that it
broke forth without: “his lips dropped
honey,”
“his hands Myrrhe,” his sides blood,
his heart Love: love!
O how ought all
Saints, who look for glorious things,
to come to live in love, as Christ did
upon earth! O that this sweet spice
might send out its fragrant smell more f6v 76
more among Christians, that all
things by them might be done in love!
“We know”, saith John we who live in
love and amity, “That we are passed from
death to life:”
surely none can love the
Person of Christ really, but they will
love his Picture, though very contemptible
to the world. O how
might the Saints highly honor God, if
they were more united in love, and
quite dispossessed of these two evil
spirits, that of self-conceitedneses or vain
glory, and uncharitableness!
O why
should this be? why should not we
love as brethren? have we not all one
Father? indeed that is a blessed strife,
when the Saints contend for the faith;
this consists in unity. O it’s good indeed,
when simply out of love, the
Saints shall be willing to suffer patiently
for Christ, as he did, with a
Lamb-like spirit: considering all
our many and great sufferings are but
one dram to his.

To think of Christs sufferings, and of f7r 77
of his faithfull ones, Davids, Jobs,
Jeremiahs, Sions, and many others,
that we are not alone in troubles, sorrows,
and sufferings, hath administred
much comfort to me, under all our sad
changes. The Lord give us to submit,
and subscribe more to our Gods
will in all troubles, and changes,
that we may swim in the laver of his
Love: Glorifying Him in the
fires.

Sir, having these scattered Meditations
upon my spirit at present, I
was moved to communicate them to
you by way of writing, being deprived
of another oportunity. I hope
you will accept my poor mite out of
my scanty store, into your full treasury,
with love, as I have done yours
formerly in your lines. I remember
a saying of yours which stirred me up
a little to this communicating: you
said, “As the rich ones of the World Visit
one another, opening their treasures to each
other; so much more should the Saints declareclare f7v 78
the goodness of God to each other.”

Fearing my many lines at present may
weary you, and being somewhat
weak in body through sharp exercises,
I shall now leave you, with all
Saints, in the Everlasting imbraces of
our dear Lord Jesus, whose delight is
to make his beloved the bosom of his
rest, the bed of Spices; whose precious
graces doth perfume all our tribulations
:
thorow which we enter into the
Kingdom: and this love of the Lord
also makes the world, and evil of it,
a sweet savour of good, Peace, and rest
to us in the end. The good Lord
cause us more to indulge and honor
the spirit of these graces above them,
for the sweet incomes of them; this
will demonstrate to the world, that
we injoy more within, then we make sound
of without; which my spirit covets after;

and live not onely in the form, but in
the Power of Godliness; and so cannot
be led away with the Error of the
wicked, or fall from our own stedfastness;ness f8r 79
but grow in grace, and in the
pure, perfect knowledge of our dear
God alone. Now the God of love
and peace be with ye, making ye perfect
in every good work of faith and
love; working in you, and all Saints,
and us, that which is well pleasing in
his sight, causing us all to walk as Angels
among Men, as the Powers and glory
of Heaven upon Earth, like the children of
the day in practice,
as burning and shining
lights in this dark world. As
the Saints believing heart, and undaunted
spirit is their glory before
God; so is their unspotted life, their
holy walking, their Glory before
men;
for when they see their good
work, they will glorifie their God.
Sir, having no further freedom to
write more to you now, I shall take
leave, and rest, Remaining

Your engaged friend to love and
serve you, as a member of
Christ, an heire of Heaven, one f8v 80
and one anointed of the Father,


Sarah Wight,

I am unskilled in Apologies and excellent
expressions; and if I were not,
I had not whereof to glory of the excellecy
of mans wisdom.
Sir, my dear mother is still tossed
with many tempests of temptations;
but the Lord graciously supports her,
and gives her a little hopes sometimes
of a gracious Issue. The Lord cast
her into your heart to beg patience
for her, to wait silently for a fresh
manifestation of the Lords love to her
sad soul; that she may with joyfull
lips set forth his praise: she sees so
much evil in her, and no good, which
makes her often doubt whether it will go g9r 81
go well with her in the end: and I tell
her this is a token for good; for the
more vile in our own eyes, the more
precious in the sight of the Lord: this
is a terrible sight to flesh and blood, To see
our selves as we are, and God as he is.
Sir, your kind acceptance of my
former lines, encouraged me to present
these to your view at your leysure
in spare hours.
Sir, I desire you to give my cordial
respects to Mr. T. though unknown
by face, with thanks for his Christian
care and love to us in an unthought-of
way: it’s not he, but the Lord in him
and by him, who will not leave a cup
of cold water unrewarded, to him,
and you, and all his.

Finis.

E